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Cheers to my first walk of shame🍻

(p.s. it's loaded with sarcasm)

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Marguerite Duras, from The Lover

Text ID: to devour and be devoured,

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I don't know if it's this song I'm listening to, sitting on my windy terrace, looking at the sky and all the nightlights, but I might be falling in love with my life. No, it's not sudden, I haven't felt too differently in a while :)

No, it's not a boy, in fact for the first time, there is no boy and I'm content. Maybe I'm finally getting this right. But I do have people that I love, really love. But it's peaceful, to be soooo comfortable with myself. I don't know what's next, but I'm looking forward to it.

#hope #life #home #love #city #night #moon #stars

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I did it, I passed that exam :)

Hey neeru,

I know you're not able to put into words what you're feeling. But you know what you want. You have one goal. You want to work. You want to move on with your life. It's time to keep everything aside, and work hard for that. A month of hard work and you know it'll pay off. You know you can do it. I love you, and I know that's what you want it. It's time :)

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Okay neeru. listen to me. I haven't spoken to you in months. I'm changing that now. Let's break out of this cycle okay? you're gonna feel better, for which all you have to do is listen to me. I love you, you're not a bad person, you've just gotten used to seeing yourself a certain way, like you're weak and just depressed? doesn't matter if that's true or not, enough of trying to find out if that's true and hiding how you're feeling from yourself. Let's do this a different way this time and see if this makes things a little better okay? I'm here for you, I'm your rock, stop hiding yourself from me. I see you.

The last week, has been overwhelming. Work, friends, studies, that guy, instagram. It's a lot. Remember what the therapist told you? the first step to making yourself feel better is sleeping properly. You need to start by just picking a few things that you want to correct. One step at a time. Sleep, food, studies. That's good enough right now. It's not too late, don't panic about studying. You've deleted instagram now na? take a deeeeep breathe, you can get back on it whenever you feel like, no pressure, no guilt.

Right now, you're waiting for hot water. Take your bath, clean up your room, and sleep for 2 hours. Get up, have dinner, spend time with amma, try and do just 1 lecture, and just sleep. Kal ka kal dekhlenge okay? sote wakht you can text him and explain a little. Tell him you need time to fix your system the next couple of days, because you're little overwhelmed. I love you, now go :)

p.s. let's take a break from smoking yeah?

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Your stability is a facade. You are the king of your land. Land that is fortified by impenetrably large walls. You repress your subjects. You make sure there is no room for chaos or celebration. You think you have a control over uncertainty. I wonder how long before your kingdom falls. I wonder if there is somebody out there who will bring about that downfall.

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I need to start sleeping on time

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Hey neeru,

I know you're not able to put into words what you're feeling. But you know what you want. You have one goal. You want to work. You want to move on with your life. It's time to keep everything aside, and work hard for that. A month of hard work and you know it'll pay off. You know you can do it. I love you, and I know that's what you want it. It's time :)

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Why does my ass have such good game when talking to people I'm not attracted to, butttttt when I'm talking to the oneee person I'm crushing on, I'm such a dumbo, whyyyyy god whyyyyyyy

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"I'd rather be nowhere with her than somewhere without her."

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I remember waking up wishing to go back. I can't remember what I wanted to go back to

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I'm watching friends for the millionth time and I'm finally understanding how toxic Ross is in the first few seasons. Real bastard he is

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Don't ask questions you don't want asked back.

me : am I a good kisser?

him: yesss, am I?

me: ummm....

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I can't believe that I still have a physical reaction everytime I hear kaarkuzhal kadavaiye

#Spotify

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He gives me beautiful music

#Spotify

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Try to be like the person you're attracted to. Is that a thing? because maybe one of the reasons you're attracted to them, is that they have something you lack. And maybe when you fill the holes inside of you, it becomes easier to let them go?