#[ castitas-etsuko ]

[countingbluecars-blog1]

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confessions

You have no idea how badly I actually want to say it.

#(answered meme) #(ask) #castitas-etsuko

[catastrophically-aware]

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I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you.✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧ I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧ I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically). 

#Zoe #ask meme #castitas-etsuko

[whatroughbeast-blog1]

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I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧   I’d like to spend more time with you ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧  I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

#&&. ask answer #am: bold about yours #castitas-etsuko #ft. zoe #that whole first row whoops

[saltwaterkezia]

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I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you.✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧   I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧ I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

#zoe #zoe extras #extras #castitas-etsuko #asks

[deadly-nv-blog]

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SEND MY CHARACTER A ★ AND I’LL BOLD EVERYTHING THEY FEEL TOWARD YOUR CHARACTER.

I like you // I love you // I’m indifferent toward you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’m jealous of you // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’m attracted to you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I respect you // I want your respect // I feel protective of you // I’d like to cut loose with you // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // You’re nice // You’re mean // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I want an apology from you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better

#answered memes #castitas-etsuko

[swordofcassiel-blog]

where: oscars when: shit goes down closed to @castitas-etsuko

Cassiel was on their feet before the words came out of Belial’s mouth--War’s mouth. Uproar was exploding all around them and the angel had a strong feeling very little of it was natural. Even they could feel blood-hot rage building within them and adding an electric shock to their skin. This was dangerous; incredibly dangerous. But they were prepared.

Elijah was a complication. Cassiel had no qualms about killing him or any of the farriers, but the logistics of it were slightly more difficult when he had the power of War behind him. Taking on a Horseman was hard enough without his protegée getting in the way. A wailing partygoer clawed at them and Cassiel’s war-honed mind refocused, taking in the chaos around them. They did not have the time to save anyone here--they had to sacrifice this in favor of getting to Belial. Zoe was beside them suddenly, knife out, looking for all the world like a warrior that the dress was incongruous.

“I need your help.”

#[ zoe ] #[ castitas-etsuko ] #[ event 015 ]

[madeofvirtue-blog]

To: Smooth Moves Employees

Hello everyone,

Unfortunately, due to the recent incident at Smooth Move it will need to be closed for repairs. I will be able to continue to pay each of you a stipend while the shop is under construction, but if you are wanting to find another job--I will not blame you, and wish you luck. It will take a month or so for repairs to be completed, and for the shop to be put back into order. Once repairs are done, and you wish to return, all you need to do is ask and I would gladly have you back.

Please, let me know if there is anything else I can do for you during this time and remember, I am always here for you.

Sincerely,

Jairus ‘Bossman’ Harding

@davisadele @castitas-etsuko @saltwaterkezia @fighty-martyr

#|| my text thread with kezia made me think i should probably post something for these babes XD #|| i'm gonna say the stipend would be like half of their usual pay each two weeks #davisadele #castitas-etsuko #saltwaterkezia #fighty-martyr #chvrchesrp #|| this is also an email that you do NOT have to reply to if you don't want. just figured it would help with any plots you need to make

[fighty-martyr-blog]

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SEND MY CHARACTER A ★ AND I’LL BOLD EVERYTHING THEY FEEL TOWARD YOUR CHARACTER.

I like you // I love you // I’m indifferent toward you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’m jealous of you // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’m attracted to you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I respect you // I want your respect // I feel protective of you // I’d like to cut loose with you // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // You’re nice // You’re mean // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I want an apology from you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better

#answered memes #castitas-etsuko

[attemptingascension-blog]

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I like you // I love you // I’m indifferent toward you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’m jealous of you // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’m attracted to you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I respect you // I want your respect // I feel protective of you // I’d like to cut loose with you // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // You’re nice // You’re mean // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I want an apology from you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better

SEND MY CHARACTER A ★ AND I’LL BOLD EVERYTHING THEY FEEL TOWARD YOUR CHARACTER.

#answered #a: zoe #star meme #castitas-etsuko

[mynameis-kiara]

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BEFORE

I like you // I love you // I’m indifferent toward you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’m jealous of you // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’m attracted to you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I respect you // I want your respect // I feel protective of you // I’d like to cut loose with you // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // You’re nice // You’re mean // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I want an apology from you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better

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AFTER

I like you // I love you // I’m indifferent toward you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’m jealous of you // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’m attracted to you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I respect you // I want your respect // I feel protective of you // I’d like to cut loose with you // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // You’re nice // You’re mean // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I want an apology from you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better

#askmeme #zoe could've been one of her good friends if the revelation hadn't happened and i'm sad about it #castitas-etsuko #zoe

[martriome-blog]

Date: post-oscars ( barely ) Location: church of saints Closed: @castitas-etsuko

Josh was still shaking. The adrenaline and the fear had worn him out but the three 5-hour energies from his stockpile he’d downed so that he could stay awake and wait for Zoe to wake up had him shaking and his heart feeling like it was fluttering.

A downfall to knowing you can’t die I guess, Josh thought, always doing stupid shit that’d kill a regular person.

The bitter thought of him having rather been a normal human — all human — shot through his mind and made him squeeze Zoe’s hand. Focus on the present, Josh. He swallowed around the lump in his throat. She’d been so exhausted from fighting with Eli that she’d passed out. But it was starting to get concerning.

He squeezed her hand again. “C’mon Zoe,” he whispered, “get through this. Wake up.”

#Zoe #para

[countingbluecars-blog1]

Date: 6 May 2017; 3pm Location: Cheap Thrills; Boardwalk Closed: @castitas-etsuko

Isaiah popped the mini donut into his mouth before taking a sip of his coffee. He’d picked them up on his way through Cheap Thrills (never really being able to avoid the pull of mini donuts), to eat while he waited for Zoe to turn up.

— Am I really doing this?

Of course he was — he wanted answers and the best way was to just face it head on; ask the head instead of the body.

He swallowed the food in his mouth, washing it down with weak, acidic coffee, and tapped his foot. He hoped she’d turn up soon — he was starting to get antsy and he’d only been there for a few minutes. The excitement and the nervous feeling fighting for top spot made Isaiah drink more of his coffee.

#(int: Zoe) #ILU I HOPE THIS IS OKAY #(p: Zoe) #l: Cheap Thrills #t: 3pm #d: 6 may 2017 #(convo) #(para) #(may)

[catastrophically-aware]

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I like you // I love you // I’m indifferent toward you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’m jealous of you // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’m attracted to you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I respect you // I want your respect // I feel protective of you // I’d like to cut loose with you // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // You’re nice // You’re mean // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I want an apology from you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better 

#zoe #<3 #castitas-etsuko

[chvrchesrp]

The funeral setting and eulogy as written by @castitas-etsuko: (long narrative post; trigger warnings for grief and death; date 03.28.17)

Zoe smoothed down the front of her jumpsuit, a delicate gauzy white that flapped lightly in the early evening breeze. She stood facing the ocean, her back to the pulpit that had been brought out to the beach for this purpose, giving herself a moment to let the sun warm her skin and feel the edge of the waves smooth up over her bare feet where they had sunk into the sand. She had sprayed a sea salt mixture into her hair as she got ready, braiding it loosely over one shoulder where the comforting smell would always be nearby.

The beach was stunning, no expense spared by Lucifer who had been nothing but generous and full of contrition. Zoe and Adele had spent hours going over every detail, making sure everything was absolutely perfect to honor Jairus in the best way they could. The pulpit was hand carved wood, brought from the Church itself so Jairus could have a part of what he had built standing next to him. His ashes had been flown in from Vegas in an antique rum bottle, the green glass glittering in the evening sun where it rested nestled in a thick fishing net that had been slung carefully over a dark wood podium. A large candid photo of Jairus had been erected next to the podium showing him laughing in a close up, glossy paper covered in a thin sheet of glass to protect it from the elements. The photo would be hung in the sanctuary of the church after the service, a constant reminder that Jairus was light and love and stood for that above all else.

There were two large sections of wooden pews bisected by a small sandy aisle leading up to the pulpit, each pew covered in soft white linen with white satin bows tied around the ends. Before guests made their way to their seats, no seats designated for one side or the other, they would have to pass a large tome with thick parchment paper, giving them the opportunity to write any message they wanted to send on or perhaps just their own name so the grieving knew they had been there. Each member of the Board of the Heavenly stood at various intervals throughout the area with baskets, allowing anyone who wished so to pin a white ribbon to their clothing and pick up a copy of the program, Jairus’ face emblazoned on the front while messages of love from the Saints adorned the insides and a prayer and accompanying Bible verse took up the back.

As everyone finished shuffling through the sand to their seats, Zoe heard the sound of a string quartet—violin played by the Devil himself—filingl the evening air and letting the soothing sounds of Jairus’ favorite hymns roll over her before turning around to face her audience. As the music came to a gentle close, Zoe smoothed both palms over the leather cover of Jairus’ personal Bible, trying to sap whatever strength of his it still carried and bring it into her own body. Leaning into the microphone of the pulpit, the sound system Lucifer had brought also sparing no expense, she heard her own voice reverberate through the speakers as she addressed the mourners.

“Friends, family, loved ones… we gather here today not to mourn a devastating loss wrapped up in our sorrow, but instead to call upon our collective memories and celebrate a special, meaningful life.”

Catching sight of Maria in the first few rows, she pushed down her own tears and willed herself to persevere. She could do this. She had to, for everyone who couldn’t bear to. Adele. Kezia. Raziel. Cassiel. Even Renee. The list was endless.

“Jairus was a man of many talents. He loved fiercely and without holding back. He protected everyone around him with a strength that could not be matched.” At this, her throat caught. “When a pirate got it into his mind that he was going to build a church from the ground up, there was no power in Heaven or Hell that could stop him. The Church of Saints is everything that it is because of Jairus Harding. He fought tirelessly to make believers out of the broken, the beaten, the damned… anyone that needed help always had an outstretched hand and a warm mug awaiting them courtesy of Jairus. There was never a single person that Jairus did not have hope for.”

Looking out over the crowd of faces, her gaze meeting familiar faces and offering them the tiniest smile, she continued, “To me, personally, Jairus was a pillar. He was the embodiment of strength, the man who could not be moved, and while occasionally we may have butt heads over difference of opinion, ultimately there was no interaction with Jairus that I ever came away from not having learned something. He picked me up at a time in my life when I thought no one could and he never once stopped believing in me, no matter how my heart strayed. His presence in my life was a gift that I will never stop being grateful for, his love that of a brother that held my life above his own.”

Pausing for a moment and looking down at the Bible, she thumbed one ragged corner and gave herself a moment to breathe and compose herself, her emotions welling up as she willed herself only to think of the moment and not the circumstances that had led to it.

“I love Jairus, present tense. I don’t think a love should cease simply because another person has gone away and my love for Jairus is never ending. With his memory, with his tools, with everything he has built before me, I plan to live my life to the best of my ability and hold up the church he dedicated so much of his own life to creating. I will not say goodbye to Jairus, but let him know that I will meet him on the opposite shore.”

Glancing over at the bottle that contained his ashes for a long moment, she pulled herself back to the present and explained, “At this time, I would like to ask that anyone who has something to say please come forward and share with us. If you have a story, a memory, a dedication, a poem, anything that you feel would honor Jairus, please feel free to share that with all of us now.”

“Thank you all for coming today, I know Jairus would have been delighted to see each and every one of your faces here. Please feel free to join us after the service as we spread Jairus’ ashes into the ocean as per his wishes, followed by a candlelight vigil after sunset.”

You are all welcome to write threads at the funeral now as you wish. You can also write after this point, too; funeral threads aren’t required.

#event 007 #chvrchesrp #jairus feels #death tw #grief tw

[saltwaterkezia]

⭐️

These two have probably talked about being sisters in a past life. After Kezia learns about Maria and Magda and Joshua, she insists that they were sisters in a past life. Even if it’s not the truth, that is how Kezia thinks of Zoe: her sister from some former generation.

send me a symbol and..

#zoe #zoe extras #castitas-etsuko #all extras

[mynameis-kiara]

[AU] WYNONNA EARP

“Baby girl,” Kiara exclaimed as she wrapped her arms around her adopted sister for a tight hug, resting her head on Zoe’s shoulder. Breathing out a sigh of relief, she pulled back from the embrace and lightly slapped the other woman’s shoulder. “Scare me like that again and I will pull out all of your shoelaces. And remove batteries from everything you own. Yes, that includes the vibrator.”

@castitas-etsuko

#zoe #au!week #have a smoll thing #love me?