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my mom called me "a walking stick" today 🤭

finally being skinny again feels so good!

if you read this: you absolutely can accomplish that! take your goal seriously and nothing will stop you! 💫🌱🧊

(but take care of your blood sugar 🥴that was scary lately...)

#st4rv1ng #ed relapse #tw ed sheeran #ana problems #i wanna ⭐️ve #tw eating issues #4na tw #4na diary #4norexi4 #⭐️ving #tw 3d #skinnni

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when doctors say I should get an alternative to ⭐️ving that makes me feel equally good... there's nothing that compares to an empty stomach and getting skinnier day by day, doctor 😳

#st4rv1ng #ed relapse #tw ed sheeran #ana problems #tw 3d #tw eating issues #4na diary #4na tw #4norexi4 #⭐️ving #i want to be a skeleton

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the outfit!! the skinny thighs!!

#th1nsp1ration #st4rv1ng #ed relapse #tw ed sheeran #ana problems #4na diary #4norexi4 #⭐️ving #⭐️vation goals #th1n$po

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🐇🎀🕰

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the fact that I have had mental health issues since I was a child and that means that I don't know how it feels to be mentally sane 💀

#st4rv1ng #ed relapse #tw ed sheeran #ana problems #4na diary #4norexi4 #⭐️ving #⭐️ve #@na vent #tw 3d #mentally unstable

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Currently looking at pictures of me at my lw and sobbing ☺️🎀💞🦌

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getting light headed when i stand up makes me feel like an angel fairy sparkles magic princess doll that makes flowers grow beneath her feet

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ME 👀

#ana problems #tw ed sheeran #mentally unstable

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people don't understand that being extremely hungry is like being on dr*gs 😇😇😇

#st4rv1ng #ed relapse #tw ed sheeran #ana problems #4na tw #4na diary #4norexi4 #⭐️ving #tw 3d

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when my therapist asked me if I feel "too skinny"

- excuse me what? I could NEVER feel too skinny 🤨

#st4rv1ng #tw ed sheeran #ana problems #4na diary #4norexi4 #4na tw #tw 3d #tw eating issues #⭐️ving #ed relapse

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you ever get surprised by your own recurring issues. like come on man. I thought we were past this.

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"And I was so young when I behaved twenty five Yet now I find I've grown into a tall child"

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Guys, it‘s really hard to romanticize ⭐️ving any longer… I‘m suffering so much, can‘t force myself to eat, and once I do eat, I „have to“ throw it up. Today, I was in the hospital and had to drink those high calorie drinks which was hard but my body is shutting down. Next week I will probably be admitted to stay there for some weeks so that my body gets healthier… because as of right now, I‘m so weak with low blood sugar etc. and unable to nourish myself. I literally feel like I‘m slowly dying 😓

So, if you are at a similar point right now, get help and if not, please take the warning signs seriously if they show up. 🩷

Should I keep you updated?

Much love 💋

#st4rv1ng #ed relapse #tw ed sheeran #ana problems #4na diary #4norexi4 #4n0r3x14 #⭐️ving #⭐️ve #tw ed rant #tw ed vent #tw ed relapse