#I wanna write Gilhaku

[has-gilgamesh-doneanythingwrong]

Gilgamesh for ask meme!

Hi!!! Thank you for messaging me ☺ I really appreciate it! It's been a long time since I did askmeme on gilgablog so thank you for requesting him (i keep most fate thoughts private)! Sorry I will probably write a whole massive paragraph about him XD

My Gilgamesh opinions are very subjective here so they may not all be accurate, which is why I enjoy this ask a lot ^^

Sexuality Headcanon: I headcanon him as bi/pan, like yeah there's no denying he is also attracted to women, but his devotional relationship with Enkidu and kinky pleasure yuetsu time with Kirei is every bit as canon in my opinion!!!

Even his creepy obsession with Saber really hints to me personally that Gilgamesh may not discern his initial sense of attraction primarily by gender- I believe he may be attracted to people based off intangible traits that link to his personal sense of values as well; which cannot be as simply measured as gender.

So in my opinion GILGAMESH IS RATED E FOR EVERYONE!

Gender Headcanon: Though he is masc, man he/him I also feel as if Gilgamesh's gender is also just 'GILGAMESH'. Sometimes I wonder if Gilgamesh would see himself as beyond the convention of gender.

Also I heard from someone that gender can be very diverse in Ancient Mesopotamia so it would be really cool to see where Gilgamesh would slot his gender identity there... also can his pronouns be king of heroes/ king as well! I feel like he really defines himself by his role more than gender per se, and in one fate hanafuda game he says gender doesn't matter ☺👍

An OTP: ohh I love Gilgamesh ships so much 😊😊 Gilkidu is just so amazing in many ways I cannot even describe, Kotogil is incredible in their twisted dynamic .. and GilHaku is just so beautiful! And I love Gilgamesh x Merlin for the shenanigans... to be honest most Gilgamesh ships are my otp. I even really like Gilgamesh x reader/ oc fics and Ritsuka/ Guda ones depending on what the ocs are like! Oh I also like Gilgamesh x Cu as they can clash head on and go wild, as well as Gilgamesh x Ozymandias!

And a mutual introduced me to Achilles x Gilgamesh. I think it is a beautiful pairing as they have so much grief, love, power and arrogance in common.

A NOTP: I'm sorry Gilgamesh x Saber fans. I respect those who ship it but Gilgamesh is such a creep to Saber in my opinion, I like it when she doms him to smithereens and stomps on his pride though ☺🥳🥳🥳

BROTP: This is a hard one as I feel like his otps can be good otps, but seeing him hang out with Iskandar is always hilarious. Love how he actually listens to Taiga in the spin off games as well, so they could maybe enjoy a few drinks together. And Gilgamesh/Solomon/Merlin makes for great chaos.

Gilgamesh/Siduri/Enkidu is a powerful alliance and err what else... I feel like as long as they can entertain one another then Gilgamesh has the potential for many BROTPS.

Random Headcanon: He has golden nipple tassels that he unleashes whenever he has an urge to go full sexy, also I feel like though yes he does love pleasure and decadent desires the way he so tightly constrains and punishes himself sometimes makes me wonder if some of his hedonism is also used as a way to appear as an overwhelming figure to others.

I feel like Gilgamesh is definitely tyrannical and extremely powerful and charismatic... yet also has a side to him that is insecure as hell, his larger than life and genuine powerful and wise sides overcompensating for a side of him that is plagued with all sorts of self loathing and grief.

General opinion: I love this asshole!!!!!!!! Endless joy can be created from researching his character and reading, watching his materials, he is entertaining in such a wide variety of ways, and every side of him is a marvel to witness (though i wanna punch him sometimes too cuz holy crap is he horrendous at times).

He's a very complex and nuanced character that can be interpreted in a wide variety of ways so I am really irritated by how some people try to gatekeep Gilgamesh's character and throw him into a box, when Gilgamesh is such a versatile character! I hope that there will continue to be a space where people can enjoy Gilgamesh in as many different ways as possible, without there having to be some sort of 'fandom consensus' on which Gilgamesh opinions are most valid.

#thank you! #asks #gilgablog #op speaks #gilgapinions

[producermokyo]

I’m getting hyped up on too many ships at once ya’ll..

#I wanna write Gilhaku #i wanna write arthurhaku #i wanna write solomongudako #i wanna write an amakusa one shot #I ONLY HAVE TWO HANDS

[producermokyo]

I think I wanna write a CasGil GilHaku one shot after this update is done...

#this episode has me in my feelings

[producermokyo]

You know there is already a fanfic of GilHaku with Greek mythology? You should get your own ideas instead of taking them from other people.

?????????? 

I was gonna ignore this, but whatever. I’m well aware that there is another fic like that out there. Elysian is basically a Hadestown AU story. It was based off a musical that I fell in love with. That’s it. I’m not stealing from anyone, but since you wanna go there anon, I guess we can go there. Folks really be acting like only one person can do one idea. 

Anon, It’s gilhaku. Let’s be realistic for a minute here. Wtf is there to do besides A: A CCC retelling B: Fate/Grand Order stories C: Fate/Stay Night stories or D: AU’s? You’re bound to come up with fic writers who share the same idea, but completely different concepts. 

I get tired comments and messages like this on the regular. I rarely talk about it, because whatever. You have to understand how it makes me feel. It makes me feel like “x y and z write better than you, so you should just leave the fandom.” I don’t want to delete my Tumblr, because I have friends I talk to on here. 

I’m just tired of being compared to other people. I’m me. I’m Nikki. The Mokyo persona aside, I’m a real person sitting behind this computer screen, and I have feelings too. I write to have fun that’s it. I don’t care about any politics or whatever behind the scenes. I stay in my own lane, I barely talk to anyone. I get you have favorites anon, and that’s okay, but like, why tell me? I don’t care which writer you prefer, I really don’t. 

This asks aside, sometimes it really does feel like I’m not wanted in the community and it hurts. 

#asks #this dumb ask almost got me crying this is so stupid. #Anonymous

[producermokyo]

Ya’ll have any drabble requests? I could try to find one of those asks meme things, but...I wanna write something, and I’m looking at my Wips like

“Ehhh.” 

Send me some requests uwu. GilHaku, ArthurHaku, Romani/Gudako, or anything is good. Fire Emblem, BTS, Tales Of is good too! The only thing is I can’t write any Three Houses right now, because I haven’t beaten the game, anything else is fine though! 

#rambles #i'm bored af

[producermokyo]

Are there going to be any one shots soon? I love reading your one shots they are really good

Like what kind of one shots? Gilhaku? SolomonGudako? ArthurHaku? I have a SolomonGudako one shot, but I’m keeping it in my pocket until Valentines day. 

I really wanna write a OzyGudako oneshot, but frankly, I don’t have much confidence in my Ozymandias. I don’t think he’s good at all. I’m my own worst critic though. A lot of my one shots are written on a whim believe it or not lol. A lot of my GilHaku oneshots (Most of them) have been writing in about four hours.

#asks #Anonymous

[producermokyo]

I kinda wanna do two updates a week. I think it’s something I can manage if I write in the evening like I used to do. I want to do one GilHaku and one non Gilhaku story. 

I think I wanna do AHDTS and maybe Elysian this week. With Kairos and maybe Butterfly Effect the next week. I kind of wanna focus on those four stories the most, because that’s what I’m having the most fun writing. 

#and maybe this will help me get out of my writers block for Bermuda Triangle

[producermokyo]

Everyones hyped for Akemi, but I just wanna know what the his little sister would sound like?

If mean what her voice would sound like? I think something like this (Skip to 3:13 if you don’t wanna hear the whole song.)

Fun fact: I once had a Gilhaku fic planed based off this album. Where they goof off in space, after CCC. I still would like to write that one day lol.