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Radical

Honestly I haven’t been here in a minute I don’t know when I stopped writing but I love to write. Honestly endlessly free but when I am alone with God conceived by his word and perceived by his presence I begin to feel like my self once again their is a deep sorrow that is accompanied by comfort and love you won’t let the sorrow consume because my soul is yours so you keep me safe and lift my crown my eyes are fixed on heaven and never on the ground for the things I seek are deep and full the pain I feel is so much more then just scab but it washes in your name my Dreams your love that lives in me it is ever to present to act like it’s not their so my Faith is in you the One who Created me the Master of the Universe the Omnipresent God Adonai

#love unity foru ig maybe creation earth peace divine human #god #adonai #love #peace #creation #freedom #my writing #poets on tumblr

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I am Jesus’ Shaman

Dear Universe, Friends, Foes, Ancestors, Light and Dark. I am more then please to announce and present my self by the blood of my father, ancestors and his holyness as Jesus Shaman. I have taken vow to not harm any human being in anyway shape or form. I am very well aware of those who prosecute me you have my blessing to go after them and lift them up and sanctify them purify them and sacrifice them. They think themselfs more powerful than God. They think themselves more powerful than the universe. They think of themselves more powerful then powers behind the curtains and I will not move a finger but this message goes to all those who are ready to go to war for the holy grail of creation and for the true power of this life. As I have been brought to my knees by the wickedness, ignorant and foolish of this creation ...so will they know the feeling of loosing a loved one and experiencing their death their torture and their demise. Anyone who seeks me will find me and their whole bloodline will be indebteed to me for violating the ssence of myexistence for who I was created to be. I provide my blood blessing to put them all into slumber and do with them as you wish but if their is any glimpse of hope that I may catch they will be saved by the greatness of Adonai. As so will the dark ones. I am not here to prosecute but only love but as all great rulers sometimes sacrififces are needed and this one will be one for Jesus as the rightful king and leader of this creation. I pick up the crown I sanctify it in the blood of the lamd and I surrender my self to your will for your will may be my will and my heart be your heart. No wickedness shall enter and no transgression against my blood or my people will go unpunished from the north to the far south from the east to the west may everyone encounter a higher essence of consciousness and love. 

#Amen Esoteric existential lawofone

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God

My dearest I see how you are always their, If I could draw you with my eyes my spirit would. You love me and you always have I have seen your face my Holyness. That is your grace I was so lost in this world that I lost your grace inside my mind. You gave me life you where always the light. I was doing things in silence that are not worshipped in this land because I have chosen to walk a path of faith. That leads me to who you truly are. 

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today

today was great I am very joyfull and at peace 

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“Sometimes, healing requires that you tear open scars, and sow seeds of meaning into bleeding wounds.”

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Begin doing what you want to do now. We are not living in eternity. We have only this moment, sparkling like a star in our hand–and melting like a snowflake…

Francis Bacon (via quotefeeling)

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If you get tired learn to rest, not quit.

Unknown (via resqectable)

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Flowers

The warmness of the morning sun that shines so elegantly over the everlasting earth is so sweet and bliss. That just simply walking and driving in the present moment feels like we have traveled to a different part of reality where everything is forgotten and all the things we desire have already happened within. As flowers gets tumbled and crumbled. Sometimes so do we but the most impressive portion is that the flower never loses its beauty and the holy connection it holds to the roots of its life. There is power in the resilience that the flowers holds. So much resilience to the extent that even a flower that has almost run dry with the appropriate care will revitalise with beauty and grace to shower itself and the universe That is how remarkable life is. The Universe has created us to breath to be and to love one another to always prevail past the knowns and unknowns of life. To walk this walk as elegant as the flowers of Humankind.

#love unity foru ig maybe creation earth peace divine human

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yay for thursday

I fucking love tumblr

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freedom

what is a freedom 

is it gliding through the sky while forgetting about yesterday 

or is it transcending the rules of time and space and living your life by the rules of the universe that transcend those of different dimensions.  The Universe has spoken and it has told me I have enemies that are working hard to see me fail and all i can think about is how I hope they can be touched by the love that I hold so dearly to me from source and while the dark blood of the sacrifices that happened many moons back before I even existed flow through my energy and and human body I am glad to tell them peacefully to stand down and unify in the name of love. That, what was once done is no longer needed. Today we resonate with the highest frequencies and unify our selfes to be faith full servants of Love and the highest good of creation. Like the wind blows the leaves away I trust that the universe will glorify my enemies and make them known by name who they are to me and I trust that all the higher beings that are working to see me be grow and evolve to be the best version of my self will reveal themselves by name to my enemies and will come in the name of love and with gifts beautiful gifts and if this doesn’t work I will leave it to the universe to decide their fate but I will no longer par take in these fights as they are below who I am meant to be. Call my name for your desire and I will grant it as long as it aligns with that in your heart and spirit. 

blessed me 

#love #frequencies #universe #universallaw #spirit 

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EYES

i saw the mirror the image of who i was not supposed to be to the point the it frightened that I knew that I has to change my life. The feelings that i carried of turmoil and vagueness with pain was far too much and finally allowing my self to accept what happened and seeing it repeat as an adult but with no beatings has empowered to say no and let go of that who or that does serve me like the branch that dries out falls from the tree I am no longer watering those traumas or thoe who do not want to seek help. Money is important but not everything but peace, determination, resilience, intuition and discipline will get you where you need to be. The money will come as long as you follow your heart and act according to the highest good of all human being encountered cant wait to loose my belly and start dancing I will commemorate beautiful feelings for everyone who encounters my art. 

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Goood Morning

what started as a silly project ended up being my memoir of events within time and space that I find value in. Today marks a series of a new chapter and adveture today I become a citizen of the United States of America this was one of my best kept secrets I was always scared of being discriminated against or looked down on because of my legal status but now that I am signing my oath I do not mind telling people my story. My story is not fairy tale but it is one of love, resilience, compassion and self love. Every day as I wake up with the flutter of my heart and the opening of my eyes my perspective changes and so do I and that is okay. I am done catering to others and I am ready to cater to my self my one true love. The little one who lives inside of me who so eagerly wants to experience the world in all its ways, shapes and forms. I want to do great things for humanity and my self and make this place one where we can all live harmoniously and peacefully. In my world their will be no space for shame but for celebrating the perks that makes who we are the human experience that we all walk but cant see. Of Course that is not to say their is not assholes who think they are perfect of course their is but they tend to be the most broken. In my story I will not let any person come and project their insecurities or dissatisfaction with their own life. I am starting to get to a point in my life that I truly appreciate the things that i have and changing the things that i do not like about my self and if that means get rid of people that bring shame tooo meee well blessed may they be and may that be blessed. 

#law of the universe #love UNITY UNIVERSE

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Blues Clues

here we are, here I am and here you are in the words in between the events that have transcended the thought but question my morality and beliefs. it is difficult to walk against everything that is engraved into my blood as for around me an not want desire to fall back in the drug of desire and power but I am enjoying this new found peace sometimes they come and visit but I am encountering old parts of me that are stonger and omminecent whithin ways I had never seen soo Thank you for not giving up on me I hate how fat I got I know it is my fault due to my anxiety driven week honestly i dont like people suffering it truly messes with my brain Idk that whole experience was weird I thought they where gone but I guess not honestly I have been having trouble with the whole fasting concept I feel like I am attacked an unwelcomed not by My creator but by his people and then they have all these foolish concepts of you have to walk in a straight line if you want to be for God I just find it hard with my poor judgement and control feels like they override but thats why I have to stick to prayer I dont want to be shamed for who I am or what I have or where I come from I want to be celebrated and I want does that came beofre me to be happy and free I truly ask from the heavens that they provide divine guidance, protection  and love for my dad Armanda Santos I truly hope that you protect him every step of the way make his heart soft and gentle and guide him to his truth as for me. I will committ to getting back to my rountine and studying more and seeking the freedom that my life deserves I have so many things to tell but for today this will be enoough. life does not bore me I just want to be in the things that I see and I want all things that come from evil to vanish and desemaite into heavens tobegan of pure essence and serve their highest good and purpose in the name of all great things of creation Amen 

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Dear God

Hey I am honestly very idk, but I have been feeling your around me today so thank you but I must confess my back hurts a lot I know it is probably my fault but I wanted to ask you to take this pain away this is and forever will be my safe place. I wonder ... Honestly i wish I was more in my self to speak to you but I am just cooling down from a long day honestly I probably should go to the gym again my work out was weak today and my calories where more then anticipated. Father I have received many revelations and answers to the things I had been asking because they do not make sense in my heart I dont understand the unecessary deaths. I can not judge them because they did not know better but did you disappear those nations the fallen ones truly for the desire in their heart in honesty I feel like it was their ignorance that doomed them but idk beuase I dont know what it was like to be them soo many years so millenias so many centuries and I am here today. I dont hold judgement against you but I do ask why so much darkness why has that been allowed my father why not free them from the cages in their heart and mind what is the point of free will if nothing is as it seems is the truth really deep inside of us all are they really choosing to follow those steps I am gaining my willingness to live through you God because I myself had lost it so as the insignificant spec in the unverse me with my heart and my soul with all that I am look at the things that I suffere and endure look at the things I go through some are beyond imagination and purely amazing but others are not so great honestly back then I felt like I had more of understanding maybe I realy just need to meditate in you this week was not good.. I should pray more seek you more often I have sinned in my spirit form and been bad and I am sorry creator I an disgusted at my actions in the spirit realms these things no longer ecxute me nore attract my passion nor desire it use too but pure heart and honest to my self and God I dont want it I rather pledge my unrevocable loyalty and my bloods loyalty to you I ask that you forgive. my ancestors and those who came before me and who will come after to forgive our ways and hope you always humble us and take care of our hearts to always serve the highest good of you conciousness your love and light I dont want the riches of the earth but I want the freedom of the universe I dont want to live in abundance bt harmony in a place where the songs that play are those of love creation and magic where the water flow and the spirit is free father please....... do not forget about us. I pray that you shower us with yur gold with your grace love and health and I hope that every part of my being honors you and serves you in every way shape or for I ask that my existence be one of love and creation t serve all those around me in aiding a better existence for the universe. I ask that with every breath the wheel of time trancends those things that make reality into something better and I ask that the course of time with every flutter of my eyes by stillness of my breath this aids the universe and my creator in carying the purest essence of love and washing that we no longer wish to see or feel in this world one far greator where all the kings and queens of the land are safe and never forgotten but honored and celebrated for their unques that where created for the fullfillment of our God in the name of the son the father and the holy spirit amen. 

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the truth

I can no longer be here I have to make changes and they are not changes that come from me but changes my soul needs i never believed in those sad stories and the disturbances of humans but as long as you do not live through it you can never explicitly explain that experience it is too late now my soul has spoken and even though it shakes me and it hurts my body and heart I must be set free. I was a fool to believe it was ever my choice or that I had an option there are many things I need to change but first thing's first I must make space for the angels of light who serve the highest guard; second is making the relationship that I have become so fond of transmute into something of better service or make it obsolete to my existence just as anything that no longer serves my highest good I am sorry dear self I allowed so much disrespect and this honor but I truthfully believe that this next season I will rewrite my entire genetic code and I will be who I am really meant and suppose to be to honor my creator and carry my ascension with honest humble love.  I am sorry if you don’t make it but you are hurting me far more than benefiting me and your words are just manipulative and I refuse to accept your fake illustory love I am done watering my beliefs my soul and sense of self worth down. In order to meet you and fulfill your needs because you obviously have no regard for mine and only for what I can do for you. I will be authentically and unapologetically myself  and a reminder to you and anyone who reads.  I do not need of anyone's love nor embracement but my own. I acknowledge that while I am nothing at all and I am less then spec in the universe I am also in everything I am humble enough to know that things will be revealed in due time. I will keep my promise to love you forever. It will have to come to end and our love will be from afar if you choose to not make drastic change. Because I can not tolerate nor allow any creature being or human of low frequency to ever touch me or gain access to me again especially when they hurt me because I have a soul contract and soul that loves me so very deep that hurts when I hurt. This all starts with the man I have continuously chosen to love over myself and forgive past countless transgressions that should have not been forgiven but your time is up I need immediate radical change no more cutting slack your family may cut you slack but I am a woman who does not have family to lay back on. I only have a tribe of women that I must lead and be strong enough to care for us and if this means to never be married then blessed be. Because I believe in and endless love that is unconditional but not one that makes a fool of the weaker more vulnerable party or makes less of the other and I certainly do not believe in temporary unfulfilled conditions nor desires  and being selfish with love  I must prioritize myself and align myself with my highest purposeful good for my creator and the part I play in this creation. So I do not need someone of this world but one who truly understands the power of christ consciousness the power of words and the true meaning of love one truly wants to be a believer in the arts of energy, love, forgiveness, passion and creation.  We can not forget compassion I believe there's a lot parts that I am lacking and I am choosing to be by myself because you don’t give me peace you only cloud my judgement with your worldly desires and in this time you can decide what you truly want because I expect the man that I marry if I ever marry to be the head of the house I aspire to be self sufficient but I expect my husband to not only worship the ground I walk but provide and protect and love me for who I am with my imperfections and insecurities and lift me up on my hard days like I will for him in his darkest hour and this something you don’t desire you ache for comfort and not going above and beyond and unfortunately I can not give myself the luxury to work as the same pace as everyone I don't have stable parents who care for my bills I have to be independent and self sufficient and I am not willing to continue giving my body to a boy who does not appreciate me nor see me for who I am truly am but is too busy in looking on what he can change to better satisfy his own self instead of really listening to me and I hate the fact it took me so long and I had to go through sooo much when I should of said fuck off from the first petty fight this does not mean I don’t love you. Because the truth is that I love you and I really do love you and I mean that whole heartedly but I was not what you truly wanted and you are not what I need take it as break but I would understand if you want to break up but you need to change I am not interested in being with someone who waste their time away who does not hold any true ambitions nor desires nor treats humanity with the highest respect despite our differences I believe we are all the same. These values I do not find in you they do  not correlate nor resonate with who you are as a person.  You are someone who is not interested in working together but just waiting me to see me grow more beautiful to enjoy the fruit of my labor while believing in different values in marriage and in beliefs of faith and creation with much love Heydy. If you read this first stop before you try flipping the tables because if you get the point this is me fighting for our love and myself I want you to know that I appreciate the small changes you have done but you keep asking me for me to better take care of you financially and if that is truly what you are looking for i suggest you come to terms with the facts that we have different values and beliefs and just because you enjoy my body and you claim you love me that does not give you the right to keep using me. I expect a man to truly be a man and face his own internal issues and not just say I will deal with them believe in healing and in growth because if you dont you will never be truly happy but always lack something. You said we all know what we have to do and this what I have to do.  I honor your time and your hard work but their are things you have done that are not correct I have issues and I knew why I told you I did not want a relationship and now I am telling you that I love you but this is what I need and I hope you understand so you can make a choice but with this choice that does not mean I will blindly believe you because I do expect radical change and do not ask me how. Because all the things I have asked that you are not doing and that you haven’t stopped doing have showed me you have no respect for me. I have lost all my friends over you and I am fine with that because it only showed me they where not truly my friends but it has been because of the way you are and psychological shit you play on me so if you truly love me cut the bullshit and be honest with yourself and me so we can figure out what we will be doing next.  

I love you with all that I am and I will always love you but this is the way I choose to communicate I love you Andy.

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“I think we dream so we don’t have to be apart for so long. If we’re in each other’s dreams, we can be together all the time.” - A.A. Milne // Winnie-the-Pooh

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