relivingmydemons

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I have not been on here in months.so much has been happening in my life. I will update some stuff soon I've been wanting to talk about on here.

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Proofs that I'm a dragon:

-hoarding useless things -Like to have money -eating a lot -sleeping a lot -hiding inside my cave forever -avoiding humans

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Deep in my heart I know I am a loner. I’ve tried to blend in with the world and be sociable, but the more people I meet the more disappointed I am. So I’ve learned to enjoy myself, my family, and a few good friends.

Steven Aitchison (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

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My ex. My abuser. My highschool sweetheart. My everything. Or so I thought. Why are you still obsessed with me after over 10 years of a crazy nonsense relationship? You suddenly think you could treat me better and be better for me? It just sounds way too good to be true. And why am I obsessed with your every move? Why do I feel the need to skim your facebook messages because you left your login info on my laptop? I am just wondering if you are lying I guess, and keep being paraonid that something is going to go wrong. Maybe you are not being totally honest about how you feel about me. Maybe you just want to try to get into my pants.

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hi can we normalize the idea of choosing not to drink

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He said he'd be patient. And also, no longer angry. But I keep seeing the signs that he'll snap again. He snapped earlier, in my car over something I said about wishing my sister's relationship lasts because her boyfriend seems right for her and how she seems content in an committed relationship. He heard it way right and snapped at me. I told him to get out of my car, he tried to quickly apologize, to try to get me to keep talking. I tried again for ten minutes, and it wouldn't change. He blocked me on Facebook and I stupidly called his cell phone phone number, wondering why. I should have just let it be. I've often expressed not wanting to be intimate, and not anytime soon and I can't plan when that'll be. He'd keep asking. Eventually he got sick of no and insists he's finally rewarded a BJ for his patience waiting for the past three months, like I owed him sex apparently. I was in shock. If he cared about me wanting to remain abstinent for awhile, why would he begin to strongly insinuate for sex? I was wondering how far it'd go and I felt manipulated into saying yes because he kept guilting me into feeling bad for his lack of sex. He says I'm the only one he wants (hard to believe). I just don't get why he won't move on to another girl then since I'm not moving his pace. More borderline arguments continue.. I eventually get sick of it. I said I'd talk later and he was asking me to sext. I said not tonight please. I'll talk later. He says goodnight at first but soon continues, feeling like he needs to try again. I keep saying no . He keeps trying to persaude me with different variations. I eventually have to get real and say he's making me anxious and stuff. He eventually backs off.. I don't like getting that real with people but sometimes it's needed. I felt taken advantage of.. I hope we stop talking.

#ex #abuse #manipulation tactics #no change

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I tried being your friend. But you keep mentioning how you wish we were more. You asked for nudes tonight. I said no because I'm just tired and not in the mood. You then say you'll block my number and when I ask why.. anger is unleashed. You call me a cunt. You say I'm useless and ungrateful. I've never asked for anything from you. I just wanted you to be kind, and patient with me. I'm like an animal who feels constantly anxious like I need to run.. That's just not good enough for you. You don't have patience, you are rarely kind, you don't respect me enough to get to know me without wanting more and more. I don't want to be around a person who makes me feel guilty for not wanting to be with them instantly.

#gaslighting #abuser #ex #rude #manipulation

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Do you ever just feel like you annoy everyone but no one wants to tell you?

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Dealing with other people reminds me of why I like to be alone.

Raine Cooper (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

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Well shit haha Too accurate.

#truth #accurate #relatable

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If an apology includes phrases like “I should just kill myself” or “I’m just a fuck up”, it’s not an apology. It’s manipulative and just trying to guilt you into droping the subject. Sometimes even to make you apologize even though they were the one who did something wrong.

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the two bad fatigue moods:

gets super emotional, cries over the smallest things, empathetic™, can’t handle anything, irritable, overstimulated™, anxious

can’t feel anything, barely able to think, apathic™, can’t relate to anything, emptiness™, can’t cry, slow™, dissociating

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You guys are just doing this so you don't lose your app being accessible through the Apple store. I have been using Tumblr for well over 12 years, and this has never been an issue until some asshole corporation that sells over priced technology, dangles the threat of your app not being allowed on their products. If you guys would just make a stand and allow all types of content still, and keep safe mode active, then you would be the heros of a new wave of freedom of speech. Children are going to discover terrible things on the internet regardless of if you disable it or not because let's face it, porn and violence is so easy to find anywhere on the internet.

A better, more positive Tumblr

Since its founding in 2007, Tumblr has always been a place for wide open, creative self-expression at the heart of community and culture. To borrow from our founder David Karp, we’re proud to have inspired a generation of artists, writers, creators, curators, and crusaders to redefine our culture and to help empower individuality.

Over the past several months, and inspired by our storied past, we’ve given serious thought to who we want to be to our community moving forward and have been hard at work laying the foundation for a better Tumblr. We’ve realized that in order to continue to fulfill our promise and place in culture, especially as it evolves, we must change. Some of that change began with fostering more constructive dialogue among our community members. Today, we’re taking another step by no longer allowing adult content, including explicit sexual content and nudity (with some exceptions).  

Let’s first be unequivocal about something that should not be confused with today’s policy change: posting anything that is harmful to minors, including child pornography, is abhorrent and has no place in our community. We’ve always had and always will have a zero tolerance policy for this type of content. To this end, we continuously invest in the enforcement of this policy, including industry-standard machine monitoring, a growing team of human moderators, and user tools that make it easy to report abuse. We also closely partner with the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children and the Internet Watch Foundation, two invaluable organizations at the forefront of protecting our children from abuse, and through these partnerships we report violations of this policy to law enforcement authorities. We can never prevent all bad actors from attempting to abuse our platform, but we make it our highest priority to keep the community as safe as possible.

So what is changing?

Posts that contain adult content will no longer be allowed on Tumblr, and we’ve updated our Community Guidelines to reflect this policy change. We recognize Tumblr is also a place to speak freely about topics like art, sex positivity, your relationships, your sexuality, and your personal journey. We want to make sure that we continue to foster this type of diversity of expression in the community, so our new policy strives to strike a balance.

Why are we doing this?

It is our continued, humble aspiration that Tumblr be a safe place for creative expression, self-discovery, and a deep sense of community. As Tumblr continues to grow and evolve, and our understanding of our impact on our world becomes clearer, we have a responsibility to consider that impact across different age groups, demographics, cultures, and mindsets. We spent considerable time weighing the pros and cons of expression in the community that includes adult content. In doing so, it became clear that without this content we have the opportunity to create a place where more people feel comfortable expressing themselves.

Bottom line: There are no shortage of sites on the internet that feature adult content. We will leave it to them and focus our efforts on creating the most welcoming environment possible for our community.

So what’s next?

Starting December 17, 2018, we will begin enforcing this new policy. Community members with content that is no longer permitted on Tumblr will get a heads up from us in advance and steps they can take to appeal or preserve their content outside the community if they so choose. All changes won’t happen overnight as something of this complexity takes time.

Another thing, filtering this type of content versus say, a political protest with nudity or the statue of David, is not simple at scale. We’re relying on automated tools to identify adult content and humans to help train and keep our systems in check. We know there will be mistakes, but we’ve done our best to create and enforce a policy that acknowledges the breadth of expression we see in the community.

Most importantly, we’re going to be as transparent as possible with you about the decisions we’re making and resources available to you, including more detailed information, product enhancements, and more content moderators to interface directly with the community and content.

Like you, we love Tumblr and what it’s come to mean for millions of people around the world. Our actions are out of love and hope for our community. We won’t always get this right, especially in the beginning, but we are determined to make your experience a positive one.

Jeff D’Onofrio CEO

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Does alcohol excuse a person’s behavior?

I have a question for anyone out there who has either dated an alcoholic, is an alcoholic or just knows someone who is. If you found out about seven years later that your ex, who you were with at the time, ended up black out cheating on you, how would you feel? Is the excuse being black out drunk a viable one for someone who has cheated? And, once they realized what had happened, and decided to keep it hidden from their partner, doesn't that alone show a bigger trust issue? And what it the person they cheated on you with, is still a current friend of theirs? I have never been black out drunk in my life. I have a few drinks and then stop when I feel tipsy, and then begin the process of drinking water and eating right away. I don't understand the full need for a person to not care enough to get black out drunk, especially in situations where they may be vulnerable to their surroundings. I am no longer with this person but they never had any intentions to really tell me about their black out cheating mistake. I only found out because they for some reason saved their Facebook log in information my laptop. I should not have browesed their messages and invaded their privacy but they keep showing romantic interests towards me, and a part of me thought they may be lying. This particular person has been struggling with alcoholish since teen age years, and has done a number of awful things to me over the years. Does the excuse of alcohol consumption make a person's behavior acceptable for forgivness? Please comment here or message me. I would really like to know what other people think.

#alcohol #alcoholism #cheating #lies #ex #question #black out