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i think part of the reason why i have an ed and obsess over my weight so much is because i grew up with my family constantly telling me i needed to lose weight.

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AIT day 9

Goal: 700

Intake: binge

Calories Burned: ~113

🙃🙃🙃

Thoughts: I was so frustrated about hitting a plateau (still!) that I binged. Tomorrow I’m starting a liquid diet to try and shake up my metabolism. I’ll still stick to the daily goals of this diet but by only drinking water, tea, low cal oj, and protein shakes.

#AIT diet #accountability #weight loss #daily intake #eating disorders #failure #binge

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…and this is my bedroom aka my Isolation Station™

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*doesn’t show affection* oh no, I’m making things awkward!!

*shows affection* oh no, I’m making things awkward!!

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Can you just imagine what it’d look like to sit down and not have your stomach looking like you’re 8 months pregnant

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AIT day 8

Goal: 750

Intake: 1,225

Calories Burned: 500

🙄🙄🙄

Thoughts: I know this is how it’s supposed to work, the goal calories being your net calories; but I hate it when I eat over the daily goal at all.

#AIT diet #weight loss #accountability #daily intake #eating disorders

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“It’s been a long week,” I say in the middle of the day on Monday. 

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Does any of you have

A weird combination of visible collarbones but big boobs, thins wrists but fattier upper arms, visible ribs but muffintop, strong and toned shins but fat thighs????

Idk I just feel so strange? Is this normal?

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A full stomach feels so disgusting

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I need to get my shit together or I’m going to be fat for the rest of my life.

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I feel like shit but I went for a run anyway

#running #weight loss #progress

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AIT day 7

Goal: 850

Intake: 1,416

Calories Burned: 310

😡😡😡

Thoughts: I binged on protein bars but low key did it on purpose to break my plateau. Still mad though.

#AIT diet #weight loss #accountability #daily intake #eating disorders #binge

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😔

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Is everyone miserable? Am I just melodramatic? Does everyone feel like this and just ignore it? Are they stronger than me? Does this make me weak? Does living to die make me weak? Do I have the right to want to die?

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i don’t think fat ppl are ugly. i think everyone’s beautiful. please don’t think that just because i don’t like my body i don’t like yours. i don’t care what size you are. i love you and i think you’re beautiful.

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REBLOG IF YOU WANT TO AT LEAST REACH YOUR GW1 BY HALLOWEEN