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intangible - madisen kuhn

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and I want to feel as if I’m needed, as if I’m not just other person on this planet, as if I have something to give.

i want to live in a small apartment, with lots and lots of plants near the windows, too many books on my shelves and a little cat. i want to come home to someone who wants to know, really know how my day was. i want love. i want happiness, in little things.

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can anyone tell me how to love with depression? and how to accept love and kindness? how do you keep someone happy on the days you don’t even wanna see anyone’s face but you are sharing all this space and all of your life with this person you love so much so you try to do your best to not scare them away or worse hurt them too bad because you know they won’t get scared and they won’t go away, instead they will stick with you even when you show them your absolute worst. How do you live with yourself when you’re so angry at yourself that you take all that anger and channel it on your partner but you’re trying so so so hard not to. How do you manage to wake up the next day and be happy again because you know how your misery is their misery. How do you take care of yourself because you know they can’t see you sick but all you really want deep inside is rot to death. How do you keep yourself from crying every day because of the unstoppable train of paralysing thoughts about all the trauma you’ve been through so as to not look like a depressed fuck who can’t ever be happy. How do you not suck the life out of the person whom you love probably the most and wants to see be the most happy when they’re around you? How?

#mental health

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the restorative power of nature, aka the “go outside and touch grass” compilation

(1 and 9: The Nature Fix, Florence Williams; 2: tweet by down2marss; 3: tumblr post by @llleighsmith; 4: Illuminated Streaks Appear to Fall from Trees in Light Paintings, Vitor Schietti; 5: This Matter of Culture, Jiddu Krishnamurti; 6: Letter to Family, Friends, and Editors, Franz Kafka; 7: discord message sent to me; 8: photo i took at a beach in 2018)

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(C.B.)(5.24.18) - posted by @poeticsuggestions / Talk Show Host - Radiohead / Orlando - Virginia Woolf / The letters of Emily Dickinson / [unknown art piece] / The portrait of Dorian Gray / Oscar Wilde / A breath of life - Clarice Lispector /The underdog - Markus Suzak / The Archetypes - Marina and the diamonds / Christoph Kieslowski - the double life of Veronique

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a place can become so bitter just because of how people treated you there

#writer #spilled emotions #spilled writing #writers on tumblr #dark academia #sunsets #sunset #aesthetically pleasing

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Mood

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🤍💙❤💚

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The world is entire, and I am outside of it, crying …  —

katrien de blauwer  /  edith sitwell  /  e. m. forster  /  anaïs nin  /  virginia woolf  /  h. g. wells

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Love is my Religion;

John Keats, Love Letter To Fanny Brawne. 13 October 1819 / Gustav Klimt, The Kiss. 1907-1908 / Zolita, Holy. 2015 / Friedrich Paul Thumann, Cupid and Psyche c. 1900 / Richard Siken, Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out. 2005 / Francesc Masriera, Penitent Magdalene. 1890 / Lady Gaga, Bloody Mary. 2011

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“I love being in love with you, it makes even unhappiness seem no bigger than a pin, even at the times when I wish so violently that I could give my heart to science and be rid of it.”

— James Schuyler to John Button, spring 1956

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antique store’s drawer on fb // e. e. cummings // john keats // bill dow // henry dumas // @/wonderlandhatter // @/persimmon444 // stardust 2007 // @/wspieranie

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Forgive yourself for the things that weren’t your fault 💞

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Super Nice Letters on Instagram

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“It is easy to love people in memory; the hard thing is to love them when they are there in front of you.”

— Unknown

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“You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves. Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine. Meanwhile the world goes on. Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain are moving across the landscapes, over the prairies and the deep trees, the mountains and the rivers. Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air, are heading home again. Whoever you are, no matter how lonely, the world offers itself to your imagination, calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting — over and over announcing your place in the family of things.”

— Wild Geese, Mary Oliver (via havisham)