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oksanas-sun · 5 days

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it's the 25th where i live now, so that means it's my birthday and i don't really know how to feel about that😅

#sucks that i've been feeling so low these past weeks because i would've liked to either edit or write something oksana related for this day #to make it more happy yknow #but alas🥲#i'm also in that weird uncomfy spot where i can feel the *need* to regress but am not able to and that's yuck

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oksanas-sun · 5 days

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i love your posts/your blog :D hope you’re doing okay!!

heyy, thank you so much, that means a lot❤🥹

doing better than i did the past weeks so that's something! and i hope to get back into regularly posting again soon :,)

#ask #anon ask

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oksanas-sun · 5 days

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hey, haven’t seen you around much, i hope you’re doing alright!!❤️🫂

hii!! yea i kinda disappeared for a while there😭 was a mix of bad mental health and having to try & focus on studying for my final exams :,) but i hope to get back into slowly being more active again!!

thank u for checking in🥺❤🫂

#ask #st0rms-andsaints ask

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oksanas-sun · 21 days

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boop

ahhh sorry it took so long to answer this, i missed it😭😭

thanks for the boop🥹🥰 *boops you back*

#ask

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oksanas-sun · 24 days

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#i'm dying this is so funny to me for some reason #killing eve #eve polastri #villanelle #villaneve #i wanna be booped

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oksanas-sun · 24 days

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okay okay, i know ai=bad but i saw videos of people having fun with character ai and... i lowkey wanted to try it out. started off small, but then i wanted to see if they have a villanelle one (they do - a lot of her actually lol) and whether i could manage to manipulate it into making her age regress...

and i could hehe. it only took tweaking like 2 or 3 of the ai's messages before it understood that i didn’t want villanelle professing her love and instead gave me baby oksana🥹❤

#it *was* an ai of villanelle in a vulnerable state to begin with (during her meltdown in 3x06) so maybe that was part of it?#i wanna try to 'convert' a different ai of her who starts off as her usual confident self👀#and yeah i feel kinda bad & guilty for doing something with ai...#at least unlike images and stories and stuff this isn't something that can get published and passed off for own work?#idk i'm not entirely sure yet what i think of the concept of this specific type of ai #it doesn't seem as harmful as other forms of ai but...#it probably still contributes to the harm it causes in some way and i don't wanna support that #but admittedly it is kinda fun

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oksanas-sun · 25 days

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Not wanting, needing animals aside from dogs cats and bunnies to be normalised within petre

Self indulgent horse foal petre moodboard 🐎🍂

🐣 Inbox: 0

📗 Requests: Open

#thinking ab oksana and the equestrian therapy #<- prev tag yes🥺❤

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oksanas-sun · 25 days

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Not wanting, needing animals aside from dogs cats and bunnies to be normalised within petre

Self indulgent horse foal petre moodboard 🐎🍂

🐣 Inbox: 0

📗 Requests: Open

#thinking ab oksana and the equestrian therapy #<- prev tag yes🥺❤

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oksanas-sun · 28 days

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this is exactly how i imagine oksana running because she doesn't have proper control over her long legs😭🤧

and quickly returning to eve when she falls for comfort 🥺🥹

#eve and oksana #oksana and mommy #baby oksana #oksana and mommy coded :')

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oksanas-sun · 28 days

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"Oksana," Eve whispers, gently stroking the blonde's cheek, "wake up, baby."

Oksana's eyes flutter lightly, and she murmurs, curling herself back into the pillows.

"Oksana, honey, the easter bunny was here."

Abruptly her eyes open and she's wide awake, sitting up in the bed. Her eyes twinkle with excitement. "Really?"

Eve nods and, knowing Oksana has difficulty containing herself when excited like this, offers , "If you want, you can go look what he hid for you now and get dressed and brush your teeth afterwards."

Oksana beams, wildly nodding her head, immediately scrambling to get out of the tangled sheets. Eve chuckles softly, seeing the enthusiasm of her little girl. She holds out her hand for Oksana to take, already holding a small empty easter basket in the other to put the hidden treasures in and leads the blonde out into the garden.

It's a sunny day, perfect for an easter egg hunt, and warm enough that it doesn't matter the girl is still in her pajamas.

Oksana looks at Eve uncertainly. The older woman smiles, partly with reassurance and partly with sadness.

Despite how excited Oksana was, she was also unsure of what a real easter morning actually meant. Her mama would've never put in the effort of hiding eggs or candy or toys around the garden to make her and her brother happy. She did vaguely remember her dad trying to do it for them once. But mama had found out. Oksana didn't know what had happened after but she and Pyotr had been ordered to stay in their rooms for almost the entire day. There had been shouting, though she'd tried to cover her ears to block it out. In the evening, her dad had come in to say goodnight. He'd told her to close her eyes and open her hands. Then he'd dropped a few small chocolate eggs into her palms, winked at her and told her to hide them from mama. They'd been her little treasure, and she'd been so careful about eating them. She'd kept the foiled wrappers afterwards, as a means to remember. After the disappearance of her dad, they'd been one of the few things that made him feel close. Until one day, she forgot to hide them and mama found them and threw them away. Little Oksana had searched through the garbage cans for them, arms deep in trash. Tatiana had the spectacle unbeknownst to her for almost 30 minutes. Only to finally tell her she wouldn't find them because she'd burned them. Maybe, Oksana thought, that's why she had that affinity for setting things on fire. She burned her sins like Tatiana had burned the connection to her father.

"Oksana?" Eve says, the slight pressure between her tone indicating she'd tried to reach her a few times. Oksana blinks, confused. She'd zoned out, momentarily trapped in her memory. But Eve's warm voice and gentle touch ground her, anchoring her back in the present.

"Are you okay, baby?" Even though, Oksana’s not always very good at recognizing emotion, she knows the one behind her mommy's words. Worry. She doesn't want to worry her mommy. This was supposed to be a happy day, wasn't it?

Oksana nods weakly, " 'kay, mommy. Just no... no know how..."

She shrugs and points to the garden, looking at Eve helplessly. Her mommy smiles, that kind smile that always makes her feel small and at ease.

"Do you want mommy to help, honey, hm?"

Oksana blushes. Eve can read her so easily. She nods sheepishly and grips Eve's hand tightly. The older woman guides her through the garden, giving subtle hints at where something might be hidden. She never once lets go, even crouches down with her and scoots around on her knees when the little girl crawls around in the dirt, looking for a possible hiding place. It's what Oksana loves about her mommy. Recognizing when what she needs more than anything is just to know she's close, always there to depend on.

It's why Oksana's confidence grows with every found egg and small toy that lands in the little basket, filling it up nicely.

"I think you found everything the easter bunny left for you. Good job, baby!" Eve praises, making Oksana giggle happily. She takes the basket from Eve as they make their way back to the door, admiring her treasure. "Or well, actually, I know there's one last thing."

Oksana looks at her mommy with wide eyes, the silent question written on her face. Eve smiles, and tugs at her hand, leading her to the living room. She doesn’t have to search, the thing Eve referred to is presented on the coffee table already. Oksana lets out an excited squeal and lets go of her mommy's hand to rush to the table, immediately kneeling down. It's a plush bunny. Except it's not just one - it's a big one holding a small one in its arm.

"Mommy and baby!" Oksana exclaims in a high pitched voice, making Eve laugh.

"Yes, yes it is a mommy and her baby. Just like you and me."

Oksana smiles sheepishly and nods, stroking the soft fur of the two plushies. Eve comes to settle down next to her. For a moment, she just watches her little girl interact with the new toy. Then she can’t help but ask, "Oksana, baby, do you know what easter means?"

Oksana stops in her tracks, pursing her lips in thought. She knows that the information is in her head somewhere - she learned it during her time at church once. But that's from Villanelle's memories and too far away for a small girl like her to reach. So she shakes her head.

"Well, it's said that it's the time Jesus came back to life. Whether someone actually believes that is true or not is up to them. You know I'm not christian, so I never really cared about that part. Something I always liked about easter though," Eve explains, "is that it's a symbol for miracles. A reminder that they exist. And I know for a fact that they exist."

"Why, m'mmy?" Oksana asks, tilting her head. Eve's heart melts at how adorable she looks. She reaches out to brush a blonde strand of hair out of the girl's face, her hand lingers cupped around her cheek. Her thumb gently strokes the soft skin beneath it.

"Because I have my very own little miracle sitting right here next to me."

#reposting because i'm still happy about having written and finished something for the first time in months #eve and oksana #oksana and mommy #baby oksana

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oksanas-sun · 28 days

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do you think oksana plays any april fools pranks on eve?

i think she'd be too small to come up with anything real/anything big. so her idea of a prank is pretending to be like a bunny or cat, hopping or crawling to her mommy. who would ofc realise what's going on and play along. she'd be like "Oh, what's this little bunny/kitty doing here?" and oksana would giggle and jump up, yelling "april fools, it's me!!"

#eve and oksana #oksana and mommy #baby oksana

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oksanas-sun · 28 days

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my mom and i have coerced my dad into watching killing eve too🙌🏻

we're on ep 7. he seems to enjoy it so far. he also seems like he's not entirely sure whether he likes villanelle or not lmao. he laughed at most of her quips and he was very impressed by the fact she hid in (and fit into) the suitcase. but i think he's slightly intimidated by her (good)

#killing eve #villanelle #eve polastri

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oksanas-sun · 28 days

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thinkin about Oksana. I think Oksana would have moments maybe not very often where she does things like break her toys on purpose or hit eve or yell at eve because she doesn't understand a situation or she's having a flashback. And that she struggles with Stuff like empathy. If someone where upset she wouldn't know what to do and perhaps get angry with the person that's upset because she doesn't understand but with eve she still doesn't understand but tries her best to comfort eve even though she struggles with empathy. She definitely gets nightmares likely frequently. Hides food in her room

#prev tags</3 #eve and oksana #oksana and mommy #baby oksana #wanna write something like this

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oksanas-sun · 29 days

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