#I could never tell someone irl

[deviousdiesel]

Hey, wanna hear some unnecessary thoughts about Lemon from someone who’s watched Thomas?

Lemon mentions that the Momomon anime airs every Thursday at 9 AM after Thomas airs. But what specific Thomas show and season? I wonder. The short answer? Well, my closest guess is probably Thomas and Friends: Big World Big Adventures (aka “BWBA”) which is the 22nd - 24th seasons of Thomas. But more specifically, it may have been in its 23rd season airing in Japan during 2020.

From what I gather from the film’s adaptation of Lemon, he strikes me as someone who was a fan of the classic series of the model era (early season stuff, series 1-5) and grew up with it.  The CGI era however is complex with its history and he seems more of an on-and-off watcher of it, he still appreciates the Thomas series even if he doesn’t watch the newer series as much as he did as he was younger (and BWBA doesn’t have the same caliber and direction as the previous Thomas series)

In the novel, it’s very clear that Lemon has watched up until s7 of Thomas, which was in its model era in the 2000s. 

I think it tracks because even if it’s the CGI series, which is more modern and has a LOT of differences, I think Lemon would still be interested in watching it to some extent even if the newer stuff doesn’t hit as hard as the classic series he watched.

The long answer? If you’re a fuckin nerd and want to read I can indulge you.

A lot of this is just purely from my observation and my own take (and this is just silly so I really hope you know that).

Bullet Train started its production in October of 2020 - which I’m going to assume is when and where the movie takes place in because the majority was shot during that time - and incidentally, that same month Mattel had announced that Thomas was getting a brand new reboot called All Engines Go, which is a 2D animated production.

Thomas has a few distinctive mediums on television and it’s divided into the model series, CGI series and AEG, which is its own thing. Lemon obviously is shown to have grown up watching Thomas so he’s more versed in the model series and its characters.

Fun fact: In the novel, he mentions a few more characters who appear not only in early seasons but also season 7.

#this is not like my other posts but i felt the need to know as someone who has knowledge on both media #i think he'd still watch the cgi series but not have as much interest in it as the older series but hey it's thomas smiles #i think he'd have an aneurysm arguing about the logic of tatmr and aeg but ultimately he'd stay away from that debate lol #he strikes me as someone who knows more about the characters and personalities and what they convey to him rather than their irl train basis #i'm sad the twin engine allegories from the novel didn't make it into the movie - it would have been great for them too #bullet train #ttte #thomas the tank engine #thomas and friends #oh also i worded this post for the normies so insane thomas fans dw about it #i'll never make a post like this again but could you imagine that 3 different people approached me to tell me to watch this movie #i wasn't disappointed this movie was made for me #honestly i think lemon is better off watching bwba than aeg bc aeg is. so different #fauxtrainpost.txt #ok that's all go home don't screenshot this ok? ok

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#im just gonna complain abt it here bc i just have to accept that i can't irl bc no one else gets it #its hard to b a dyslexic grad student. u have to read so much. and its good. lots of reading is good. u just have to contend with a soul #crushing amout of discouragement at the fact u just kinda cant read while ur peers r like sure i can read this in class and have things to #say abt it. if u make me read in my head in class i literally cannot fucking tell u what i just read. not a god damn thing and if i try to #let my computer read to me i cant fucking pay attention for long enough so i just have to accept that from here on out ill have to #physically read papers aloud which i hate so much. its the only way i can fucking understand things and it still makes me feel dumb bc ill #somehow still space out while reading and have to reread like 4 times before i understand wtf is being said. it takes forever and it takes #energy and i dont like talking very much and it also restricts me to only being able to read at home which is frustrating #and im like i need to stop my brain from distracting myself with things that dont matter and my counselor is like: ur ocd is trying to make #work ur whole life and im like yeah thats how i got it. its the only way i can keep swimming with the non dyslexics #so its like wtf do i do? i kinda have to take the hit and make work my whole life rn. morn the loss of other things for a while #i dunno im still a bummer rn. like im probably coming off as more an asocial freak than normal bc its hard to talk ans maintain conversation #rn. but whatever. sometimes things just suck and theres nothing u can do abt it but accept it and move on. ill learn lots of things with all #the reading i have to do and that's never a bad thing ...no matter how much i dont give a fuck abt animals #like jesus. i could not even begin to give a fuck about like 95% of mammals. fish r cool tho. plants too #but microbes is where its at. i dont understand y ppl dont understand how cool they r. oh well ill just have to tell them #if i can find my fucking enthusiasm. ugh i have to make one of my classes read a paper and i have to work with someone abt find it. she #works with like rabbits. i refuse to assign a mammal paper. i fucking refuse. we will do plants or microbes or fucking paleontology #i will fight her on this. ugh. light filtering or orchid speciation would b perfect. annoying #at least i get to work with some culturs this week #unrelated

[tigerdrop-official]

Hey I’m a transguy and I haven’t come out to my parents yet because I’m worried about how they’ll react. They know I’m a huge fan of you and your work but when they found out you were trans they got kinda weird about it. My older sibling is nonbinary and I’m worried my parents will think I’m copying them because when they came out my parents kind of ignored it and still call them by their deadname and say they’re my big brother and still use he/him for them and I’m scared to come out. I haven’t even told my sibling because I’m worried they’ll think I’m copying them or they won’t believe me and I just don’t know what to do. I haven’t told anybody I just figured it out two weeks ago and I’m telling you first. Sorry to clog up your inbox you don’t have to respond to this or anything I just needed to vent

hey man, i want you to know that you don't ever have to come out if you don't want to or don't feel safe to. i'm very lucky to be publicly out and face as little discrimination as i do especially as a sex worker and people can absolutely be nasty sometimes

if you wanted my advice i think you should sit on this for a little bit longer, maybe make some trans friends online who you can be yourself with. or even friends irl who are cool and won't out you to your family

if you do really want to come out to your family i might recommend coming out to your sibling first just because it sounds like they have a way better chance of being accepting than your parents do

and my absolute biggest piece of advice. queer to queer. never care what other people think about you. some people are going to hate you for being trans. some people might think you're copying or hopping on a trend. let me be the first to tell you those people don't matter. what you know and care about and how you feel about yourself are the ONLY things that matter. fuck anyone who treats you differently

#some of this might not be applicable to you i dont know your full situation #and i do sincerely hope it works out for you with your family #i think if you want to share this with your sibling it might be a good chance to become closer to them #and it obviously could go wrong #and this is definitely hard to internalize when youre younger and you live with your parents‚ and it might have to be something that waits #until you move out: #but learning how to disregard other peoples opinions of you #especially ones like ''they think i'm copying someone by being myself'' #is truly one of the most freeing things you can do for yourself #but anyways lol not to ramble #my big piece of advice on the situation is that if you're worried about how your parents will react is that it's never a bad thing to keep #something like this to yourself #you don't have to tell anyone anything you don't want to #mlb irl

[loving-delusions]

had to go and block an irl friend of mine here erg ergerg egr erg

self isolation is crazy

#rambles #ik im isolating and it's not good but God Dammit I don't want to think of anything else rn #there's this heavy weight in my chest that wont go and it's getting heavier the more i think about irl stuff #There's something severely wrong with me. #I won't stop until the face I see in the mirror is unrecognizable. #That's when I know I've done it. I've changed myself so much that I'm finally someone I'm not. #Because I know that's the only way I could be a better person. #I tell them how heavy the weight is but they never understand it and simply chalk it up to me making excuses because I'm /lazy/. #So I don't tell them about it anymore #I'll resolve this on my own. That's why I isolate myself. Don't you get it. #I should've done it months ago I should've done it I shouldn't have been a fucking IDIOT and think I even have the slightest chance to chang #e and be better #because it will never happen. #// vent #vent tag #vent tw #aheemm.. anyways :3 gotta tag this appropriately fr #aheheh

[non-binharry]

Hoping for the day when chavy Louis (which he is so it shouldn't even be debated) discourse stops mentioning Harry and how he's "not even that gay and Louis is actually gayer". Like leave my girl and her man alone!!!!!

yeah!!!

#if i could do one thing it would be to go back in history and tell louis not to describe himself a s flamboyant #because SOME of y'all have never let that go and it's been an entire decade #and have decided that louis has a whole secret private persona based on one single word #on a related note i wish the people who love to claim that harry's own self expression doesn't affect anything about them #only to then turn around and say ''but also everything harry does is for profit and he's not actually like that irl'' #i wish them a very special eat shit #couldn't imagine constantly invalidating someone's decade long journey of self acceptance because i'm dissatisfied #that someone wears tracksuits #but that's just me i guess #anonymous #mensaje mensaje

[magdaclaire]

the disparity between things i'm certified in and things i'm good at is fucking insane

#i had a servsafe for 5 years (bc that's how long they last) and i could most definitely cert again but i could never work in a kitchen #i'm a certified bartender and decided it wasn't for me bc it was sticky + i got raw egg white on my favorite shirt #bartending was so fuckin funny tho bc it was my first environment irl where i directly told people that i'm autistic #so like i would fully engage in freak behavior and the entire class was like oh that's mer don't worry about him #meghan (instructor) asked me point blank to be an asshole in class #i became the teacher's pet+class clown combo of fucking BARTENDING CLASS #anyway i also have excel and access certs ; i am absolutely fucking terrible with computers #mer rambles #meanwhile do i have anything that would tell someone i can write? that i'm good in management positions? no ! #being alive is wild every damn day

[lanshappycorner]

Funny story of the day✨

So I have a younger cousin and I've been living with him since like birth so we're kinda like siblings (hes a college student) and like he knows I do Art but he doesnt know my social media and I dont generally Show him my art or talk abt it much ??

I don't generally talk about my art and stuff much with my family and irls tbh they only really know that I draw and do comms and stuff sometimes (closer friends have my socmed but when I meet up with them I dont rly talk abt it but they see me going crazy on Twitter)

Anyways I was living my life and my cousin was looking at some keychains on etsy or smth right and he was considering buying them bc they looked really cool and I was like. "Oh hey that's my friend!! r u planning on buying their stuff??"

And he looked SO SHOCKED it was so funny he just kept looking at the screen and then me and then the screen and then he was like "YOU KNOW THEM?? UR FRIENDS???"

He was freaking out and I was like Imao what's wrong with u. And he was like "u dont understand it's like u just told me u were besties with Elon Musk" the noise I made💀💀

In the end he was like "ccan u tell them I said hi and I really like their art🥺👉👈" 😭boy...

#its a small world!!! it was very funny though #sometimes it also makes me think abt how somewhere out there . someone following this blog might be an irl that just doesnt know its me #i could be ur classmate or ur friend and youd never know👁 would be wild huh #actually there is this tw/st artist that i met in a zine and we were following each other for months #and i uh just didnt tell them we were neighbors for all those months until recently so i mean theres that

[snekdood]

this is partially a critique on my part but even more of a critique on other online leftists' part since i notice a complete lack of attempts at putting oneself in others shoes- it shouldn't quite literally take learning you have x minority ethnicity in you to have sympathy and understanding for them.

#i started understanding native people more when even the possibility of me having ntv american in me was presented to me #heres an idea: ACTUALLY TRY TO VISUALIZE WHAT SHIT WOULD BE LIKE IF YOU WERE IN STEAD OF DOING NOTHING #yes. yes. you will 'never fully comprehend' blah blah blah but im sure you've had enough experiences being treated lesser than #to be able to put yourself in other peoples shoes long enough to understand the complex ways of how shit negatively effects people #pretend that you are jewish (in your brain not irl if you're not. this is a thought exercise.) and now tell me what you think should #happen to jewish ppl in israel. and wait- i mean ACTUALLY think about it. dont shit out the most buzzwordsy shit you can think of #to make yourself feel and Look Cool to your followers. basically im asking you to do method acting here. i want you to go THAT far #to understand bc its apparently what needs to be done for you to understand. #bc if you're actually doing this thought exercise and you're actually educated on why theres jewish ppl in israel to begin with #(hint: they were forced out of other countries) you're not going to then be like 'yeah its fine to kill all jewish ppl in israel' you just #WONT come to that conclusion if you're being honest. #also i bet plenty a yall havent even gotten dna tests so far all you know you COULD have ashkenazi in you! #so you need to internalize that and try to act the way you think someone put in that situation would act to understand better. #also obviously all the while listening to jewish people while you're at it.

[dragonji]

its time for yet another brain game of am i like fully neurotic or was this genuinely not a cool situation . prize is jack shite and yet im playing anyways👍

#j.txt #vent #just like. to preface. im not bringing any of this up im just going to stew in it for the night and then move on as per usual #alright disclaimer made now i can get to the point. So. tonight is my close irl friends bday right but she didnt tell me about any plans #so i naturally assumed she was gonna do her own thing and not really celebrate. Ive had work all day and while working get a text frm her #asking if we want to go to this restaurant i introduced our group to for dinner. so i respond saying oh im off at this time if yall want to #go even tho its late i can. Never get a response so i assume theyll bring it up when i get back. get home and no ones here not a word abt #whats going on. i do my usual unwinding get ready to chill etc which takes abt half an hour. she comes back with our other mutual friends #and theyve already gone to the restaurant which is fine i get it. but they get back and say oh now we're going to this themed music night at #a club we've all been to before as soon as (other friend) changes. and then just. dont offer for me to come along or anything and leave. #which like. whatever its happened a hundred times before im used to it but Still. does it not even occur that I might want to participate?? #if i had Any notice that this was happening I could have been getting ready instead of slacking around waiting for someone to get home #its so. i try extrememly hard not to be a downer or just invite myself to things bc I Know this is how they all operate but it does still #sting that it feels like im not even thought of if i dont happen to be in the room when plans are being made lol. #and obv I am Not bringing this up rn and ruining what im sure was a really fun night for all of them #its just truly a goddamn bitch of an unsatisfactory situation yknow. but such are the whims of fate and i shall endure as always✌️

[florenceisfalling]

its ok the situation is long behind me and i have never experienced a bad feeling about it ever 👍 (lying)

#im not trying to be attention grabbing and theres a reason im being vague its just loke #thats part of the problem #i literally wish i could scream from the rooftops how fucked it was especially since this person seems to dodge consequences #but it isnt my place to and also that would put me in a lot of danger . tbh im lucky she never published my name publicly #so i just sit here holding her address and the list of awful things she did and play a little game called Not Doing Anything #and every time someone says some dumb shit to me i wish i could beam the memories of it into their head #like. when people tell me stupid ship discourse impacts no one irl i want to immediately blast them with the absolutely fucked things - #she felt excused to do and say because of a fucking fandom stance i had and etc #when folks say that society is good to trauma victims with 'good' or soft reactions #and not to people with bad ones #i wanna shake them by the shoulders and show them just how horribly society treats soft victims too #and beam more memories into their head of what happened to people who matter sm to me #but i cant. and if i just said it all no one would fucking believe me.

[permanentreverie]

just a quick lil rant before i head to bed

#somethin that’s really bothered me these last few days #i have one irl person that i consider my friend and i hang out with her. but if i wasn’t the one suggesting we go out and do stuff #i don’t think she’d bother with me at all #which. we have fun together. at least i do. #but thinking about this whole year. everything we’ve done has been my suggestion #and it’s not like we’ve hung out every single weekend. she’s had plenty of opportunities to invite me to stuff #but she will blatantly do stuff with her other group of friends then tell me about it #like she mentioned she went and saw the eras movie and was excitedly telling me all about it. #and damn. that’s an experience i would have loved to have. #and she KNOWS i love taylor it’s not like she thought i wouldn’t like going. #she also has openly discussed with her other friend (who is a swiftie) about getting tickets for taylor. right in front of me. ngl it just!? #hurt not to be included i guess!? i mean this isn’t the first time i’ve had a friend openly go to an artist i love with someone who’s not me #idk am i just being stupid and selfish!? #but like. during the summer (a month i was really struggling) i kept on seeing if we could meet up and talk and catch up #before this get together at the end of the month with a few people. and that never turned out she kept on saying she was busy #understandable. but the day of the get together i was chatting with her friend and she mentioned how she and her had hung out like 30 times #that month. #and like i went bowling with said friend last week (it was my suggestion) and we were hanging out and i mentioned how now that our schedules #have opened up id love to get together more - even if she was getting groceries and wanted someone to come along. and she said that yeah #that this week would be good to hang out. and i told her to just contact me. but i highly highly doubt she will text me. #so should i just take the hint and drop her!? #and i live a little farther away but i’m always the one driving to her. idk if that makes a difference but like #idk it’s just the feeling of being expendable and someone’s second choice and never their first #which is a feeling i’ve grown up with so i’m not a stranger to it #but i’ve actually lost sleep over it this last little bit wondering like what it is about me that repels people that makes them not care #like i’ve had girls i’ve loved with my whole fucking heart and would lay down my life for them and i didn’t even make their top 5. #so let’s just say this is an issue that has been hurting me for a while #idk like i’m not trying to sound emo but this kind of hurt and loneliness is just something i have to resign myself to #and face the reality that i’m not as important to people as they are to me sometimes.

[angels-tthanatos]

thinking about coming out to a pastor but gosh I’m scared lmao

#bat yabbers #idk man. I want SOMEONE irl to know. I feel really confined. I’ve never told anyone #irl I mean #it’s like. hm. #I wish I could tell my sister but I just don’t know #I trust the pastor not to tell anyone but the chance is there #my mom has gay friends but my dad is really. homophonic and thinks it’s ‘perverted’ and even #thinking of being called perverted makes me wanna cry. it’s a horrible thing #idk

[hunsa-jars]

Wish I could put a self destruct button on this damned "everyone hates me/finds me annoying, they probably don't even think of me as their friend, don't know why I even bother" thoughts generator machine

#not having a good time right now folks #i felt unexplainably lonely this week and wanted to vent somebody so badly or i dunno just tell someone how much i wish to see them irl #i'm tired and i never get to write back to people in time and it always feels too late and i feel like such a piece of crap afterwards #i wish i could just be around them and let them know i care without using words but GAH #then i end up in this hell hole of awful thoughts and i'm just unable to crawl out from it #it takes a few days then i miss everybody then i feel bad because why am i this clingy? am i being clingy? #then i remember that people probably don't think about me as much as i think about them #and i don't know... i just hate this

[hollowisthyname]

Thoughts on Yandere Sim? (and it's way more lighthearted sorta-related game Crush Crush?)

hmm i've seen a bit of it and it seems fun if you don't mind all the gore but i've also heard it's bad and ik there r a lot of problems with the whole yandere trope so ig it's kinda a mixed bag ? i also don't know a ton abt it so there's that and i've played crush crush !! didn't know they were related but that ones v fun i usually end up deleting the app though bc after a while it takes a long time to get anywhere and i don't have the patience :(

#jinx gets asks #as someone who almost certainly has bpd i have a lot of thoughts abt the yandere trope #mostly like .... i know its made to demonize us #but also i relate to it a lot #like its kinda cathartic for me ? it takes all those super intense feelings and actually *does* something with them #which you could never do irl bc .... murder and all that #but uh yeah catharsis with a smidge of guilt #i will talk abt this more cohesively later . maybe #also i will tell u abt night in the woods !! ive just been busy this weekend #its got a lot of stuff to explain so i feel like i have to devote a bunch of time to it yk #but i will do it !!

[youjustwaitsunshine]

.....amateur radio au ?,,, every night i turn on the reciever and hope to hear your voice again. i know nothing about you and i won't ask either because there's so many people who can tune into this frequency. i don't even know your name but i know i would love it. radio silence for weeks and weeks and i still tune in every night in hopes of hearing from you again. it's been months and i haven't heard from you and I'm worried sick. i start talking on my own, about you, in hopes of someone who knows you hearing it even if you're not there. maybe i'll find you again some day. (maybe I'll walk past you on the street and never recognize you.)

#anyways. sewis. #maybe. mayhaps even identity porn. they meet irl somewhere halfway through but never make the connection until the very end. #maybe once the radio connection stops. for whatever convoluted reason. they fall for each other in real life. but oh i could never commit. #because somewhere out there someone has listened to me and he has part of my soul and i have part of his. #ARGH!!! #please tell me this isn't just me being sleep deprived. tell me this is a good plot

[bandzboy]

if there's anything i've learned from my experiences with friendships is that... most of the time people need to be patient with the other person and don't expect them to be open to everything bc... everyone functions differently and sometimes the key really is waiting for them and reassuring the other person that it's okay to do not open up or be open to things right away

#something i always talked abt is how #i'm introverted so i don't let people in right away and so #maintaining friendships growing up was always very hard bc #they just would get bored of me and discard me to the side #and they wouldn't tell me directly but i could tell it was that and it sucked a lot #honestly all i wanted was someone to be patient with me #and try to understand me better other than #pretending i don't exist bc i didn't live up to their standards #in recent years i made friendships online i was so shocked at how #people would actually be real and transparent with me #and would also wait for me and try to understand me #it made me realize i never really had real friends irl and it made me sad #but also made me happy bc i could finally understand what a real #friendship is actually like #so yeah all of this to say that being patient with your friends #does go a long way and i find it very important #especially with people that have anxiety or are naturally introverted #tris.txt #tris rants