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That moment you realise that your daughter has been reading your tumblr!!

You know who you are you Dan and Phil obsessed nerd weirdo!!

To be fair, the kid is so clever, honest and sensible that she is probably better placed than me to have an account.

Better delete all those nudes and sex comments!

#kids #daughter #whendidshegrowup #whendidigetold

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Got one!!

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Yes!! For it is a man child!! Can't wait to see little man. Mummy is doing an awesome job cooking you. I really am the luckiest man in the world. Thank you for cheap booze on a Thursday, a love of MCR and general weirdest, that changed my life forever for the better.

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I feel like crap.

Everything is getting on top of me, there's o one around to help and my health is rapidly declining.

Awesome.

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Sigourney Weaver photographed by Terry O’Neill, 1980.

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Joan Jett, 1976

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Liv Tyler 1998

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Courtney Love photographed by Kevin Cummins | 1993

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Maybe soon.

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It's Sunday. I'm at work when I shouldn't be. I cut off most of my beard. Yay.

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#iwillalwaysanswer

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2016.

Today you stole another good person. Not a celebrity or a public figure. But a man that means a great deal to this family. But now he sleeps. Free from the pain he has suffered with this last year. Hopefully, he'll be with those closest to him now and maybe shake his idol by the hand. RIP. Thank you for being you.

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I had this friend.

Told them all of my dark secrets. Let them into my life. Gave them a bit of my soul. Never again. This period of the year always makes me think about everything, every relationship, every issue and event. Fuck you for making me feel this way.

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Debbie Harry in Tokyo, 1978

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So, how do I feel?

I don't know. I currently don't feel anything and that's the problem. A death in the family brings all kinds of emotions. But when the people that are gone were the cause of the most emotionally crushing event in your life how do you feel about it? This person fueled my creative urges from when they manifested. Helped me develop my style and gave me knowledge I had never had. But they also nearly destroyed my family. Made my life flip on its head. Cause me to be they way I am now. Hardened my thinking and took away part of my life. I've never dealt with it. I pushed it aside. Buried it deep. Every time it raised its head, I beat it back down. Now I can't deal with it. Can't ask the questions. Plus knowing that the other person is close to the end also and this will effect them, I know my window is short. But do I give them the satisfaction of turning up or do I let them leave this world knowing I had no interest in them. Do they care? Do I really care? I don't know what to think right now. I don't know how to feel. 20 years later and my nerves are still as raw as the day it happened.

#life #hurt #death #family #hate #regret #mentor #feelings #closure #confused #down