shadowsinthehall

[shadowsinthehall]

hey fun fact did you know that if you're on the schizophrenia spectrum, have psychosis, have psychotic symptoms or traits, etc, that you're loved and your symptoms and traits should not be vilainized or seen as evil or ugly?

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It’s that time again! Help a disabled trans person keep housing

So I’m not gonna make enough this month to cover rent at the end of it. I can only work 20 hours a week and my paychecks are weird. I get paid for the 15th-15th of each month but I don’t get the check till the last day. Fuck working for a university. So I cannot work the hours I need to to make rent even if I work every hour I can.

I’m working on getting a second job but the job market in Portland is shot to hell and back.

Anything at all helps.

PayPal: bigbadhostile17

CashApp: $hostile17

Venmo: @hostile17

[shadowsinthehall]

I... Am using again. Oops.

Oops drug abuse made me depressed. Trying for California sober rn. Day one. After this beer.

[shadowsinthehall]

Counter of shame and temptation

Oops drug abuse made me depressed. Trying for California sober rn. Day one. After this beer.

#counter of MY ROOMMATE WONT HELP ME FUCKING CLEAN

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Oops drug abuse made me depressed. Trying for California sober rn. Day one. After this beer.

#day one is tomorrow but for real this time #going for a month #maybe then ill be normal about use again #mental illness #addiction

[shadowsinthehall]

Urgent M/tual A1d!!!!!

I'm so beyond broke 😭😭

I just need $168 and I can pay off my full housing balance with my school, but I need it in 4 days, basically 3 by the time I'm writing this. I only get paid once a month and I have no clue what I'm gonna do. This payment is my priority above anything else and any money would help so much. I've paid off what I can, but it drained my bank account to 0 and I have nothing to survive off of until February 28th.

I have nothing right now. I'm trans, disabled, and a full-time student with a new part time job. I have no family to fall back on and no safety net.

I need help.

Cashapp: $hostile17

Venmo: $bigbadhostile17

I can also sell pics, just dm to ask. Thanks in advance!!

[shadowsinthehall]

Help me eat tonight

I can't afford anything right now, and I haven't been able to eat. I need a few bucks so I can have dinner, and anything extra for tomorrow would be appreciated. Coupons or promo codes are also appreciated.

Cashapp is $hostile17 and Venmo is $bigbadhostile17

[shadowsinthehall]

Winter the water and they heard me. They speak through bowls and my ears drum hard.

[shadowsinthehall]

Yesterday was hard delusions wise, but I've been mostly okay today!!

#synthetic thoughts

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I've been doing okay on psychosis symptoms, which is weird because I'm early into my first week of college in a new town. I thought I'd be doing much worse. Very happy to be proven wrong!!

#ive even been hanging out with people #who am i #seriously schizophrenic #schizophrenia #synthetic thoughts #actually psychotic #psychosis

[shadowsinthehall]

Don't ask me "wyd" i really just be in my room going insane and being a danger to myself

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I saw a reddit where they prove elon musk is controlling our brains and he has been for a time now too. This is when he stops and goes into our brains

#scared now #someone confrim please #possibly just the schizophrenia but he seems trye #seriously schizophrenic #schizophrenia #synthetic thoughts #actually psychotic #schizo spectrum #delusions #psychotic #paranoia

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He blinks at me when is eyes are open and mine arent

It's so scary how to make him stop

#i dont remember the personal tag i am sorry #please help.me #seriously schizophrenic #schizophrenia #but i feel wrong typung this as a symptom because he is so real #staring at me and blinking

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I leave for school in one week!!! I'm so nervous, but really excited.

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Seeing yandere in the actually schizophrenic tag is making me see red

#oh my god yeah #i have so many of those blogs blocked but i still see it so often

[shadowsinthehall]

Bad day. Brains really scattered. Trying to focus on music.

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Two people.in my brain