phoenixonyx15

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I cannot express how much I adore dappled shadows formed by sunlight in paintings and photography and in real life

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When I was a (unmedicated, undiagnosed ADHD) kid, like, under 12, my room was a mess all the time. Not shocking.

I struggled keeping it clean.

I struggled getting it clean.

I would sincerely put in quite a bit of effort and be really proud of the progress I made. Then one of my parents would come check and see how I was doing.

"Well, you've still got a long way to go."

That sentence. I was like, 11 when my parents were saying that to me. It was crushing. All my pride and satisfaction with my work was completely gone. All my effort was worthless to them. All they saw what everything I didn't do.

At the age of ELEVEN, I knew that wasn't right. That wasn't fair. I swore to myself I would never invalidate someone's work like that.

Now, at 30, I catch myself thinking 'I cleaned up, but my apartment is still so messy.' and I flashback to standing in my bedroom as a child, hearing those fucking words from my parents.

'No. I wouldn't invalidate someone else's work. I'm not going to invalidate my own. I did good. I made progress.' and I'll list the things that I DID get done to myself.

You deserve credit for all the progress you make.

You deserve credit for all the work you do.

It doesn't matter how much work you have left.

What you accomplish, no matter how small, counts. Even when what you accomplished was taking a day to rest and recharge and give yourself a break.

Never let anyone invalidate your work. Not even you.

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Somewhere out there on a planet very far away is a civilization that has included our sun in a beloved constellation of some animal we couldn't dream up if we tried

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istg Lex, u are the best 💕💙 *sends a virtual hug*

to all my moots and other autistic ppl out there!! please be aware of this!!!! ur health is important!!!!

#now i understand everything #like i always have these seizures and i just thought they were normal ._. #thanks OP for this! #and thanks Lex!!!!! #phoenix was here #autism #autistic

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i'm officially autistic guys 🎉

i finally got diagnosed and i'm kinda scared abt my teachers knowing this lol

#rambles with phoenix #autism #autistic

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"gracefully"

One word story time!

(Incase you don't know what a one word story is, let me explain the best I can:

Person-A writes one word, then Person-B writes a word after Person-A, and more people put words after Person-B, and so on)

First word starting our story today shall be...

"The"

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occasional posts from users

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It makes me happy when they listen

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i honestly forget that autism mums say 'autism won today' to mean like their kid had a meltdown and that they are ableist. like nooo autism win means something like i found something cool out about my special interest or i managed to avoid a meltdown or i got to infodump!!!!! autism win is good!!!!!!

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I will be a moth defender till the day I die because just look: she speaks for herself

(Source: alexey_tat on iNatualist)

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1K notes and i’ll reveal the gay draft

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Pics I took yesterday, I slept at a hotel for an event :>

#OMG ITS RED GUY #HIIIIIIIIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIH #hes so silly #i want a caprisum now 😭 #red guy #dhmis #phoenix was here

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do you guys ever feel like an outcast even in a group full of outcasts. like i'm autistic and even in groups full of neurodivergent people i'm still excluded sometimes. i don't understand why

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Loser, Baby - Keith David & Blake Roman (Hazbin Hotel)

Me and My Husband - Mitski

Love like you - Rebecca Sugar (Steven Universe)

this is what falling in love feels like - JVKE (Leon Leiden Remix)

Nothing's New - Rio Romeo

Bubblegum Bitch - MARINA

Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber

Soaked - Shy Smith

As It Was - Harry Style

La vie en rose - Louis Armstrong

Thanks for tagging me, buddy! :'))

My playlist is a real mix of many things, just like me lol

@lexa-ocean wanna try, Lex?

@vanilla-flavored-icecream @lobotomize-d @tadssstrange @debble-from-deltarun @birdy-bird27 @busybussinbee @just-that-pers0n @smikatoast @skylerfurmaniac @ceeezsquid + open tags!! :D

🤍 Shuffle Playlist Game 🤍

tagged by @swamp-satyr

Rules: you can tell a lot about a person by the music they listen to. Put a playlist on shuffle, list the first 10 songs and then tag people!

I’m using my liked playlist on spotify for this one, which is like 2k songs

1. to death - The OBGMS

2. Forward to Death - Dead Kennedys

3. 1999 She - Deaton Chris Anthony

4. Angels we have heard on high - Chanticleer

5. Pitch the Baby - Cocteau Twins

6. Exit Only - Fugazi

7. That Sedative - Bad Waitress

8. The Static Age - Green Day

9. Dark Entries - Bauhaus

10. I Dropped Out - And The Kids

I tag…….anyone who wants to do it. coward response I know I'm just scared of tagging someone who doesn't want to do it. what if they kill me with hammers. edit: apparently this post ended up tagging people anyway??? embarrassing.....well you know who you are

#music #tagging game #phoenix was here #let's ignore the fact that this was from one of my shipping playlists lmao

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I SWEAR I'M NOT OBSESSED WITH THIS MAN I WAS JUST USING THIS FOR REFERENCES

@lexa-ocean wanna try?

open tags bc I'm lazy rn

last fictional character in ur camera roll just adopted u

(Yes I did do this only because I want him to adopt me. Fuck off)

tags: @cryptidwithaninternetconnection @reggie-the-inferi @gingerbreadeel24 @pickupstyx

and whoever the fuck sees this

#rb #tag chain #phoenix was here #husk hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel husk

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*sobs uncontrollably*

You back yet, Phoenix?

kinda...? maybe a week or so idk

#thanks for the nickname ^^ #phoenix's art #my sona #my art #phoenix was here