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ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to be a nervous young man

#oh shoot #why is this so real

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February kind of feeling

#heck #april kind of feeling

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"defend your thesis" why are you attacking my thesis

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the way these two constantly had to touch/be in proximity to one another is pretty homo if you ask me

#anderperry #todd anderson #neil perry #dps

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thinking of sticky sweet hot summer popsicle kisses between Ollie and Felix during their summer at Saltburn, desperate hands smoothing over warm sun-bitten skin as fingernails dig into muscle, Oliver kissing Felix like it’ll be the last time (every time) while Felix is pushing his cold soft breathy laughter into Oliver’s aching hot mouth as they kiss in secret because it’s such fun

#fuck yes

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Aurora - I Went Too Far Emerald Fennell - Saltburn

Saltburn as songs 4/?

#saltburn #cattonquick #oliver quick #felix catton

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Cattonquick boarding school sweethearts/romeo & Juliet AU

In which Oliver also comes from old money and he and Felix fall in love in boarding school(?). The Quicks and the Cattons have been business partners since Queen Victoria was still kicking so Ollie and Felix have known each other their whole lives (summers and holidays always spent together) but when their family ties are suddenly severed after a hostile fight between their fathers, the boys’ last year at Eton is irrevocably ruined. As a reaction they decide (it was Felix’s idea and he succeeded in cajoling Oliver to agree) to elope run away on the first day of the Christmas holidays (imagine their respective chauffeurs endlessly waiting for them at the school gates lmao) and get married on a whim (also Felix’s idea to somehow "fix" things like ta-da! Can’t separate us now dad, we’re fucking married. Oliver is now a Catton. Family peace restored! No, not really Felix lmao.)

#beautiful #100/10

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When you wanna watch Saltburn again, but the version where Oliver's backstory is true, he and Felix end up together, nobody gets killed, and it's just sunbathing and playing tennis to a vibey early 2000s soundtrack.

#saltburn #felix x oliver #oliver quick #felix catton

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I just think that deconstructing Christianity, and having my angry atheist phase was the best thing that could have happened to me.

It was really hard to have such an intense crisis of faith that I had an identity crisis too

Ultimately, however, I reconnected with theology through the burning questions, unanswerable questions, and read until I couldn't see straight.

I think everyone should read philosophy and theology especially if metaphysical angst keeps you awake at night

I think I'm at the beginning now of a really interesting journey back into Christianity

My point is that, if you are a Christian, don't run from questions for the sake of blind faith

Questions about something as complex as God is really a good thing in the end

#you have to falter stumble and break your way into truth #it can't be handed to you

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I just think that deconstructing Christianity, and having my angry atheist phase was the best thing that could have happened to me.

It was really hard to have such an intense crisis of faith that I had an identity crisis too

Ultimately, however, I reconnected with theology through the burning questions, unanswerable questions, and read until I couldn't see straight.

I think everyone should read philosophy and theology especially if metaphysical angst keeps you awake at night

I think I'm at the beginning now of a really interesting journey back into Christianity

My point is that, if you are a Christian, don't run from questions for the sake of blind faith

Questions about something as complex as God is really a good thing in the end

#you have to falter stumble and break your way into truth #it can't be handed to you

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THEN I SAW THE CONGO,

CREEPING THROUGH THE BLACK,

CUTTING THROUGH THE FOREST WITH A GOLDEN TRACK

#yes

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sometimes i forget that there isn’t an anderperry kiss scene and i just completely made that up

#dead poets society #dps #todd anderson #neil perry #anderperry

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Thinking about JB and Jude lately…

JB, who was Jude’s first friend. JB, who carried Jude to the college hospital when he witnessed him having an episode in their dorm.

JB, who shouted and made a scene in that same hospital until a doctor finally saw Jude - and that doctor was Andy, the only physician Jude ever allowed to care for him for the rest of life.

JB, who helped Jude move into the apartment he shared with Willem on Lispenard St. JB, who brought along his friend Richard to help that day. Richard, who later sold Jude his beautiful apartment on Green Street that Jude loved so much. Richard, who secretly looked after him more than Jude ever imagined, who at one point saved his life, and at another point reminded him his birthday was worth celebrating, when Jude himself had forgotten and his world was bleak.

JB, who envied his life, his looks, his career, his relationship (even his limp!). JB, who saw him as competition, rather than someone to pity. JB, who thought he was beautiful, who thought killing something small and adorable was worth it if it meant looking like Jude.

JB, who brought him to parties, who showered him with laughter and provocations.

JB, who asked too many questions and wanted all the answers but got none of them. JB, who then asked Harold to back off from asking all the questions and wanting all the answers as well.

JB, who captured his life in galleries, on canvas, on film. The good and the bad.

JB, who’s art invaded and celebrated and decorated. JB, who’s art froze Willem in time for him.

JB, who was Jude’s last friend. JB, who Jude resented, who Jude hated, who Jude never forgave, who Jude wanted dead.

JB, who found him at last, who put away his suits, who handed out his letters.

JB, who outlived his friends, who was left alone, with his pictures, and his paintings, and his pain.

#both were guilty and both were innocent

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don’t you love when you’re casually reading a random poem and suddenly come across a line that burrows into your bones and becomes the definition of your heart for the next 17 years

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#dead poets #dead poets society #maurice #maurice 1987

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i need to find another movie that has the same vibes of dead poets society so i can relive the experience of watching that movie for the first time ever

#facs #dead poets society

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"GOD i love this!"

"what, me?"

#is this real?? #anderperry