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Ok so can someone explain to me where THE FUCK do these pics even come from😭? My search was all fortune and you are telling me a site was gatekeeping these? How😭😭😭?

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rockfic

Did anyone save or download any of my fic from Rockfic? My handl there was BaronZemo. I should have uploaded it all long ago but… ah. Some of it is on Ao3 under my other name, so I’m looking for anything that wasn’t backed up there. Thanks!

#rockfic

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DAYYYUM 1993 Tim Daly.

#tim daly #queen 1993

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Ian Gillan

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Actual footage of any queer Plantagenet king meeting any Despenser.

I should stop comparing every Despenser to Hugh the Younger (I won’t tho) but like…Thomas le Despenser litterally gained the favor of a queer king with a name that ended with “2”, used that favor to steal people’s lands (including the lands of the same Gilbert de Clare, who had been dead for over a century by Thomas’ time) and do wathever the fuck he wanted, became wildy unpopular because of his actions and seems to have enjoyed the controversy a whole lot….This is litterally a poor man’s Hugh, I cannot believe

#history #despenser #plantagenets #hugh le despenser #thomas le despenser

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It was “Mistreated” which I believe was dedicated to Tommy more than once on Rainbow’s 1977 tour of Japan. There’s audio of one such dedication but no video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zC28a3nKOW4

Im going to seem overdramatic for this but when I read that Ritchie Blackmore with Rainbow dedicated a song to Tommy Bolin in memory, (I think it was live but I'll have to look more into that) I literally wanted to cry because THATS SO SWEET OMG ☹

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I’m coming to this conversation really late, mea culpa! I don’t use Tumblr much, and I only write occasionally nowadays.

When i wrote “Snakebitten” -- which was a difficult fic to write, because it’s long, first of all, and secondly because it has such a large cast -- I watched a bunch of interviews and I relied a lot on the book “Sail Away” by Martin Popoff. A lot of the most interesting stuff in Snakebitten (IMHO) is straight from “Sail Away”. It’s mentioned in the book that Cozy didn’t want Sykes in Whitesnake (page 108) and didn’t like him. Well, I can’t guarantee that’s how Cozy felt about him every moment of their shared time together.

The other element of “Snakebitten” is that it’s told entirely from David’s POV, and I’ve said before that he’s not intended to be a perfectly reliable narrator. If I were to rewrite it from John Sykes’ POV, it would be a VERY different story. And same from Cozy’s. We’re seeing David’s take on everything that happens around him. One thing I’ve suggested a couple of people do is reread the story with that in mind, and then ask yourself: Are John and David actually lovers? The most that happens “onscreen” is they kiss. David thinks of them as having this intimate relationship, but I left it deliberately ambiguous. By the end of the fic, David’s perception of John as this beautiful cancer that starts strangling the life out of him is very biased. Is John actually sabotaging anyone? Are he and David even intimate? Does David read way more into their relationship than is actually there? Is David projecting his own trauma over Blackmore onto Sykes? Did Sykes cold-bloodedly ditch Phil Lynott for David, or is that just David assuming a lot about a very deep relationship that he knows nothing about? 

I always look forward to seeing different takes on the same people in this fandom. Part of the reason I characterized Cozy as I did is because I wanted someone who sees through Sykes’ glamor. By the end of “Snakebitten”, David is sure that Cozy was right all along. Unfortunately, Cozy’s perspective is something that didn’t fit into the story, but I’d love to see an alternate take!

I've finished reading that Coverdale/Sykes fic and now i wonder if Cozy and John were really on bad terms. Because the pictures i've seen of them together show the opposite🤔

To be honest, I haven't researched John or Cozy enough as individuals to really know for sure.  @ritchieblackless‘s posts have definitely given me a better view of Cozy’s nice side, and led me to believe he's a better person than my first impressions of him were.  This said, Cozy has a stubborn side, and even if he had moments where he grew to get along with John, I don’t think he’d hold back any opinions of him.  Also, he could hold his own with people who can be challenging to work with -like Ritchie Blackmore, or Andy Johns (Cinderella’s producer, who was known for being a bit of a tyrant in the studio... supposedly, the reason they had session drummers like Cozy for the studio recordings was because Fred Coury was TERRIFIED of Andy.)  Being able to hold up to people like that usually takes a lack of fear to stand one’s ground (let’s face it, I could see Ritchie respecting Cozy for not being afraid to tell him off, and turn it into snide, playful banter). It could be that Cozy might have had a better ability than some other rockers of not oversharing negative opinions of his bandmates to the press, too.

The fic mentions Cozy’s preference to be noticed more than an average drummer, and I did readily find a video clip where John describes Cozy in a way in line to this: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=UoeNwdi1O8I “Over the top”.  If John made that opinion known to Cozy, I don’t know what Cozy’s response would have been.  Since reading the fic, I’ve seen other things to suggest Cozy could seem shy and humble, but there can be a difference between enjoying being noticed and having signature appearances associated with yourself, versus enjoying being worshipped -the latter, Cozy was not so much a fan of.

What IS easily to tell by what he’ll say -John Sykes still holds plenty of bad blood with David.  There’s enough evidence that John wanted to be at the forefront/leadership point of the band, so I could see him trying to pull power from David -and ultimately being fired to prevent it.  Why Cozy might have had trouble with that -one theory I have is how we know that Cozy was in Whitesnake during a very unsteady time.  Cozy’s been in a number of bands -some he enjoyed, and some he didn't.  I could see him recognizing something (or someone) that might cause further destabilization of lineups and band morale, and not being shy to say it -and I could see John potentially holding a grudge over that.  And we’ve seen with other musicians Cozy’s worked with that Cozy didn't think highly of people who hold a grudge (the worst offender being Michael Schenker, who Cozy didn't like at all).

Anyway, that's the best analysis I can give for today. (Maybe I’ll think of something else to add on a day I’m not up before the crack of dawn.)

#whitesnake #rockfic #fanfic

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I find it so interesting that the most notorious wankers in fandom all come from extremely privileged backgrounds. Cassandra Claire, Thanfiction, HIVLiving, and LGBTmazight all grew up in very well-to-do families, had every opportunity in the world, and people making excuses for their behavior their entire lives. Is it that you need that much undeserved confidence to be a racefaker and lie to people’s faces? (I feel I should point out that Cassie Claire and Thanfiction, AFAIK, never racefaked. They just faked being normal human beings.) Maybe growing up with everyone kissing your ass makes you feel entitled to that treatment in fandom?

So, now that I’ve processed THAT POST and the insanity behind it that made me spend the last week having panic attacks, followed by flashing back to all the traumatic shit I dealt with in the last 10 or so years thanks to people with similar mentalities to the puritanical, power-hungry demons on this site. Except that was in real life, and I can’t handle this crap anymore.

This year, I finally reached the breaking point to the extent that my family had to stop pretending I’m not damaged. I still can’t go to therapy, but I am taking anti-anxiety/depressants now. One of the things that elevated my already-high stress level was The Old Guard fandom and the toxic environment that killed the one joy I had last year.

What was that? Seeing a movie with an un-stereotyped, irreligious, artistic queer North African man who looks like a male version of me. Seeing him in a loving relationship with a fellow Mediterranean, like so many of the couples I grew up around, parents of ethnically mixed friends I had. I came into the TOG fandom, excited, immediately making posts of facts, translations, seeking out other MENA/Mediterranean people to connect with, because fuck has it been lonely.

And I did. Very briefly. Before shit went to hell because of Hélène and her circle of tyrannical friends.

I still can’t believe they were allowed to get away with this.

I went out of my way to write ridiculously detailed posts on MENA culture, history, language and religion, answer so many questions, with links and details that could only come from someone who grew up with this stuff and spoke Arabic. And I had people questioning my validity??? Talking shit about me, bullying me, or even trying to discredit me because I *gasp* stated a fact that upset their racist headcanons.

Meanwhile, a very Americanized Rich White French Woman, was allowed to get away with constantly changing her ethnicity, religion, economic status, skin tone, family history, make up insane contradicting stories of suffering, and claiming oppression points from so many unrelated demographics. Not just that, she got to peddle racist bullshit as fact, frame the Amazigh of Morocco as if they’re Native Americans, all the way down to the claims that her grandfather was a ‘shaman’, when that couldn’t be farther from the truth. That, and applying Black American stereotypes, experiences, and issues to MENA people, especially to herself.

And use the ‘I’m insert minority’ excuse to get away with being an unrepentant monster. 

I smelled a rat ages ago, but any time I expressed it to someone they didn’t believe me, and then when I saw what happened to my friend after he DM’d her as a ‘fellow Moroccan’, the horrific shit that was mobilized against him that chased him off the site, I knew I couldn’t handle what would happen to me if I tried to question her bullshit. The stress this fandom gave me was much more than what I had managed to stomach all these years and I had reached a breaking point.

So, I left. I let them have my only representation in exchange for my sanity. I canceled all my remaining Joe-centric/culture posts and fic ideas for TOG and told myself to never let myself forget that I’m not welcome anywhere.

Oh, and these tweets?

They’re about me and nizarnizarblr, who was run off the site. I’m ‘an anti-arab fanatic’ for saying North Africans aren’t Arabs and that our dialects can be barely intelligible to actual Arabs. And he was a ‘rabid nationalist’ for saying the same things as me. We made large educational posts about OUR part of the world, OUR cultures, OUR experiences and that wasn’t approved by the Western Liberals of Tumblr dot com.

She fucking slandered us on a site known for mass-bullying campaigns and suicide-baiting people, called us these inflammatory terms because we actually knew what we were talking about. She used hot-button political terms to stoke mindless hatred against us, the people she was racefaking as.

This RICH WHITE WESTERN WOMAN hated that there were actual North Africans in the space she wanted to rule over, who could ‘threaten’ her position as the authority and token, and that us contradicting her could get her exposed, so she fucking weaponized her following.

DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW DANGEROUS THIS IS? DO I NEED TO EXPLAIN TO YOU HOW RACIST THIS IS? SHE COULD HAVE RUINED OUR LIVES!

The thing that had briefly brought me joy, encouraged me to write two enormous fics after a period of writer’s block, now makes me sick. The one space I should have belonged in could have killed me.

I, someone that actually shares Joe’s background and has been told I look like a female version of him, got suspicion, disrespect, hostility and chased out of the fandom along with fuck knows how many other Brown/Muslim people under the command of the embodiment of privilege and her cronies, that loved getting the platform to abuse others because they used her words as gospel.

Where are they now? The Anglo/North Euro women that appointed themselves the authority on how to write a MENA man, who tried to tell actual MENA/Muslim people in the fandom how he should be portrayed to the extent of organizing smear campaigns against us when we defied their authority? Why are they all suddenly so quiet when you couldn’t pay them to shut them up?

There was no way you could be friends with someone like Hélène, in groupchats with her for months, and praising her to high heaven for giving you ‘sources’ and ‘sensitivity reads’ and not know what kind of person she was. Considering they all were just as vicious and racist, xenophobic and antisemitic, they must have agreed. That’s why they defended her, went around DM’ing people to delete their reblogs of the exposé. It’s not that they didn’t believe the overwhelming amount of evidence, it’s that they were panicking about losing the pedestal she afforded them.

I ASK AGAIN: Why were they so horrible to actual MENA/Mediterranean/Muslim people yet had their head completely up her arse when she claimed to be ALL THREE. What made her so special? Why did she get sanctified while everyone actually part of those demographics was demonized?

They knew. The whole time they knew.  This was all done to give her and her chosen few complete control of a fanbase, where their word was law and any deviation got you witch-hunted out.

Now that their golden goose of consequence-free tyranny had been scratched, they’ve switched to trying to deflect from the point of that post – that she’s a sickeningly horrible person – and are making it about the dumbest fandom shit imaginable.

This isn’t about that fucking half-baked movie. This about all the shit she’s done over the years and continued doing within the community that was built around it. Helene and her shithead friends, used her race-faking and lying about every part of her identity and background, and a fictional MENA man as their carte blanche to abuse others, when they HAD NO RIGHT OR SAY IN THE MATTER.

This woman didn’t just spend years lying about being poor to con people out of money, spouting tankie shit, being a genocide denier, a 9/11 truther, cycling through ethnicities, religions, backgrounds, pretending to be like 2 different types of Jewish while being antisemitic, spreading wrong cultural shit she Googled wrong as fact, a racist and a race-faker, who brown-faced and seemed to be bordering on digital blackface as well, I know I’m forgetting a bunch of other shit because HOLY FUCK!

This woman went about everything with a baffling amount of confidence, while I and so many others never disclosed our backgrounds, until this fanbase demanded it, out of the need to feel safe from racial abuse. Yet, she was basically pretending to be me and got popular off it.

She called Marwan Kenzari a slur that makes me sick, that is not a word that comes up randomly, especially the way she used it. It has to be something you say regularly, without hesitation, for it to be the first thing that comes to mind. Also, that image of him? The one that stirred up that hideous response from her? In it he looks like my dad, moustache, brown jacket, cropped hair and all. So, kosomik ya Helene.

The fact that her URL is ‘lgbtmazight’ when she isn’t anything of the sort is sickening. She couldn’t be arsed to check where Marrakech is or what color it was for her racefaking tall tales, or check that there tens of millions of Amazigh people in Morocco alone, or even understand that there are no literal translations, so NO ONE is using tbarkallah as a fucking mic-drop.

Seriously, she put no effort into this and everyone believed her.

And there are people defending her. How evil do you have to be to think there’s nothing wrong with any of this? Stop fucking making it about two fictional characters and think about the REAL PEOPLE THIS HAS AFFECTED!

I hope everyone that tagged her as or used her as a source deletes her posts off their blog, I hope no one recommends her wrong and racist posts as info, I hope anyone who claims she was their ‘sensitivity reader’ removes her name, I hope no one believes any of the shit she said or has their view of MENA people and culture shaped by her.

It’s the least you could do.

#fandom wank

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My favourite ambrollins segments / moments [33/?]

Seth humiliating Dean using his crotch

#Ambrollins

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Headcanon: Soldier Boy got kicked out of boarding school because he was caught kissing another (male) pupil.

#soldier boy #the boys

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Ian Gillan and his patented fashion style, ‘whatever was on the floor when I rolled off the bed because I was late and hungover’

God this fucking idiot

#Ian Gillan

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90s erotic thriller cinematic universe

I was just discussing with one of my best friends how I’ve been on a ‘90s erotic thiller kick lately. The ‘80s-‘90s were THE era of the erotic thriller, they ain’t made ‘em the same before or since. I’m sure most people have watched or are at least aware of Fatal Attraction and Basic Instinct, but there’s a lot of lesser-known movies that offer some fantastic trash for our viewing pleasure.

There’s a podcast called, appropriately, Fatal Attractions and I was listening to their episode about Unlawful Entry (a fantastic thriller from ‘92 starring Ray Liotta, Kurt Russell, and actual goddess Madeleine Stowe). Anyway, the hosts were joking about an erotic thriller version of the Avengers, with Catherine Trammel as the Nick Fury analogue, and while that’s a hilarious mental image and it’s a shame it’ll never happen, this thought occured to me --

IMAGINE a movie where Pete (Ray Liotta from Unlawful Entry) met Alex (Glenn Close from Fatal Attraction). HOLY SHIT. I think it’d be 5 minutes of them meeting, followed by an hour-long sex scene in which these freaks wreck her apartment having nasty sex on every available horizontal surface. And then which of these two fucking maniacs would snap first? I actually think it’d be Pete. He’s very composed and manipulative with men, but with female characters the rage simmering beneath his surface ignites very quickly. I actually think Alex would be cooing over him and trying to talk about opera, and he’d snap and call her a slut and try to strangle her. Then it would be FUCKING ON. The last hour of the movie is him and Alex trying to slaughter one another in the most vicious ways imaginable. 

#erotic thrillers #relevant to my interests #unlawful entry #fatal attraction

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lol he’s adorable

#kip winger

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‘why does spock have a beard in discovery’ he had one in the original series too her name’s t’pring

#star trek