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actually not done going feral over this. Idris is personally caught in the perfect/absolute worst no-win scenario. her two biggest fears are failure/letting people down and losing the people she cares about. and now they are in direct opposition to one another.

if she dies, the world ends or reality collapses or the universe unravels, details are a bit hazy. but it's bad for literally everyone. this means Idris's number one job is staying alive, at any cost. if she dies, she has completely and utterly failed and all of reality has to suffer the consequences.

however, in early campaign Idris made it clear that she is willing to risk her own safety/life and the natural balance of the universe to save her friends, Lemming first and foremost. she'd rather die than lose them and end up alone. but now she can't die, she has to live.

(Idris has to live and she Hates It. it's less a matter of wanting/not wanting to die but rather not having the option to choose. it isn't really her life anymore. it isn't her death; it's the end of the world. personal agency doesn't matter when the fate of literally the whole universe depends on you.)

"we should put a line in the conract about if we fail and [Farryn's patron] kills everyone whom Farryn's ever loved that he can't kill Idris. Otherwise reality ends. So he can kill all of us but not Idris"

meanwhile Idris, the person in charge of writing aforementioned contract, is fighting to stay present in the conversation because they party has just discovered yet another possible outcome in her story that's an inescapable nightmare and her own personal hell.

#idris tag #i love her and all of her anger and anguish and anxiety. shaking her in my mouth like a chewtoy.

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"we should put a line in the conract about if we fail and [Farryn's patron] kills everyone whom Farryn's ever loved that he can't kill Idris. Otherwise reality ends. So he can kill all of us but not Idris"

meanwhile Idris, the person in charge of writing aforementioned contract, is fighting to stay present in the conversation because they party has just discovered yet another possible outcome in her story that's an inescapable nightmare and her own personal hell.

#idris tag

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took myself on a little date to paint at the arboretum

#undescribed #scenery

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fishes for the homos i mean homies

[ID: nine fish with collaged scales of different colored and patterned paper, each with glittery fins.]

#described #accessible art

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Teach the children. We don't matter so much, but the children do. Show them daisies and the pale hepatica. Teach them the taste of sassafras and wintergreen. The lives of the blue sailors, mallow, sunbursts, the moccasin flowers. And the frisky ones – inkberry, lamb's-quarters, blueberries. And the aromatic ones – rosemary, oregano. Give them peppermint to put in their pockets as they go to school. Give them the fields and the woods and the possibility of the world salvaged from the lords of profit. Stand them in the stream, head them upstream, rejoice as they learn to love this space they live in, its sticks and leaves and then the silent, beautiful blossoms. Attention is the beginning of devotion.

Mary Oliver, Upstream: Selected Essays

#quote #mary oliver

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we got the rammies (ramifications), we got the sympies (sympathies), now get ready for the impies (implications)

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Family sketches featuring Baby Alex! ✨

Bonus:

You take your eyes off the child for a minute and he steals a sword or wears a cursed bracelet smh

#THE MUMMY RETURNS FANART!! #YESSSSS!! #the mummy #rick o'connell #evelyn o'connell

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the choice

#d20 fhjy #fhjy spoilers

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#tragedy tag

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Are you planing on drawing Lydia Stormborn?

Can’t believe I’ve only drawn her like,, three times maybe?? Love a badass mom!!

[ID: a digital drawing of Lydia Stormborn. She is a human with wavy hair, who wears a button up shirt, a belt, jeans, and bracers on her wrists. Over this she wears a long, flowing, hooded cloak. She glares, saying “You will bear my chains”, which is written above her. The text and her eyes both glow a bright blue. The background is a light grey. End ID.]

#naddpod #naddpod bahumia

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i couldn't rest until i made something this is driving me insane. so what if i dismissed your success as because of your hardships instead of in spite of them

#fhjy spoilers #d20 fhjy #d20 fhjy spoilers

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pov she's shattering every window in your house

prints

#fantasy high #fig faeth #love the lil horn jewelry

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mutuals you would sit on a power line like little birds with

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[frostkettle] sorrow & rage

#learning the rat grinder relationship dynamics this episode was so good. kipperlily was just an angry kid. she sucks now #but like who would she be if they didnt get mixed up with ankarna. if lucy was still alive? #d20 fhjy #fhjy spoilers #d20 fantasy high junior year

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“i had a little journal to press flowers in, and irina stole it from me and ran around, and i chased her, and by the time i got the book back, he was bukvar” and then fia later saying “she is like a pressed flower in my mind” about irina. okay.

#🥺😭💕 #naddpod eldermourne #eldermourne spoilers #fiarina

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being employed sucks. being unemployed sucks. and just in case those two options aren't enough, there is also a secret third thing called being an independent contractor which combines all the worst parts of being employed with the worst parts of being unemployed to achieve Maximum Suck.

#if I 'quit' tomorrow it would leave not one but two different businesses scrambling before their busiest season of the year. #and it would feel so good. however it would burn some professional bridges and I need money to live. #so instead I shall continue to be a load bearing contractor.

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IT WAS!!

was it Eugenia Shadow's ghost steak that Fig tried to eat freshmen year??

#d20 fhjy #d20 fhjy spoilers #dimension 20