l had food delivered to my house, waited for my delectably delicious (*probably mediocre) soft serve ice cream to arrive so I could eat it and feel the wonderful joy expand within myself, and THEY FORGOT IT
THEY FORGOT MY ICE CREAM AND I PAID FOR IT
guys he did it
Otto the delivery man ate my ice cream and he must atone for his sins /j
G3 Monster High's episode "Crushed" is a coping mechanism for me.
Okay, hear me out.
I don't know if I have any favorite episode in particular. Crushed is definitely up there, but it might just have to be Portrait of a Monster still... I loved that episode to bits the moment it came out, and it hasn't changed HSJJH. But that's besides the point.
Around the time Crushed first came out, I had submitted an application to study abroad in Paris. Needless to say, I didn't get in :(
I have very high hopes that I will in the summer of 2024 though! The professor personally emailed me to apologize that I wasn't accepted (I had expressed interest as early as the semester prior); I think the course gave more seniority to the upperclassman, understandably. I was a freshman at the time.
But it still very much hurt, and I heard the news literally... two days before the episode came out, I believe.
And bro... that episode hit so much harder after the news I just received. I guzzled that episode with so much damn respect for Frankie.
The "try again next year" and then "that feels like a million life times away" from Frankie was so real. I felt the same way at the time.
But watching that really helped me cope with the rejection I had received two days prior. I was less heartbroken than I could have been.
But the reason why I feel so inclined to write about this now is because, a few weeks ago, I had a subconscious thought.
I had auditioned to be part of a sitcom for my university. I made a post about it a little while ago, and for those that saw it, you'd know that I got in!! :D
But prior to hearing the news, I was filled to bursting with nerves and excitement, cause I hadn't realized how much I wanted to be casted. And amidst my daydreaming of playing the lead role one day, my brain was like:
"Hey, you shouldn't get your hopes up and keep daydreaming like this. What if you don't get the part?"
And without even realizing it, I was responding to my own mind:
"I'll just watch Crushed."
And I knew it was genuine, as weird as that sounds. It's honestly a really great way of helping me cope with rejection in any form. And the fact that my brain immediately thought of that shocked me a little, but... my brain isn't wrong HSJS.
Like, come on. My comfort character experiencing the same rejection I was months ago? A whole episode about that? Starring my beloved Frankie Stein? I think that's a wonderful way of coping with things.
tour of all the strange things I’ve found in my new (but used) car:
a (probably cursed) ring!! :D
a mini marshmallow wedged against the windshield (I’m saving it as a snack for if I get hungry)
Oh and say hello to Percy!
He didn’t come with the car, but I thought I’d let him say hi! He’s in a perpetual state of deep concern, but I promise he’s okay. He’s my little car buddy. We go on many adventures together
NOBODY HERE IS GOING TO HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT THIS IS, BUT I AM SO HAPPY
I had to talk about this, because for the past five minutes, I’ve been jumping up and down in my room with absolute euphoria
So at my university there’s this sitcom that was made in 2003 that we’re rebooting
And I was like “ooo I really wanna be a part of that!”
So I auditioned. And got callbacks.
The main cast is relatively small, and the part I was aiming for was the lead, but I still had high hopes.
THE CAST LIST WAS REVEALED
I GOT THE LEAD
AAAAAA
okay so for some context:
I’m playing Iris, and I love her storyline!! Basically, as far as I know, she’s very queer (ME LOL), has a crush on another female character, is a hopeless romantic, and a little awkward sometimes lol. In her storyline, she attends a party where she gets hit in the head (by a coconut I believe 💀, the cast hasn’t had the chance to read the whole script yet), and falls into an 8 month coma, missing a whole semester of college. LIKE, THAT’S SO FUN! I WANNA PRETEND I’M PUMMELED BY A COCONUT JDJDJ
You know how I’ve referenced the little gay store that I work at in the past?
Guys… it’s closing at the end of next month :,(
And this customer just came into the store and was laughing jovially at all the funky T-shirts we have, and she was like “oh, I’ve gotta take my son here next time he visits”
A tiny part of my soul died at that ngl. I didn’t have the heart to tell her 😭
I was talking to myself (as one does), and one part of my brain went to say “cool”, and the other “sweet”, and in the end, I just ended up saying “queef” 💀
I hope y’all have had a wonderful day! This is what I woke up to hehe
The view from our front doors looked startling for a moment until I realized it’s just a perspective thing 💀 I for sure thought the void was gonna consume me