sarromanni

[sarromanni]

1.4.2024

sorry for being unactive. our family issues are fixed ig, im really glad.

im going to school tmrw so ill be able to eat less yay!

#tw ana rant #starv1ng #tw self destruction #analog #tw self destructive behavior #ana rant #ana trigger #ana meal #ana tricks #tw ana diary #tw ed diet #ed disorder

[sarromanni]

29.03.2024

i remember when i was bmi 18,6 or sum like that. i was telling myself that its not enough and blah blah blah. THE THINGS THAT I WOULD DO TO BE BMI 18,6 RN! but ill get there again. ill get even lower. ILL BE BMI 14.

also idk what problem my father has but he decided to ignore me forever ig. it hurts me so much but i literally dont even know why is he doing that and in my house we dont talk about feelings sooo guess ill never know and ill die thinking my father hates me.

will i fix the relationship with my father sooner than ill kms? stay tuned.

inna

#pro a4a #tw ana rant #an0r3c1a #starv1ng #analog #tw ana diary #tw ed diet #tw self destructive behavior #tw self destruction #ed disorder #ana rant #ana trigger

[sarromanni]

28.03.2024

so i finally had the chance to weight myself and well, i gained. (what a surprise when youve been eating like a fat little pig that you ARE). according to some cheap bmi calculator, that i put all of my trust in, im now bmi 19,9. am i happy? ABSOLUTELY NOT. could it be worse? yes. atleast thats what ive been telling myself for this whole day.

my life is a mess and i hate every little second of it.

inna.

#pro a4a #tw ana rant #an0r3c1a #starv1ng #ana meal #analog #tw self destructive behavior #tw self destruction #tw ana diary #ed disorder #tw ed diet

[sarromanni]

27.03.2024

hello everyone!

this day sucks af, i didnt even get to weight myself. i really hope that i can do it tmrw cs i need to know how much i gained. ive been thinking if i should count my cw as my sw or my original sw as my sw and honestly idk. what do you guys think?

i have really tough time at home these days and im also sick so i cant even escape to school. idk if id mentioned this here but im kinda in love with my teacher. and my classmate said that he looked like hes been missing me ever since im absent!! one + for the day.

#pro a4a #tw ana rant #an0r3c1a #starv1ng #ana trigger #ana tricks #analog #anarex14 #tw ana diary #tw self destruction #tw ed diet #tw self destructive behavior

[sarromanni]

hey everyone!

i just wanted to tell you that im back. more motivated than ever, ready to start my journey all over again. i thought that i got better, that i "recovered." and well, i didnt. and im here to destroy myself completely this time.

stay tuned :3 /// Inna

#tw ana rant #pro a4a #an0r3c1a #starv1ng #ana trigger #ana meal #ana tricks #analog

[sarromanni]

day 7: do your parents know you are trying to lose weight? do they care?

im honestly not sure if they know. probably not, although they often point out that i eat "too little." i think that they would know if i was considered overweight. but i never was, i was always in the "healthy" or "underweight" range and my mother would often say that i have a nice figure. so why would i want to lose weight?

it is noticeable, i often say im not hungry and eat smaller portions than everyone. i also lost a visible amount of weight but they just seem not to care or notice.

so i would answer by a simple "no" to both of these questions as i have literally no reason to think otherwise.

#pro a4a #tw ana diary #tw ana rant #an0r3c1a #ana rant #starv1ng #tw ed diet #⭐️ving #ed vent #4norexi4

[sarromanni]

day 6: do you binge? if so, explain why you think you do.

yes, i do and i do it pretty often.

WHY?

because i eat way too little on a daily basis and then it just builds up to the point when i must eat everything.

some may say "just eat more in your everyday life then." but the truth is, i cant. i cant eat more when im aware of what im eating. im trying to work on it, but its so hard.

#pro a4a #tw ana diary #tw ana rant #an0r3c1a #ana rant #starv1ng #tw ed diet #⭐️ving #ed vent #4norexi4

[sarromanni]

day 5: why do you really want to lose weight? are you doing it for you? (posting late, ik)

i want to lose weight because i think that everyone deserves to be loved by themselves. but in order to be loved by ourselves, we need to do something about it, to actually deserve the love. or at least i do.

and i cant love myself looking like this. i hate many things about myself, starting with looks, my body and would say even my personality.

what can i love about myself then? there is nothing. i want to lose weight so i can look in the mirror and be, for the first time ever, enough for for my own love. and i also believe that once im skinny, my depression will be gone (pure delusion) and ill be able to take care of myself more and this would make me prettier.

i dont do this for other people and i never would. i would never stop eating cs someone came up to me and said "youre fat." nobody ever did, actually. i dont care about other people and their opinions, if they like me or not, what do they think about me and how they talk to me when im not there.

i want to please myself.

#pro a4a #tw ana diary #tw ana rant #an0r3c1a #ana rant #starv1ng #tw ed diet #⭐️ving #ed vent #4norexi4

[sarromanni]

30 day thinspo challenge

Day 4: Your greatest fears about weight loss

its never going to be enough.

someone finds out.

im not able to reach my ugw.

im not pretty even when im skinny.

my hair falling out.

ruining my future in case i dont die doing this.

feel free to share your fears in the comms.

#pro a4a #tw ana diary #tw ana rant #ana rant #an0r3c1a #tw ed diet #starv1ng #⭐️ving #4norexi4 #ed vent

[sarromanni]

DAY 3: a picture of your thinspiration. what features do you like about this person?

its honestly any kind of gothic/emo thinspo but here is some random example.

WHY DO I LIKE IT?

i like how emo people look when they are just bones. im literally obsessed with it and im waiting for achieving this.

i dont dress like this yet. cs im not skinny enough for it. but everyday i wake up, i know im one day closer to being skinny and dressing like this.

this is why im doing it. to be absolutely perfect.

#pro a4a #tw ana diary #tw ana rant #an0r3c1a #ana rant #starv1ng #tw ed diet #⭐️ving #ed vent #4norexi4

[sarromanni]

DAY 2: how tall are you, do you like your height?

im 175 cm (5'9) which is very tall for a girl and i have really mixed feelings about it.

ITS GOOD because its harder for me to gain weight, i have higher bmr and i can be tall skinny (which im not YET!!!!!!!)

ITS BAD because i can never be petite. i hate it just cs im tall, taller than some boys. i hate how i never feel small

so without an ed it would suck but thanks to my ed its like... better cs im losing faster but overall i want to be a little shorter... like 5'7?

#pro a4a #tw ana diary #tw ana rant #an0r3c1a #ana rant #starv1ng #tw ed diet #⭐️ving #ed vent #4norexi4

[sarromanni]

30 DAYS THINSPO CHALLENGE

DAY 1: your stats

height: 175 cm weight: 57,2 bmi: 18,64

i really want to try this, hope ill do the whole thing.

#pro a4a #tw ana diary #an0r3c1a #ana rant #tw ana rant #tw ed diet #starv1ng #⭐️ving #ed vent #4norexi4

[sarromanni]

when they ask what i want for christmas but my christmas wish is to be bmi 14.

#pro a4a #tw ana diary #tw ana rant #an0r3c1a #ana rant #starv1ng #tw ed diet #⭐️ving #ed vent #4norexi4

[sarromanni]

me when my parents

me

[sarromanni]

in daylight: "how could i ever smoke, never doing it again"

at night: "id kill for a single cig."

#pro a4a #tw ana diary #tw ana rant #an0r3c1a #ana rant #starv1ng #tw ed diet #⭐️ving #ed vent #4norexi4

[sarromanni]

im so weird like imagine being a normal person and then one day deciding that youll ruin your relationship with food and everything else forever

#pro a4a #tw ana diary #tw ana rant #an0r3c1a #ana rant #starv1ng #tw ed diet #⭐️ving #ed vent #4norexi4

[sarromanni]