#I mean I do get memory issues but I don't wake up from blackouts or anything

[cripplerage]

Pretty sure I have DID or OSDD and like. There's seemingly nothing I can do to get communication going or anything so that's really cool

(sort of vent/rambling in the tags)

#whenever I'm a different person I'm generally still me in some sense? like maybe cofronting? #so it doesn't really make sense to try to leave notes because I'm still me? #I mean I do get memory issues but I don't wake up from blackouts or anything #it sucks because there are things that are really really important to me that just aren't right now before I'm not Me #and when people ask about them I just have to say I'm taking a break or whatever #but. these things have brought me to tears before why don't I care anymore?? #I just want them back... #it sounds like OSDD but when I was really going through it a couple years ago it seemed more like DID. #and I don't really care about labels but I'd love it if I could have consistency >:( #I wish I knew the other people. Like their names and whatnot. #oh and I may not have my shit together yet but I know enough to know that endo systems are valid so nobody start that shit at me #endo safe #sysmeds dni #sysmeds fuck off #did #osdd

[sophieinwonderland]

I’m the anon with partitioned memory from my tulpa.

You make a lot of sense. If the brain already functions this way with separate consciousnesses, it’s only natural and logical for the tulpa to fall within the same pattern.

I’m sure this just means I’ve associated my tulpa and their actions so much as “not me” that the brain decided I didn’t need that memory.

Hey, I've been thinking a bit more about the memory separation issue and how to help with that and convince your brain that it does need those memories, based on reversing the process some tulpamancers have used to create memory barriers.

One of the suggestions that popped out to me was to try to distract your tulpa as soon as they became active, before they could think about your recent experiences while they were dormant. Do this enough, and it will supposedly result in memory barriers between you.

When trying to "reverse" this process, the answer seemed to be doing the opposite of that. When you first switch in after a blackout switch, try your best to focus on recalling as much as possible that happened while you were switched out. Preferably with as little help from the previous fronter(s) as possible. (Although if you get stuck and they're co-con, see if they can give you hints to nudge you in the right direction.)

I know that some systems will have severe difficulty doing this because their memory separation happens immediately. But I know for others, the dissociative amnesia doesn't truly set in for a little while after switching in. And this fact reminded me a bit of dreaming.

See, when people are learning to lucid dream, it's recommended they quickly journal their dreams as soon as they wake up. If you don't write those memories down quickly, like with dissociative amnesia, the brain decides you don't need them and then they end up forgotten within anywhere from a few minutes to a few hours.

Over time, dream journaling trains the brain to better recall memories that happened during your dreams, because the brain realizes it needs to retain that information.

I know journaling is already highly recommended for DID systems looking to tear down communication barriers, but I haven't seen anyone talk about doing dream journal-like exercises, where you try to write down the experiences of other headmates as soon as you "wake up."

If you don't have the time to journal, you can instead just do an internal quiz with the previous fronter asking you questions. This should hopefully help improve recall and reduce amnesia barriers over time.

At least, in theory. I'm not a psychologist and we're not a DID system, so this should be taken with a grain of salt. But based on everything I know about memory, plurality and the brain, I believe these exercises could help.

Also, I've talked before about the importance of approaching tulpamancy skills like games. I'd like to just reiterate that here as well. Approach these quizes as fun games you play with your headmates, testing each other’s recall and challenging each other. Don't think of them as a chore or something you have to do.

I can't promise this will help, but I think it could at least be worth experimenting with.

Good luck! Have a great day! 💖

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