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Taking steps to become a worship leader at school has honestly been one of the reasons i’ve been finding joy in my faith again.

Like, I get to take a step back from all the homophobia, transphobia, and cruelty of what’s being taught around me and lose myself in harmonies all about God’s love and care. Get to remind myself and those who I know are struggling that “hey, this isn’t the end. soon we’ll be out of here, able to live the life we were meant for. and until then, God’s going to stay right by our sides, no matter how much they try to convince us otherwise.”

It just,,, hope in such a tangible way.

Also I get to wear the subtlest gay crap possible as a silent “frick you” to administration which is neat.

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Trigger warnings!!:

Mentions of religious trauma.

No, this is not a fanfic. This is a candid, raw, and very real post. But something is pulling at my insides to make this post.

I never really talk about this facet of my personal life on the internet and for good reason, it’s a private facet of my life that I tend to prefer to keep that way. But.. here goes.

For starters, Im a religious person. Devout Christian. Always will be. But before you go scrambling to scroll away, there’s something else I have to say.

Im also, as many of you know, LGBT.

And with this, comes lots and lots of religious trauma. For those who know me from my main account and were there in fall of last year, you’ll remember my… situation that happened.

The truth is, religious trauma is real. And it is very very dangerous. Hate is a dangerous weapon that cuts the vein and leaves one to bleed out like cattle. And it can affect anyone and everyone, even devout Christians.

The hatred that is spread does nothing but cause open and still bleeding wounds to resurface before pouring salt and vinegar into the flesh. It’s painful, it’s terrifying, and it’s a feeling I know too well. The random onslaught of panic attacks is something I already cope with regularly as is, and.. it’s safe to say certain things don’t help.

And normally I wouldn’t post about this, but maybe.. just maybe.. there’s someone out there who will benefit from hearing my own story, who will know that they aren’t alone in what they feel.

Because you’re not.

And I know it sounds corny, and I know it’s said a lot, but you are beautiful and loved. Remember that. No matter your past or present or future you are loved. By so many.

It’s ok to admit you’ve been hurt, no one will stone you for it. Admission is step one to letting yourself heal from open wounds. You can’t fix a broken leg without first acknowledging that it’s broken, after all.

I guess what I’m trying to say is it’s ok, you’re going to be ok, and you’re loved. You’re not alone, and one day you will see the sun again.

Love, is the most important quality we should have towards each other. And everyone (everyone!!) deserves love. And everyone is loved. Does this make sense? I hope so.. I can rephrase if needed, I’m sure,

And if I lose followers for this, that’s alright. I have spoken my truth and you’re allowed to disagree peacefully. I’m glad we’ve had a chance to know each other and I wish you nothing but love and good fortune in all you do.

But I hope, I sincerely hope, that this vulnerability helps someone realize that they’re not broken. They’re not unwanted. But that they are indeed beautiful and so very special. And most importantly, not alone.

All my love to you from the bottom of my heart,

-musingsofmemory

(Of course, if anyone needs a space to talk or vent or anything, my DMs are always open. I’m here for you, if you need any sort of support. <3)

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love working with the little kids in church

like heck yeah you pray to God about how much you like your new toy or how excited you are to go to your grandma’s, you absolutely superb tiny individuals

#queer christian #christianity #christian #church #kids ministry

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“Any view that reduces Jesus to a sort of deus ex machina, necessary only for a single moment of rescue, strips the incarnation of all its power and tells a far simpler story than the one the Bible actually gives us.

Jesus didn’t just “come to die.” Jesus came to live—to teach, to heal, to tell stories, to protest, to turn over tables, to touch people who weren’t supposed to be touched and eat with people who weren’t supposed to be eaten with, to break bread, to pour wine, to wash feet, to face temptation, to tick off the authorities, to fulfill Scripture, to forgive, to announce the start of a brand-new kingdom, to show us what that kingdom is like, to show us what God is like, to love his enemies to the point of death at their hands, and to beat death by rising from the grave.

Jesus did not simply die to save us from our sins; Jesus lived to save us from our sins. His life and teachings show us the way to liberation. But you can’t fit all that on a bumper sticker.”

- Inspired, Rachel Held Evans

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Shoutout to aro Christians 😌✊ you guys are cool forreal

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Hello! Welcome to Heaven’s Made Of Rainbows. My name is Sera, and I’m a demisexual Christian. I use she/her and xe/xem pronouns.

I’m a minor who attends a Christian school, albeit an unaffirming one. I myself have constantly felt pressure between two options: give up my faith and embrace my “sin”, or “repent for my sin” and become the thing that’s caused me so much pain.

I for one am tired of feeling like this, so I made this blog. If you’ve ever felt this way, I want you to know, you’re not alone.

This is a safe space to question, to vent, and to doubt, because how are we supposed to grow without seeking to understand? God gave us communication and curiosity, and I think they should be embraced.

And if you’re Muslim, Jewish, Catholic, or even non-religious (or any other group!) this is a safe space. We’re strongest united with each other as God wants to be with us. All I ask is you be respectful. I’m fine with questions, but I won’t tolerate any homophobia, transphobia, racism, sexism, or anything of the sort here.

Feel free to send in any asks, I’ll do my level best to respond. I love you guys, God bless <3333

#religious trauma #religion #christianity #faithfullylgbt #queer christian #lgbtq #lgbtq pride #catholic #tw christianity #tw religious trauma