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Sumi: I've been crying for random reasons all related to nostalgia today at least three times.

Positivity: Your period's coming up

Maths Nerd: wait didn't you already have tha-?

Sumi: IT'S MY PERIOD

Patience: Or it could be that you didn't take your meds-

Self Worth, crying: FOUR DAYS. WE WERE PRESCRIBED IT FOUR DAYS AGO AND WE'VE STARTED SKIPPING IT ALREADY. WHY CAN'T WE DO ANYTHING RIGHT??

Patience: ...or that.

Sumi: ...All of the above probably

#sumis sides #sumi writes #sumi speaks #Positivity #maths nerd #patience #self worth

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Sumi: What was that thing where you get completely unmotivated and lose all passion for something after even the slightest bit of rejection that may only be in your head? Nerdy! I need you!

Maths Nerd: ...I can't remember. Or more specifically, you can't remember.

Sumi: I...why do you think I asked? Anyway- I have that. And it is seriously messing me up.

Patience: oh that's caused by Positivity bullying Self Worth in your case.

Sumi: Positivity doing what to Self Worth?

Patience: Yeahhh he's not exactly ideal to have in this scenario. In worst cases, Dysohoria pitches in.

Sumi: Oh god

Maths Nerd: For example, recall that one instance when you made a cool poem wheel and you got super excited about it?

Sumi: Yes?

Maths Nerd: All of your friends, poem support and even your father (whom you thought would share your enthusiasm) weren't as ecstatic and the day went like so:

{Enter flashback}

Sumi: I did it I did it I did it!!!

Positivity: You did it you did it you did it!! It's so cool!!

Sami: one of my best ideas yet!

Sumi: it bounces like jelly!!!

Positivity: oh my god did you just discover a new type of poem??

Self Worth, colours brightening: Woah did you? It looks like it!! I'm so proud of you!

Maths Nerd: Improbable. It is a simple trick, someone else is sure to have come up with something similar if not the same

Positivity: Stop ruining our dreams Four eyes! We've never seen it before so I guess it's our idea and we should patent it!

Sumi: Wooo! Let's show it to our friends!

Positivity: Yeah! I'm sure they'll love it too!

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Sumi, excitedly: Guys Guys Guys loook!! I made a wheel thingy!! And it has a poem on it! And it bounce like jelly and-

Friend 1: that looks cool. Awesome.

Friend 2: Yeah, ok, anyway-

Friend 3: Nice poem. So?

Sumi: oh... Nothing...

~~

Positivity, mood darkening: ...I...why...Ugh we must have bothered them. Self Worth how could you let Sumi think we were worth it?

Self Worth, colours darkening: I-Uhm-

Positivity: It was stupid. Of course no one cared about it, it's just some stupid sticky notes stuck together in a wheel. That's nothing special.

Self Worth, tearing up: w-what about that one teacher who loves our poems? He'd love it-

Positivity: he's been off work since September stupid! He's sick - what's he gonna do? Sneeze his approval?

Self Worth: What about Abu? He's a poet too! And he supports us a lot- I bet he'd get excited over it too!

Positivity: ...I guess you're right. Dad acts like a child sometimes. He'd share our excitement...I guess...

Sumi: But...is it really worth the time? What if I get another lackluster reaction? It didn't excite my friends...

Positivity: maybe we were just stupid for getting so excited at it. Self Worth how could you make Sumi so proud over it?? Look what it did! It just caused the fall!

Self Worth: I...I guess this is my fault isn't it... We really just aren't worth the time... Our ideas aren't that great after all...

~~

Sumi, half heartedly: Abu...look what I made!

Abu: oh. Cool. Did you start on your homework yet?

~~

Positivity: Self Worth, why did you get our hopes up. How could you give us false hope??

Sumi: I knew it, it's useless and no-one cares about it. What use was feeling proud and happy about it, it'll get destroyed in a week anyway...

Self Worth: I really am pathetic, letting you take all that straight to your pride... We really just don't have anything worth getting excited about when it's something that hasn't been done before...

{end flashback}

Maths Nerd: See? A good portion of that was those two in conflict. A good amount of passion for that poem was lost as a result

Patience: Me and Nerdy weren't able to get a word in, none of you would listen to any reason or sense.

Sumi: So...what should I do about it?

Maths Nerd: Believe in your capabilities and potentials - you're able to do great things Sumi.

Sumi: I...don't believe you. I need proof-

Self Worth: but you don't feel that way without constant validation from other people because you feel any validation from yourself is just lies you tell yourself to feel better. That's right isn't it?

Sumi: ...you know me too well

Positivity: Of course we do, we know you better then you do!

Self Worth: and you don't believe in yourself at all because I don't either. We both constantly wonder if the things we do everyday are good or bad.

Sumi: I worry everyday if I'm a good or bad person. If my ideas are creative or just mindless copies.

Positivity: and I share that worry of whether or not you're helping or harming others with every action.

Maths Nerd&Patience: Positivity you aren't helping either of them.

Patience: It's ok to feel like that but you need to give yourself more credit. Look at where you were before and where you are now!

Sumi: ...I kinda prefer the carefree happy go lucky version better sometimes...

#sumi writes #sumis sides #patience #math nerd #self worth #positivity #sami #needed to get this out #the flashback incident happened in February #it was that long ago #but it still hurts

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Tis my lil bean! Drawn and designed by the amazing @thoughtparadocs !!

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Self Worth

- Pushover

- Shy

- Hoodie

- Khakis (gold because he thinks it goes better with his hoodie)

- Represents self worth, self esteem and pride

- Switches between being a dark and light side

- When light, has a light moon and is colourful

- When dark, dark moon and is greyscale

- Becomes light when something good happens

- When really down, can bring Dysphoria to stage 5

- Cares more about Sumi than Positivity

- Idolises Sami

#sumi speaks #sumi draws #except #it's jay #Self Worth

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Positivity, shining a flashlight under the bed: Dysphoria are you ready to come out yet?

Dysphoria: [demonic screeching]

Positivity: understandable, have a nice day

#Sumi writes #incorrect quotes #Dysphoria #Positivity #dude no that's not what you should be doing-

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Sami: No longer going to pursue a career. I'd like to be a rock, thanks!

Math nerd: Metamorphic or igneous?

Sami: Neither, Dwayne the.

#Sumi writes #incorrect quotes #Sami #Math nerd

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Self Worth: We’re screwed!

Patience: No, hey, hey, no, I don’t want to hear that defeatist attitude. I wanna hear you upbeat!

Self Worth (in a happy tone): We’re screwed!

#Sumi writes #incorrect quotes #Patience #Self Worth #self worth pleASE-

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Positivity: you can never lose an argument if you say "shut up nerd" at the end of it

Math nerd: Yes you can

Positivity: Shut up, nerd

#Sumi writes #incorrect quotes #Positivity #Math nerd #jeez you two be nice

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Positivity: Request for you not to be a bitch?

Math nerd: Request denied

#Sumi writes #incorrect quotes #Positivity #Math nerd

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Math nerd: Every odd number has the letter "e" in it

Patience: Nerdy, it's 3am

Math nerd: thrEE

#Sumi writes #incorrect quotes #Patience #Math nerd

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Math nerd: Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.

Positivity: throws a dictionary 

#Sumi writes #incorrect quotes #Positivity #Math nerd #these two hate each other pffft

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PHOBIA WARNINGS: TRYPOPHOBIA AND PUPPETS

TRIGGER WARNINGS: SELF HARM AND STICHES

Tis the puppet monster. Evil.

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Dysphoria stage 1 - My fears - Gender dysphoria - Phobias - Is a puppet - Gets more lifelike the further depressed I get - Self harm and self deprecating thoughts - Deepest anxiety and depression

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Dysphoria stage 5

- Most life like stage

- Worst

- Embodiment of phobias and bad habits

#tw trypophobia #trypo cw #tw self harm #tw puppets #tw stiches #tw bad art #Sumi speaks #Sumi writes #Dysphoria

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Tis the geeky gal!

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Maths Nerd - Nerddd - Fulfills my dream to wear a suit - Logic - Factual - Good memory of educational things - Loathes Positivity - Is the only girl if Sami isn’t in a femme mood - Only one who brushes hair neatly - Loves math and work - Loves productivity - Geek that loves video games

#Sumi speaks #Sumi draws #Math nerd

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Tis the dream self!

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Cool Creativity aka Sami

- Dream self

- Embodiment of me as "cool"

- Dreams and aspirations

- a poet

- Inspirations

- Tired™

- Twin bro to Positivity

- Cryptic

- Loves riddles

- Stops arguments but doesn't speak against bro much (not written down but this changed, Patience is more of the peacekeeper)

- Chill™

- Is kind to Self Worth and makes him feel better when around

- Helps Self Worth by writing him poetry

#Sumi speaks #Sumi draws #Sami #Cool Creativity

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Tis the patient boio! He's the more calmer one

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Patience

- Patient

- Understanding

- Empathy

- Wrath

- Anger

- Sarcasm

- my calm side

- Reacts negatively to pain:

Three injuries (accidental and minor) will cause rage

- Thick-skinned to other people

#Sumi speaks #Sumi draws #Patience

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Patience: I spy with my little eye someone who needs to shut the fuck up

Positivity: Is it me?

Patience: It's always you

#Sumi writes #incorrect quotes #Positivity #Patience

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Tis the bastard boi. He is my downfall

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Positivity

- Positive

- Caring

- Passionate about interests

- Mismatched

- Disorganized

- Cares more about others than me

- Attention seeker

- Weird and quirky

- Makes jokes a lot

#Sumi speaks #Sumi draws #Positivity #you douchebag #that is mismatched knee high socks he's wearing #and the middle of his shirt is unbuttoned #this is why Nerdy hates him #has glasses stuck in his hair too

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A brief introduction

Patience - holds my patience, empathy and understanding but ALSO my wrath, anger and sarcasm! Is the peacekeeper and is very thick-skinned - very few people can crack him. He can get vey irritated by pain though and accidental (and often minor) injuries in quick succession can put him in a mood.

Self worth - is my self esteem/worth and anxiety. Also the negative end of my feelings spectrum but is sometimes positive and encouraging. Is a bit of a pushover especially to Positivity - looks up to and is a great fan of Sami however! If Self Worth is too low, he activates Dysphoria and worsens the situation.

Positivity - is all of my bubbliness and excitement at things i Love, my caring and positive and optimistic side! (But only for other people) He. Is. A. Douchebag. Especially to Self Worth whom he bullies often by comparing him to others and his own twin brother, Sami, because he knows how much Self Worth aspires to be like Sami. Is also the worst dressed and organised person you'll ever meet.

{Cool Creativity} Sami (only one with a name already lmao) - twin brother to Positivity and how I hold and see myself. He is the embodiment of what I want to be and what I find cool, also holds my dreams, aspirations and inspirations (especially for poetry). He is generally chill and kind to all and is sweet to Self Worth. He rarely speaks against his brother though and is barely around aside from when I'm inspired to do something. Loves riddles and is sometimes cryptic

Maths Nerd - my nerdy side and my logical and rational side. Loves maths and learning and is also my moral and organised side. She has my perfectionism and love for getting things done. She often sticks up for my Self Worth, along with Patience, against Positivity because he clearly can't do so herself and is constantly ticked off at Positivity's lack of organisation.

Dysphoria - the creepiest. Dysphoria is my gender dysphoria and depression and greater anxiety. This one is in the form of a puppet which has a soul that only comes alive when activated by Self Worth being far too depressing. It becomes more and more lifelike the further into a depressive episode I go and sometimes I act as a puppet, pretending to be happy, as a consequence. This one also controls my self harm and self deprecating urges and thoughts along with my fears and phobias.

I will reveal names when I create em!

#Sumi speaks #introduction #hi y'all meet #Positivity #Self Worth #Sami #Patience #Math Nerd #and of course #Dysphoria #tw self harm