rusted-essence

[rusted-essence]

Like the attitude towards psychotic people never fucking changes. Everyone shouts about respecting psychotic people until someone starts having delusions on the train and people whip out their phones to film and laugh at them. Everyone starts tweeting about better mental health treatments but in the same breath will call you a crackhead for having disorganized thoughts. Everyone loves their little Shane Dawson conspiracy theories but will ostracize the people scared/paranoid they’re being watched or poisoned. It’s a miracle whenever I can confidently tell someone I have schizophrenia and they don’t recoil or distance themselves from me and it’s a blessing when I can count on someone to still want to engage in a relationship despite knowing I have schizophrenia. Nonpsychotic people don’t get it. And this absolutely doesn’t just apply to ‘neurotypical’ people. You guys wanna think you’re above them when it comes to supporting other mentally ill people but most of you just act the fucking same. Your depression isn’t saving you from being a fucking dickhead, you’re just a dickhead on Zoloft.

#psychosis #psychosis definitely sucks #stigma is super shitty

[rusted-essence]

Terrifying way to wake up XD

~Julien

#hehe it is gonna be our kid lol

[rusted-essence]

Guillotine earrings, ca. 1793 

[rusted-essence]

#vultures #aesthetic

[rusted-essence]

#I love coyotes #coyotes #coyote is also such a dope nickname #also I’m back? maybe. I hope

[rusted-essence]

asks

Moth- What do you find attractive in a person?

Doll- do you collect anything?

Gravestone- Have you lost anyone important to you?

Roses- Are you in love?

Paper- What are you currently reading?

Locket- Take a selfie.

Milk- describe your family.

Blood- What is the worst injury you’ve gotten?

Dust- Talk about your past.

Bible- What are your moral views?

Lace- What kind of clothing do you wear?

Angel- What are your religious views?

Ink- Write a poem and post it.

Dagger- Tell one secret you have.

Statue- Who is your favorite artist?

Candle- what is your favorite scent?

Absinthe- do you drink?

Casket- do you believe in an afterlife?

[rusted-essence]

Weapons by HR Giger

[rusted-essence]

#Oo dope #weapons #knife #aesthetic

[rusted-essence]

Oh to be alive

[rusted-essence]

I’d send you asks but I already know the answers to all of those :(

Yeahhhh. Same lol

[rusted-essence]

37, 38, and 45? Also I hope that you feel better soon!!

37. Favorite swear word

Fuck. I use it all the fucking time

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep

Willingly 2 days. Unwillingly 2 days, but there have been weeks where I’ve only gotten a couple nights sleep

45. What is your favorite accent

Probably Irish. I can do it really well too. I used to listen to an ungodly amount of Irish music and I can now do it

#thanks for the ask #and thanks im doing a lot better now

[rusted-essence]

Get To Know Me Uncomfortably Well

PLEASE DON’T LET THIS FLOP AHHHH

1. What is you middle name? 2. How old are you? 3. When is your birthday? 4. What is your zodiac sign? 5. What is your favorite color? 6. What’s your lucky number? 7. Do you have any pets? 8. Where are you from? 9. How tall are you? 10. What shoe size are you? 11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 12. What was your last dream about? 13. What talents do you have? 14. Are you psychic in any way? 15. Favorite song? 16. Favorite movie? 17. Who would be your ideal partner? 18. Do you want children? 19. Do you want a church wedding? 20. Are you religious? 21. Have you ever been to the hospital? 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? 23. Have you ever met any celebrities? 24. Baths or showers? 25. What color socks are you wearing? 26. Have you ever been famous? 27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? 28. What type of music do you like? 29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? 30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 31. What position do you usually sleep in? 32. How big is your house? 33. What do you typically have for breakfast? 34. Have you ever fired a gun? 35. Have you ever tried archery? 36. Favorite clean word? 37. Favorite swear word? 38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? 39. Do you have any scars? 40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? 41. Are you a good liar? 42. Are you a good judge of character? 43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? 44. Do you have a strong accent? 45. What is your favorite accent? 46. What is your personality type? 47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? 48. Can you curl your tongue? 49. Are you an innie or an outie? 50. Left or right handed? 51. Are you scared of spiders? 52. Favorite food? 53. Favorite foreign food? 54. Are you a clean or messy person? 55. Most used phrased? 56. Most used word? 57. How long does it take for you to get ready? 58. Do you have much of an ego? 59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? 60. Do you talk to yourself? 61. Do you sing to yourself? 62. Are you a good singer? 63. Biggest Fear? 64. Are you a gossip? 65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? 66. Do you like long or short hair? 67. Can you name all 50 states of America? 68. Favorite school subject? 69. Extrovert or Introvert? 70. Have you ever been scuba diving? 71. What makes you nervous? 72. Are you scared of the dark? 73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? 74. Are you ticklish? 75. Have you ever started a rumor? 76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? 77. Have you ever drank underage? 78. Have you ever done drugs? 79. Who was your first real crush? 80. How many piercings do you have? 81. Can you roll your Rs?“ 82. How fast can you type? 83. How fast can you run? 84. What color is your hair? 85. What color is your eyes? 86. What are you allergic to? 87. Do you keep a journal? 88. What do your parents do? 89. Do you like your age? 90. What makes you angry? 91. Do you like your own name? 92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? 93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? 94. What are you strengths? 95. What are your weaknesses? 96. How did you get your name? 97. Were your ancestors royalty? 98. Do you have any scars? 99. Color of your bedspread? 100. Color of your room?

#so basically i just need to post something lol #sorry for the inactivity #ive been really depressed and psychotic #plus work and school have taken up a lot of time #but my dose was upped and im doing better #so im back

[rusted-essence]

Pursuit of Vikings Chorus in an English Futhark

From the chorus of Amon Amarth’s ‘Pursuit of Vikings.’

Original:

Oden! Guide our ships  Our axes, spears and swords  Guide us through storms that whip  And in brutal war

English Futhark:

#paganism #norse

[rusted-essence]

The skull of a two headed calf.

#bones #vulture culture #skull #two headed animal

[rusted-essence]

very 🍉 as of currently, 🐬/🐶 you act mature for your age lol, 🐷🌹+🦋, ☀️ 100%

Yeah I’m both masculine and feminine and go in between. I do act and look mature for my age. In 8th grade people were asking me where I work lol. I try to be friendly and strong, but I am definitely soft with you. And yeah I am hella tall hehe

[rusted-essence]

👀 (immortal, but like a young immortal. Like a recently turned vampire), 🐚 + ⭐️ (chill vibes. You're just vibing), ☀️

I totally vibe with the young vampire thing. I have chill vibes except for people I’m really close to lol. And yeah I’m definitely tall. Like almost 6 feet

[rusted-essence]

✨~Vibes~✨

Send me 🍓 if I give off feminine vibes

Send me 🍉 if I give off masculine vibes

Send me 🍎 if I give off androgynous vibes

Send me 🍇 if I give off vibes that don’t fit any of the ones above

~✨~

Send me 🌸 if I give off kid vibes

Send me 🌲 if I give off teen vibes

Send me 🐬 if I give off early adult vibes

Send me 🐶 if I give off adult vibes

Send me 🦊 if I give off elderly vibes

Send me 👀 if I give off immortal vibes

~✨~

Send me 🐷 if I give off friendly vibes

Send me 🐸 if I give off hyper vibes

Send me 🦋 if I give off soft vibes

Send me 🍁 if I give off angry vibes

Send me 🐚 if I give off quiet vibes

Send me 🌹 if I give off strong vibes

Send me ⭐️ if I give off a different type of vibe (tell me the vibe!)

~✨~

Send me 🔥 if I give off short vibes

Send me ☀️ if I give off tall vibes

Send me 💧 if I give off medium vibes

~✨~

Send me 🎤 + any other vibes I give off