cosmichawk

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past and present

#more like pain and suffering #btw this is not a triptych anymore bc while working on it i came up w/ new panels (??idk) for this shit #but that's a story for another day #first one is a ruin grader on devantaka mountain near the statue of the seven #second one is a ruin golem on that same devantaka mountain #third one is the abandoned eleazar hospital or dar al-shifa #it's not 100% clear who was that one doctor that operated there but let's be real - it can only be this bitch #first panel almost was my 13th reason why bc i fucked up w/ composition - redrew it - fucked up again but for diff reason #then i completely changed it and THEN i reversed that decision #first panel is what started it. i had to keep it. and i suffered for that. #genshin impact #dottore #il dottore #ch - art

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dottore decided to go signora route when dealing w/ nahida

#talking?? what's that? imma just snatch the gnosis and be done w/ it #me and my bestie were talking and i was like 'bro i draw dottore so often that i memorised his design' #and my friend was like lmao if that's the case draw him talking to nahida NOW #obv this is a polished result #BUT i was right. sketch looked really accurate #you know you down BAD when you can recall char's design from your memory #he is the only char which design i know by heart #like i stare at zhongli's back every day but i won't be able to draw him from behind even w/ 50% accuracy #but there is like 3d model of dottore in my head and i will draw him w/ 80% accuracy whatever his pose will be w/out using any references #anyways now i'm going back to my dottore triptych and back to personal hell of my own making #genshin impact #dottore #nahida #ch - art

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i hc doctor ratio as a trans masc purely bc of his stupid ass name. veritas ratio. bruh. ONLY a trans person can come up w/ this atrocity of a name

#having stupid name is a key part of a trans™ experience #100% he had a really basic name as a child. but then he came out and decided to be super extra #can't blame him for this tbh #i have a few aliases #one of them is literally first letter of my name which is V #all others are names of the stars #...yeah #honkai star rail #dr ratio #ch - talk

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i've got argenti at 26 pity and then his e1 at 76 or smth. happiest i've been in a while. didn't plan to go for his e1 but bc i've got him early decided why not. it's seems my "can't get con/eidolon of a limited char" curse is now broken

#my first limited char that has constellation/eidolon #me and my bestie both got him early btw #my e0 argenti was guaranteed but still #foaming in my mouth bc of him.. he is so.... #it was worth staying up until 3am #now in “waiting doctor ratio” mode... #ch - talk

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TODAY MARKS THE DAY WHEN I FINALLY HAVE ALL MALE CHARACTERS IN GENSHIN

why yes i like men how did you know?

#I FUCKING LOST 50/50 TO C2 QIQI #THIS WAS 14TH PULL AFTER THAT #when i pulled for wriothesley i've lost to c1 mona but then got him at 16 pity #wtf is going on #i have only one (1) limited female char and it's raiden from her debut banner back in 2.1 lmao #now i can save for arle and natlan in peace :) #ch - talk

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bruh i was about to sit down and finish my furry dottore & harbingers drawings, so then i could start w/ sandrone art that i REALLY want to draw. unfortunately dottore said "not today bitch", and i instantly generated an art piece w/ him in my mind and then another one based on the first one's idea, and now i have to finish these two first bc they will poison my thoughts until i'm done w/ them. i can't do this anymore i just can't

dottore is like the black death and i'm population of europe in 14th century

#my friend misunderstood me at first and asked if i'm having an artblock #bestie i'm not having an artblock i'm having dottoreblock #i still can draw but only if it's dottore #and there are still 25 sketches of him that i need to finish #screaming crying rn #dread it run from it destiny still arrives thanos speach but instead of destiny it's dottore #i'm going insane #you probably can tell #ch - talk

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It's that time of year again so here are xmas harbingers edits by yours truly

bonus:

#unfortunately signora passed away last xmas bc of her recklessness with the fireworks :'((((( rest in peaces queen <3 #scara was blamed for it so he is not on this party either :( #pierro looks so upset bc he knows once this is over he will be the one to clean zapolyarny palace up #maybe arle and cap will help if they're sober enough #also bc someone used party popper near him and now there is confetti in his food #pantalone looks like someone who will wear tinsel around their neck like let's be real #cap loves string lights trust me bro i'm his armor #removing pulchinella's hat and editing sandrone's robot was... fun #i don't like the one w/ arle bc unlike others it's close-up of her face #it ruins aesthetic!! #however face that arle makes is so me #feel free to use #tho i have no idea where the fuck you would use robot santa #this is my magnum opus i won't be able to create anything better than this #genshin impact #fatui harbingers #fatui #pierro #capitano #dottore #columbina #arlecchino #pulchinella #sandrone #pantalone #tartaglia #ch - shitpost

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okay so i have dottore's earring and a couple months ago i started wearing it for days at a time (even during sleep). and today the thing i've been afraid the most happened... the top metal cap (??? idk) got a lil bit loose and blue dust from the inside just fucking covered my sheets. 10/10 morning.

will i stop wearing this earring now? no, i'll repair it and seal it with a superglue. minor inconvinience is not enough to stop me from slaying.

ALSO now i have the funniest picture in my head where dottore randomly wakes up at like 3am (in my case it was 6am but this happening in the middle of the night will make it way funnier), he doesn't know what's wrong yet but he feels it. and then he realises that the weight of his earring isn't there and there is this strange wetness on his right side... OR it randomly happens on one of the harbingers meetings and there is just... a silence for a few seconds... and then all harbingers start fucking howling with laughter while dottore screams "not funny" desperately trying to mitigate damage.

#thank got i've bought earring that has colored dust inside and not liquid #somehow there was no dust on me or pillows or blankets #like it's only the sheet that was covered w/ that thing #thank god for that bc it was pain in the ass to clean #dottore #ch - talk

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#i legit spent the last seven or so months thinking about drawing this #not even sketching it #literally just thinking #every other week i would be like “ooh it's such a great idea i totally should draw this” #and then i did this for the past half year #bruh #but now it's here and it's probably my most fav drawing ever only rivaled by a pretty old drawing of my 2 OCs #genshin impact #dottore #il dottore #ch - art

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this man isn't living in my head rent free bc that would imply that i at the very least invited him in. instead this bitch barged into my house, occupied my living space and hisses at me every single time i try to draw someone else

#man i love dottore #i have so many more sketches of him dear lord #dottore pls get out i can't draw only you #every single time i have to draw feathers on dottore's coat i just cry internally for an hour beforehand #sketchfab dot com slash 3d-models slash dottore-678aea79cf3b45f28c24d16a24e13901 my beloved #genshin impact #dottore #il dottore #ch - art

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"...perhaps they never cared about that at all. But I did. So, in the end, I killed them, and set all of the remaining children free."

#his storyquest was fire damn #i hc that wriothesley started having gray strings of hair after all of that and wasn't born w/ it #which is why teen!wrio's hair is just black #genshin impact #wriothesley #ch - art

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#genshin impact #dottore #il dottore #ch - art

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alternative name for fontaine AQ part IV would be "wriothesley just wants some tea"

#jfc he talks about tea literally every second sentence #he has two personality traits: warden and tea lover #he is not what i expected him to be tbh #which is good bc before i had no big interest in him and now he's candidate for 3 crowns #i love calculating cold men i need more #genshin impact #wriothesley #ch - talk

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neuvillette's "the weeping hydro dragon" voiceline has the same energy as someone crying and then being like: "this is just the rain" while it's the sunniest day ever

#he is so defensive lmao #genshin impact #neuvillette #ch - talk

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my friend wanted dan heng il but lost 50/50 to yanqing some time ago. yesterday we talked about this and she said that her pity was around 50ish but there was basically no time left. and since she is in uni, she doesn't have a shit ton of free time to farm for jades. fortunately for her i do. spend the entire day vaccum cleaning map, su and quests, stayed until 5am BUT got her daniel :)

#didn't slept well so really tired now #but her reaction was worth it #she was really sad that she didn't get him #and bc i love her sm i decided to do the last push #she was at 52 pity and i've got il at 81 #fucker dashed my pulls 'till the end #ch - talk

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very angy >:((

#it was laying around in my art folder for like 4 or 5 months #literally drew this and then forgor that it even existed lmao #genshin impact #pierro #genshin pierro #pierro genshin impact #ch - art

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uh, so... at first i've planned to pull for childe but then decided to wait for another rerun bc of neuvillette. but i really wanted freminet so i decided to throw some pulls into his banner. 67 pulls (after lyney) later i've became childe haver...

the funniest thing? some time ago i've lost a bet. me losing this bet would mean triple crowning childe once i have him. AND NOW HE IS MY 11TH TRIPLE CROWNED CHAR LMAOOO

#tbh i'm speechless not bc of this but bc of random c1 heizou #also gg to being neuvi haver from day 1 #unless i'd win 50/50 #but i never won 3 50/50 in a row so the chances are slim... #also i've got c0 freminet only one wish before childe #bruh #ch - talk