#But NO ONE knows that better than Vash

[revenantghost]

Man, you ever think about how so much of Vash’s suffering is tied to Knives? In the obvious, direct ways of course. But also in how the humans around him suffer and hurt him. People are afraid of what they don’t understand, sure, but the average amount of compassion on Noman’s Land would be so much higher if Knives weren’t constantly fucking everything up and people had basic needs met. Small communities and people in general aren’t so goddamn awful as a baseline in a lot of places. There are outliers, yeah, but if humanity could have recovered and made the best of things, had a chance instead of widespread dispair, there might be peace.

And if Vash didn’t have to fight so goddamn hard every second of every day, he wouldn’t be covered in half those horrific scars.

#Trigun #Like that's what Vash's concept of love and peace is based on #That humanity can fundamentally always make that choice #And often do #Even in REALLY messed up situations #But Knives constantly puts humanity through the meat grinder #And the shrapnel constantly slaps Vash across the face #Knives keeps trying to teach Vash a lesson #That life fucking hurts and people will hurt him #But NO ONE knows that better than Vash #Man I'm having emotions you can just ignore me #Trigun Meta #My Trigun Meta

[ruporas]

good mornings throughout the travel

[ID: Two comics of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. The second is underneath the read more.

The first is in four panels and follows Vash and Wolfwood through hotel rooms. First, Vash and Wolfwood exit adjacent rooms, and Wolfwood has sparkles floating around him as he exclaims, “Rise and shine! Ready to go?” Vash frowns, displeased, and says, Urk— Good morning to you too.”

Next, they’re in a room with two beds. Wolfwood is awake and fully dressed. He’s sitting on the bed and smoking, back turned away from the viewer and he says, “Wake up already, sleepyhead.” Vash sits up with his eyes still closed and yawns before saying good morning. After that, they’re sharing a bed, and Wolfwood gets up and says, “Morning, sunshine. Time to get up.” His body shadows Vash from the sunlight. Vash is still lying down with a blanket draped over him as he mumbles good morning.

Finally, they’re embracing in bed, both shirtless. Sunlight shines on them, but their contact allows their shadows to drape over their faces. Vash smiles, kisses the top of Wolfwood’s head, and says, “Good morning, Wolfwood.” Wolfwood sleepily says, “Mph, g’morning, needle-noggin’,” snuggling into on Vash’s shoulder. End ID] ID CREDIT

TRIMAX Vol. 10 Spoilers under read more // bonus comic

[ID: The bonus comic starts with Vash asleep in bed, fully clothed with his hair half-black. Someone says “Good morning,” and Vash says, “Morning, Wolf—w...” He trails off as Livio, holding a plate of food, stares with abject shock.

Livio says, “I’m sorry.” Vash, smiling but sweating, says, “No, it’s my bad...” Livio repeats, “I’m sorry.” Vash says, “Geez, stop apologizing,” and cuts off Livio’s “I—” with a “Good morning, Livio.” Livio quietly mumbles, “... Good morning...”

Vash sits up from the couch he was sleeping on and looks down, thinking, “... That’s right. I won’t wake up to you anymore... I have to get used to that...” End ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #i just think. when theyre traveling for a long time together #sleeping in the same inns sleeping in the same rooms potentially as they get closer #realizing they dont need to pay the fee for 2 bedrooms if theyre comfortable fighting back to back #realizing they dont need to pay the fee for 2 beds after one night of being forced to sleep in same one since all the 2 beds rooms ran out #and being comfortable with it - and then after their feelings are shared #realizing theyd rather sleep and rest peacefully next to one another #and wake up slowly and enjoy the mundane while they can #i drew ww waking up first bc i dont imagine he sleeps much tbh. i think vash is a light sleeper too and more often than not #and vash goes to bed just bc he knows if he tries to leave ww would follow him #i also think vash never had someone stand guard for him before even if that isnt what he wants out of ww to do. but knowing that ww is #there means that he can actually sleep peacefully without worry that someones going to drop on him immediately. i think he'd get used tothat #and ww -- as he opens his heart more to vash -- gets comfortable staying in bed a little longer #sleeps a little better -- especially when they start to share a bed bc there's a warmth there that he can't help but cave into #bc he hasn't had that in a long time. #ruporas art

[dravencore]

“The humans treat you well? Did you have fun, dear brother?”

“I did, yeah. Best thing that’s ever happened to me.”

screencap redraw! experimented a little with style

#trigun #trigun 1998 #trigun 98 #vash the stampede #millions knives #fanart #trigun 1998 episode 26 under a sky so blue had me feeling shrimp emotions #especially for this scene in particular. #wasn't that into trigun when i started watching 98 (only watched one ep of stampede) #so it was basically my first exposure. and i liked it! i thought it was fun! #then this episode came and hit me with like a sledgehammer. and i was like oh! okay! #it's about......... coping with trauma.........and moving forward................ #also btw i hate rendering and this is as far as i'll get tbh #i know i need to work on it so yknow what better way than this #but still it was not fun. and i still don't rlly like how it looks.

[heich0e]

trigun college!au where knives doesn't think you're good enough for vash, and hates how close the two of you seem to be getting as your friendship develops. so of course the obvious solution is to fuck you within an inch of your life on a semi-regular basis so that you don't get any ridiculous ideas about trying to date his little brother.

#no one is online and therefore i'm allowed to post this #nai wanted him and vash to go to a better more prestigious school #but vash's heart was set on this one #so he followed (with the obvious intention of convincing him to transfer somewhere more respectable after a semester or two) #you and vash meet at frosh week and have a few classes together #and knives resentfully watches as the years pass and you ingratiate yourself further and further into his brothers life #he waits until you're at a party one night to put his plan into motion #finding you in a dark corner when you FINALLY leave his brothers side for more than a few fleeting moments #and he corners you with his big BIG frame and has every intention of questioning you and YOUR intentions with regards to vash #but you're blinking up at him with slightly intoxicated doe eyes that make him uncharacteristically hesitate #next thing you know he's dragging you into some random room at the stupid house party he never even wanted to attend in the first place #and the rest they say.... is history #(plot twist your friendship with vash is completely platonic and you've had a crush on nai all along anyway) #trigun college!au

[seoafin]

#in the top 3 stampede moments I regularly think about #stampede rlly reinterpreted trigun to make it all about love. vash's love for rem. knives' love for him. vash's love for humanity. #in the manga knives does not crash the ships because of vash. he does it because he thinks humanity is a blight #ik that stampede is technically a prequel and what happens in july is leading up to vash reexamining n solidifying his pacifism #but the kicker is that knives' is RIGHT! vash repeatedly gets rejected by other people #someone tries shooting him and when his angel arm protects him the townspeople start throwing ROCKS at him #in the manga his goofiness is a facade! to make himself small to make himself seem harmless to make it so that he can avoid fighting #and in stampede which arguably takes place before vash adopts that sillier persona knives SEES and KNOWS what's going to happen #he thinks vash is debasing himself he thinks vash needs to be protected he thinks HE knows better for vash than vash #and so he proceeds to remake vash. not for him. but for VASH himself. #so vash can achieve happiness but it's knives' standard of happiness #so who's the selfish one and who's the selfless one #do they actually love each other? can they love each other without understanding each other? #or maybe they just think they understand each other #which is why despite everything they try and try and try to get the other to understand #for that small sliver of a possibility #UGHHHGRGKRHGK #trigun.talk

[lemongogo]

source

#sorry i just rly like how this 1 showcases the fightAHHH #i cropped it but if u watch the full vers they include knives burning at the endT_T #it makes me sooo!not normal ab their dynamic #u cannot get better than diametrically opposed siblings #and its soo much better knowing knives was the more sensitive twin . huehee (crying) #tbh love that guy.trimax knives at least idk much ab this one☝️☝️ #also also the 1 post that called this the mcu bc of the cube💀BAHAHAGWHAH #THAT AERIAL SHOT BTW !!! SOOO COOL #scenes like that r sooo tasty.. yk that clip of gojo in jjk op1 . yeah. #trigun stampede #trigun #vash #knives trigun #trigun spoilers #also not sh/ip ill literally snipe u on rb #millions knives

[southern--downpour]

pros of new hyperfixation: dopamine :) 

cons of new hyperfixation: i cannot focus on school work all i want to do is read trigun nothing else is interesting rn

#i have so much classwork i need to do but all my brain can do is go 'hehehehehe vash :)' and i cant do Shit abt it #I HAVE *THINGS* TO DO #last time i fixated this bad was dsmp and i literally failed a math class bc of that #and like. logically i know i should be doing stuff. i know this is probably gonna make me crash and fail. however. #entire rest of my brain is in fact still going 'hehehehehe vash :)' and i Cannot Do Anything About This Other Than Read More Trimax #shut up virgil #anyways. hehehehehhehehehheheheh vash :))))) #i started reading trimax ofc and i am fucking in love w/ the black/blonde hair he looks so cute dude #i really liked seeing nightows artsyle improve so far too #love the early art still ofc but its a little inconsistent in quality? + the text placement was SUPER confusing at times #like. it was just hard to figure out who was talking #that was like the main problem ive had reading it so far #but like thats been gettin progressively better and the art has gotten INSANE and im barely into maximum #also. that one page. where wolfwood tells vash to shoot him. yk the one. #that is all. #trigun :)))))) #actually no that is not all that entire interaction has been rotating in my brain nonstop #holy shit its such a good scene #i really love wolfwood man #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this series is going to fucking kill me #/pos #this motherfucking hyperfix is here to stay apparently esp w/ stampede and the influx of new fans #like if this happened when i first watched og trigun i wouldve just been digging through old content and fan content #and probably wouldve drained it of dopamine pretty quick #but theres NEW content? that i can watch while its AIRING??? im not going to shut the fuck up!

[tomboyyyaoi]

i can handle ppl not shipping what i ship. im not a child. im not insane. but what the fuck do u MEAN ppl just "dont see" vamery what the fuck do u MEAN i get so baffled when ppl go "theyr better as friends!" like what are u TALKING ABOUT bro how wrapped up in vashwood are u that u genuinely dont see them absolutely adoring and admiring eachother bro???????? how do u not see that care and warmth how the FUCK is that indirect kiss purely platonic to u how are u seeing vashwood and not also seeing vamery like they go hand in hand to me he loves them both and they both love him its so nuts to me that some ppl will be so head over heels for one but the other is purely platonic to them. how. literally how. the pairings are SO linked to me and the way they parallel is so beautiful and massively enhances the story. please. try again. ou my god. fuck man. what the fuck

#like are u denying it to protect vashwood? are u denying it bc u cant handle vash loving more than one person????????? #bro u dont have to ship it but 'theyr just good friends' MY ASS. enough. get in the soup. #how dare u #get out of my house #yesyes i know platonic love can be just as strong but ur telling me u see vashwood as romantic but not vamery?????? #sniff sniff smells like hypocrisy #AGAIN PLEASE U DONT HAVE TO SHIP IT U DONT HAVE TO ACTIVELY ROOT FOR IT I KNOW #but every time i see someone draw the most warm kind gutwrenching sweet vamery art ive ever seen be tagged with #'i think theyr better as friends but i love their bond :)' i take psychic damage #my guy its not gnna kill u to just admit theyr a cute couple u dont have to de-romance their bond to enjoy it alongside vashwood

[orcelito]

Re-release of the Badlands Rumble vash & wolfwood figurines like all my prayers have been answered

Won't be out until June apparently but I've been here for over half a year & The Interest hasn't abated, I'll be here then too.

Vashwood figurines.........🫣🥺🕺

#speculation nation #i know theres the stamp figurines but i didnt want them #i briefly contemplated the ww. but then decided. No. their staml designs r not the ones im interested in. #and my waiting is rewarded... there Will be old design figurines again :D #im not as big a fan of the vash figurine as i am the ww. but theyre a PAIR i cant separate them 🥺 #also vash apparently comes with a little kuroneko which is so cute #im already thinking of how ill rearrange my display case for them #if i can fit thanatos down with the p5 kids to free up the shelf for vw that might be the best bet. #but then again thanatos is big... and the p5 figmas have Quite the large platforms... #idk ill figure it out. maybe vw can hang out with thanatos in the top shelf #like 'me n the boyfriend n the embodiment of peaceful death! ✌️✌️✌️' #itll also depend on how big the vw figures are... i dont actually know... #if. you look at their prices. and go. 'hey fanny. what the fuck.' #dont WORRYYYYYY ABOUT IT $93(each) is better than the like $800 ish itd take to buy one of the original resales #plus i dont have to pay immediately. just whenevr the figurines are actually released #plus... its on Sale...🥺🥺🥺 #🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #im just daydreaming about those figures now. just gotta wait over half a goddamn year lmao #but ive been waiting for the official manga reprint and i can wait for this. woo

[cainware]

Physically ill over the thought that if Wolfwood were to be reincarnated, it would be Vash's luck that he never finds him until he gives up looking completely and then seeing that familiar face in the crowd hits him like a truck

#cainscontent #more thoughts im bringing here from twitter #reincarnation is a trope that i both adore and despise for how it breaks my heart #you never find what youre looking for until you stop searching haunts my dreams fr #can you imagine it how you spend so so long #probably centuries in vashs case #looking for the man you loved more than anything your best friend your one person that knew you better than anyone #and its only when you finally give up #tired and exhausted and heartbroken and with the vague sense of hopelessness #that you see his face in the crowd and its like being hit by a truck #the faces in the crowd blur completely and all you see is him #the man youve longed for and mourned and missed and failed #and here he is again and you feel your world shatter all over again #because do you deserve thos #do you deserve a second chance to be happy with him? #would he even want to know you if he found out you were seeing a past version of him in everything he did? #would he remember you? #and would you forgive yourself if you left him alone to live out his life without the curse of knowing you? #wolfwood #vash #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #vashwood #trigun

[anhttydfalstfan]

I've been butting my head against a Fox's Tongue and Kirin's bone au for atla for so long that i completely missed that Aurora could lend itself extremely well to that.

#aurora comic #aurora webcomic #comicaurora #Obviously you've got your Kendal-Aaron parallel (they're even both canonically ace!) and Vash-Marcus parallel #but ferin could easily be doppels and/or enclavers #The Collector takes the place of The Lady of course #And Erin takes the place of Rose while Tess takes the place of Connor (somewhat) #It's not one-to-one obviously but it works much better than with atla #No idea where dainix and alinua would fit though #if you dont know what fox's tongue is it's basically the prince and the pauper but make it high fantasy palace intrigue #Also the prince is the prophesied chosen one destined to save humanity and also very dead #Died immediately before chapter one. Tragic

[ambreiiigns]

WATCHED THREE MORE TRISTAMPS W BROTHER. NEXT TIME WE'LL FINISH IT AND GO BACK TO BSD. SCREAMING AND CRYING ETC BROTHER IS A KNIVES GIRLIE 100%

#I KNEW HE WAS GONNA SIDE W NAI HE CATERS TO HIM SOOOO MUCH FUCK OFFFFF DNDJSKDIAKG #for That reason he won't like vash but he DOES think he's inchresting. he LIKES nico he fuckin said nico is like #To Him one of the best executions of his character trope. not his favorite type of character and wishes it took longer to know his Story #which is a valid criticism to all of tristamp #but he thinks he's done better than most. HELLOOOOOOOOOO #as a nico girlie. word #he is VERY angry w meryl for what happened to roberto. he was just saying MIO PADREEE SEEE ROBERTO and i was sitting there #agreeing w him #as if i didn't know. sigh #and then he was like No. i knew it was gonna happen but No. Man. yeah #devastating evening for us. i almost cried (again?) during vash backstory but he'd make too much fun of me so i didn't but like it was there #OH HE FINALLY HAD THE VASH CHUUYA CONNECTING DOTS MOMENT #WHEN VASH OPENED THE GATE. HE WAS LIKE OH HE MAKES BLACK HOLES OH HE'S LIKE CHUUYA I WAS LIKE YEAAAHHHHH #my little mermaid pinocchio type of boys i love them SO MUCH #tristamp Fucks so hard. in short. he's really into it he likes it a lot. i'm so happy #oh nay #having said all this i'm very ready to go back to bsd so can't wait to wrap this up. gioele's gonna have a horrid time

[naispoptabforehead]

does anyone else get sad knowing irl your faves wouldnt like you and you might even hate them too

#this is about the fact im all for murder for the greater good #one bad guy life to save thousands of innocent peoples is more than a fair trade off imo #a lot of ppl vash saves dont deserve to live and it really would be better off if they did get killed #like in badlands rumble??? vash my man do you not know what that dude did and continued to do after ypu saved him

[needle-noggins]

(CW for SA, suicidal ideation) Here we go. My favorite and simultaneously least favorite panel of Vash and Knives.

I've seen a few interpretations of this scene and before we dive into the one that really struck me, let's start with the more... chill one. We're finally introduced to the third gun of Trigun, Vash's angel arm. And the way we're introduced to it involves Knives forcing him to pull the trigger. Of course, since no one knows anything about Knives, the people of Noman's Land blame Vash for Fifth Moon, and Vash likewise blames himself (this is kinda a spoiler but if you've been paying attention, it's just par for the course). However, he's not the one who pulled the trigger, Knives is. It brings up an interesting moral question of blame - do we blame the gun (and Vash, who is being used/objectified as a weapon here), or the person who wanted it to happen? Guns don't kill people, genocidal twins do!

Now for the awful interpretation, the one that makes me cry and wish Vash was real so I could hug him and pay for his therapy. And really highlights how awful Knives is and how far he'd go for his brother in his own, fucked-up way. I touched on this in a previous post about Legato and the Murder Cafe, and the whole time I was thinking about Fifth Moon but didn't want to say anything for the sake of spoilers.

So. Pay attention to the way Vash and Knives are standing. Knives, when he first grabbed Vash's head, was standing in front of him. He moves behind him to better control him and yeah, he's still controlling him via hand on head, and now he's got his other hand gripping Vash's chest, where feathers/wings are manifesting. Knives is assaulting him. If you wanna get crazy with it and say that the angel arm is kinda phallic, you could say... yeah. This is rape. I heard that specific interpretation once and while I accepted it I also don't know if that would be generally accepted or if I'd be called out for it, so I'm trying to tread lightly here.

It also doesn't escape me that of course the angel arm has feminine features like the plants - the plants that, again, humans are exploiting for their ability to create. There's a lot of feminist commentary to be made here but many people have said it better than me. Specifically I'm thinking of this one post I saw about gender fuckery and Tristamp Vash. Anyway.

Also, the atomic bomb/black hole/sun/whatever that is in the middle... It's just so powerful. It's terrifying. The eldritch body horror here is a punch to the gut. What the fuck, Trigun? I thought this was a funky space western!!!

Oh, and here's more commentary on the following few panels:

Vashussy shot, Knives is still right behind him. Yeah, I wasn't kidding about how bad this pose is for them. Knives, you sick fuck.

Vash shoots himself in the leg (a key difference from '98 trigun, lol), because of course he does, but it doesn't free him from the arm.

The arm's getting darker/the light inside is getting lighter! Stampede did an awesome job with their interpretation of the angel arm and I don't think I would have understood it without that. Also, on my first read I didn't notice that Vash is literally levitating, which is cool, but also terrifying because ?? he's not in control of that either??

Finally. A super painful, minimalist, double-page spread. Nightow loves 'em. Vash thinks he's dying (maybe?) and he wishes he had never existed. It's not suicidal ideation per se, but he wishes he didn't exist at all because he's already caused enough suffering. This is a low for him, because he believes so strongly in the concept of the Blank Ticket. (Come on, soupy brain bitch boy, get it together!) He's a monster, it's just how he was born, and he's not in control. Very specifically too, he says "we", and then changes it to "I"... he doesn't blame Knives at all, and that's very him. I want to shake him! Stop playing the martyr, Vash!

#trimax #trigunbookclub #cw assault #cw sa #ive never tagged content warnings before please help if i didnt do it well enough #cw sui ideation #vash the stampede #millions knives #also if you say ONE WORD about plancest i will kill you with my mind because you have sorely misunderstood the point here #posting this makes me so nervous ngl #dont hate me

[chuthulhu-reads]

[ID: A pair of panels from Trigun. In the first, Vash the Stampede has his arms folded, his face mostly obscured by his heavily gloved left hand, though his tired, angry eyes are visible. The second panel is closer up on his face, most of which is still obscured by his hand but again emphasizing his unusually narrowed, angry-looking eyes. Vash says "I see. In other words... all I need to do is babysit the selfish little girl?" End ID.]

This has always stuck in my brain because it's the first time we see Vash talk about a plant as a person, referring to the plant as a girl instead of "it" like the crew and assigning morality/emotions to her... and it's so interesting me that he's shittalking her as selfish. Whenever Knives talks about plants, he's seeing them as weak and defenseless and unable to protect themselves from humans; a lot of other talk/imagery around the plants in the manga centers on them as angelic, giving, kind. Vash is the only one who ever talks about them expressing things like fear, confusion, anger, and selfishness, which feels a lot more like recognizing personhood in them than reducing them to victims or angels.

IDK I think it ties into my general frustration when Vash gets flattened to being only ever nice, patient, or worst of all, naive. As if he's kind because he can't help it or doesn't know better, not on purpose. He's frustrated with his "sister"'s behaviour and how many lives it's threatening, and he also sees her as a person whose life an personhood are equal to theirs and wants them all to be okay. He sees the negative aspects of others, is fully aware of the consequences of his actions and the risks, and he cares despite, even so, regardless.

(Also seen in another light it's just funny. Like ugh I just wanted to enjoy my trip and then my bratty sister threw a tantrum and nearly blew us all up just because a JJBA villain attacked)

#Trigun #Vash the Stampede

[ohitslen]

Promises

He should know better. 

Wolfwood has seen Vash make promises, or hear about the ones he has made in the past. He has also seen the end of each one and how every single time the outcome is less than what was promised. 

Vash likes to say embellished words, with a soft and determined voice that lures you into his hopes and dreams, it almost feels like a spell, as if he was calling for you to come closer and believe him. But Wolfwood knows better.

He believes in him, but Vash is much closer to being an idealistic dreamer than a realistic person like he is. He might not be aware of it, but his beautiful promises of a better future give people hope, a hope that is usually embraced with things like disappointment and abandonment. 

He doesn’t think that Vash does it with the intent of looking for any of those things. Far from it, he might even do the impossible in order to accomplish said promises, but life is too short and humans are too mortal for his wishes, so in the end, most of Vash’s promises end up being empty or they come to haunt him as a reminder of his failed vows. He admires the man, for his perseverance and idealism, but he also hates the man, for his stubbornness and lies. 

Wolfwood knows all of this perfectly to a tee. And yet, he has also found himself being drawn to his world. Because he also dreams of it.

A world in where his always present calls for love and peace exist, a world that is far more kind than what he might deserve, a world in where the kids can be happy and roam around without any worry in their heads, a world in where he can peacefully turn grey with age and his hands can shed the harsh callouses of his life. Who knows, maybe a world in where he and Vash can finally know the peace that was taken away from them, in where they can share the calmness that comes with the passage of time, indulging in every tick of the clock welcoming with open arms whatever comes their way without any fear.

It is a beautiful promise. But Wolfwood is a person that has to keep his feet on the ground, indulging in “what ifs” would only make things harder than what they had to be. He can’t have any ifs if he can’t make it through the now. And by the way he is carrying his present, he is doubtful he will even get to see a shed of that promised world that Vash tries to drag him into. So why mourn something he doesn’t even have, or will ever have for that matter.

He hates the way Vash seems to promise things so easily. His tongue silky and pliant, slipping divine words one after the other, promises way too big for what that barren world can actually fit. 

But when Vash talks to him in that holy voice of his, when he hears him say “It’s okay, everything will be alright, I promise” so gently right on his ear, while he holds his face so tenderly making him focus on him and nothing else, he wants to believe him.

He has seen the end of his promises. He knows how impossible they are. But for once, he wants to believe it too. Believe in that loving world that will cradle them both until they fall asleep, listening to the soft sound of the wind laughing while the moons smile upon them. 

So he allows himself to indulge in the warmth of his palms, leaning into the comfort of his existence, feeling the soft air of Vash’s breaths against his skin while their foreheads meet in a touch that feels like a hot brand that will melt him.

For an instant, he allows himself to be selfish and believe that maybe, that is how living in that world Vash so desperately fights for would be. Soft and warm, making him feel safe in the hollow of Vash’s hands where the world seems to fit so well. A world where the blue sky is a blanket that covers the love and care that is nestled in it like the one in Vash’s eyes. He wants to see that world.

For now, he will selfishly think that the world that fits in Vash’s hands is right there in where he is holding him, where his blue eyes are drowning in the light of the sunset dripping with love and care while looking at him, that the gentle touch of Vash’s thumb wiping his tears is the same as the kiss of that laughing wind in that distant future, where the smile of his eyes overcomes the smile of the moons.

He should know better. But he loves the thought of that world. And he hopes that Vash will get to see that world, because that gentle sight is more fitting for someone like him than the one of his violent world.

He promises to himself that he will do what it takes for that day to be possible. Even if the end of that promise will be empty for Nicholas, he knows it will be a full one for Vash. So it really isn’t that empty for him after all.

He hates his lies, and he hates how true they sound, but Vash’s embellished words are far sweeter than his bitter thoughts so they feel better on his insides, almost like a balm that cares for the wounds of his throbbing, painful reality.

He should know better.

But aren’t humans weak at the promise of love?

#yeah….mm…mhm yeah #my thoughts were going crazy with this one. because WW crying is something that has me week on the knees #WEAK FFS #also the thought of him becoming bare and emotional at the hands of Vash makes me want to jump around until I pass out #think of it. he is afraid of him in a way. but he trusts him so deeply too it’s such a contrasting and little contradictory thing #more like. denial after denial but yk what I mean. because that’s the whole post #also as a fun fact. while on the making of this thing the line of “it’s okay. everything will be alright. I promise #it’s meant to be said by Vash to WW #but also I did it considering that a)Vash is saying it to himself as well and b)it’s something WW wants to say to Vash as well #they are both incredibly pained men and they know it but don’t adress it. so verbally saying such words to each other issssUUUEHWHAGAH #ah yes. the intimacy of being emotionally vulnerable with the person who you would trust your life to but never openly say shit to eachother #isn’t that such an amazing flavor? I won’t lie to you it’s one of my favorites #trigun #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun stampede #trigun fanart #wolfwood #nicholas trigun #nicholas the punisher #lenssi writes #lenssi draws #trigun 2023 #trigun 98 #because I did a mishmash on WW design bc this is meant to be TriStamp time skip in my mind #his eyes were originally their canon steel blue/grayish tone. but while doing the lighting the brown looked gorgeous #i couldn’t help myself so I left it that way. because there is something so beautiful abt his eyes shining like that in #the afternoon light while he becomes undone under the sunset ya feel me? #OHFUCKIALMOSTFORGOT another little detail. Vash’s right hand doesn’t have a glove and it’s on purpose btw you’re welcome