For ST Rarepair Roulette đ @st-rarepair-roulette
Word Count: ~5,000
Ships: Billy Hargrove x Chrissy Cunningham and Heather Holloway x Jason Carver.
Warnings: Implied/referenced child abuse, lots of arguing and misunderstandings, very mild references to sexual content.
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âNo. Nope. I donât believe that for one second.â
Gossip. Thatâs all it is. Heather and Chrissy laying on the formerâs bed, legs up against the wall, long hair dangling over the opposite edge of the bed, exchanging silly gossip.
Never the mean kind, Chrissy wonât allow that, itâs mostly their respective crushes and fascinations from school they talk about.
Or specifically, lately how much Heather doesnât like Chrissyâs taste in boys. Or anybody, for that matter. In her heart of hearts, she knows Heather is just protective.
Still, Chrissy tosses a little stuffed fuzzball of an animal at her friend for that comment, âHetty! Rude!â
âLook Iâm sorry, I just canât believe that Hargrove has like, actual feelings. I donât trust him.â Heather elaborates, through her laughter.
See, sheâd say the same every time, they both know that. What matters is whether Chrissy is bold enough to go through with it. She never has been so far. Itâs one thing to have a crush, but to have someone openly pining back, thatâs something more rare.
An opportunity Chrissy wouldnât like to lose just to please her best friend.
Sheâll try to win her over, âOne date wonât be bad.â
But Heather will make excuse after excuse, âEvery girl says that before the worst night of her life.â
Chrissy rolls onto her front, sighing so heavily the weight of Heatherâs mattress lifts up, like sheâs turned to the most stressed little helium balloon and floated away. Maybe she did, off into her imagination, taking her common sense with her.
Maybe sheâll entertain Heatherâs concerns, but only if theyâre productive, âWell how did you know Jason was being genuine?â
Heather's boyfriend. Track and basketball star, high class social asshole. Chrissys has never been a fan, to be entirely honest. Her earliest memories of Jason Carver were of him shoving over smaller kids in their church group and treating every recess game as pro-level sports. She still doesnât see what Heather finds so charming about him.
She hopes maybe heâd changed, assumes heâd have had to to win over a critical heart like the one guarded in Heatherâs chest.
Oh but Heather gives no such benefit of the doubt to anybody else, âI /donât/ know it. But /my/ boyfriend doesnât run over innocent children in his free time.. or whatever the hell it is Billy Hargrove gets up to.â
Chrissy has to laugh at that, it's so absurd, âOh- He does not! Billyâs /nice./â
âProve it.â Heather challenges, popping a gum bubble between her teeth to assert her seriousness.
âHetty.â Chrissy warns, uninterested in playing that game.
Her friend isnât having it. Heather rolls her brown eyes with so much force she literally rolls over on the bed, sprawling out over top of Chrissy like a beloved golden retriever with no respect for sharing space. Itâs always been comfortable with her, coexisting without regard to self consciousness and mothers opinions and Godly image. Probably why she lets Heather get away with being a little catty sometimes.
Like now, as she claims, âOh come on. Make it a game, have some fun, but show me heâs genuine. Or else Iâm kicking his ass.â
âFine.â Chrissy wants to be stern, but she cracks a little smile, her real, bright one, âIf I'm supposed to threaten to kick Jasonâs butt, I donât think Iâd be able to.â
Heather hums in thought before presenting a solution, âIâll do the âdefending of our honorâ if you help me test Jay back.â
âPinky promise youâll be nicer to Billy once we get proof?â
âThatâs /if/ we get proof, but you have my word.â
The deal is sealed. They lock pinky fingers, one soft pink nailed and one a flaming red shade. In the ten years theyâd been friends since Heather joined their class in 1st grade, not a single pinky promise between them has been broken. It just isnât done.
Admittedly, thatâs a lot of pressure. Talking about cute boys doesnât feel as fun anymore.
Chrissyâs fluttery feelings start to set in, fidgeting with her hands to hope to drive them off. If she had her bracelets on, sheâd shake them and enjoy the way they ring from the hard plastics and metals banging together, but itâs late, sheâs in her pjs without jewelry. She picks her nails instead.
Redirecting, Heather hands her a stuffed Winnie the Pooh, and asks a question she knows will catch her off guard, âSoooo. What are you gonna do?â
âHetty, I havenât had time to think!â Chrissy complains, squishing poor Pooh between her hands, choosing to abuse the stuffed toy with her anxiety instead of her own skin.
âOh come on. What do boys care about? Cars, sex, and sports. Pick one and heâll show his true colors.â Heather says it likes itâs all just so easy, and she already knows it all.
Chrissy isnât as sure. She considers her options,
âUm, sports sounds the least dangerous.. maybe?â
âUntil he tackles your little ass.â Heather points out.
Thereâs a moment where they both sort of stop moving. They both know what Heather is about to do, but Chrissy's defenses are useless to stop it. She scrunches her body up as tiny as can be, but Heather has pounced, poking her sides gently where she knows her friend is ticklish.
Chrissy used to get all self conscious when Heather would do things like that. Not just touching her skin, so close to where she feels her strongest insecurities, but even jokes, little digs that had nothing to do with Chrissyâs appearance would get her down.
They have Billy to thank for the change. Dating or not, William Hargrove isnât one to hide his affections. Everyone knows heâs had a thing for Chrissy for a while. Itâs deciphering whether heâs chasing tail, or chasing the sweet girl heâd shown enough interest in to replenish her view of herself, hung around and flirted and laughed with so freely it healed a part of her broken heart.
She thinks maybe repaying him a little would increase the chances of getting the ball rolling, and getting Heatherâs trust. âWhat if I cheer special for him during one of his games?â
âUh, no!â Heather shakes her head, rolled curls bouncing in their pillow curlers back and forth, âThat just makes /you/ public about it. And he can spin that if heâs being an ass for real.â
âBut I donât think-â Chrissy starts to argue, brow knotted.
Heather holds one of her hands, showing she is doing this because she cares, even if sheâs being a little harsh, âHoney, I know Iâm a cynical bitch, but I donât want to see you hurt. Save yourself the embarrassment.â
âI donât- Heather, itâs not embarrassing to be in love!â
A gasp, slow realization dawning. âYouâre right. Oh my god, Chrissy youâre so right!!â
Heather kicks her legs with glee, fuzzy slippers going flying. Right out of a movie, she squeals with delight, infecting Chrissy too with her sudden joy.
Chrissy giggles, going along with it, âI am?â
âUh, yes! Itâs perfect!â Heather scoots closer until theyâre shoulder to shoulder, looking up at the ceiling together. She talks with her hands, like sheâs painting the picture for her. âDonât /cheer/ his name. /Wear/ it.â
Only, Chrissy doesnât think she gets it, â...How?â
âHis varsity jacket! If a boy gives you his varsity jacket, itâs serious business. They protect those damn things like a firstborn daughter. If you can get Billy to give you his jacket, you might as well be hitched!â Heather explains, a ball of enthusiasm.
Chrissy knows her longing heart starts racing, probably obvious to Heather too this close together, ��You actually think that would work?â
Heather flips up so sheâs sitting, burning some of her energy in her dramatic motions, âDuh! You show up to a game repping his varsity, baby, that deal is sealed. Iâm talking a proposal at the end-zone. A wedding between quarters. Iâm talkinâ baby-making under the bleachers-â
Chrissy, face as hot pink as her pj tank top, interrupts all that, âOkay! Okay. Thatâs⌠I get it.â
âDo I make you blush, fair lady?â Heather drawls, in an impression of a boy, eyebrow arched, chest puffed out, lips curled, her voiced dropped ridiculously deep-
Chrissy covers her face, trying desperately not to laugh at the ridiculous attempt, âHeatherrr!!â
Heather clutches her chest like sheâs wounded, taking on a sort of accent almost from how badly sheâs doing her impression, âAh! My apologies, maiden. How ungentlemanly of me.â
âNobody talks like that! /Billy/ doesnât talk like that!!â Chrissy argues, though she giggles at the unseriousness of it all. So it took a while, but Heather always does know how to make her feel better.
They drop the boy talk for a while, choosing to sneak downstairs and grab some snacks at two in the morning once Heatherâs parents were definitely asleep, coming back up with a strange homemade trail mix. Dark chocolate chips, raisins, pretzels, almonds and strawberries. Certainly nothing outside of Chrissyâs comfort zone, careful not to push the limits of her recovery, though itâll probably give them both a stomachache in a few hours regardless.
Leaned against some bean bag chairs right under the open window, enjoying the birdsong and cricket chirps, they share their homemade creation, and better, more smiles and lighthearted stories. Like they used to, before highschool drama and all.
Nearing 4, Heather turns to her, uncharacteristically dead serious, and declares, âI hope he makes you this happy.â
The realness inspires Chrissy to do the prying now, switching roles, hoping her friend will open up to her in kind, âDoes Jason make you happy?â
â/Jason/ does. Our parents practically arranging for us to be married from the time we were newborns, hm not so much.â Heather sighs, drawing her knees in. She doesnât quite shut down, itâs more for comfort, self assurance, which Chrissy understands. She gives her space to collect her thoughts.
âHeâs my guy best friend. And I love him. In more than the best friend way. Itâd be stupid not to end up together. But god thereâs so much pressure!â
âI think you should do the jacket thing too.â Chrissy offers carefully, âIâm doing it to prove /my/ date isnât a one-hit creep. You can do it just to remind yourself why you love your boy. And that he loves you. âCause I know he does, Heather. But I know youâre afraid he doesnât.â
Heather has tears in her eyes and a sad smile when she looks at Chrissy, âWhat is with you quiet girls and secretly being psychics?â
Oh how Chrissy wished she truly were a psychic.
At the beginning, she wasnât nervous at all. Her and Heather bullshitted all the time, it wasnât anything serious. But theyâre all four on a date, wandering downtown around the various second hand stores, a typical stop for one couple, and the complete opposite for the others.
Seemed as good a time as any to go through with their silly plan, it wasnât like it would hurt anything. Except sheâd tried all kinds of things to get Billy to give her his jacket, and so far, none of them worked even a little! Not browsing through a selection of jackets at the stores, not shivering dramatically, not clinging to his side either.
Chrissy felt a chip in her little heart every time, feeling like maybe Heather was right. All over a jacket. Sheâd have her heart broken for a little bit of wool and leather.
With her boyfriend's name on it. Her boyfriend who actually holds her hand, and tells her sheâs pretty, and doesnât creep his hands under his skirt constantly.
She doesnât know if she could get over losing that.
Her gait down the strip is admittedly less spirited, lingering behind Heather and Jay, but Billy never leaves her behind. He engages her in conversation too, hair blowing all over the place around his face, âHow the fuck do you go outside in this shit?â
Chrissy looks at him, wearing an amused little smile, âLike, ever?â
âYeah /ever/, Princess.â Billy sarcastically, but lightheartedly bumps her shoulder lightly with his arm, âJesus, I should take you to California. Gonna miss winters without tiny fucking knives falling from the sky.â
Heather doesnât lose track of that comment for a minute. Excited for Chrissy, she tries to plant the seed for their plan,
âWhatâs the matter, Billy? You too cold?â
âHell no. But Iâm not a chick the size of a baby deer.â Billy remarks, taking the bait perfectly well, rubbing Chrissyâs arms and feeling how cold she is, âShit, youâre fucking frozen, Chris. Here.â
And without even thinking he peels off his varsity jacket and starts to hand it over.
Used to the cold, and despite her excitement wanting to make sure Billy doesnât get uncomfortable, Chrissy protests, âNo, no, no. Keep it. I canât let your California sunshine freeze over.â
Billy disregards that, slinging it over her shoulders anyways, âYeah, well Iâm not letting all the fuckinâ little pixies that fly around your head freeze to death either.â
Jason scoffs at him, turning around to walk backwards with the group, teasing, âDude, what does that even mean?â
Without even looking Heather flicks his ear, getting his attention back, âJust because you donât understand romance doesnât mean nobody can.â
He looks at her like a kicked puppy, but Jason is nothing if not stubborn, âPixies? Sunshine? What happened to- beautiful and charming and butterflies in the stomach?â
âI donât know, Jason. Maybe you should fall in love again and find out.â
âWho would I fall in love with? Nobody can beat you, Holloway.â
Heather rolls her eyes, flicking her hair like an agitated horse would itâs tail, âAh, see you almost got a couple points there. Almost. Youâre in the negatives though for using my last name.â
He tries to recover it suavely, âI could call you Carver instead?â
But that isnât Heather's way. She counters intensely, âNo. Iâm not being a child bride, thank you very much. Besides, who says Iâm taking your name? Maybe I could call you Holloway.â
âThe.. I- Okay.â Jason just sputters, turning pink up to his ears.
Behind them, still lingering a good ways back, Chrissy hums, warm and cozy in her boyfriendâs jacket, âWhat are they even arguing about?â
Billy laughs about that, shrugs his shoulders, âHell if I know. They lost me a long time ago.â
âItâs funny. Heather didnât think you were good for me, but she fights with Jason all the time.â Chrissy informs him.
Billy stops dead in his tracks. Gently uses his hold on Chrissy's hand to spin her around to face him as he fell behind,
âHold on. Take a step back. Heather thinks /what/ about me?â
Chrissyâs nerves spike so quickly she gets a little dizzy, âPlease don't take it personally. I want my two favorite people to like each other. Please.â
Her beau steadies her, instead of freaking out, âNo problem. I just find it.. fuckinâ weird.â
âItâs because of the way you drive. And smoke. And act. She thinks itâs bad for me.â Chrissy blurts, knowing itâs unkind but needing him to believe that she had no part in it.
He doesnât seem too phased by having Heatherâs disapproval, apparently learning faster than most people do, âBig fucking deal. At least you know I love you, right?â
âMhm.â Chrissy nods her assurance, standing on her tiptoes to kiss Billyâs cheek and seal the promise.
âRight. Tell her sheâs the one making Jason cry his damn eyes out the second he gets tipsy on a sip of anything stronger than a fuckinâ soda pop. Iâm tellinâ you, Holloway has ripped out his heart and shoved it up his own pansy ass.â Billy sounds bitter, but not overly mean.
Itâs something heâs thought about before. Good to know the gossip street goes both ways.
Itâs why Chrissy doesnât feel too bad telling Billy now, âShe doesnât mean to. I think sheâs scared.â
âSacred of Carver?âŚ. He hurt her?â His voice drops, as angry and mean as Heather warned her about.
They donât talk much about serious things, serious isnât their kind of fun, but Chrissy knows about Billyâs life at home. About the type of man Billy couldâve been destined to be.
She rushes to make sure he doesnât turn on his own friend for thinking Jason was the same way, âOh no! No, not at all. Never. Itâs her mom and her daddy. They sort of forced her to date Jason. She wasnât ready. I think sheâs ready now and doesnât want to admit it. âCause that would be like taking their orders.â
âFuckinâ parents.â Billy eventually grumbles, not knowing what else to say.
It seems to be a common theme in their group. A bonding experience for all four of them, whether or not theyâre open about it.
Chrissy doesnât really feel like talking about that stuff anymore, sort of just mumbling, âYeah.â
Because Billy is perfect, and none of the things Heather says at all, and the actual bullies in their lives makes her want to just hide. Billy notices the drop in her mood, and silently slings an arm around her waist, pulling her into his side as they walk. Keeping her close. Safe.
Maybe someday things will work out beyond Hawkins. They have to. Winning the jacket was a silly, small victory, but it was a step.
Now Chrissy just wants, more than anything, her friends to be happy.
She holds onto Billyâs hand a little tighter.
The next time Heather and Jason get together, itâs for a study date at the end of that week. With Heather being a year above, the only class they have in common is the Biology two class Heather failed last year. Thereâs coloring sheets of bones and cells to be completed, so itâs not like they need each otherâs help, but sitting on Heatherâs bed coloring with colored pencils didnât seem like a bad deal either way.
At some point, surrounded by all the color, Heather realizes something,
âHoney. Weâre going shopping this weekend.â
Jason barely looks up from his work, focused on being neat close to the lines, âFor?â
âClothes. Youâve worn three white polos this week. Iâm bringing some color into your life.â Heather pokes him with the flat end of the white pencil for emphasis.
Jason blinks, caught off his guard, âI wear green sometimes.â
âSchool colors donât count. Yellow either.â
âI think I have, maybe, /one/ blue shirt.â
Heather digs in the pile for a turquoise-ish pencil, âBlue! Blueâs.. good! Thatâs definitely on Godâs rainbow. Maybe a nice pair of blue jeans too, for once-â
Thatâs where Jason cuts it off. Because thatâs where Heather went from playfully sharp to flat-out insulting, âHeather, please.â
She stays on the defensive, âIâm just saying. Thereâs nothing wrong with branching out from your choir boy uniform. Thatâs all.â
Sometimes itâs like she thinks if she pokes a bruise enough, itâll make her seem like sheâs strong enough to cause them. Like sheâs all in charge and nothing can stop her.
Jason doesnât want to stop her, he just wants her basic respect, âSo what do you suggest?â
Not even sarcastic, just genuinely enthusiastic to share, Heather starts, âPastels! Your hair is way too strawberry to be a dark dresser. Unless you go with emeralds, no more tacky green. Ooh, or even if you grow it out some! You know, actually-â
Jason runs his fingers over his neatly parted hair, protecting it, not hiding the concerned squeak to his voice, âNo thank you, I happen to like my hair short.â
âAgain, baby. Boring.â Heather just rolls her eyes, once again. Sometimes itâs like thatâs all she knows how to do.
It stings.
âLook, if nothing I do is ever going to be good enough-â
Heather doesn't entertain that in the least. She slaps her hand over his homework page, making him look at her, âItâs not /you/. You know that itâs not you.â
No, he didnât know that. Jason looks at her, confused, âWhat?â
âJust because you dress yourself, and you drive your stupid little station wagon around parading your image, doesnât mean thereâs not that voice in the back of your head. Maybe⌠maybe a tight fist too. Telling you what to do. Youâre afraid.â Heather talks with her hands, just enough that Jason can see through it.
That sheâs being showy to hide something.
Doesnât mean heâs not been rendered self conscious and bare-souled all the same. He doesnât like that, even after months with Heather not feeling safe showing her all his tender parts like that, âI donât want to hear this from you.â
âOh, so a girl canât have opinions, huh? I should just spread my legs now and let something else do all the talking?â Heather heats the argument.
Jason just lets his head fall back, frustrated, âI donât- You /know/ I donât want that.â
âOh please do enlighten me then, your graciousness.â Heather forces what Jason is thinking out of him.
So he lets it go, without regard to her feelings, even though he hadnât wanted to, âLook, Iâm not stupid. I know your parents are a problem, Heather. Everyone thatâs read the paper knows Tom Holloway isnât a kind man. You try to hide it, but you canât keep it from me. And you canât- just take it all out on me!â
âI wasnât-â Heather tries to backpedal.
He still doesnât let her, âYou were! You always have! Nobody has the key to the lock on your heart, but Iâve been trying anyways. And you just shut. me. down!â
âJasonâŚâ
âIâm sorry. Iâm sorry we didnât meet for real until high school. Iâm sorry I canât save you because Iâve got my own.. shit to deal with. But, and forgive me for using His name in vain, Jesus fucking Christ Heather!â
âJason..â Heather repeats, clearly more misty eyed than before, and opens her arms. A hug is letting him in physically, letting him get close even when the words arenât easy.
Mostly, she hadnât realized Jason could read her as easily as she could read him.
He takes the vulnerability to mean itâs safe to say, âI love you.â
âI know.â Is Heatherâs response. Itâs not easy to say it back, not when she chokes on it every time she tries to say it to her âproblems,â let alone a highschool boyfriend she was never supposed to fall for, not in her own heart.
Itâs enough. Jason keeps holding her, lips against her shoulder, âIâm sorry.â
Heather repeats herself, âI know.â
Nothing else felt right to say. Because she /was/ sorry too, but saying it second would feel ingenuine. At least, sheâd read it that way.
She closes her eyes and feels exhausted. Itâs not supposed to be this hard. Their school years are drawing to a close, and yet she canât even admit her own parents treat her like shit.
Maybe a silent tear drop or two drips off the end of her nose behind Jasonâs back. If he noticed, he didnât say a word.
After a while, Heather needs to do something, sitting and thinking and regretting not doing anything to help, âCan we call Chrissy and Billy and go get some ice cream or something?â
âSure. I think I owe that to you for keeping myself so.. alone.â Jason admits, bashful but genuine.
And isnât that just the thing. Heather gives him a tiny smile back, âDitto, baby.â
Ice cream ran into the evening, all of them itching for an excuse to stay out. Chrissy was the last to finish her bowl of two raspberry scoops with sprinkles, half of it melted into sludge by the last spoonful, and even thatâs not a distraction enough.
Itâs early spring, which means, as the group informed Billy, that the Hawkins drive-in theater was opening back up. Nobody even needed to discuss it to know thatâs what they wanted to do. There were a variety of chick-flicks and even more horror sequels in the box office, which meant the two week delay at the drive-in would make for some good choices at least. Most Hawkins residents would take their trucks out there, not some prissy little station wagon, but it would do.
At least, it should, but Billy started getting impatient with cruising along under the speed limit out to the wooded hill where the drive-in is, âCanât this piece of shit go faster?â
Heather turned around slightly to face and scold him, âWell, we coulda brought yours if you hadnât decided to buy the extra tiny, no room for fun model.â
Billy just snorted humorlessly, âWe could fit if there was any actual fun going on. Leaving room for the Lord or whatever is what fucks it up.â
For that comment, knowing their company, Chrissy pushed Billyâs arm gently. Still, she didnât seem to disagree too harshly, since she smiled through when he kissed her next.
Heather seemed irritated, though that tends to be her default honestly, as she huffed, âNot everyoneâs a sleaze like you, Hargrove. Get used to it.â
Billy hadnât even justified it with a response, just waved her off and used the same arm to swing it over the seat behind Chrissy. She was wearing his jacket again, hadnât taken it off all week, curled into his side and wearing his name. In that bubbly way she does, she was also wiggling her hands about, not nervous, but happy.
Content.
Heather and Jason still had a ways to go to reach contentment.
The pair stay in the car for the movie, their counterparts in a blanket on the grass instead. Cali boy is out there freezing his ass off, but heâd said anything would be better than being trapped with relationship drama.
Heather and Jason try to ignore him.
They fail.
Jason turns to her not even a full twenty minutes after that comment starts working itâs way under his skin, âHeather?â
âHm?â She hums to show sheâs listening, but doesnât look his way.
Thatâs not enough for what needs to be said, so he repeats, âHeather.â
âYeah, thatâs me. You need something?â
âI wanted- I justâŚ. Iâm sorry.â
Her pretty features screw up in confusion, âFor what?â
âFor not being good enough.â Jason informs, like it was the most clear thing, âYouâd be happier with a guy like Billy. Maybe you could call up Steve-â
âNo, fuck you if you think I could ever leave you.â She spits.
And then she grabs Jason by the collar of his polo and kisses him.
Itâs nothing chaste, nothing at all like their usual peck of the lips. This is roaming tongues and hands.
Heather reigns herself in when she feels Jasonâs hands, holding her hips up under the back of her shirt, shaking.
âIâm not gonna make you do anything. Sex isnât my endgame.â
He sort of freezes, like it hadnât occurred to him that Heather wouldnât mind helping him in his devotion to modesty, âSo what is?â
âAn apartment. Maybe get a cat. I want to share a space with you long before we do marriage shit.â Heather explains lightly, smile on her face.
Jason relaxes his shoulders, âMake it a dog and weâll see. Dogs are better.â
âOh, ha-ha. Make it one of each and Iâll forgive you for that comment.â
Heather kisses him again, without any heat or intensity this time, just gentle, soft affection. She even lets him touch her hair, despite usually slapping his hands away for that. It helps that sheâd brushed it out to be restyled before bed tonight, but still, she would have let him even if her curls were laying perfect.
When they pull away, Heather lays her head on Jasonâs shoulder. Instead of watching Catâs Eye on the screen, her gaze falls to their friends huddled up outside, and she muses, âHow much you wanna bet Chrissy and Billy run away into the sunset?â
âI hope they do. Hawkins is Hell on earth.â Jason asserts, clearly serious because he usually wouldnât even mention a place like that.
Heather sighs slightly, âLiterally. The kidnappings, the murders. I canât take much more of it.â
Confident, Jason says, âIâm sure theyâd make room for us then. If we wanted to go with them.â
That has Heather sitting up straighter, surprised, âYou would live in California?â
Sunny skies, living free- it didnât seem very much his pace. The order and the mundanity of Midwestern life seemed better for Jason.
He just shrugs for now, âWho knows? Weâll see when we get there.â
âAnd youâre okay with that?â Heather wonders aloud, as she knows it, finding that Jason prefers to have his entire life planned out.
He only sounds a little tense as he tries to sound brave and strong, âGetting there.â
The tension between them had to have been coming from there. She wanted nothing more than to rebel and escape, while he, even when he was feeling crushed by the weight of parental disapproval, was nothing short of desperate to be back in their graces.
If Heather could be more open to discussion when that made her uncomfortable, and Jason less complicit to begin with, the pair would probably be on the right path again.
She lays her head on him again, and this time, Jason takes his arm out of one sleeve of his varsity jacket, slinging it around her like a blanket. Her heart absolutely soars. The promise to Chrissy was fulfilled, she and her honey were working out just fine now, after sheâd gotten Billyâs jacket.
Thatâs gotta be a sign that things will work out for Heather too.
âHey, Jason?â
âHm?â
She feels compelled to finally confess, âI love you.â
Itâs Jason this time who, after a soft little kiss to her forehead, says, âI know.â
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Because Neil was an abusive bellend, which we all know, Billy was never able to celebrate his birthday between the ages of 7 to 18. And before that it still felt overshadowed by the presence of Neil looming over him.
His eighteenth was a little bit different.
Heâd been dating Steve for almost three months and things had been going very well, considering a month before theyâd gotten together theyâd beat the shit out of each other. The only thing was is that Steve INSISTED on knowing his birthday. He was a giving sort, always wanting to do something special.
Billy told him he didnât do birthdays, never had never would. Steve grumbled something like âWeâll see about that.â
It was a nice day for March, shit compared to California but it was the best Hawkins was going to get. Neil had pissed off somewhere. Probably the best present he was going to get.
And of course Harrington fucking turned up on his doorstep at 6AM. Susan was still asleep. Max should have still been asleep but neither of them had slept a whole night in a while. More surprisingly, she was dressed and not in some shirt sheâd borrowed from Billy that was too big for her.
Of course Max had told Steve his birthday. The little fucker.
Morning was surprisingly ok. Steve let him drive the Camaro as fast as he wanted, despite previous insistences that it was âa fucking death trap Hargrove.â They had pizza which Billy hadnât had since the move. It was nice. Peaceful.
Then noon hit and Steve dragged him to the Byers. Not his mansion of a place. The Byers. The place that had almost been taken over by aliens. Romantic.
Joyce Byers opened the door, wearing a party hat. Billy briefly considered faking amnesia. No Mrs Byers, I donât know who you are. Iâm so sorry for the inconvenience caused. Bye then.
But he loved Steve and honestly, Joyce reminded him of a slightly more dishevelled version of his mom.
Most of the balloons seemed to be Bar Mitzvah themed, which was later explained to be because Will had recently had his and those were the only balloons in the house. Both Jonathan and Will were there. El, who still kind of terrified him. Max, somehow. Henderson. Sinclair. Mike Wheeler (ugh). And for some reason, Hopper.
Begrudgingly, Billy had to admit that it was fun. They had a water balloon fight, Billy got to pick all the music, he actually got given his own cake and Joyce gave him a mom hug, which may have made him cry.
Hopper tried to talk to him, which was slightly awkward considering he was well aware of Billyâs view on cops. Still, he was alright for a pig.
And then there was Steve. His genuine, sweet boyfriend whoâd obviously came up with this whole thing. They held hands under the table like twelve year olds when the cake came out.
Heâd had worse birthdays.
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Happy Birthday Billy <3 (he got a puppy!)
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Is everyone ready for an image from the movie marmalade that will change your life?
Joe Keery youâre doing amazing sweetie.
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A gift for my good friend Max @intothedysphoria on his 21st birthday:
Harringrove Swap AU! Wherein Steve is an overconfident lifeguard, and Billy is the charming cashier at family video.
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I just looked up the etymology of a bunch of stranger things characters names for people like me who are interested in shit like that and the results were certainly interesting:
Erica: eternal ruler
Chance: good fortune
Gareth: Gentle
Henry: ruler, powerful
Jason: healer/The Lord is salvation
Chrissy: follower of Christ
Patrick: nobleman
Eddie (Edward): guardian/protector
Barb (Barbara): strange/foreign
Carol: joyful song/strong
Robin: famed/bright
Jane: God is gracious/gift from God
Lucas: bringer of light
Steve: garland/crown
Dustin: brave warrior/ Thorâs stone
Mike (Micheal): gift from God
Jon: God has given
Nancy: grace/favoured
William (for both Will and Billy): resolute protector
Joyce: joyful/merry
Jim (James): supplanter
I have definitely forgotten a couple but I just think if youâre like me and are writing a fic without a lot of ideas of where to go, this is definitely a good place to start
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What Steve expected when Billy asked him out on a drive: romance, making out, maybe some sex if he was lucky, a dramatic proposal of love, Steve generally getting spoiled.
What actually happened: Steve mentally reciting his last will and testament in a car that seemed to be attempting to break the sound barrier while Billy blasted obscure Scandinavian heavy metal and almost got into a fight with a tree. And THEN sex, romance and a dramatic declaration of love.
Max made him a badge saying âI survived Billy Hargroveâs blue box of deathâ as consolation. Steve was still too dazed to appreciate it
(Inspiration from this post taken from @hargrove-mayfields)
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Steve isnât too impressed with Billyâs drivingâŚ
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Say what you want about Billy Hargrove crying all the time (which I mean mood) but at least he cries about things that make sense.
Billy has always been very in tune with his emotions and can cry at the drop of a hat when he is upset or angry or overwhelmed but after a lot of therapy post-Neil he realises it doesnât make him any less of a man and not just means heâs processing his emotions in a healthy way.
Steve doesnât cry much but when he does, literally nobody understands why.
Steve has cried over a tire. Steve has cried over accidentally buying the wrong hairspray. Steve has cried over not knowing the difference between a comma and an apostrophe. Billy has asked him if heâs ok, ran to get Steve a glass of water and give him a cuddle but it always finishes as quick as it started. So they stay content to be the couple with the guy who cries all the time and the guy who cries for weird reasons. Even if it does mean that Billy has to bring about ten boxes of tissues into the room whenever they watch any movie with dancing in it.
The later in life autism diagnosis doesnât really come as a surprise to either of them.
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Just know that this Christmas that Billy spent two months hunting down the perfect gift for Steve to put into a gift basket (tickets to Dirty Dancing on broadway), celebrating not only Christmas but their anniversary as well (they got together in December) and Steve spent so much time panicking over whether Billy was going to upset Billy by gifting him a perfect recreation of that old blue Camero, when he was given the gift basket his immediate response on receiving it was âawesomesauceâ
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Christmas was supposed to be a time for family, thatâs what Steve has always been taught anyways, but, seeing as his parents donât really understand what itâs like having gone through what he and his friends have, they arenât much of a family these days.
Steve was never of the Christly faith, he was Jewish actually, but the family chose to celebrate Christmas for its messages and the staples of the season. Things like the wood burning stove crackling with warmth and watching snow coat the evergreens in the backyard. Baking and relaxing and peace on earth and such.
The festivities of both of his holidays werenât quite dampened as much as his faith was the moment a six foot faceless monster dropped out of the ceiling with intent to kill him. Though last Christmas went pretty shit anyways, for the first time in years spending that time of year with someone he genuinely cared about, only to realize in retrospect it hadnât been a mutual love and cheeriness.
Steve isnât sure about getting into the festive spirit this year, whatever that even means to him anymore.
He doesnât decorate as much as he used to; something about having all those lights in his house, the way they used to wrap around the banister and frame the huge wreath above the mantelpiece, it just makes him paranoid now. No sense of wonder filled nostalgia and warmth in his chest, instead just waiting for the moment they start to flash and signal something coming after him. A festive beacon signaling his location across dimensions, thatâs a big ânoâ from him.
He realizes about four days before Christmas that his apathy had bled into the rest of his traditions too, altogether forgetting to bake the cookies heâd inevitably eat all by himself anyways, or to write cards to family members who probably only trashed the envelope without opening it. Steve canât stop himself from this depressing spiral either, every last idea of mirrored baubles and other delights shot down in a heartbeat with a negative one twice as strong.
Hell, he even forgot to fish out an old bayberry candle from the attic, which is enough on its own to make him worry a little. His Ima always told him if there was one tradition he could never give up, it was the candle, and every year heâd light that thing and watch it like a hawk to make sure it burned down to the base starting on Christmas Eve morning. Itâs bad luck to not. The whole family will be cursed by every god imaginable.
Thereâs a little flier in his mailbox for Christmas Eve service. Even if his faith has been tested, he can say for certain heâll never be Christian. His faith and his identity are linked in some ways too tested and true to just move on.
Still. He considers going. Christmas Eve service wonât be enough to undo the damning of his soul for forgetting the candle, and it wonât change his mind on the religion thing either.
Itâll get him out of the house, though. Maybe allow him to see some old faces. Connect with real humans again. Thereâll be coffee and cookies anyways, and one of his favorite parts of Christmas has always been the baked goods.
Blame it on all thatâs happened in the last year, but Steve decides to go, if not just because heâd failed at achieving literally everything else he had on his to-do list for the season. Heâd at least rather feel like he was being judged by old church bitties than feel the crushing weight of having nothing at home for himself.
Heâs already late when he does show up at the church, as in -the old people have stopped bullshitting and the service had actually started- late. Actually, heâd been there for a half hour before then at least, but sat outside in his car until he mustered the courage to go inside and face what heâs quickly realizing was a bad decision.
Steve is forced to sit at the very back of the church since, even if he wonât be listening, he doesnât want to interrupt everybody else. Not a bad deal for someone who guilt-tripped his own sorry self into coming in the first place, but the problem he has with the situation is the company.
He thought this would be helping. It isnât.
See, most of the church is full of families, people grouped together in their little circles and rubbing it in just how lonely Steve is this year.
In the last few rows there are a couple of other loners like him, but even those are mostly full of people who look generally friendly with each other at least. Steve doesnât have the luxury.
Billy Hargroveâs taking up almost a whole pew for himself, slouched down with his legs all spread, like he doesnât want to be seen. Knowing Hargrove the way Steve thinks he does, he assumes thatâs exactly the case. That the asshole got dragged along by his nice family to church, to celebrate the community he made it a point to terrorize since day one of being in Hawkins.
Steveâs God isnât quite the same as the one from this church, but whoever is up there, if anybody, he curses them for creating such a dick as Billy and sending him down to bother Steve.
Maybe heâs projecting a little, but all the same, the only seat left where heâs not going to be interrupting something is right next to Hargrove.
If he had any pride left heâd turn and walk out the door, but heâs only here because heâs already at rock bottom. Might as well spend the holiday with someone whoâs probably going to kick his ass again for being a bother.
But Hargrove doesnât even look at him when he sits next to him, his head is tipped back against the seat and there are sunglasses perched on his nose, despite it being dark out already and one a dreary winter day when there was no sun to begin with. The only indication that he even noticed Steveâs presence is that he moved his leg away so he and Steve arenât making contact.
Steveâs not going to act like he suddenly likes the guy, but he can tell something is up with him. He asks, pretty bluntly, âWhatâs a guy like you doing passed out drunk in a church, Hargrove?â
Billyâs face shifts slowly into a half-assed smirk, looking mostly like heâs in pain from forcing the expression, âWhy, you want in on it?â
âHonestly, it wouldnât suck as much if I had a drink first.â Steve shrugs, trying against every instinct in his body to be civil with Billy. Itâs not like the other boy is much of a threat the way heâs slumped down and broken looking anyways. Steve feels almost bad for passing judgements.
Until Billy calls him on his hypocrisy, hardly even looking in his direction, âYou came in here alone. You wanna be here, Harrington. Donât act like youâre like me.â
Arguing back with those assumptions, Steve insists, mostly because of the nerve of Billy to assume his situation insults him, âWell I donât see your family around.â
ââCause they're too embarrassed to be seen with me after I beat your sorry ass. Ruined a reputation that didnât even exist yet. They're up at the front, putting on their happy family routine to make up for it.â Billy relays.
The tone of his explanation would imply that itâs nothing to him, just a mild inconvenience no larger than their own dispute, but his demeanor reads otherwise. And suddenly makes a lot more sense to Steve.
Steveâs definitely chastened, reluctant as his heart tells him to be in trusting Billy, âOh. Couldnât you have just.. stayed home then?â
âNo way. And get up to more trouble while the rest of my family has to pull the weight of our publicity. Yeah right.â Finally Billy sits up a little straighter, if only to mumble, mostly to himself more than for Steve to hear, âThatâd only get my ass beat worse, even if I didnât do shit.â
And really, as much as Steve is never prepared for what spiteful bullshit is about to come tumbling out of Hargroveâs mouth, this is especially surprising. Like, the kind of unexpected that leaves him speechless and just staring for a moment.
He settles on blurting out, âYou.. didnât have to tell me all that.â
Maybe bitter, or maybe perfectly unbothered in that annoyingly trademark Billy Hargrove way, he meets Steveâs disaster of an attempt at coherency with a simple, âYou didnât have to accuse me of being a drunk either. But the more you run your mouth, the more I feel perfectly justified in giving you that concussion.â
âNever heard of a joke, have you?â Steve tries again, thinking he can be on a bullyâs level now, but clearly that wasnât the vibe Billy was actually going for.
Billy scoffs, glaring with suspiciously wet eyes under those tinted glasses at Steve, âRight. âCause itâs so hilarious, getting to see the new King of the bullshit high school hierarchy at an all time low. Youâve got lots to laugh at Harrington.â
âBut Iâm not. You think I donât got my own shit to deal with? Like I just wander into a church I donât even worship at, an hour late and without my best on, just for fun?â
Knocking himself down a few pegs succeeds in getting Billy to warm back up to him, inviting a new interest in his expression, âSo whatâs your sin then, Harrington? Whatâs got you crawling out here and stooping to the peasant level?â
For more reasons than just their location, Steve answers honestly, if not somewhat dramatic, âIncurable loneliness. Being an idiot. Never being good enough. Forgetting to light my goddamned bayberry candle.â
âThat bad, huh?â Billy fake winces, the edge bleeding back out of his demeanor. It reminds Steve of the Billy heâd first met that night. Before heâd lied and things went to hell.
Speaking of, Billy abruptly comes out with what theyâve both been thinking, âLook. Do you even believe in all this.. this savior bullshit?â
Steve shrugs, swallowing the fear of denouncing tradition in favor of impressing Hargrove, âNope. And if weâre being really honest, I only came here because thereâd be food.â
âExactly. Our problems ainât gonna be fixed by the big man in the red suit or whatever. You and me Harrington, we gotta take this shit into our own hands.â Billy rambles, and for a second it looks like heâs about to put his hands on Steveâs shoulders, before he changes position at the last minute and rests his arm over the back of the pew instead.
Why does Steve kind of wish he had touched him? He brushes it off. Theyâre playing mind games right now, talking about shit without talking about it. Heâs gotta focus or heâll fall behind.
âAnd just how are we going to do that?â Steve hums, some part of him wondering at this point if he is just amusing a drunken Billy.
But the other boy surprises him once more, challenging how convinced Steve is in his perceptions of him, âStep one, letâs just get outta here.â
Steveâs mouth feels dry and his stomach feels in knots.
âUh, Hargrove. Didnât you like, just say you had to be here though?â
âThat was ten minutes ago. Iâm a new man now, unrestrained by the confines of a paternal dictatorship keeping me bound to this holy house of worship.â
That doesnât make it any more obvious to Steve what his intention is, if anything just making him more confused. Feeling like a jackass about it, he asks for clarification, a problem that has every bit to do with himself and his expectations, and not so much with Hargroveâs, âWhat?â
âI said fucking stick it to Neil Hargrove and to God. And letâs go already before we get struck down or something.â Billy stands then, the preacher thankfully deep enough into whatever speech was going on that only a few churchgoers turned to glare at the interruption.
Steve realizes he doesnât have much choice, or desire, to do anything but follow Billy.
They almost wordlessly end up at Steveâs car, Billy himself having been driven with the rest of his family and having no other way to get home.
Itâs still tense between them, this spur of the moment Christmas truce not doing much to ease Steveâs worries. Things feel even more awkward than they need to be, at least to Steve.
Billy, on the other hand, makes himself right comfortable in Steveâs car, like theyâd been best friends all along and this was a perfectly normal thing for the two of them to be doing.
Somehow it simultaneously made Steve really want to get closer to him,so he could understand the way his head works to make him so sporadic in a way Steve himself had never been good at being.
Part way through the drive, Billy had cranked the heat in the car all the way up, a sign heâs not taking his first white Christmas that well. His salt-stained boots are kicked up on his dashboard, and the sunglasses he wore for no apparent reason were finally removed to be looped onto the collar of his jacket.
He wasnât lying about the beating. Behind the shades wasnât a drunken, out of focus gaze. No.
A bruise the size of almost the entirety of his left cheekbone stretches and warps into his swollen brow, where a cut near his eyelid forces it half-shut.
âYouâre not nervous are you?â Steve needs the reassurance.
They could both get in trouble from the man they both know landed that bruise on Billyâs cheek. Getting caught wasnât a question, they would know he wasnât at the church anymore, it was just a matter of what excuse Billy could come up with that wouldnât get him in more trouble.
âMe? Never.â Billy just shrugs him off, though again adds something under his breath, sort of like a filter for the truths he finds painful to speak, âJust hurry up and take me as far away from here as possible. I hate this stupid hell hole and I donât want Neilâs ass dragging me back in there.â
And itâs not like Steve is going to disagree, heâs admittedly had his problems with being lonely, and heâs got his own reasons for why Hargrove might just be the best company he could make right about now.
Still, because itâs their thing, he gives him a hard time all the same.
âWe were enemies when I walked into that church. Why should I do anything for you?â
ââCause weâre both two out of place fuck ups in the very back of the house of God. And we both know youâre too soft to hold a grudge anyways. Since I decided to forgive you, the way I see it, we might as well have never met âtil tonight. Perfect meeting, perfect reason to help out.â Billy explains it, again like heâs fixing himself to be a real genius, but Steveâs skeptical of how easygoing he is.
Those shaking hands donât go unnoticed from him. Or the scratchy, high pitched lilt that trails after each word Billy speaks.
Steve is more than willing to move past the fight at this point, but thereâs something that may or may not even have anything to even do with Hargrove himself, that stops him from just letting them be close like that. Something that Steve has kept a secret his whole life.
Something like a boy crush.
Itâs not even Billyâs fault that he pushes back against this friendship, preventative measures for the future. Steve talks dismissively. âNah, I donât know man. I think youâd prefer it if my first impression of you wasnât formed right now.â
Billy doesnât even look at him, âFucking rude, Harrington.â
âDude, you reek like booze and old cologne. Youâve got that nasty bruise on your face and I can tell from the way youâre acting thereâs more. Youâre a disaster all around.â And maybe Steve was a little harsh, but he's almost offended by the way everything Billy stands for directly goes against the image of him heâd built in his head.
The kid heâs talking to now is nowhere near the same douche that he thought for sure was going to kill him. Not to say heâs a sweetheart, but Steve doesnât even know why he thought Billy was such hot shit.
Probably something about fantasy. Attraction versus adrenaline and all that.
Billy himself isnât in the least bit offended though, and Steve can tell thatâs only because heâs reading him and his attempt at playing Billyâs game like a book.
Thereâs a smirk that just barely plays at the corner of his mouth, at least the side without any injuries, the dead giveaway of his clarity, âWell then. What was your first first impression of me like? What makes it so special?â
âI donât know man. You looked intimidating I guess. Glared at everyone in that parking lot like you already owned the place. And you were a thousand times more put together. Before you were just pretending to be all rough, a hoser by definition, but now youâre really a mess.â Steve is rambling again, trying his damndest to not say the part out loud where him and Carol Perkins had been gossiping about how Hargroveâs ass looked in those jeans.
His genuine first impression a hell of a lot more confusing and even worse to admire to a bully than the way he sums it up.
âDamn. And here my first impression of you was that you were a prissy little thing just like Wheeler sitting right next to you in your fancy rich boy car. Here I thought you saw yourself as better than me.â The tone of Billyâs voice sounds almost impressed, actually looking over to Steve in the driver's seat.
His face is so analytical, so smugly uncalled for. Like pure satisfaction, because he cracked the goddamn code, âBut no, I get it now. Pretty boy had himself a crush. Still does too.â
Steve almost slams on his brakes.
âHold on. I never said anything like that.â He denies it outright, because it is true. Thereâs a swell of panic in his chest at the thought that heâs too obvious. Over who else might know.
Billy clarifies a little more, âBut you donât need your damn words to see it. This overly critical, hiding your feelings shtick. Probably learned that from your girl. Tearing me apart like your first thought wasnât how fucking hot I am in three layers of acid wash.â
âChrist, where the hell did you even get an idea like that?â Steve acts bigger than he feels, at least heâs good at that, always has been.
âLighten up. You think any old meatheadâs gonna notice something like this that easy?â Billy waits for an answer but Steve canât speak. The other rolls his eyes and continues, âI see through that shit âcause Iâve done it all too. Open your fucking eyes.â
Call him neurotic, but Steve is still skeptical, âNo way. Youâre talking about shit that doesnât happen, Hargrove. It just doesnt! Whatever *this* is, it doesnât have anything to do with me, alright?â
âYou didnât even ask my impression of you. I could tell you, about.. about the way I fell for every little freckle and dumb eyelash on your dopey face? I could fucking tell you but weâd probably still be here well into the new year if I did.â
Steve grips the wheel tighter, âNo, Billy.. I mean it. If youâre pulling something on me... just save it for someone who wants to hear it.â
âIâm not though. Honest to God.â Billy tilts his head back against his seat and laughs at himself, the seriousness of the situation escaping him. Heâs also fucking nervous, which Steve can see.
It makes him regard the next thing Billy says with at least a little more trust. All he wants is to have somebody like that. Billy smiles when he sees those walls coming down,
âWell, I guess two queers running away from Church on Christmas Eve probably shouldnât swear on the big man like that, but you get what Iâm sayinâ, Harrington.â
Whether this was a bullying or a love confession, Steve wouldnât be able to tell the difference, and itâs fucking confusing. He crinkles up with nose and eyebrows in an obvious puzzling expression, âI.. guess I do?â
âAw, donât go gettingâ shy on me now, Harrington.â Billy snickers, finally shifting that piercing gaze away from Steve to the window beside him, asking in an unceremonious change of subject, âWhereâre you taking me anyways?â
âSince youâre laying it on so damn thick all of the sudden, I figured Iâd just take you back to my place.â Steve all but grumbles sarcastically, stressed from this conversation, from it being Christmas, from everything else going wrong in his life.
Billy at least can sense that, allowing the subject change to carry them in an almost casual conversation. Almost, if not for the overly flirtatious tone he takes on, âSure. You got a present waitinâ there for me this Christmas?â
Steveâs face flushes and he canât handle the heat. He shuts it down with a shrug of his shoulders, âDude, I donât even have a tree up at home. Best I can promise is what you were probably already hopinâ youâd get.â
âWait, seriously?â
âWrapping paper that important to you? I can figure something out.â
Billy shakes his head; itâs his turn now to look at Steve like heâs lost his mind, âNo. I was just fucking with you about a present. I meant about the tree.â
âYeah, I didnât decorate at all. But.. whatâs that even matter?â Steve glances over at him, seeing the hurt behind that baffled expression and knowing instantly thereâs something more there, another mystery about Billy Hargrove that will remain unsolved, because he turns the attention off of himself as quickly as that expression fades behind a new one of determination.
âNot gonna lie Harrington, I was totally down to blow you and just pretend the serious parts of this conversation never happened and never speak to each other again. I kinda thought that was the path we were going down here. But now that I know how deep this goes, and Iâm invested in this shit way too much.â
âWhat does that even mean, Billy?â
âMeans weâre skipping all the sex bullshit and weâre gonna light your goddamn candle. And do every other thing on your list of failures this year. You know, since youâre totally head over heels in love with me, itâs my job to give you your Merry Christmas.â Billy explains it like heâs got it all planned out perfectly. Like heâs some kind of genius.
Steve rolls his eyes, mostly because it hides how easily flustered he is by Billyâs proclamations, âOh come on. Itâs not like that..â
âWhat? Youâre having a hard time this year, for obvious fucking reason- did I mention I already hate your parents?â
âBilly.â Steve warns, not ready to sidetrack another topic to talk about something that will only make him depressed. Itâs not as easy for him to hate his parents as it is for him to hate Billyâs.
Billy nods in unspoken understanding and goes back to his point, âAll Iâm saying is, the point of havinâ someone like me around, is to make shit better. Right?â
âI donât know man, since I seem to remember the last time I tried to help you first, you told me you werenât a charity case and to never bother you again..â
Steve never forgot that attempt, even after everything that went down between them. It was just one time, in the showers after their way too high contact game of basketball. The angry red belt scars on Billyâs back caught his attention and heâd brought it up, only to be shut down.
There was always a sick, guilty feeling in his stomach about never trying again after that.
âIf youâd just quit beinâ so stubborn, we got lots of shit to get done tonight. No time for self-deprivation.â Billy remarks casually though, unbothered by Steveâs worries. He even adds with an over exaggerated wink, âMaybe Iâll throw in that present I promised you once you start cheering up.â
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The Harrington house does end up shining brightly that night.
Just as Billy promised, they stayed up all night doing everything they wanted to, no imposed rules or familial traditions involved, no triggers of past Christmases that neither were quite ready to share yet on display.
They donât bother fishing out the huge eight foot synthetic tree Mrs. Harrington insisted on having to show off, the monstrous thing just there to collect dust in the basement now. They find a smaller one instead, an old fiber-optic tree Steve used to keep up in his room as a kid, his way of sneaking a nightlight past Mr. Harringtonâs strict rules for his boy.
The tree is proudly displayed on a side table pushed over to the front window, and decorated with only homemade ornaments. Billy âaccidentallyâ dropped a few of the fancy collector ornaments that used to force Steveâs own childhood creations off.
His mother was obsessed with making everything look straight out of a catalog, but the simple and childish decor was enough for Billy and Steve, without the additional twenty strings of lights in every corner of the house, or the poinsettias and crystal nativities adorning every available surface in the house. That was all a headache.
They light the bayberry candle too, putting it on a fancy dish at the center of the coffee table, not in the fancy sconces heâd have to scrape wax out of later. Billy pretends about a thousand times heâs going to blow it out just to fuck with Steve, earning him equally as many lectures on the bad luck and death and pestilence heâs bringing upon them.
Really thatâs the dynamic they have the whole night; Steve flutters around his house an absolute nervous wreck, Billy just tailing after him to remind him that whatever they want to do.
Itâs actually fun this once, behaving in a way not for appearances or hollow celebrations. Billy understands making Christmas special, personal. Heâs someone who gets maybe one present per year and canât afford any decorations but generations old glassware and yard sale blow molds.
Steve admittedly wasnât really expecting to solve so many of his troubles in one go, especially not with help from Billy, who he thought was supposed to hate him after everything. But Billy just makes it so easy to like him, once Steve got the handle on understanding him.
He even got to see that gentle side of him open up. When Steve tangled himself up in tinsel and started to panic, and Billy had to remind him everything would be fine, he got to see it up close. The delicate concern in Billyâs eyes. The softness in his voice.
Okay, and maybe they shared one or two kisses under conveniently placed mistletoes Billy claims to not know the origin of.
He wasnât all sunshine though, instead of just telling Steve that a Christmas angel or the hard to display window wreaths didnât need a place in their festivities, heâd taken to literally smacking whatever was troubling Steve out of his hands and making him go do something else while it was put away.
In the end they still donât do a lot of the things Steve normally would, most things really, but he realizes at some point, after baking a batch of cookies at about three in the morning, both of them wearing his Imaâs glittery aprons, that this isnât about all that anyways.
What he and Billy started, this Christmas Eve, was a new tradition, one which didnât rely on expectations, or keeping up with everything everyone ever asked him to do.
All of this was about doing something new, something they hadnât up to this point been able to call their own for countless unhappy reasons they pledged not to talk about until at least the day after Christmas. Neither saw any need to dampen the cheer they did find this special holiday, all on their own.
Once everythingâs sort of wound down, Steveâs head is all fuzzy with a buzz from the cheap alcohol Billy had convinced him to put into the generic gallon of eggnog he had about to expire in his fridge. Billy has a blushing face and a finally relaxed posture.
The both of them are sitting under their tiny tree for reasons neither can remember. Somewhere down the line, they started holding hands.
Steve asks, mostly as a lighthearted comment he doesnât really expect an answer to, âSo, I guess youâre gonna come over for Christmas every year now, huh?â
Billy looks to him and scrunches his nose up, emphasized by the way his face is pink, his smile turns bright and lopsided, the way it looks when he really means it, âAre you kidding me, Stevie? Iâm coming over here every goddamn day if I can.â
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He made his list
He checked it twice
Have you been naughty?
Or have you been nice?
đ You made the NICE LIST!
Somebody's been nice this year. How about a candy rose? I made them myself. Enjoy and have a happy holiday!
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My Harringrove Relay Race Piece!
Word Count: ~700
Pure sfw romantic fluff đ
@harringrove-relay-race
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Carol got a flat tire and canât make it in time.
So here Billy and Steve are.
Sat on the floor, ice packs in hand like weapons, the two of them working as a tactical team to keep Heather's brain from overheating. That's not how it works, but Billyâs ocd brain heard that cold helps her feel better after seizures on a hard day, and sort of ran with it.
Their best friend is epileptic, full time under the care of their other best friend. The boys are no medical professionals like Carol, but theyâre functioning off of enough practical knowledge to be trusted to keep her safe.
Heather, however, doesnât like feeling crowded.
Now that sheâs responsive and relaxed again, propped up on some pillows, she complains, âReally, I donât need babysat, you guys.â
Steve instantly backs off. He understands the feeling of overstimulation, comparing in his head the feeling of having a crowd around after a meltdown, blurry forms of faces getting too close.
Billy would. But his instincts are screaming at him to hold it in place. Keep her cool, or something bad will happen. Something he doesnât even wanna think about.
He swallows his nervousness thickly, âWeâll stay âtil Carol gets here to help you out.â
âYouâve said that a million times, bub.â Heather smiles softly, understanding, at the same time really trying to get Billy to understand sheâs okay.
That makes him sort of sheepish. Embarrassed by the part of himself he always wished he could control. He forces a little smile too, âIâm not bothering you, am I?â
âOf course not, sugar lump. But Steve looks like heâs going to faint. And you look tired.â She gently pushes on his cheek to make him look at Steve, and yeah, he does look worn the hell out. Damn it. Heâs spent too much energy caring for everyone else again. Billy would be drowning in guilt, if not for Heatherâs reassurances, âI don't feel seizure-y anymore. Iâll be okay. I promise.â
Caught between two sides of his own thinking, Billy starts to chew the inside of his cheek. Not even noticing heâs doing it.
Until Steve interrupts, quiet to show he isnât mad, just observing, âBad stim.â
He always carries at least two chew necklaces for that reason. Usually his favorite cloth one, and a rubber one for Billy. The chewies hurt his own teeth, but he wears it anyways, just in case his Billy needs it.
Itâs romantic really.
And it is as well when Steve loops it off of his own neck, and places it over Billyâs, giving him an easy fix to the harmful chewing.
Appreciative, Billy kisses the palm of Steveâs hand as he puts it on him,
Watching the moment, Heather snorts a little laugh at them. âYou two are so lovey-dovey. Itâs disgusting.â
Billy rolls his eyes back, âAw, youâre just saying that.â
In the short stretch of silence that follows, Steve decides to scoot a little closer and lay his head on Billyâs shoulder. At first, he thinks he might just want some affection, but the action suddenly reminds Billy of something.
âDo you wanna tell her?â He asks Steve, trying to be quiet about it.
She hears anyway. Propping herself up, Heather wiggles her brows, âOoh, tell me what?â
âPromise not to have another seizure?â
âYou know thatâs not the way it works.â
âI donât know⌠this is pretty big.â Alright, so maybe heâs nervous and stalling for time. So what?
Heatherâs voice gets squeaky in frustration, âJust tell me, William!â
The anticipation is too much. Steve declares it himself, tapping his hands excitedly, âWeâre getting married!!â
Grocery bags and car keys are dropped to the floor behind them. Carolâs home, and she has Tommy with her.
Billy and Steve will be the first of their friends to get married. It might help that they donât have college or kids or budding careers in the way, but Billyâs proud of the achievement anyways.
Tommy flashes a signature cheeseburger smile and gives a thumbs up behind Carol, who herself shrieks, âWhat?! Tell. Me. Everything!!â
Everything including Billy dropping the ring under the couch and losing it, or Steve crying so hard he got the hiccups, and couldnât eat the cookies Billy baked to celebrate?
He wonât say no, but theyâre going to be here for a while.
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Hiya omg merry Christmas I know how important this time of year is for you, I hope itâs going amazing
Hiii! I hope your Chanukah went amazingly as well!! And that your celebration of the holidays will be so special!! Youâre a big part of the reason why my Christmas will be so so happy this year â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
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