#All I know is that I could get a gf

[welcometogrouchland]

The fact that no one across all of DC fandom (as far as I can tell) has mined the beautiful comedic potential that is the night and day difference between Tim and Damians current canonical love interests

#ramblings of a lunatic #things i know about bernard: he's bi. he's into cooking. he's an endless source of love and positivity in tims life #and however you feel about that as a writing decision #you gotta admit it'd be funny to imagine him pulling up to the wayne family get together (I'm not looking at gotham war rn- #-for comedic reasons) and he sees damian's scary russian goth gf who keeps making oblique jokes about death #and they both just look at each other like. ah. hello #bc despite it all they have one thing in common and that's their deranged autistic vigilante boyfriends #idk I'm so interested in the potential for daminika to be hilarious (and on a more sincere note- meaningful and cute) together #and just Nika in general? she's fun to read rn but my brain keeps supplying me for potential routes for development you could take her #but keeping it strictly in funny territory? i want this. i think it'd be hilarious #Tim and Damian have to agree to not bite/punch/kick/torment each other for ONE day bc their beloveds are hitting it off so well #dc comics #timber #daminika #gravebird #I've also seen gravebird used and i think that's cute! i don't acknowledge flamian tho. who is that

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Me, while manically cleaning my room at 3:27am: I should make several large, life-changing, irreversible decisions.

#so ive been in a bad mental state lately #because of many things. but the biggest being (yes i know ive complained about this in multiple other posts) #that my best friend and my ex gf were fucking. without even asking or telling me. i got no heads up. just figured it out on my own #which sucked and now im not speaking to either of them #and when i first found out i was in a bad place physically too #i had a terrible ear infection that was so fucking painful #and i realized i could concentrate on both things. so i focused on healing #and then i remembered ny family is coming to visit for Christmas #and thats a lot to deal with. so now im focusing on cleaning the apartment. specifically my bedroom #so im manically cleaning at 3:30am while angry and stressed and trying not to focus on this thing that makes me really upset #and in the middle of cleaning ill suddenly think 'should i quit my summer camp job?' or 'should i move states again?' #its not good. but i havent acted on anything #AND in the middle of cleaning i found all of my meds #i havent been taking them for months. but i decided im gonna start taking them again #i have a few refills left but then ill have to find a psychiatrist. i dont want to. but its definitely for the best #im trying to get my life back on track and build and better it #but then something hits me and completely derails everything and makes everything so hard #so anyway im gonna go do some more cleaning and try not to make life-altering decisions. and maybe build a desk #btw i have to get up at 9am to take out my puppy. and at 11:35 i have to get ready for work. again its 3:30am #and im full of manic energy #tomorrow is going to be very bad but at least I'll have a semi-clean room

[dykeyuu]

every day when i wake up i say to myself “dykeyuu you are not purchasing any sanrio merchandise today” but then i find the deal of the century……..

#like. i only buy it if i know for sure ill NEVER find it at that price again #2007 corduroy keroppi that literally doesn’t exist on the internet? $16 #i came across it by chance and it took me hours to find evidence that anyone else had ever owned one #found a chococat one too from the same series but it’s pricier… #but it’s the only one listed anywhere that i can find so. perhaps #sike i found one in the philippines there’s TWO corduroy chococats on the internet #i mean there’s literally one reddit thread i could find from years ago confirming that this series existed #and it’s only got like two commenters who only vaguely remembered the series #and a handful of worthpoint entries confirming that a couple of each of them had sold on ebay at some point #all the other sanrio corduroy plushies i could find were from other series #there’s a hello kitty and my melody from the same year but it wasn’t the same series #both series were rereleases in 2007 and the original release year for hk/mm was earlier than cc/k #20in 2012 fiesta keroppi? $40 when he usually goes for $100+ #(this includes shipping…) #was devastated to find an etsy listing for the 2010 limited keroppi build a bear for $85 that had already sold… #the next cheapest one of those is like $140 #and dont get me fucking started on chococat #no build a bear should EVER go for $500 #like be serious. maybe it was limited edition 14 years ago but it’s still a damn stuffed animal #manifesting they rerelease the original sanrio build a bears to beat the price gougers into submission #the intersection of two special interests: sanrio and buying things from people who don’t know what they have #throwback to the 1993 keroppi squeaky toy that i thrifted for 25 cents #just looked it up to see and i found the exact same one but only on worthpoint #he used to be a keychain… mine is just the little guy with no chain #comparable one from the same year same size/material etc just different design goes for $20+ #context i refuse to make a worthpoint account and pay them just to see what things sold for on ebay they can kiss my ass #me when i need to infodump but gf is at work and has already heard like half of this

[mid-nightowl]

…can i ask you to share more of your thoughts on fem!jaytim vibes

hi cory!!!! yes, yes i can :) <3

most of my thoughts come from this lil snippet and my tags.

my thoughts on fem!jaytim can be boiled down to this line: “Her successor fascinates her. She kind of wants to let him dissect her, little freak that he is.” 

like tim is a freak who would absolutely want to dissect and take jaye apart piece by piece just to get to the bottom of whatever the hell is wrong with her (obsessive) and jaye would let him bc she wants to know what the hell is wrong with him (affectionate). 

It’s almost a scientist and their never-ending experiment, but not quite?

like the dissection, its the act, the intimacy, the trust in being vulnerable and completely open on the table for them to see, a show and a sight but not a performance, it's the ‘i’m going to take you apart piece by piece, not to fix you or change you, but just to understand you’, and 'i’m going to get my hands dirty and dig into you, and it can be voluntarily or not, it can be with anesthesia or nothing but im going to know you whether you like it or not,' paired with 'you are going to have to cut me open to get to know me, it has to be cold and violent, it has to be artful and methodological.'

but jaye started off with ‘i want to destroy you, take you to the brink, the edge of despair and fury and hatred and let you go without any catharsis,’ kind of like capturing a wild animal, testing on it, and then releasing it back into the wild with a tag to see what it will do after being changed (will it return back to it’s normal routine or will it come back for more?)

and then tim kept coming back. and that's when jaye is like alright yeah, i'll let you rip me open and give me a name (or maybe give me back my name?) and tim does, and he does it carefully, adoringly, obsessively.

and i think tim’s obsessive focus, paired with the idea of the knife/scalpel = love, is what jaye would respond to best. she was raised in violence, and probably thinks that fighting and pain is caring and love, AND she’s never been a priority in anyone’s life. so for tim to obsess and know her in ways that no one else has before (or have even bothered) is captivating, exciting, and absolutely mind-boggling, and i think jaye would get possessive, like ‘this robin, this little freak is mine.'

i, hmmm. running out of coherent thoughts after this, so um i guess enjoy? <3

#asks #felinemotif #i don't write/talk about jaytim very much; ive always been a jaydick girlie #but this was a lot of fun to think about and like actually get down my thoughts in a somewhat coherent manner #i think there's another piece here about the dissection as an intimacy that only requires the subject and the surgeon/scientist #and the idea of labelling and taking photos of the parts something about learning and teaching but also remembering #another part: once the dissection is done once tim knows all of jaye does he stay? #which i think devolves into jaye going out of her way to prolong the dissection bc she thinks it may be temporary between her & tim #whereas tim is thinking okay i know all the pieces and parts which means im the perfect partner for jaye #no one knows her better than me AND no one will get to know her like i do #(the whole dissection thing too like tim is not afraid about hurting jaye whereas bruce is bc he knew her before) #(bruce thinks “dissection” would = change bad or good while tim knows it just means learning and knowing) #like it's going to be painful before it gets better and bruce doesn't want to go through the pain of knowing this version of jaye #bc it means acknowledging what he's done or not done #and tim's a fixer at heart but to fix things you gotta know what you're dealing with #problem is tim fell in love and realized fixing things would just make it worst so #he is very content with his tall gf that could kill him with her thighs and lets him do his freaky experiments<3 #okay wow i was not done with the thoughts ajfkagjbsg imma stop now #jaytim #fem!jaytim

[theygender]

I switched to buying the happy egg brand recently bc I know chickens are the most abused farm animal and I figured paying a couple extra bucks for some of them to have at least a marginally better life was a fair trade off, and I've been really happy with it. Today when I went to boil some eggs for breakfast I found that the two eggs I picked out were different sizes and for some reason that was so charming to me. Like... It makes it feel more real. These are real eggs that come from real chickens who have a somewhat decent quality of life. Hens naturally lay eggs of different sizes, and I feel like it's probably a good sign that an "imperfection" like that was allowed to exist rather than the company being set up in a way where hens are just made to keep pumping out eggs until they can replace all the natural variation with "perfect" ones

#rambling #and like i know happy egg still isnt perfect. no factory farm is. and i know there are other farms with even better qol for their chickens #but happy egg is the most ethical option sold in my area #and if the options are between 'chickens roaming free in areas with at least limited access to outside spaces #in a company that has built their whole image around caring for their wellbeing so their reputation is tied to how well they treat them' #or 'chickens spending their entire lives in indoor cages too small to stand up or turn around in—possibly painfully mutilated— #at a company with absolutely no transparency about the welfare of their animals who doesnt even bother to pretend they arent abusive' #...yeah ill spend like $1-2 extra for the first one #ideally i would love to start getting eggs from local chickens if i could reliably find a source #and end goal i would LOVE to have pet chickens and my own eggs so i dont need to worry about it at all anymore #(my gf and i both come from rural families who had pet chickens) #but uh. i live in an apartment rn lol. so im taking smaller steps where i can

[sapphicautistic]

My gf was listening to "White Blank Page" by Mumford and Sons and I once again told her that song is SO much better if it's gay.

She doesn't listen to the lyrics of songs but she's extremely good at literary analysis and this time she actually looked up the lyrics and has now come to the following conclusion: "It makes no sense if it's not gay."

My (objectively best) reading is this:

The narrator was in love with a guy who strung him along, never willing to be in a committed (or public) relationship with him and maybe insisting that it's extremely heterosexual "helping a bro out" sex, except in more intimate moments. Finally out of nowhere guy is suddenly committed to a woman and when Narrator confronted him, guy spat out homophobic vitriol and claimed he's not gay like the Narrator.

(For extra flavor imagine them as closeted, straight passing Midwestern flannel wearing, love-bonfires-and-camping guys who sat next to each other at church and elbowed and annoyed each other like best friends do and were each other's go-to source of emotional support! And then to suddenly shut Narrator out for the first time ever, by abruptly marrying a woman and insisting that he's always been straight and their relationship meant nothing...)

Here are the lyrics:

Can you lie next to her And give her your heart, your heart As well as your body? And can you lie next to her And confess your love, your love As well as your folly? And can you kneel before the king And say, "I'm clean! I'm clean!" ? But tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? Oh, tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? A white blank page and a swelling rage, rage You did not think When you sent me to the brink, to the brink You desired my attention But denied my affections, my affections So tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? Oh, tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? Lead me to the truth and I Will follow you with my whole life Oh, lead me to the truth and I Will follow you with my whole life

Why call multiple people "you" in a totally unclear way? Why would you claim that your female ex's new man can't love her AT ALL (not just as much as you did, AT ALL)? And invoking the judgment of God is so fucking tedious if you're just shaming your female ex for moving on or even cheating/getting with your friend. Also you look like a creepy asshole if you think a girl broke up with you for "loving her too much".

This song is tepid, badly written, and makes the narrator look like an asshole if it's NOT gay.

The gay reading is the ONLY compelling one.

#i don't even care about m/m romances lmao i get bored when there's no women BUT #this is objectively the best reading #anyways my gf and I came up with the main beats for an entire romance story about these guys #as a dyke raised in the church i really like the religious midwestern reading here too #also there's SUCH a phenomenon of guys having secret sex out in these rural areas and insisting even to themselves it's not gay #so this reading is very compelling to me #i also like to think the woman is like fine. there's nothing wrong with her she's sweet and friends with both of them. #gf said what if she's Narrator's sister? #like i think it's better narrative wise if the woman has no idea and isn't trying to 'turn him straight' #bc the ex CHOSE this. he caved and all so he can stand before God and insist he's 'clean' #which to me... very very resonant #updates on my boring life #also I think the ex can be either bi or gay like it doesn't matter because either way Narrator is convinced ex loves HIM still n not wifey #god i could go line by line but no one wants that lmao it's extremely funny that i fixated on this #i did not even know it was a mumford and sons song or that they are british until gf told me both facts today #i am in no way a fan #im jsut a sucker for religion flavored gay angst i guess or at least this variety of it

[ronon-dex]

into s2 of travelers now and not to be a hater, but if I had the ability I would reach through the screen and kill every one of the main 5's romantic interests with a rock

#travelers #travelers netflix #travelers s2 #netflix travelers #grant maclaren #marcy warton #philip pearson #carly shannon #trevor holden #they're redeeming the abusive ex boyfriend and giving maclaren's wife more screentime than philip #david is always just THERE and now philip has a hot sassy bestie who's giving him fake heroin #don't even get me started on the way they framed trevor's gf to be a horrible bully... and yet she's still here groping him #the gf who's 17 while trevor is hitting edward cullen numbers #i need a clean sweep. or a beach episode. just the squad. #the way we know fuck all abt any traveler's past but i could tell you the name of maclaren's wife's dentist.... #venting abt a show made in 2016 YOU DONT GET ITTT...

[chryzure]

if ryan murphy were not insanely biphobic, i know exactly what blaine warbler and sam “im sooooo totally okay cool with doing extremely romantic duets w my guy best friends that are also into me & have confessed to me before” evans would’ve been

#the biphobia is also not lost on brittany. why did we have santana say all that. she KNOWS her gf wouldn’t ’stray for dick’ what the fuck ?? #no but i genuinely get so angry abt the bi blaine episode and how awful it was abt bisexuality #do i think blaine probs has a preference for men??? um. Yes. lmao. i think blam should’ve been endgame!!! #but also the fucking BIPHOBIA and how kurt’s biphobic rant was proven to be correct??? what ??? lol???? #ryan murphy i Will kill you #memorie.txt #sorry abt glee posting here but juno makes me watch a lot of it and i have fucking thoughts abt it #WHY HAVE BLAINE BE SO VEHEMENTLY SURE HE COULD BE BI THEN PROMPTLY DO A HEEL TURN. OH I GET SO MAD

[lesbian-kyoru]

Chapters: 1/3 Fandom: ちはやふる | Chihayafuru (Anime & Manga) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Ayase Chihaya/Mashima Taichi/Wataya Arata, Ayase Chihaya/Wataya Arata, Mashima Taichi/Wataya Arata Characters: Wataya Arata, Ayase Chihaya, Mashima Taichi Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Birthday, Fluff and Angst, Polyamory, Mutual Pining, OT3, Getting Together, Emotional Baggage, you think your life is hard? arata was born in december, eventual polyamory they will just need a second

Summary

"If you could go back, would you still come to Tokyo?" Chihaya asks.

A poem repeats in Arata's head, meguri aite, was that really, really you, and he's never been the best with their meanings, but this one sinks into his bones. He remembers right after he moved to Tokyo, nothing the way that he wanted it to be, and he remembers the first time he saw Chihaya surrounded by the cityscape. She seemed as tall as every skyscraper before him, and he recognized Taichi's silhouette in every negative space.

Tokyo felt so lonely to him then, in the way only a home can. It still does.

#chihayafuru #wataya arata #taichihayarata #chiharata #arataichi #today is so about him!!!!!! #first chapter is chyrt focus and second chapter will be arataichi and then after that im hoping ot3 occurs in chapter 3 #but who knows this could become a mammoth i have no idea #anyways happy birthday to the most special brooding sag boy of all time #could not decide who to ship him with which is why he will be getting a gf and a bf for his birthday. hope this helps #chihayafuru fic #my fic #zoe.txt

[arsenicflame]

well i think its finally time to open this box

#sorry gang apparently i am incapable of sticking to my word and am continuing to have a personality on main and subject you all #to all of my bullshit #i am doing my best but i am a weak bitch who does not know how to process feelings #so its a fucking miracle im opening this box tbh. ive wavered a lot around this one #this round of thinking is being brought on by the probable imminent break up between me + my gf 🙃👍 #its been on the cards for a hot minute i mean. she hasnt sent me a message since the 8th of march until today and its like a. #we need to talk message so. like im not surprised. ans ive been thinking about it all a lot recently #i dont really want to realise im aro while im with someone so ive been avoiding it but like. ive been thinking. and ive been thinking if we #shouod break up too anyway because like. i get i am so hard to be around. but nothing. for a month. even a silly picture. it hurts dude #but i kinda didn't want to push because. i know i am. me. and a lot. and i know shes got stuff on her plate. but so do i #maybe we're both no good #to be around #nyxtalks #this is very not helpful in my whole. everyone i love leaves me eventually so i should isolate myself and push them all away thing i guess #but i dont think. i want to cling. i dont wanna be that pathetic. #she can do better than me (i cant do better than her) #i mean. idk ive been questioning if im aro anyway so. idk #i dont fucking know #honestly this is gonna be so cringe if this isnt what she wanted to talk about but like. what else could it possibly be i guess #dude i am so sorry if you read this this turned into relationship vent rather than my feelings around aromanticism #those are.complicated enough for their own post and i probably need to talk to some actual aromantic people about that

[huntingrays]

so, i love and vibe w bi leo, it’s so good

however

something just hits different with gay leo who’s been performing heterosexuality for years

#heroes of olympus #leo valdez #like i could write a whole essay on this (not rlly but also yes rlly) #like lil him somehow getting in his head that you have to find someone who likes you and then you’ll grow to love them #and that all guys just think girls are pretty but don’t like them beyond that until they get to know them #and he doesn’t get to explore feelings for girls bc nobody shows interest in him and he keeps like running away from home #and then he meets fake memory jason and something just clicks #but he assumes it’s just bc they mesh rlly well #but then he has the classic italicized oh moment #but he just thinks he’s seeing why girls like jason so much #and so he ignores it and tries to get a gf. bc surely if he flirts w pretty girls he’ll find one who likes him right? #and once he finds a girl who actually likes him then he’ll fall for her and know what all those guys w gfs are on abt #but also mans probably has some catholic guilt n internalized homophobia n shit #bc yknow his aunt calling him a demon/devil (i forgot which it was) #i can imagine him and nico bonding over this and falling for heroes #and he’s SHOCKED when pipes is talking abt what she loves abt women after she comes out #and he’s like ‘wait what???? I’ve never thought that way abt girls ever. you don’t just like them bc they’re objectively pretty????’ #and then they have a long convo abt sexuality #and he has a realization that the way piper feels abt women is the way he feels about men (but mainly jason) #maybe he’s also aspec? I could see him being demi and only liking someone after getting a connection w them #valgrace #man now i wanna write a leo sexuality crisis fic #but i got so many fics i wanna write… the main one being a revival fic bc the boys deserve to be happy #but also i need more valgrace fics… and you should be the change you wanna see in the world #as someone who’s arospec i’m just projecting onto him but with a different flavor

[im2tired4usernames]

My parents should be fuckin ashamed

#you borrow 80 bucks then can only find me 21 back then i put that 21 into good for your kids then spend the rest of my paycheck getting #diapers pull ups medicine more food for kids and then i fill up the 15 passenger van and then when dad asks why i don't have money to eat #on my lunchbreaks at work like I'm some over spending wild irresponsible bitch when he's the one going to concerts and paying for fancy dat #s and jewelry for his gf and buying groceries for her but you know it's fine #take all my time and energy #so that i literally am a zombie and fall asleep on the very very very limited free time i get #(after doin extra chores to earn said free time) #wo that i fall asleep half way in which isn't fair to my partner and isn't fair to me #take all my income so i cant afford anything #take all my time #take all my energy #YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED YOU GROOMED ME AND MESHED THE FAMILY'S ENTIRE LIFE STYLE FOR ME TO BE LIKE THIS #I CANT MAKE HEALTHY FRIENDSHIPS BECAUSE I JUST CAN NOT FUNCTION IF I'M NOT GIVING EVERYTHING TO SOMEONE #IT SUCKS I HATE IT #THEY'LL NEVER ADMIT THEY FUCKED ME OVER #EVER #THEY'LL NEVER DO ANYTHING TO FIX IT OR CHANGE #AND I HAVE NO HOPE FOR ANY CHANGES #MY LITTLE SIBLINGS SEE WHAT I DO FOR THEM AND THEY HUG ME AND TELL ME HOW MUCH THEY LIVE ME #'thank you so much for taking care of us' that tell me all the time 'you do so much for us' #it breaks my heart i wish i could give them the world i love them so much they deserve so much better #my mom lost her chance to be decent my dad better learn soon otherwise all his kids minus his favorite will hate him #i love ny parents #and i know they live me and my siblings #but they groomed me into the most miserable personification of elder daughter syndrome and they should be ashamed for what they've done #and be ashamed that they sucked so bad that they're own child had to step up

[emcads]

cooking up new ways for esme to die in canon

#i dont stay committed to ANYTHING on this blog but idc #my current thought: barbossa betraying esme to the navy when the two crews are looking for the cursed gold (thereby significantly increasin #the pearl's crew / his own share) #arranging for jack to be aboard when it happens on a cute lil date with his gf. probably compensated handsomely for the capture of two #captains with a sizeable price on their heads #and i do think lawrence would be involved. maybe also a younger james. (rather see a navy ship at the bottom of the ocean etc etc) #jack obv escapes / survives with the piece of eight which would piss off hector SO much #and tbqh i think barbossa could feign innocence in the ordeal for a good while. considering he's on good terms with jack & esme in the book #and i think him and her would bond over being Gentlemen Pirates with fancy dinners and feathered hats et all #but at the same time. there's not a lot of pieces in that chest for two full-sized pirate crews esp because esme's crew is larger #and jack's romantic interest in esme / his devotion to seeing her get her share / and POSSIBLY even a wavering commitment to actually takin #the chest for themselves (given that esme has an interest in appeasing her ancestors and seeing them at rest as well as knowing abt and #wanting to avoid said curse) #would give barbossa motivation to do what he needed to do to serve himself and his crew first #jack won't separate from her / prioritize the crew over her. so he'll get rid of her himself. #ooc. ( ࿐ྂ ) lesjibbities dangereuses.

[theygender]

My throat hurts like fucking hell and it's only getting worse and I really hope it's not fucking COVID

#woke up with a minor sore throat but i figured it was just bc it was cold #usually if the room im sleeping in is too cold ill wake up with a sore throat. like thats just a thing that happens to me #but ive been drinking water and tea and miso soup and unfortunately it is getting Worse instead of better #if it was sore bc i slept in a cold room i would expect to be mostly better by now #but instead its gotten worse to the point that i almost cant even fucking swallow #could potentially be strep. god knows im long overdue for a strep infection. i used to get them yearly and its been a few years without one #anything would be better than covid i suppose. but i dont wanna be sick AT ALL :( this is my week off #i asked my gf to pick up a covid rapid test and if it comes back negative ill go to the doc to do a long test + strep and flu tests #this sucks tho :( cant fucking swallow or talk. i hate this 😭 #rambling #edit: low grade fever! lets hear it for low grade fever!

[lenievi]

a thing about Sam Kirk is that he wants to impress his father so much that he is becoming his father even though he, like Jim, must feel all kind of feelings about Kirk Sr., especially since he never really had time for his kids, and since Sam seems to scoff at how old-fashioned Kirk Sr. is

and what does Sam do in order to impress his father? Leaves his family - his wife and kid(s) - behind.

#snw nonsense #headcanon times #jim probably left all of his girlfriends the moment they started to talk about children #using his job as an excuse because he didn't want his children to feel like he did #saying he didn't want his gf to sacrifice her own job #tragically enough his son grew up without ever knowing his father #anyway snw might go a different direction but since i've always hc that aos kirk would never want kids because he knew he could die suddenly #if i can do that with tos kirk i will #because i feel it makes sense #and then when he gets older he has regrets #(sometimes it's interesting to see that other people don't like some aspects of snw kirk when snw is here just validating my own hc lol) #(or making some of them more plausible) #sam kirk

[unproduciblesmackdown]

billions could only have a gay man, who was married, and died by the end of that season; only deal with taylor's upending of presumed cishettery by having everyone who's not terrible be automatically down without putting some crisis about it on them, as the better approach to trying to have people talk about it (true, certainly in this case); extent of its room for rian's latent nonbinariness being "never wearing skirts/dresses, always wearing makeup though"....all that is to say, even with neither of them allowed to be "truly" cishet, b/c that's the rewarded realm for superior people, billions could never do winstuk. but they could be kissing right now

#winston & tuk: cannot be cishet in a way that matters (billions means this as an insult. i mean it as a testimonial) #sure convincing that winston's own ideals are like ''wow im the straightest in the world'' after One alleged official dating experience #and Two crushes on nonbinary people. and being the One person who's a) supported tuk b) without telling him to Stop Being A Loser #the one way other characters can Elevate(tm) tuk more than winston: not Really support him; just tell him to Become worthier #while winston: does not do this #anyway nobody at all gets to be ''truly'' ''ideally'' cishet; just like other inventions re the Correctest body/mind's look & behavior #tbt yrs & yrs ago some random lady talking abt ''queering'' her marriage by having a cellphone or smthing like ma'am i agree nowadays fr #winston Cannot have a ''correct'' sexuality even if he's supposedly ''at least'' cishet with it #neither can tuk; next most loserest dumped no gf nerd! neither Unglasses'd; neither Thin; winston's autistic; tuk isn't white.... #show goes ''well just look at & listen to him XD'' towards winston on occasion; usually doesn't ''overtly'' do this; doesn't re: tuk.... #meanwhile the idea that well Non Hot(tm) people who have no place in ideals & fantasy of Correctness & what's most desired? #they can get with Each Other :) that doesn't threaten things haha don't know how wrong they are. or have accepted All They Deserve (less) #billions is so proximately capable of letting these two be Involved in this way lmao. but it also Isn't #can barely handle taylor & just avoids addressing as much outright as often; again: one gay man; neatly married; neatly deceased.... #iconic total hc's: supplementary dynamics the ladies who are also friends they hooked up w/in 6x11 having a fourway abt it #no anxious negotiating of what must be done & must not be done to keep it all cishet ''enough'' lol. congrats to them all #winston billions #winstuk #was already thinking winston could be dating someone we don't know abt till billions tried to reassure us oh he hasn't Of Course lol right #same is true for tuk ofc but he gets the same treatment (ft. ben's utter mysteriousness re: Any mention of past dating history....) #riawin could've been great & was completely welcome; issue became how the abusiveness there would just also manifest re: sex / romance #totally won't find resonance / overlap b/w ableism & homophobia in how winston's sexuality is seen as mere sex drive that's also gross btw #tuk's really also framed the same way like Of Course You'd Be Rejected; and Any desires would become repulsively Too Much #b/c the superior parties have to want it for it to be correct! & they'd never want You! you're just completely wrong & outside of it all #winston talking at all? Too Much. he must be talked To; & that is so usually begrudging & nonideal #other ppl being horney like well of course. pretty epic really #like w/e winston's sucking & fucking & [Saluting] if he isn't dating at all. like good for him. he can make out w/tuk one way or another #''winston can go fuck himself'' (like one bg dialogue person straightup says) Okay. He Is. party for one? this too can be Sex