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Happy Leland Melvin Day!!!

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tamsyn muir really said "knowing who's narrating is a privilege, not a right"

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honestly no wonder harrow forced ianthe to lobotomize her so she could save gideon. listen…LISTEN…if i was a secret-war-crime cult nunlet princess worshipped by my entire planet and the only person that (barely) kept me in check was my childhood nemesis—a butch a year older than me, towering over me in stature and physical prowess, and so hot it made my teeth hurt from how hard my jaw clenched in her presence, who wielded a two-handed seven-foot sword and had irritatingly huge biceps and told very lewd stupid jokes and also learned how to wield an entirely new weapon and be my bodyguard with startling accuracy in three months—only to have us finally learn to trust each other because we got invited to a magic murder mystery and then before the bubble burst i spilled the worst secret about myself that i was born because my parents murdered an entire generation and tried to Kill Her along with them and she just wouldnt die, and i told her this expecting a swift death i believed i deserved, only for her to fucking cradle me in her big butch arms and kiss me on my forehead with her soft butch mouth and just. forgive me for a shameful weight ive carried my entire life and then MAKE AN ACTUAL NECRO/CAV VOW with me despite every evil thing i have done to her……to have her tell me, in the end, bleeding and broken after putting up the most beautiful and glorious fight of her life, that she understands purpose and she understands duty and she knows loyalty more fiercely than ever now, that she knows who she is to me, that there is no her without me….to have her backed into a corner and make the ultimate sacrifice…..for me…..to recite scriptural wedding vows of eternity to me in her last wisps of soul-consciousness…..if i thought there was even a snowflake’s chance in the pyre that i could save her by turning myself into her very own locked tomb, i’d be begging ianthe tridentweirdius to crack my skull open and turn me to mush too, goddamn. i understand you harrowhark girl you don’t have to explain a thing to me. god said you couldn’t undo the lyctor’s bond bc it’d kill you. you told god and his angels that not even a lyctor’s bond could outshine the power of female spite and lesbianism and they didn’t listen. they didn’t believe you. but i heard you loud and clear and i was 17 and hormonal and hopelessly romantic not too long ago unlike those fucking dinosaurs and i’m saying it’s valid it’s what i would have done and really everyone should be thanking you for not being worse and more wretched about it, all things considered

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redraw of a frame from 'Bottoms'

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A friend of mine got a copy of an old Dutch edition of The Hobbit. I absolutely agree with their assessment that this is the best cover art the book has ever had.

The more I look at it the more I love it. Look at it. Look at Bilbo. He’s just a little guy

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The way Gideon must have wanted Harrow so bad after waking up as Kiriona. How world bending that was waking up with everything unnatural not really her but still in the same body with skin that didn't fit right wanting something anything to remind her of home even if it was her prison. I feel like this is backed up by Nona kissing her. Kiriona must have been filled with so much want seeing the girl she literally died for. Just to come to the realization that she's not even in the body you died to protect as soon as she kisses you, because Harrow would have never kissed her. Literally the saddest girl in the whole universe.

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you ever think about how canaan house is probably the most life gideon’s ever seen?

this has been sitting in my wips forever, so i decided it’d be better to post some version of it than let it languish in procreate forever.

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vampires have to ask before nutting in you because they need permission to come inside. and also because they're sub tops.

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merry christmas to the people who have to pretend to be someone they’re not for their families, who don’t have family to celebrate with, who have bad past experiences with the holiday, who are having a rough year and just want to reach the end of it, who couldn’t afford gifts this year and feel guilt over it. merry christmas to everyone but especially those of you who are feeling down.

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“I cannot conceive of a universe without you in it.”

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In the spirit of Christmas, here is my gingerbread village square.

And yes, I am unduly proud of myself.

#baking #gingerbread #gingerbread house #sweet #christmas #baked goods #i love to cook #christmas baking #gingerbread cookies #christmas village

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Okay, so I finished Nona the Ninth, and I have so, so many questions, principally:

What the fuck, John.

That's it, that's the post.

#the locked tomb #tlt #nona the ninth #harrow the ninth #gideon the ninth #john gaius #harrowhark nonagesimus #gideon nav #alecto tlt #coronabeth tridentarius #camilla hect #palamedes sextus #paul tlt #ianthe tridentarius #ianthe naberius

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I just finished Harrow the Ninth and I just have to say, you guys: What the fuck.

Like, seriously. What the fuck.

#the locked tomb #harrow the ninth #harrowhark nonagesimus #gideon the ninth #gideon nav #john gaius #ianthe tridentarius #gideon the first #what the fuck #what i'm reading

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lydia davis

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My therapist just told me my problem is that I need to write more fanfiction.

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Aziraphale: *realizing he's in love with an idiot for 2804th time*

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i still love the fact that xiao xingchen literally stabs xue yang but that wasn't the thing that broke their relationship. xue yang's reaction to being stabbed by xiao xingchen is basically "i see you are upset but we can definitely sort this out"

love that for him. such optimism. completely unearned but what's a little stabbing between friends eh