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familyvideostevie · 11 months

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on this fine night

this is the third-highest vote from this poll, about 1000 years after the fact. just a drive with eddie, friends to lovers <3 enjoy! | fluff, friends to lovers, 1.4k

It's finally that time of year -- warm enough to leave the windows open everywhere you go. You sleep with fresh air rustling your curtains and walk everywhere you can to get some sunshine. When night falls, you can't get enough of the gentle pre-summer chill.

Eddie is happy to indulge you. He picks up whenever you call and is at your house in less than 10 minutes, even though you know it should take him at least 15 if he follows the speed limit. And then the evening is yours -- you and your dear friend cruising around town until you yawn and he demands to take you home so you can get some beauty sleep.

Tonight is no different. He picks you up with a slight squeal of his tires and a grin that lights up the dusk.

"Someone call a taxi?" he says, leaning out of the car window so far you worry he'll fall.

"Hi, Eddie," you laugh. The passenger door requires two hands to pry open and the whole van generally feels like it's about to fall apart, but it gets the job done and you always feel safe in a way that doesn't totally make sense. Eddie even got the seatbelt replaced just for you. It's one of the first things you learned from Eddie Munson -- appearances can be deceiving.

"Where are we going tonight, esteemed passenger?" He puts his hand on the back of your headrest and turns to back out of your driveway. You lean back so you can feel his fingers brush the top of your t-shirt and hope you're not too obvious.

"It's your turn to pick." He pulls his arm back and you try not to sigh too loudly. Sometimes it feels like you're just living your life waiting for him to touch you. But you're friends. That's it.

Eddie hums, tapping his fingers on the wheel as he drives down your street. The mixtape he made you is playing softly -- you told him to keep it in his car since he always drives you around. Part of you wishes you'd never asked him for one because when he made it you thought your heart might burst from your chest. Guys don't just...make mixtapes for their friends, do they?

You wish you were brave enough to say something to him. Maybe even ask him if he wants to catch a movie or go to dinner instead of just driving around. But you worry -- what if that drives him off? What if you embarrass him and yourself and then you lose the best part of your day?

A hand on your arm brings you back to the present. You realize that Eddie has been talking to you and you didn't hear a word. "Sorry," you say automatically. He releases you and you turn to him, cheeks hot. He's smiling but his brows are drawn in concern.

"What for?" he says. "S'okay, I zone out too. Not while driving," he adds. "I was saying that I know a place we can go. I think you'll like it."

You roll your shoulders and try to smile as genuinely as you can. "And I haven't been there before?"

"Nope," he says, popping the p.

The rest of the drive goes by in comfortable silence. It's not odd for you two not to speak; sometimes you just want to enjoy the quiet companionship and the music and the night air. But by the time the van slows to a stop in the empty lot of a lookout point you haven't seen before, you're antsy to get out of the car.

Before he can say anything you throw open the door and hop down, making your way to the edge of the dirt overlook and bracing your hands on the metal barrier. You're not that high up -- there are no truly high places anywhere near -- but you get a decent look at the town down below.

Eddie's door closes behind you and you hear the drag of his sneakers as he walks towards you but you don't turn around. Why can't you shake it, tonight of all nights? Why can't you just be normal about this, be his friend, be as much as he wants and no more?

"Are you okay?" he asks, softly. "I'll take you home whenever you want if you're tired, or something."

You cross your arms and sigh, imagining him behind you. He's probably got his hands tucked into his pockets and his hair a mess over wide eyes. Intimidating to some, sure, but just a kind, cute guy to you. Your friend who you'd like to be more.

"What are we doing, Eddie?" you ask him. It's so quiet you don't expect him to hear, but he does.

"Well," he drags. "I think we're...hanging out?" Anyone else and you'd think they'd misunderstood you, but you know Eddie and you know he caught your meaning. Which means that this is a rejection. You can't help it -- you bury your face in your hands and groan. Great, you think. Now you've ruined it.

"Okay," you say, muffled. "Okay."

"Wait," he says. "Wait, hold on. I--" Footsteps and then you see him through your fingers as he stands next to you against the barrier, turns so that he's leaning on it and facing you as much as you'll let him. "I think I got that wrong, I'm sorry."

Oh god, this is even worse. He's backtracking because he's uncomfortable that you're upset . "I think I'm the one who got it wrong, Eddie," you sniff. "I'd like to go home now, please." You turn away from him and try to make your way back to the van but Eddie gently grabs your wrist.

"Please listen, sweetheart," he says. The endearment stops you but you don't look at him, instead eyeing your shoes. Maybe the earth will open up and swallow you right here and you won't have to keep living this moment. "I know what we're doing here. At least I know what I'm doing. I'm trying to work up the nerve to ask you on a date."

"Oh," you say. Your heart won't stop racing and sitting down sounds really good right now. Eddie...likes you? The reality of it is much harder to wrap your head around than you thought. "Okay."

"I should have said before," Eddie continues. He sounds flustered and maybe a little sad. Could he be upset that he's upset you? "I just really like being friends with you and I don't want to scare you away."

You finally look up at him and find his huge brown eyes blown big with concern and his mouth tugged down into a frown. You really do like him so much. "You don't scare me, Eddie."

He smiles a little at that. "Well, that's good." You step towards him a little and his hand moves down from your wrist to loosely tangle his fingers with yours.

Suddenly you feel brave. This boy who can be loud and messy and distracted but also kind and thoughtful and funny and sweet and every good thing you could ever want has just told you he wants to date you. "I would say yes," you say. "If you asked me on a date. But I feel like we have been going on dates already, Eddie."

His cheeks darken at that. "I mean, maybe. I guess so. That would make this our...what, fifth night drive? Sixth?"

"Have you been counting?"

Eddie tugs on your fingers a little. "Maybe! Can you blame me?"

The grin that creeps onto your face is so wide and genuine you're sure your cheeks are going to get sore. "I guess not."

He wrinkles his nose and leans in just a hair. Your heart beats impossibly faster. "Does that means I can kiss you? Since we've been dating for a while?"

You laugh, a giggle that sounds a little hysterical but in a happy, fun, unrestrained way. You're flustered and kind of worried you're dreaming but you might as well lean in to your dreams coming true, right? "Maybe," you tell him. "Don't push your luck, Munson."

Eddie laughs, too, but loudly and fully before grinning so wide you can see all of his teeth. His eyes are sparkling ."Me?" he says. "Never."

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levmada · 2 years

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Hi! This is for the Valentine’s Day event! Thank you so much for doing this!!

(Context: this takes place after armin is chosen to inherit the colossal titan, he’s been getting lots of hate and begins doubting himself more, me and armin have been together for quite some time now as well)

My love,

Eren has been telling me that he’s a bit worried about you. He says you’ve been doubting yourself and your abilities ever since that day. I also know SOMEBODY (Floch) has been giving you a tough time for it. Don’t worry, I already spoke to him and let him know his place. I know you don’t need the protection but you’ve been doing so much and it’s the least I can do.

Armin, you need to know how much I love you. I know that inner voice is evil but let me fight it if you cant. You are worth everything. I love you more than life. Everything you do amazes me each and everyday. You inspire me and so many others to be brave and intelligent. Eren says he thinks you are the bravest of us all, and I can agree with that 100%. Armin you are unlike any other. So much of your quick thinking has saved hundreds and the courage you have to share your ideas midst a crisis is inspiring. I know how much pressure has been placed upon you, but let me stand under it with you. Let me bear some of the weight. Don’t be afraid to talk to me or even just sit in my arms. I know it’s hard my love. I’m always here if you need me. Wether you need a word of advice, a shoulder to cry on, or just need to be taken care of, you know where I am.

Since I feel like nobody has had any time to breathe since the trip to shinganshina, I may or may not have planned something special for us. Meet me out by the stables before dinner! I have used my master skills to convince the captain to let us have an evening to ourselves and the outside! Let’s go on a walk to that lake in the woods, have a picnic perhaps? We can swim, talk, cloud watch, anything you want! I just want to show you how much I appreciate you and how much you mean to me. You make me feel like the prettiest most precious girl alive, and I want to make you feel the way I see you. Sorry for the rambling, I could hush over my beautiful and talented boyfriend all day if you let me! Anyways, I’ll see you tonight! I love you more than you will ever know!

Love, Callie

thank u for ur submission callie!! i don't ever get to write armin but your letter is so sweet - i hope i did it justice💕 im sure he was struggling a ton after shiganshina :(

your song is just fine by spookyghostboy ! i think it fits super well, if a little slow lol

My dear Callie,

All things considered… Thank you for standing up for me. Eren keeps reminding me that Floch is just another one of those “jackasses” (his words, not mine) who picked on me for no good reason back when I was younger, but you know plenty about that already. Even though that was years ago, it feels really good to have you stand up for me.

It’s been really hard. I’m not sure I could even explain if I tried. I feel so guilty, but after what the Captain (and everyone else) sacrificed so that I could still be here, it feels impossible to share with anyone but you: Mikasa has never been a very emotional person, and Eren keeps telling me to stay strong.

You make me feel like it’s okay to be weak. I can feel you holding me, and I read all these beautiful, incredible things you think about me, and even though it feels like the world is crashing down on me lately, I feel stronger for it. Does that make sense?

Maybe I am brave, but I would never even consider that idea unless your strength inspired me to. I love you so much, Callie, with all my heart. I haven’t been very open with anyone lately, so I haven’t told you that enough. So many brave people suffered for us to make it here, but even so I don’t think I could get through this without you.

Yes, I’d love to join you! It’d be good to get my mind off things for a while, and we can have fun. I just hope the Captain knows how much I appreciate some time alone with you (I’ll tell him thank-you if you didn’t, don’t worry).

I still feel like I haven’t done enough things right—but as long as you know just how special you are to everyone (not just me, but me especially!); how effortlessly beautiful you are, even when you’re first waking up in the morning; how… just everything. You’re everything to me.

All of those are good ideas, I don’t think I can choose. Making sandwiches and everything will give me something to do while I wait, so definitely count on that picnic! One day soon, we won’t have to limit ourselves to just a lake—we can go swimming in the ocean together! Can you believe it?

I can’t wait for this evening, Callie. I’ll meet you there!

Love,

Armin

For my V-Day event: Pop a love letter to your favorite aot character into my inbox, and receive one back!

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theegreatpretender · 4 years

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queen II: a review

the gayest album queen has EVER made. generations of sluts have hoed to this album. this is the original gay anthem, also it sounds like a 40 minute song and it's so extra it makes lady gaga sound kind of lame

procession

thsi is brian may drama at its finest look at this the PERFECTION the SOLEMNITY the utter and sheer DRAMA of it all. this is shakespeare level sluttiness. i want to kill my husband, an evil medieval king i love dearly and deeply despite his abusive tendencies and his cruelty, to this fucking song. it's like the imperial march from star wars if the writers had had the COURAGE to make darth vader as gay as he could and should have been. this is just about as hoe-able as it gets. a solid 726362/10.

father to son

if you only read this part out of context

it sounds like the opening from a bad nickelodeon show that features astonishingly stupid parents, two twins with pigtails and jokes that make you want to rip out your insides with a spoon. this makes it not that hoe-able. i mean if you're brave enough. I'm not. also this songs seems to never end. it's like im stuck in an endless loop and brian may never stops playing his guitar and roger taylor keeps smiling creepily at me and singing "kings will be crowned. word goes around. from father to son. to son." and i want to die. 6/10

white queen (as it began)

brian you are now forgiven for the hell you made me endure in father to son. this song has got it all, the whole sad hoe package. heartbreak? hell yea. ethereal, majestic vibe? hell yea. do i feel sexy and like a goddamn snack when i listen to it? hell FUCKING yea. would i cry for the medieval husband i killed two songs ago to this, maybe while looking at my shaking, bloodied hands in the moonlight? HELL MOTHERFUCKING YEA. im a sad hoe. 20/10.

some day one day

take a shot everytime it goes "some day one day". been there done that. i was definitely a little happier by the end of the song, and as we all know, when you're drunk it's a lot easier to hoe. 9/10 because it's just kind of... there. gets bonus drunken points.

the loser in the end

roger taylor really said THIS IS NOT A PHASE MA slamming the door shut and just got the fuck out of his shitty little hometown and went to london to smoke weed and fuck hotties and play drums and scream. then he's like yeah mama sorry i was rude :( and then he goes fUCK OFF MA WERE YOU NEVER MY FUCKING AGE again. i feel this. this is like what my chemical romance would have done if they were a british rock band in the 70s. also i feel like this is the only song about a mum i could fuck someone to. 10/10.

ogre battle

i can't stop thinking about two hords made of thousands of naked shreks screaming and battling when i hear the words "ogre battle". but this is kind of sexy anyway. like mmmh you want me to """come tonight""" to the """ogre battle"""? we can arrange that :) more like hoegre battle 9/10

the fairy feller's master-stroke

this feels exactly like having a stroke. 1000/10.

nevermore

our exciting journey, so far, has included the unmistakable thrill of killing your husband to the gay version of the imperial march from star wars, a terrifying nickelodeon show, some pure blissful times, a cool drinking game to do with your friends or alone in your mansion while wearing a red satin nightgown with mascara smeared down your face, a sexy 'you don't get it mum' moment and a very fun time with your baby while watching naked shreks fight to the death. we just need some good old depression sometimes. 8/10 because it's hoe-able but too sad to be happy about it.

the march of the black queen

this is the single most dramatic song queen has ever recorded i think. it talks about a hoe but she's like a royal hoe and she also happens to be freddie mercury. it's got so many genres and stuff you can waltz or twerk to it and it works perfectly both ways. makes you feel like a dangerous woman like that anna grande chick DREAMS of having this POWER. makes you feel like you've got the whole world wrapped around your finger, and that finger is going you know where babe. very horny because of the black queen tbh. 193737292922/10.

funny how love is

bitch im still horny and powerful from the march of the black queen don't come at me with that love shit im over that right now 2/10 because it doesn't suck

seven seas of rhye

it's throwback thursday aaand we're back at RHYE which is a place that doesn't exist but seems to be such a motherfucking mess i would NOT like to be there it's worse than america honestly but the song is fire 10/10

#queen #queen band #freddie mercury #brian may #roger taylor #john deacon #fred #bri #rog #deaky #album reviews #queen ii

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gee-ef · 4 years

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UNEXPECTED ENCOUNTERS

"Still can't sleep at night?"

A familiar voice and I got distracted from choosing what kind of cheese should I get.

I can not remember when was the last time I heard that voice. But my senses can recall and flashback memories. I can't believe that I'll see her again, after years.

Almost lost my cool when she approached and place a block of cheddar on my hand and bottle of vintage on my basket.

"Should stick to what is good for you."

"Still authoritarian as always. And yes insomnia is back" I utter. I didnt say anything else but then deep inside, my soul is screaming, asking, looking for explanation. I still choose not to ask.

"This is a surprise that you are doing the grocery shopping, you don't like doing this by your self." she said.

I don't have a choice. I said quietly.

I don't know what happen but just like before, with one stupid but amazing smile she changed everything. And just like that, we found our selves talking and laughing with little silly things. Like what we used to.

Shelves of goods quickly being empty by shoppers and lines at the check out counter are getting longer but she didn't bother. She always take her time when doing anything. Me, I'm always on a rush.

I know that this is just an unexpected encounter.

Nothing special.

Nothing else.

Nothing.

I'm drown with my thoughts when she said,

"Just came back, and I think I'm gonna stay for good."

I don't know what to say so I just smiled.

But I know what she mean to say.

Before I had a chance to speak and say goodbye, she grabbed my hand, with shopping bags on the other, walk towards the door and tell me that we should get something to eat and wink.

Gosh, the signature wink that makes everyone's heart melt. I so know that gesture.

Settled on the cafe that happens to be my favorite place to hang out and kill time lately.

Without looking at the menu she made our order.

"Iced Black English Breakfast tea and mango smoothie for her." pointing at me.

"Change that to Irish cream coffee" I told the server and add some of your best seller cake. He nodded and left.

"Since when you learned to say no to mango smoothie?" she asked with confused look on her face but smiling and trying to catch my eyes.

I know that look. I've seen that years ago. But tried to shake it off.

"People change like you always say before" I said on a cold voice.

I don't know where did I get the courage. I've been trying to burry this hatred in my heart. I know that I will never see her again after the night she walk out of my life. How she said the words and left a fear and pain in my heart for the longest time.

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It's the last summer vacation of being a student. Next year, I'll be busy with interneship then a corporate slave. Perhaps, I have to make sure that this will be our best summer.

I always want to go to the beach. Its calming and romantic. And this is our favorite place. She love this place so much and she is happy whenever we were here.

Tonight, I'll ask Elaine to be my girl. Everything is perfect. I have prepared a blanket and some snacks. She love picnics at the evening and also sunset. What a weirdo but I want her to be my weirdo.

She came on her white halter dress. So elegant and beautiful but with the looks on her face, I know there is something wrong.

I'm always confident and courageous. I didn't hesitate to ask her. "Hey, you okay?"

She give me a loud sigh, looked me at the eye and let go her train of thoughts.

"This is not right."

"We should stop."

"I'm just a phase."

"You're just bored."

"Don't want this, us"

I don't understand but I can not breathe because of what she just said. Puzzled and I don't know what to say she grabbed my hands and kissed them.

"George, you are the smartes one in our class and I know that you can understand me" she said, teary eyed.

"I know... its for the better... we should stop this. I'm sorry" and just like that she turned her back and walked away from me.

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The scent of Irish cream coffee brings me back to the present. Sitting on awkward silence. I just want to finish my drink and go home. There's nothing left with us. But then, she reached out and hold my hand and didn't care if everyone in the cafe is looking.

"I'm sorry, if I was not brave enough to do this before." she said on a shakey voice.

"All this years, I always think of you. I know, I've hurt you and I don't deserve to be with you. You were brave, smart, funny, and willing to stay by my side no matter what. But I can not do the same. I thought the you are better for someone else." she added

Surprised with her revelation but I can feel the same pain years back. "So you just choose to hurt me, and now you are telling me this?" I said on dry voice

She squeezed my hand lightly and said "Im so afraid of what other people would say. I came from a well known religious family".

So its all about what people would say I clarify to my self. The she cut me before I can say anything.

I'm so lost then but I don't want to hide anymore. The day I told you that we should stop is the same day I have realized that I still want you in my life.

I came out to my parents and told them that I like someone, that's why they sent me away. They changed my number, my social media, and email. I tried writing you a letter but didn't have the courage to mail it"

I'm in shock and let her speak. I know my voice will betray me if I will say a single word.

She pulled out a memory stick from her bag and give it to me. "I always bring this with me. I know I will meet you again, on the most unexpected time. All those letters that I was not able to send you, were all in there. My feelings for you."

She grabbed my hand and kissed it. "George, you are the best thing that ever happened in my life."

The ice in my soul are slowly melting. I took the memory stick. Maybe all the answers to my question are in here. At lease I'll get some peace of mind.

We stayed like that for I don't know how long. But I know I'm not yet ready to accept her in my life again.

"Elaine, you are sweet, and I admire you for being courageous to stand for your self. I've been carrying this burden for the longest time. I don't know what happen to us. Thank you for giving me some peace of mind."

She gave me a thin smile but it went out with the next thing I've said.

I will always care and love you but I can't afford to be hurt now. Things have changed. Maybe you have realized things and so do I.

We can't be together. You've made your decision and I respect that.

Then I grab my stuff, kissed her on the forehead and went out of the cafe.

Then, I never looked back.

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Inspired by real events. Name of characters were changed for their protection.

REVISED AND PUBLISHED: MARCH 2020

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