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[heysoftie]

March 9th, 2020

Dear Diary,

So much has happened in the last couple of months since I last wrote on here. I moved across the country to be with my fiancée who is now my lovely wife. We live together and I am over the moon, all the heartache and pain I felt made up for the fact that we’re now together.

I now work at a coffee shop and although sometimes it seems like its hard I still love it. I am still however a tea person, I hate coffee. I’m thinking of getting a tattoo soon with my wife.

The pictures above are of us going out on a food run at 1 am because as my wife says “I’m always hungry.” I love food, finally after having no appetite I love it again.

Today (technically tonight since it’s 3 am) is the ‘worm’ full moon and I am so ready to manifest such positive energy for this year. I am finally happy and I want to keep it that way.

#honeymoon #diary

[heysoftie]

Dec. 6th.

Hi Tumblr,

I haven’t written in a while. I made my cardd so I completely stopped writing here but here’s a few updates.

in exactly 7 days I will be reunited with my honey and for the first time in a very long time, be loved and cared for. Uh, Today was okay. Harry styles released a new song which I enjoy a lot. I had my last class of creative writing and it was sad but also okay because I got free donuts. uhm, my grades are all good I have A’s and some B’s. Overall I’m doing amazing and just overall feel like the next year will be the best year of my life. That’s all.

Song: Adore you by Harry Styles.

#honeymoon #diary #happy #things will be okay #harry styles #adore you

[heysoftie]

It’s November.

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything here cause i’ve been so busy but I promise to get back into it soon. x

#diary

[heysoftie]

I’m really sad

Dear diary,

I know I haven’t written anything in a couple of days but its simply because I don’t feel okay. I keep trying to numb the way I feel and I have been for months but I’ve reached a breaking point where I just needed to talk it out myself. I prayed to god and I told him everything that has been going on with my life and how I feel this constant weight on my chest because I’m alone. The person I was going to move in with, my fiancee, isn’t with me. It’s been two months since I’ve been living by myself and I hate it. I hate it with everything inside of me. I was pretending to be okay and to ‘love it’ for the sake of the time being until Freddy and I moved in together, but I hate how my dad just sent her home. I’m constantly bottling up my feelings and I feel as though today was just my breaking point. I know I always post about how happy I am but I’m just, so sick of feeling lonely... It comes in waves though. Some times I’m okay and other times I’m not. I keep telling myself it's okay but deep down I know the feeling could be fixed if my parents changed their minds. I hope they change their minds because I miss her, more than anything. Especially now, writing this with tears in my eyes. 

#honeymoon #diary #sad #alone #lonely #Rosie

[heysoftie]

soft family. 💜

#honeymoon

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did you know love was invented by nathan scott and haley james in 2003

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#honeymoon

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#honeymoon

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