#I've been almost in tears the whole morning I'm just not equipped to handle any of this right now

[zenmai--jikake--no--komoriuta]

woke up to fifty million people trying to get a hold of me for various reasons... I have work trying to call me in because nobody else is responding but my recently-pregnant coworker is feeling sick again and there's so many tasks to do and they're desperate, 5 different messenger chats and family members trying to finalise holiday plans but I'm so burnt out with this fucking holiday that I don't even want to think about it anymore, my physiotherapist emailing to ask if I'm ok bc I haven't done any of my exercises since last week when I left a note at 3am about being kept awake with the worst hip pain I've had in months................ I just want to be left alone right now holy shit why is everyone asking everything of me all at once, this is the last proper day I'm going to get to spend with james before the holiday and now I'm in guilt mode and can't settle down because everything is time-sensitive and I can't put off responding to half of this any more than I already have,,, ,,

#everyone just go away #just for today #I've been almost in tears the whole morning I'm just not equipped to handle any of this right now #on one hand I feel terrible for my coworker the most because I know how horrible it is to be unwell at work with no help coming #but on the other whyt he fuck did she get pregnant right before christmas what the actual fuck I have no sympathy #''it was kind of planned'' WHY NOW THOUGH you JUST went full time and you had a rental crisis two months ago how the FUCK- #-are you equipped for a baby...... it's our problem too because we needed you FT so we could cover hours bc we're understaffed- #-and STILL without a manager and now you're gonna need all this time off for sickness and maternity and it will all fall back on me- #-to cover you because it always does how the fuck do we have 14 staff and NOBODY ELSE is ever free to help out #fuck all of you I'm taking today for my mental health because right now it's in the gutter #negative #kate being trash

[lilacsos]

Hey Britt 💛 i'm so sorry to hear that you're not feeling too great and i hope things start looking up soon! 💛💛 Since you mentioned blurb requests, i've got one: reader surprising luke on tour and it's Soft as heck?

This blurb got really long. Thank you for requesting this. I got home after work and basically slept all of today and tried to have a self care sort of day. Here’s the blurb. I hope you like it. And thank you for the kind words. Also I thought about adding a “read more” but I have zero energy for that so sorry its v long

Three months ago Luke and the boys left for tour. It was a time of mixed emotions because as Luke’s longtime partner, you were ecstatic that he got to go on tour again and do what he loves, but it also hurt that he was going to be gone. But this was part of the life. With plenty of tears and longing kisses goodbye, Luke boarded his flight and left.

With three months of time apart, you felt like this second half of you was missing. And apparently, you weren’t the only one feeling this way. Luke called you and texted you any moment he could, letting you know just how much he missed you. After the first two months, the other boys had gotten sick of Luke’s constant whining and moping around. So, to solve their problem with Luke’s sadness, they bought you a plane ticket. You were meeting him in London, since the band would be there for four days, one of them being a day off. With the help of your three spies, you flew to London and your flight landed only half an hour after the show. The boys were still at the venue, packing up their equipment while you caught a taxi to take you to the hotel. The whole ride to the hotel, you kept shifting in your seat, playing with the hem of your outfit, and even chewing on your fingernails. You were nervous. You knew Luke would be excited to see you, but this was your first time surprising him and what if something went wrong? After all, your intel and recon were Ashton, Michael, and Calum. They were amazing friends but not the brightest. The soft ping of your phone brought your attention back to the world around you. Your phone screen shone, your background of you and Luke kissing lighting up the back seat of the cab.

One new message

Lu💖: Hey pretty babes, I know you’re working but just needed to text you. The show went great, but it would have been better if you were backstage watching me. I’ll call you in the morning my time. Love you x

Your heart fluttered in your chest at his message and a smile easily form on your lips. It was crazy to you how he knew just what to say every time. Luke really was perfect, and he was the best partner you ever had. He was sweet, caring, loyal, funny, and smoking hot. He deserved all of the love on the planet and you were going to try to do that as best as you could. You felt as though that your surprise visit would bring some happiness and joy to Luke and if he deserved anything, it was happiness. The cab slowed to a stop outside of the hotel and after paying the fee, you took your bags and dragged them into the lobby.

The woman at the front desk smiled brightly, though it did look a little forced. “Hi, do you have a reservation with us?”

After explaining to her who you were and that Ashton said there should be a room key waiting for you, she handed you the little plastic card. With a quick thanks, you tugged your things to the elevator and swayed nervously as you waited to reach your floor. With a ding, the doors open and only a few minutes later, you were in Luke’s hotel room. He had clothes thrown around the room and some take out trash on the desk that needed to be cleaned. He has said that he’s a mess without you and it looks like he was telling the truth. So, to keep busy while you were waiting for Luke to come back, you decided to clean his room. He’d better say thank you.

The room was almost perfect when you heard the sound of Luke’s voice outside in the hall. You quickly crawled onto his bed and sat where he wouldn’t see you right from the doorway. He must have been talking to Ashton because you heard his laugh and a quick complaint. “Stop complaining about not seeing Y/N in so long. You’ll be fine.”

“Look mate,” the sound of Luke’s voice brought butterflies to your stomach as you anticipated seeing him in a few seconds. “I miss them. I miss the love of my life, sue me.”

With a snort from Ashton, the door handle began to jiggle. “Just tell Y/N hi for me.” His footsteps faded down the hallway and the hotel room door creaked open.

“The fuck?” Luke mumbled to himself as he caught sight of the clean room in front of him. “Who came in here? Why was the light on?”

“Sorry, that was me.” At the sound of your voice, Luke jumped and stuck his head out from behind the corner.

“Y/N!” Luke dropped his bags on the floor and lunged at you, tackling you down onto the bed. “You’re here!” He planted a kiss on your cheeks, then your forehead, nose, and finally your lips. “How did this happen? How?” His face nuzzled into the crook of your neck as you wrapped your arms around his shoulders.

“The boys were tired of your complaining and they bought me a ticket.” Luke’s reply was muffled but you could only assume he mentioned telling the boys thank you since that would be the nice thing to do. “I can’t believe I'm here.” Luke finally tugged his face away from you and it was then you could see the tears in his eyes. “Baby, why are you crying?” Your hands came to rest on his cheeks while your thumbs brushed the tears off of his face.

“I just can’t,” Luke began but stopped to take a deep breath, “believe I finally have you here, in my arms again. I know it was only going to be another month, but I just missed you so much. Talking on the phone and facetime just doesn’t cut it. I couldn’t feel your hands on my face like I can now, I couldn’t smell your body wash. You were there but you just weren’t here. And now you are, and I never want you to go.”

Now with tears in your own eyes, you planted a soft kiss on his lips, bringing Luke as close to you as possible. “I’m never leaving you. I’ll be here until you leave for Paris and then Piggy and I will be home waiting for you. But let’s not think about us being apart for now. We have a few days together.”

Luke smirked and wiggled his eyebrows. “I know just how to spend it. I think I figured out why my room is so far away from the boys.” He leaned in close but before he could kiss you, you tugged away.

“Are you even gonna give me a thanks for cleaning your hotel room? I worked hard cleaning up this train wreck.”

With a giggle, Luke rolled his eyes and slowly kissed down your neck. “Shut up and I will.”

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