#<getting those out the way first :3

[cloud-the-forgotten]

I just think that the knights (Meta, Dark Meta, Galacta, and Morpho, especially Morpho) are awkward guys who have no idea what they're doing sometimes. They're unhinged and they have no idea how they made friends but they're managing to keep them? somehow??

Meta Knight's first instinct is to stick to a corner when in places where there are lots of social interactions happening around him. He has no idea how to ensure he's having positive interactions so he pretends he's just doing things to look mysterious. He doesn't realize everyone already knows he's awkward (and he thinks he's doing a good job nobody tell him-) and at some point, he always gets dragged out of the corner (by Kirby or Dedede) to socialize.

Dark Meta Knight has no idea how to have positive interactions. All his compliments sound like insults. He has no idea how he managed to become friends with Daroach but he's winging it.

Galacta Knight knows how to make friends. He does. He's just scared that things have changed too much and all the things that would be positive interactions before he was sealed are things that lead to negative interactions. Finding a jester (Marx) was definitely something he was relieved (and excited) about.

Morpho has never had time to make friends. They have a job to do. How are they supposed to make friends when they have to make sure that the wayward souls they find receive judgment? How they managed to become friends with Galacta remains a secret that neither of them will tell.

#cloud does a ramble :3 #blorbo tag <3 #cloud's 12am thoughts #kirby headcanons #kirby au #<getting those out the way first :3 #it isn't fully connected to my au so my au tag won't be used here :3 #kirby #meta knight #dark meta knight #galacta knight #morpho knight

[sysig]

Blood sugar levels (Patreon)

#Doodles #ISaT #Siffrin #And implied Isa and Mira from offscreen but it's fine lol #Kinda sorta spoilers in the tags be warned #Man these poses were fun to draw - hand poses and body and ah <3 Fun! #This was one of those comics that came to me pretty much fully formed and then I had to do it - it was very fun which I'm very glad for! #Probably the funnest were the first - third - and fourth panels :D #The way their cloak falls around them ah pretty <3 #That big spooky eye hidden under the brim of their hat <3 #That one was really fun to edit too :D Writing [FAILURE] elsewhere on the page and then overlaying it :) Fun! #I wonder if Siffrin would die of starvation faster than normal due to the [redacted] #And since that would kill him it'd make him loop back - even tho it's also somewhat powered by food? #It's curious! I like it :) #I imagine his innate magic also powers it somewhat but hmmm recursive #Not that he died here anyway :) One of those fun ones before Loop spells it out for him :) #I have to wonder if All those loops we don't get to see are mundane hmm ♪ How many of them are forced out of Sif's mind so we as the player #Will just never know ♪ I suppose we'll never know! Haha #The exhaustion of having to keep his body running it's really the depression simulator #Sif :( They're gonna worry about you anyway! #It's amazing what our minds just refuse to process when we're in The Sads™ haha

[saltpepperbeard]

so i was complaining talking to my dad about the suffering that is the renewal void, and he agreed that it would be a bit nonsensical for max to-

push physical merch on their site

create a bunch of custom icons for users on their site

put so much effort into marketing s2, to the point of putting spots on tv, hanging up gigantic billboards, and spreading teasers all across social media

-if they had no intention to see the show all the way through.

which was ✨validating✨ coming from an outside party, because it's something i've been thinking this whole time. now, granted, i don't trust streaming services, and stranger things have happened, buuuuut idk. it really seems like there's a part of them that realizes ofmd is a large, important property to them, but we shall seeeeeee,,,

#OFMD #OFMD Season 3 #Revenge Rambles #The Art of Clownery #anyway see y'all on jan 1st lmao 🤡 #but CLOWNERY aside #if not then...then when i wonder? #will it just be a random announcement like good omens? #or will they wait to attach it to something again like they did with pride/s2? #i would HOPE they wouldn't drag this out all the way to june #because that would mean we probably wouldn't get s3 until late 2025 #if not early 2026 #which...L M A O #((then again i would indeed graciously wait if we were indeed settled into our final season but o m g those dates don't even seem REAL)) #it would just be nice if they announced in the first part of 2024 #started filming shortly thereafter #and were able to give it to us by like...early-mid 2025 #but who knows man WHO KNOWS MAN #what if...what if Valentine's Day Part 2: Electric Boogaloo JSDKJSDKL

[the-hilda-librarians-wife]

An aspect of Hilda the series that I feel isn’t talked about enough is the colonizer’s guilt and how it affects the main character.

What made me write this was watching the third episode of the new season, but honestly, it’s something we see throughout the whole series. Starting out with the elves in the northern counties, and moving on to trolls and now giants. Every season that came out gave us a chance to see Hilda deal with the feelings that arise from living in a society she knows is built on the occupation of another people’s native land and the oppression of those inhabitants.

She knows it’s not her fault, she knows she’s not the colonizer, but she’s well aware that she’s in the privileged side of her society. Seeing her grapple with the fact that her very existence in these spaces is only possible because someone else is getting the short end of the stick, to me at least, makes her that much more interesting of a character.

Because it’s not a matter of fixing what she’s done, but the privilege is still there and not even well hidden when she sees the day to day life of the people whose land has been occupied by humans/trolbergians. So whenever we see her rush to aid them, her borderline desperation to fix what’s been broken, it’s even more captivating because it’s not just the usual “I love helping people and having adventures” gist, there’s always this undertone of guilt for something she hasn’t personally done but still knows has to be held accountable for.

Hilda knows the type of oppression that people like her get away with. And she wants no part in it.

#OP HAS ONLY WATCHED UP UNTIL EPISODE THREE YET!!!!!!!!!! #DONT TELL ME IF SHE TURNS OUT TO BE SOME SORT OF ALSO COLONIZED CODED MAGICAL CREATURE!!!! #but even if it’s the case. she still *grows up* thinking she’s in the ‘part of the problem’ side of things #and very much gets treated like so. so. you know. privilege either way #as a white Brazilian person this makes the character that much more relatable to me #there’s always this sense of guilt even if you know you’re trying your best to not be part of the problem #we’re already part of the problem. living where I live is only possible because of many years of violence against another culture #and we need to learn to live with it and fix what’s salvageable #and that’s what’s so juicy about Hilda. because she GETS the chance to fix it #and she DOES. and watching her cope with *why* those people need to be saved in the first place #is what makes her so interesting to watch to me #Hilda spoilers #Hilda s3 #Hilda s3 spoilers #Hilda season 3 #Hilda the series #Hilda netflix #Hilda (Hilda)

[bylertruther]

not to be too real but since we're talking about it... we always talk about will feeling lonely which is fair, but... it is such an Ugly, isolating, and genuinely heart-wrenching feeling to be the odd one out in your family, and to watch them treat others who aren't related to you the way you wish they would treat you, to watch them perform their familial roles with them and not you.

nancy's the only person in his family that mike could talk to, the only person that has the same trauma and would understand, and yet... he can't. they don't ever talk unless it's to be snippy and bite. nancy spends more time caring about max and will than she does mike, her own little brother.

holly is too young for him to bond with like that. she's just barely a kid, one that still needs to be cared for.

his mom tries her best, but he doesn't feel comfortable being vulnerable with her. considering the fact that she did everything "right" according to society's standards and married their dad of all people, i doubt he feels comfortable showing her who he really is. he lets her hug him when he's at his lowest, but we don't see them actually connecting.

his dad is just some ghost that haunts his house. he doesn't care about mike or think highly of him at all. the only times we've seen him pay mike any attention are when he belittles his interests, mocks him, punishes him, or shuts him down by telling him to listen to his mother. the only support he gets from him is financial in nature.

meanwhile, everyone else has a family they can turn to. dustin, despite lying to his mother to keep her out of his shenanigans, seems to have a decent relationship with her. even if he doesn't, he still has steve and robin. lucas is shown to have a healthy relationship with his parents and erica. will and el have their family.

max's situation is different, but she has the backing of the party; people that love her and actively try to help her and pull her back into the world of the living. she isn't thrust into a leadership role that doesn't allow for vulnerability. she has nancy who is willing to fight monsters for her, el who literally performed a miracle for her, and lucas who has stood by her since the beginning.

and mike... well. he has will back now, sure, but... things have been different between them for a long time now, even if they're both trying their best to be how they were before. and before then, will obviously was in california, not returning his calls or reaching out, making mike feel like he'd lost him for good.

so... all that being said, it's not that surprising that mike is the way he is: riddled with abandonment issues, wanting to be needed, immediately apologizing whenever he dares to open up, inclined to give others the protection and comfort no one's ever given him, prone to jealousy and possessiveness, unable to be completely and wholly honest about what troubles him, not exactly the most open to new people, and someone with appallingly low self-esteem.

you know how they say people that are drowning don't always look like they're drowning? that's mike.

#mike #mine #wheeler #mike analysis #byler #i can't think abt him for longer than two seconds bc then i make myself sad lol <3 #will's story is fucked up but at least he has people that love him and help him and SEE him and that he feels comfortable being his #true self with. but mike? :/ sigh. #mike just bottles it up and overcompensates / gets his mind off of it by caring for someone else. #like in the van scene when he's opening up to will and then immediately tries to deflect bc he thinks it's not important. #like... mike... you ARE important. you're feelings aren't stupid. you aren't some worthless loser with nothing to offer people. #the way that he talks about himself and the lack of support he has in his life is like ... actually so fucking sad lmao! #bc he spent all that time with el and sent her all those letters and yet they never actually got to know each other. it wasn't anything of #value. it was just company. and he had will but things started changing and mike felt like will was pulling away from him. then they both #moved across the country and he tried to call will all those times but couldn't reach him. and then will never reached out first so he just #straight up felt like he'd lost will. and the remaining party members are great but like mike says they aren't will. so he was just alone. #bites my own hand bites my own hand bites my own hand bites—

[maxiwaxipads]

Arupek sets off to leave Tuxedo Sam's Kingdom! What's left is preparations before continuing the journey!

Tuxam - “…Restocked rations. Check! Clothing…? We shouldn’t be too careless. Here. I’ll put extra layers for you.” Arupek - “I guess there isn’t harm with a few more layers!” Aurpek - “But Tuxam, aren’t you going to be cold as well?” Tuxam - “Me? I’m quite used to the cold at this point!” “I’ll be fine even if I had minimum clothing on.” Tuxam - “If it’s fine with you, I’d like to accompany you until we’ve reached [Route 1].” “The SEEDs surrounding milord’s territory are dangerous and aren’t the kinds to take alone!” Arupek - “But what if SEEDs attack the kingdom while you’re away?” Tuxam - “That’s why I’ll take you from [Route 1].” “The SEEDs rarely make it across the kingdom, but that doesn’t mean I should be careless.” “I’d take you further… But after recent events, I shouldn’t…” Tuxam - “It isn’t too far from the kingdom, and if I sprinted, I could likely make it in time.” “But if you’re underestimating this kingdom, I’ll abandon the thought of helping you in the first place!” Arupek - “I’m thankful for your help!” Aurpek - “Let’s go fishing the next time!” “I want to try the fish in your kingdom.” Tuxam - “With… Me?” Arupek - “Who else am I talking to?” “You’ve been so reliable, and helped me so far!” Tuxam - “I’ll have to find time in my schedule!” “Send me yours, and let’s see what we can do.” Arupek - “It might be hard right now…” Tuxam - “N—Not now! Later!” “Let’s go already!” Tuxam - “(But… Am I sure he’s only interested in the fish or…?)” “(No! Now’s not the time!)”

(Additional Information/Tangents):

I like to imagine Tuxedo Sam’s kingdom sits in a snowy landscape, with the capital being a walled city that protects itself from SEEDs (physically sturdier than most, but weaker against magic).

I like to think the answer to Tuxam’s question is both! Arupek genuinely admires everyone in Noir Bouquet and isn’t afraid to express that.  A really passionate guy! Arupek wants to meet Tuxam on a better note and also try the local fish in the region.

"[Route 1]" is a placeholder because I don't have a name, and it'll probably never have a name... or maybe it's an unintentional pokemon reference...

Arupek - “I know! We should go ice fishing!” “At your lord’s kingdom! Wait—Wait! Maybe we can even invite Lord Pekkle and Lord Tuxedo Sam as well?” Tuxam - “Hm… I’m not against the idea, but it might be cold.” “Are you sure?” Arupek - “How can I not be?” “This is time we can spend together!” “Oh!” “What are you thinking, Tuxam?” Tuxam - “There’s a place I’ve been thinking about…” “Have you heard of the Tuxedo Sam comics?” Arupek - “I’ve heard of it!” Tuxam - “You have!?” “That’s amaz—Ahem. In comic issue #37, Tuxedo Sam and the Hidden Lake; milord, Tuxedo Sam stubbles onto a lake upon accident.” “To much of his surprise, the fish there are purely yellow and resemble gold!” “It is greatly described in detail and said to be quite exceptional in taste!” “Finding this lake… I always wanted to do it!” Arupek - “A hidden lake with golden fish with exceptional taste!?” “I’m drooling!” Tuxam - “Wipe it with this.” (Hands a handkerchief) Arupek - “Oh! I didn’t mean it like that, but I’ll produce a little bit of drool so it can be of use.” Tuxam - “Make sure to return it clean the next time.” Arupek - “I will!”

(Weeks Later)

Tuxam - “What is… That?” Arupek - “A cooking set!” “If we’re set to eat yellow fish with a golden look with exceptional taste, we have to eat them in every way possible!” “You know. Grilled. Poached. Steamed. Cured. Raw.” “So I brought a cooking set!” Tuxam - “Every way… Possible?” Arupek - “Yup!” “Oh—Wait… No. I was thinking we could make sushi for Badobarm, but we don’t have rice.” “Do you think it is already too late…?” “Hm. You think if I ran fast enough, we could buy rice in your lord’s kingdom?”

Tuxam, who sits there not expecting this

#fragaria memories #fragaria memories headcanons #tuxam #arupek #fragmem #i have an absurd amount of tuxam brainrot and i would post it all in an instant if i didn't have restraint #i have other brainrot on the others but its mainly tuxam #the moment i found out tuxedo sam apparently served the navy i took that idea and ran it. now boom! tuxedo sam has a comic series idea! #i wrote the last part with the implication that arupek brought a whole kitchen with him #Arupek: “(But even later I won't be able to send it...?)” “(Later later? A later before that later)?” “(How later is later?)” “(Later^10?)” #if i continued writing this off the fish will be only referred as “the yellow fish with a golden look with exceptional taste” #and it gets longer and more absurd and it has to rhyme and when it doesnt rhyme thats the gag #“the yellow fish with a golden look with exceptional taste... wait! those scales resemble Lord Pekkle's face!?” #“the yellow fish with a golden look with exceptional taste now discovered to be the size of tokyo tower!?” #i wrote arupek and tuxam in a certain way but i wonder how different theyll be compared to this in ep1 and forward? #its my first time using tumblr and im already writing an essay in the tags </3

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the thing they don't warn you about freshly pierced ears is the Sleep Anxiety

#im so worried about like... irritating them / ripping them out in my sleep #what if they get caught on one of my many blankets or pillows hm... #last night was the first night with 'em and i already had a stress dream #which unfortunately was one of those double deckers where The Demons™️ try to get me #but geez. #i arranged my bedding in such a way that im kinda sitting up and my head is stabilized enough so that i dont turn onto my side #or put pressure on my ~lobes~ #thus begins a long couple of months of Healing #cant wait to take these babeys out and switch things up #not that i dont like the ones i have for the healing process!! im very happy with them!!! #but Ough. monkey brain impatient.... #absolutely unprompted #i got a uhhh Saline Spray to clean em #and im so worried im gonna run out way prematurely #my depth perception and spatial awareness is a little... Off... #so it takes 2-3 attempts to actually Spray The Piercing #i end up wiping water off of my face and neck lmfao. my hair is Dripping every time #its just a general air of Paranoia #the last time i pierced my ears was years ago and i got a nasty ass infection that put me off of it until. like. a day ago #i was convinced this time bc it was done professionally with a needle and everything #INFINITELY better. lots of fun. i feel somewhat confident that it'll heal correctly #even if my bank account wont. But Its Worth It Tho Its Worth It- #and Yes im procrastinating sleep #my ability to scribble abruptly tanked so maybe ill write a bit instead #see if the artism Transferred

[lelalyo]

The alliance with Gortash feels really rushed - not that I need to tell any of you that but I was thinking about how it could've been.

Primarily, if he lived to the end and if he betrays you or not depending on whether you proved that he could trust you in quests prior.

For example, you can talk to Wulbren about blowing up the foundry before you even talk to Gortash so one step towards him trusting you properly could've been the player telling him where the Ironhands are hiding.

Idk, it just really makes no sense to me how you can make an alliance with Gortash but none of you really bring anything to the alliance other than the stones. They don't really provide an incentive for taking the alliance besides skipping the foundry/iron throne quests and Gortash's boss fight which I suppose, for some people, would be enough but only one of those is actually compulsory to progress with the main story.

And sure, he tells you about Orin but even if you're not told, the shapeshifting thing still happens and you can still catch her regardless. To be honest, I kind of feel like if it's going to be a feature in your game, it should be as fleshed out as other things.

I realize that there's a time crunch and things get chopped and left out, that you can't have everything - I get that completely but that doesn't stop me from feeling that Act 3 feels kind of abrupt in a lot of ways, especially where Orin and Gortash are concerned.

#I feel this way about the evil run of the game too #It's a feature but it doesn't feel as well thought out and extensive as the good/better runs of the game #And on one hand I get it - being evil has it's drawbacks #however I would argue that if you're going to put the options in the first place #it should be enjoyable for players to do because at the end of the day - we're here to be entertained #The whole point of video games is to have fun because you're not bound by real world restrictions (within reason ofc) #Also because most people don't like doing evil runs - me - I'm those people - you should give people a reason to do it #I don't like evil for the sake of evil - that's kind of lazy #Give me epic loot - give me good juicy content you just can't get otherwise - incentives people! #Baldur's Gate 3 #Baldur's Gate 3 Act 3 Spoilers #Baldur's Gate 3 Spoilers #Lord Enver Gortash #Enver Gortash #Lily plays BG3

[downtherabbitholewithlucy]

✝️Wes as Father "Thicc" Dick✝️

#pun always intended but also mans just be thicc like that too sooooo #not me staring at the way that 🍆bounces in the first gif for 3 minutes straight and making me wanna back my🍑up to it #what I find hilarious is not seeing Wes in those shorts since he has worn them often #but it always tickles me pink whenever I see his toesies out in those slides. lol idk why but it just does #anybody else get the urge to give him a big 'ol raspberry on his exposed tummy tum? #Wes Borland #Limp Bizkit #nu metal #Black Light Burns #Music Video: Dad Vibes #Wild for Wesley on Wes Borland Wednesday #down the rabbit hole

[cloud-the-forgotten]

Going further into the "Galacta Knight likes shiny things" post, there are shiny things he won't go near.

Things that are shiny and pink? Avoided. Crystals, jewels, and gems? Avoided. Things that are shiny but clear/see-through (like glass, mirrors, etc.)? Avoided. Shiny rocks are on thin ice.

Coins, glitter pens, and other shiny things though? Those are fair game to him >:D

(One time Prince Fluff gave Galacta some shiny beads! Galacta immediately decided he was his friend and gave him glitter pens in return ^-^)

#I had to include a prince fluff interaction! I found my copy of extra epic yarn and had him on my mind for a while (5 hours) :3 #anyway. this is why I said he's like a magpie or a crow :3 #cloud does a ramble :3 #blorbo tag <3 #cloud's 12am thoughts #<it isn't 12am yet but. am eepy. and it's like an hour away anyway :3 #kirby au #kirby headcanons #<getting those out the way first :3 #kirby #galacta knight #prince fluff

[sysig]

Hey. Read Roundabout. Love Awesome. (Patreon)

#Doodles #Wander Over Yonder #Commander Peepers #Emperor Awesome #Lord Hater #As always check the tags first but hgggg Roundabout is so gooooood <3 <3 #Absolutely the fic that convinced me that Awesome was worth thinking about more than he initially appears lol #The™ fanon interpretation to me <3 #Like the Eyesome stuff obviously (also the thing that convinced me to try out Eyesome and ended up loving it :D) #But also the Death Glare stuff! It's terribly cute the way Peepers and Hater go bouncing off each other haha ♪ #Plus there's just a lot of fun phrasing like the one I put in the caption of Peepers curled up haha #Everyone's characterized so fun! #Plus there's just something very fun recalling my first reread lol - I don't actually remember my first reading experience #But I do remember getting fic-hungry for it later down the line at a local Mexican restaurant and reading it on their wifi lol #It's so fun to finally be at a point where I can confidently draw them and then to come back to the story and ahhh <3 <3 Very enjoyable #The first two aren't tied to anything specific other than the basic concept of those two drinking together lol #Same size glasses but very different alcohol-to-body-size proportions lol ♪ Buying drinks for Peepers saves hand over fist! #We all know he could put it away like no one's business so really it wouldn't matter in the end lol #It was so fun to doodle him curled up ahh <3 His silhouette <3 <3 Toss a blanket over him! #And the Drama! The deliciousness of Peepers keeping Secrets from his Lord Hater! Ah! #It feels so in-character of him to have alone time away from the ship that Hater doesn't even notice until he's been away awhile ♪♫ #They're both adults ♪ They have aspects of their lives that aren't Entirely intertwined ♫ Until they do hehehe #Love 'em ♥ #Hater was fun to draw there too lol slowly getting used to him! I like his PJs haha

[nebulousfishgills]

Listen.

You can listen to it on the soundtrack, you can watch clips of it being performed live, hell, you can watch someone play that bit on a video...

But listening to Raphael's Final Act while you're actually fighting Raphael just hits. different.

That was probably the hypest shit I've ever felt, and I thought freeing the Nightsong was a chills moment.

#not even the unrelated anxiety attack I was having could keep me from smiling and bouncing in my seat #that said how the HELL do people do this shit without the unlimited party mod #i completely beefed it my first try #i honestly just got lucky with the saving throws on the second attempt #hey pro tip the way I beat him was just spamming hunger of hadar when i could while using other long term attacks #cloud of daggers my frenemy was also a huge help #dude just could not break out of either of those things it was epic #also larian studios guys please just play raphael's final act on loop during the fight rather than defaulting to normal battle music #i promise people won't get tired of it #fishgills speaks #fishgills plays bg3 #bg3 #baldur's gate 3

[carcarrot]

scrolling back through my liveblogging of the day of the nyc concert because of recent notifications and its such a fun mixed bag of emotions to relive it all again

#helloooooo pineapple in my notes i do not mind the likes and reblogs <3 #but it was such a crazy day that day of the show. so much happened #i also didn't remember that the day before the concert is when my bus got messed up and was taking me back to ny #and i had to get a car service home and everything #and then there was the concert the next day! #and what i had done was worked monday. took all of tuesday off for the concert. got like maybe 4 hour of sleep if that #and then went back to work wednesday. stupid #it worked out fine lol but i dont think id do it that way again idk #other remembrances of the day: #my biggest regret is getting all worked up abt my stupid letter that never got to them anyway like jeez. obviously i still enjoyed the show #but still. OH and i missed out on getting the latte pinback buttons #not the biggest deal but i did want those. i was just awkwardly standing around before the nyc show #and the merch line was always super long anyway #what else. oh i wish i could have met those of you that were there. but next time! im cooler now so next time. #the show itself was crazyyyy. again so fun and surreal #one of the tags on my original review was something along the lines of me having not been this excited since i was a kid #and it was really like that. like it really was that absolute pure overjoyed excitement that i haven't felt for a long time #i felt the same at the hollywood bowl. just having so much fun (missing it now lol 🥲) #cant remember if i mentioned this before but when i was standing outside the stage door i saw both spike lee and adam driver leave backstage #adam driver is Tall. i didnt even recognize him at first fdhgkgkg #anyway. some thoughts almost a year later wow!

[famewolf]

speaking of ocd, I think I'm realizing that I truly don't have anxiety and it's literally just my ocd. im not anxious about anything until it involves me and suddenly I'm spiraling

#[static] #it's hard to describe succinctly but the anxiety I deal with nowadays is directly related to my ocd and autism #some anxiety is so easy to brush off but the ones stemming from my ocd are extremely difficult to get out from under #i'll spiral for weeks about one specific thing and ruminate on it and mentally worry and pick at it forever #it's utterly exhausting jfkdghdf some days are easier than others #and often that one thing I ruminate on becomes multiple things all stemming from the first thing #like recently it's been my car ... the thing is totally fine ... runs fine drives fine but ive been freaked out by it for the last 3 weeks #every time i go into the shop theyre like ... everything is good in fact its in good condition for its age and they'll mention like #one thing that will need to be replaced to keep it in tip top condition and then my brain will fixate on it and imagine all the ways #something horrific will happen if that doesnt get changed and then that leads to all the other things in the car suddenly freaking me out #i defs used to have general anxiety and depression but those went away literally the day i got top surgery #poof instantly gone it was wild and i kept waiting for the other shoe to drop #never did but now my ocd has been really bad the last 6 months cuz of all the extra horrifying things going on #so i thought it was just my anxiety coming back but this week i realized it was my ocd and have been treating it accordingly #and ive seen some relief but i definitely need to go back to therapy once i get my insurance again #its the only way to get a hold on it and my last therapist ended up moving states so we didnt get to work on tools for it very much #im yapping at this point i just needed to vent for a second about how truly yucky ocd makes me feel

[porto-rosso]

brother where is the charles appreciation

#so dark out here #umm dead boy detectives review here we go! first two episodes were definitely the worst of the series. both are kinda weirdly paced and #the exposition is done poorly in places. overall from episode 3 onwards it gets much much better with pacing and show dont tell #do not understand for the life of me why they made crystal palace american #kassius nelson (<- crystals actress) was very good in places and kinda ehhh in others and im 90% the issue for most of the latter moments #was just that her american accent is not great. sorry they did that to you queen #dialogue was a bit dodge sometimes as well #stuff i liked now! the plot felt quite solid and i really enjoyed the monster of the week approach i think thats the perfect way to #do a dbd adaptation. was a bit annoyed they immediately went to america but port townsend was an interesting setting and all the #supernatural elements/characters fit in nicely #major props cos i feel like the show mostly pulled off the emotionally charged moments without getting corny and the dialogue was generally #good in those moments #particularly charles/crystals heart to heart in ep. 3 and like the entirety of episode 7 (<- ep 7 was brilliant) #overall very fun watch and i feel that the more irritating typical YA show garb was at least a bit offset by them being willing to get #quite dark in places #bit sad people are mostly posting about edwin becos charles was my favourite. has been entertaining watching americans scramble around #the cultural differences in the show #shaking my inbox like a maraca. if anyone wants to talk at me abt the show i will love you forever #.log

[essektheylyss]

It is wild to me how many people are like, "hahaha op's speech did nothing," as if I am running and participating in these polls to get validation for my blorbo. If I just wanted to be content with my blorbo, I would absolutely not be tossing him up on a platform to be heckled for a week straight. I would be retreating to some echo chamber Discord server to experience the emotional equivalent of everyone gathering around and petting a puppy.

I literally do not think Essek is going to win this poll! I do not think he is going to win the tournament! I seeded Laerryn number one for a reason! For a number of factors I think it would be very difficult for anyone to beat her! I literally put him and Laerryn on the same side of the bracket so that they would not end up in the final, because I did not think it was going to be an interesting fight! We as a fandom beat "Laerryn could smash any wizard in Exandria without contest" into the ground weeks ago! I considered writing a stump speech just for kicks for every semifinalist, because I like to argue things and I love playing up a ridiculous and meaningless kayfabe!

But like, Laerryn has swept many polls, and it's deeply boring to me if she wins in a landslide. I am a polling nerd, and I can confirm that no one watches landslide races. They are not interesting. And this is fully just for the fun of it, so I am gonna make it interesting.

If there's no challenge, no consideration of how the other side might win, then what the fuck is the point of running a tournament?

In conclusion:

#this is incidentally also why I am campaigning on behalf of veth's big naturals. #it's also why I pushed for oremid hass to take ludinus out in the first round! #I am here for my own amusement and no other reason #like tbh too much opinion in fandom these days that everything is about 'winning' #your ship becoming canon ahead of all the other ships. your fave coming out on top. NO. #fandom is about having fun and making up fictional shit with no stakes for your own amusement. #like this has happened in other places where people get SO vicious when something turns out other than someone was lobbying for #in this weird schadenfreude kind of way #and it's like...... this says more about how seriously those people are taking it than anything else lol #also it's a weird comment to make anyway cuz essek has gained 3 or 4 percent since I posted that lmfao #which was genuinely more than I expected lol #anyway wild anyone thinks I'd be pressed about writing one speech when I write so much goddamn fic regardless of whether people read it #(people often do! which is great and lovely! but there are plenty of things that no one read lol and I still love them) #cannot stress enough that I am HERE FOR FUN.