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One my passions and goals in life is honestly to spread education about the luteal phase and how for many women, or those with female hormones, YOUR BODY LITERALLY DECIDES NUPE FUCK YOU WE AIN'T HAVING ANY OF THE GOOD SHIT.

And if, like me, your body already requires MORE simulation to kick start that sweet sweet dope and shit—yes, you are entering a major depressive period in luteal because your brain is LITETALLY receiving no rewards for, like, living. OF COURSE WE BE FUKED.

Honestly discovering meds that remind my body to process good shit has done so much for me (plus better lifestyle choices lol).

the bravest thing a girl can do is survive the days leading up to her period

#luteal phase #period crazy #pmdd #fuck pmdd

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🙃 Regular reminder that while Hozier has amazing love songs, he is ALSO very outspoken about his leftist politics, specifically anti-fascism, anti-racism, reproductive rights, Palestinian rights and more.

Take Me To Church and Foreigner’s God are scathing critiques of organized religion, specifically the Catholic Church and the colonization of Ireland.

Moment’s Silence is about oral sex but it’s ALSO about how that specific sexual act is often distorted to a show of power rather than that of love.

Nina Cried Power is an homage to various (mostly Black) civil rights activists from the US and Ireland and a call to follow their path.

Be criticizes anti-migrant policies and Trump and his ilk.

Jackboot Jump is about the global wave of fascism and about protest and resistance.

Swan Upon Leda is about reproductive rights and the violent colonial oppression of Ireland and Palestine.

Eat Your Young is about the ruinous way the 1%/capitalism and arms dealers prioritize short-term profit over everything else to the detriment of the youth/99%

Butchered Tongue is about Irish and other indigenous languages being suppressed and erased by imperial powers.

If any of the above surprised you, please, please delve deeper into Hozier’s music, you’re missing such an important part of his work.

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Does that mean we... love each other?

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Solar Opposites S04E00 || An Earth Shatteringly Romantic Solar Valentine's Day Opposites Special

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Feminist fantasy is funny sometimes in how much it wants to shit on femininity for no goddamned reason. Like the whole “skirts are tools of the patriarchy made to cripple women into immobility, breeches are much better” thing.

(Let’s get it straight: Most societies over history have defaulted to skirts for everyone because you don’t have to take anything off to relieve yourself, you just have to squat down or lift your skirts and go. The main advantage of bifurcated garments is they make it easier to ride horses. But Western men wear pants so women wearing pants has become ~the universal symbol of gender equality~)

The book I’m reading literally just had its medievalesque heroine declare that peasant women wear breeches to work in the field because “You can’t swing a scythe in a skirt!���

Hm yes story checks out

peasant women definitely never did farm labour in skirts

skirts definitely mean you’re weak and fragile and can’t accomplish anything

skirts are definitely bad and will keep you from truly living life

no skirts for anyone, that’s definitely the moral of the story here

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You're a loser, baby~

I love the level of detail in "Loser, baby" on a narrative level and how much it can tell us about HuskerDust. Husk didn't want to go after Angel; Charlie sent him. But at that moment, when the mask began to fracture, Husk extended his hand to the real Angel.

The smile? Husk has a plan. The kind of plan that involves pure nihilism and stopping self-judgment so Angel knows he's not alone. Husk doesn't need to do this, but he already knows the real Angel (when he's drunk) and likes him. So, Husk is offering the real Angel his company.

Angel is waiting for the typical “everything is going to be fine” talk. How many times has he heard it? Cuddles, hope, and light But Husk surprises him by treating him like an equal, someone who won't break. Obviously, it bothers Angel, and he gets defensive. Is this guy kidding?

The same guy who was annoyed by Angel's presence is now all over him, with the most pretentious smirk in the universe, calling him a LOSER (and baby). Angel is so confused by the turn of events.

So, obviously, Angel thinks Husk is playing with him. His face says it all! And Husk is still all over him, telling Angel the truth.

In this part, Husk shares his insecurities. Yes, there was a time, but the pain is still there. And from what he's gotten to know Angel, Husk feels like they could connect there. “You are not alone” goes both ways.

Husk manages to get Angel to open but does it with sarcasm. At this point, Angel doesn't think anyone is going to accept him as he is. So, he says something that many know: his contract with Valentino, who has a dangerous reputation. That's the opening Husk was looking for.

This part isn't Husk making light of Angel's situation. He's making it clear to Angel that he's not “unique”, that is, he's not alone. His suffering is not something that separates him from others. Husk is breaking into Angel's self-isolation due to his abusive relationship.

Obviously, Angel doesn't believe him. Years of abuse made it clear to him that no one is going to care for the real Angel. But he's indulgent with Husk, playing along, visibly skeptical, wanting to know where this is all going.

And Husk takes him by surprise again. He is gentle, guiding Angel, giving him space, always offering his hand. It's a fun dance for two. They are both losers. Husk isn't insulting him. He is telling him that it's okay to make mistakes. They both have done it.

So Angel decides to trust. Just a little. Because he knows how people react when they know who he is. Angel is barely singing, not fully entering the song.

And when Husk tells him that he's fine with Angel being like that, it's liberating. Angel sings, there is a crack in his voice, because he is having fun! He is not acting, he is being sporadic and exaggerated, almost a parody of his flirtatious mask.

Now it is Angel who seeks out Husk, recognizing him as the one who can understand him and is liberating! And Husk reaches him, reminding Angel that they're in all of this together. And Angel smiles. A big and real smile.

Husk shares his addictions to give Angel the opportunity to share his in a safe space. And now Angel sings with all his potential, being himself and having fun. And Husk reaffirms him. This is Angel, the real Angel that Husk met when Angel was drunk.

And that is the theme of the song. Embrace who you are and don't be ashamed. Take every self-destructive comment, dirty insult, and don't let them sink you. Say "So what?", it's you, you're fine, you're good.

Accept your mistakes, your failures, your flaws, and stop being your own enemy. It's hard to escape, but there is someone who understands you, and you aren't alone. Existence sucks; bite it with a smile!

And that's the point. Things aren't magically going to get better. The problems are not going to disappear. Life sucks, but you're not alone. The burden doesn't disappear, but it may be more bearable.

Angel is the one who comforts Husk, telling him that yes, existing is difficult, but he's not alone. He has him. And for Husk, that's something. The song is about them, after all.

And Husk tells him that maybe he and Angel can be losers and find happiness.

And now it's Angel who offers Husk his hand. Now it's Husk who puts his hand on Angel's. And Angel can't erase his surprise and smile.

Now Angel is the one accompanying Husk. Angel's voice becomes an instrument that follows Husk in harmony. The fun dance of two returns, but Angel includes his style. Husk no longer has to guide him.

They both reach for each other. Husk extends his hand almost at the same time as Angel, with his eyes closed, extends his.

And in the end? They both support each other, literally and symbolically. They are equals. Husk and Angel meeting in the middle. The real Angel being accepted by Husk.

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Pirate Daddy bringing us wholesome messaging and a hopeful outlook for OFMD to be picked up by another platform??? Happy Saturday, my loves!

Plus, we're his friends 😭😭😭

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At the very least, a LIBRARY should respect Performative Art.

Such as with Orville Peck, his masked presentation—context aside—is not based in sexuality or mental health. It is a conscious decision as an ARTIST to represent himself as such. It is PART of his art. And Chuck Tingle, we know, is far more than a "mere" Author. He is an artist.

This reductive perception of the form art takes, and the overbearing prejudice displayed by this library, is disgusting.

....but it is in Texas and no doubt state funded, so I guess we shouldn't have expected any different....

THE TEXAS LIBRARY ASSOCIATION HAVE ISSUED AN APOLOGY AND A RE-INVITATION. HERE IS MY STATEMENT

hello buckaroos. the TEXAS LIBRARY ASSOCIATION have issued a formal statement and apology which you can read at the attached link.

while i find the language used to discuss what was done a little unsatisfying, i would like to start by saying i appreciate anyone taking steps to prove love is real and make things right. the genuine feeling of ‘realizing you have made a mistake and hurt someone else’ is a terrible one, and i have so much empathy for this group as they reckon with their choices causing harm. i appreciate their apology.

i also think more good than bad has come from this situation. i am so thankful this happened to me (someone with a large social media presence) and not a smaller buckaroo author without the means to stand up for themselves. i think the next time someone comes to the TXLA with an accommodation need, they will hopefully be taken more seriously

lets trot down to business about specifics now. the TXLA has re-invited chuck to the original panel and even offered to take a moment at the top of the panel to talk about what happened. this is very kind of them and i will say THANK YOU. 

unfortunately i will also have to decline.

the fact that it took this much effort, social media backlash, and discussion to let me simply EXIST PHYSICALLY in a way that is authentic to myself is not a good sign. if this organization immediately questions an authors chosen presentation in this manner, i cannot imagine what my other accommodations would be met with.

sometimes i am at an event and i very quickly need extra space to breathe. sometimes i am at an event and i need special guides to help me along from place to place. these are not ‘big asks’ and every other conference has gladly provided them, but if the TXLA had this kind of initial reaction to my physical appearance, i cannot imagine them readily helping with my other needs without ‘proof’.

this is clearly not a safe place to trot for those who require additional accommodations. regardless of any apology, their ACTIONS have shown that people who appear unusual or unique are not welcome at this event on a subconscious level. i believe the TXLA have some serious inner work to do beyond this apology, and i believe this inner work will involve actions more than words.

but even more importantly i would like to make this very important point: IT DOES NOT MATTER IF MY MASK IS A DISABILITY AID OR NOT. i appreciate the way this discussion has allowed us to trot out some deep talks on autism and proved love in this way, but i think there is a much more important point at hand.

regardless of WHAT someone looks like, it is not the job of an event or conference to pick apart WHY. physical presentation can be a part of someones neurodivergence, or gender, or sexuality, but i can also just exist as a nebulous undefined part of their inner self. it can be a piece they are not ready to openly discuss yet. the guests at TXLA are authors (aka ARTISTS) and the idea that a conference dedicated to an ART is going to deny people with unique and unusual presentations for ANY reason is absurd. since when are we applying a ‘dress code’ to our artists?

without knowing it, i personally believe there is an element of the ‘good queer, bad queer’ phenomenon going on here. there is a push to say ‘LOOK we accept these marginalized groups and cultures’ but behind the scenes that means ‘we accept these marginalized groups and cultures who are quiet and speak in turn and wear the metaphorical suit and tie’. it is easy to show diversity when you only take on the voices that arent too ‘strange’.

to prove my point i ask you this: do you think orville peck would have FOR ONE SECOND been asked to perform at the texas library association event without his mask?

so with that i say ‘very sincerely, thank you, but i will have to decline the re-invitation. maybe next year’

#love is real #txla #chuck tingle #buckaroo lifestyle #texas library #performative art #artist life #artist branding #artist representation

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This is the big question.

As creators, if THIS kind of success isn't enough... why do we bother?

It's terrifying.

lost for words tbh.

if amassing a major cult following and selling merch and being in the #1 streaming spot and having hundreds of people clamouring for s3 on social media isn’t enough

then what fucking is

#ofmd #i’m heartbroken #our flag means death #creative people #us creatives #hollywoodsmollywood #system is broken #fuck cost of profit #some bullshit #no integrity

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One of the biggest shows and they can it.

Why the ever living fuck.

I hope this is because, story wise, a third season wouldn't be a worthwhile addition. Not because of homophobia.

But track record says...

I’m going to get pissed

#david jenkins #taika waititi #rhys darby #our flag means death #ofmd

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Me just now realizing that Hannibal while in Italy went by the name Dr. Fell and rebounds on a guy who looks like Will named Anthony

This show ended in 2015 yet the good omens coincidental references!! How?!!

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No but there have been SO many opportunities for Nandor to swoop in and be the dashing dark prince of the night and the writers NEVER LET HIM DO IT. Guillermo saves himself every time, and Nandor besides, and Nandor is a mild hindrance, if anything. The damsel in distress, more often than not!

But this time Nandor got to be the prince, FINALLY. He got to be the one to swoop in and fix everything and give Guillermo not only what he always wanted, but ultimately what he truly NEEDED. And it was all so crucially tied up in how well Nandor really does know Guillermo, how closely he pays attention to Guillermo and always has.

And I'm weak for it, okay? Utterly besotted with their dynamic. They know each other. They save each other. They complete each other.

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Scream it again for people in the back!!!

changing should never be shameful

#mental health #world news #emotional intelligence

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THIS **slight NSFW**

But something that WOKE ME was learning suicidal ideation isnt actually being fixated on death or dying... it's wishing for life to stop.

To pause life. To escape it. To just...be still.

...to stop.

This is Ed for me.

He doesn't NOT want to live as you said.

He's just so so tired he no longer wants to TRY. He no longer wants to hurt.

He wants THIS to end. Not himself.

The danger comes when an intrusive thought just presents itself as..."wouldnt it be so easy if we just ended it like this?"

And the thought doesn't mean END YOU.

Just, END THIS.

And the scary part is, in that state, sometimes you aren't putting worth in the fact they are the same thing. You arent acknowledging your own worth. Just the pain. Hopelessness. Everything that tells you your dreams will only ever be dreams and you will never feel okay again and the world is cruel and unjust and—

I wish more people understood this about depression and suicidal ideation.

So many more people would be able to recognise they need help.

I think the most realistic thing about Ed's suicidal behavior at the beginning of s2 is how much he wants to live.

Even as Ed is planning his suicide, he's longing so desperately for a life and a love he thinks he cannot have. It's not that he wants to die, necessarily, it's that he wants to live a life that is full of love and where he can feel more like himself.

And in the gravy basket? After Ed has already goaded his friends into beating him to death? Ed can STILL think of reasons he wants to live.

And they're not complex things! Warmth, good food, good sex. Ed loves the little pleasures that make every day more enjoyable. And, yeah, his mind immediately shuts him down and reminds him he doesn't think there's anyone waiting for him, but Ed is still hesitant. "I feel like I'm supposed to choose to live," he says. He's trying so hard to find reasons to stay alive.

I love so much that Ed had to be thrown off that cliff. He's fighting the whole way down. He's just committed suicide but he doesn't fucking want to die.

It's such a lovely depiction of someone coming back from suicidal ideation. All Ed needed was anything he could hold onto to give him hope that there's something worth sticking around for. And when he has something to hold onto? He grabs it so fucking tight.

And now? He knows there are plenty of people looking out for him. His days are full of warmth, good food, and orgasms. He's getting to actually plan that fantasy he was crying his eyes out about at the start of the season because he thought he could never have it. He's getting to believe he can have the life he wanted.

It's so hopeful and lovely. No one else is doing it like OFMD

#ofmd #our flag means death #suicidal ideation discussion #menth health

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About the S6 news —

I'm happy.

Seriously. I remember ages ago them saying Season six would probably be the last. And I'd MUCH rather we are given a proper complete series with a fantastic PLANNED ending...

Than WWDITS overstaying its welcome and watering down its plot for "content" 🙄

It's still sad to know the end is coming.

But I'm just happy it's happened.

The cast are so amazing and deserve to move on to bigger and better.

Another great thing!

#wwdits deep dive #wwdtis spoilers #wwdits theory #wwdits #nandermo

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So. Fucking. Mad. It wasnt revealed Troy was bi and started dating Glenn. Literally only thing missing.

Something something jegulus variant something something jegulus theater camp AU

#theater camp #glenn and Troy should have kissed #glen x troy