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Another year has come and gone since you physically left - and each year missing you doesn’t get easier 💛

“Grieving the loss of someone you love, feels like carrying them around, hidden and invisible to the naked eye, but your spirit heavy with their memory and presence.

I carry him with me every day, and these days don’t weigh me down as much with sadness. These days his memory stamped on my heart is as normal to me as the colour of my eyes , the sound of my own voice.

When you mention him, You aren’t reminding me of him. He’s already intertwined with my every thought. When you mention him you are reminding me I’m not alone in remembering that he did exist, that he was here & he was my soul mate”

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Even if I knew the day we met would be the reason this hear breaks, Oh I’d love you anyway

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Kids, huh

so my 10 year old son, honestly loses his shit at me all the time, when i try to talk to him he yells that i care about his sisters more than him, that i like them more.. all while yelling and screaming while im trying my best to talk to him normally.

when your medicated and try to lower the doses and this bullshit makes you think you need to up it again because being yelled at all the time isnt my idea of fun.

for some reason i've always wanted to give them the things i didn't get as a kid, but they dont even appreciate it - they just want more more more, like the cost of living isnt an issue right now.

this is all over the place..

i miss my mum, i wish she was here to help me navigate this, my dads great .. but i hate this time of year.. when it reminds me that i lost one of my best friends and my mum within a year of each other yet their anniversaries are only 10 days apart.

i dont know i feel fucking defeated - my almost 4 year old has the attitude of the 8 & 10 year olds & i love my kids i do, but god i need a break from their fighting and attitudes and tattle telling.. theyre the best kids for everyone else but us.

and yeah i know im a good mum, i know my mum would be proud of me but fuck thats not what i want to hear when i feel this way.

ughh fuck its so fucking hard putting on the happy go lucky face some days man

youd think after 10 years id know wtf im doing and how to handle it 🙄

and back to mr 10 - we are building an extension on the house so they can all have a new room, thought that because he's the oldest and the only boy he could have it , well fuck me he's not appreciative of that at all - makes me want to burn it all🔥

i think this is whats causing the excessive migraines too

#kidsuck #adultlife #parent #missmymom #missmyfriend #whyisbeingaparentsofuckinghard

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“Butterflies cannot see their wings. But the rest of the world can. - You. You are beautiful and while you may not see it, we can.”

— Unknown

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HBD

We've always been connected on a cosmic level.

So, I'm sending your birthday wishes on the stars.🌟

#dct #soulmates #bestfriend #lefttoosoon

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I love to sleep, because there I get to dream.

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I HE was too young to know how to love herME.

“I was too young to know how to love her.”

— Antoine de Saint-Exupéry / The Little Prince

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“You have a place in my heart no one else ever could have.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

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& we will meet in the next ....

We must have met lifetimes ago... 🌊🦋

By @dreamy_moons

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Unconsidered

I knew you were it; From the second I saw you I knew you were it; Something short-circuited And at the same time Everything fell into place. I knew I would love you forever, But I loved you like a kid, I did; I just never considered One of us could stand to Ever lose a love like this; I never once considered I could lose you. I never once considered you would leave, Until you did.

— 10-4-2022, M.A. Tempels ©

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i knew from the moment i met you, i would spend a lifetime missing you

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