#PHEWWWWWWWWWW

[preciouspatriots]

someone on twitter pointed out that in the end august got everything he supposedly wanted but lost what he really loved which was sara and THAT is his punishment,,,,,young royals writers, you will always be famous

#PHEWWWWWWWWWW #I AM MOVED! #lives were changed. mine #young royals #young royals spoilers #user santos files might be aristotle

[luckyspacerabbit]

via Mass Effect: Retribution

#i dont mean 2 sexualize him on main #but like #man is #phewwwwwwwwww #PPHHHEWWWW #welcome to kai tuesday #kai leng

[fratboykate]

i legit had to take a crying break lmao but im back and about to go into the tag to hurt myself again

#PHEWWWWWWWWWW #LIKE IVE READ THE BOOKS WHY DID THAT HURT SO BAD #I KNEW ALL THAT WAS COMING WHY DID THAT HURT SO BAD #I swear it's cuz I'm high as shit it has to be I'm extra eml #hdm #screams

[pudgy-planets]

Anon I saw that ask and like good lord I’m going to answer it soon but talk about jumping the gun-

#mun says things #phewwwwwwwwww

[nicollekidman]

ANDRE HOLLAND????????

#PHEWWWWWWWWWW #the knick lb #cocaine between the toes and andre holland being here..... sold!! sold!!! sold!!!!

[septimaseverina]

Why Am I Getting Back to Tolkien's Fandom : The Holding No Grudge And About D*mn Time to Take Unhealthy Memory Away off My Chest.

TW & CW: Shitpost. Long Post. Rambling. Millenial Gen's Stuffs. A Bit of Language. Mention of Bullying. Mention of Depressive Disorder.

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Okay, I think it's time to manifest myself from what I'd held as grudge for years. Because this post reminds me, in the positive way.

I've started to fond of and love The Lord of the Rings when I was in my primary school; my younger brother and my sweetest best friend forever introduced me to the Middle Earth, and yes, I fall for this magical and charming fandom right away. We can talk about LOTR universe for hours.

When I was in middle school, I met my another best friend forever. She loves many things, which similar to me, one of them - LOTR universe. And we were like many teenage girls who have big crush over Legolas and Aragorn, we had been co-writing modern girls in Middle Earth fan fic, also she even illustrated our writing. Her arts are unique and incredible.

Time went by, I was lucky again to meet the friends who shared the love of LOTR in high school (somes stop contacting friends after graduating and somes get the new lives - lifestyle changing). But all the joys from the Middle Earth weren't lessen, I drew fanarts and exchanging fics in friends' circle. We knew that our fics were cringy, but we were enjoying and care-free to write.

At University, that was the peak of fondness and love toward LOTR universe. Before The Hobbit : Unexpected Journey dropped, they released DVDs - extended limited edition with beautiful artworks on iron boxes, including BTS. Thought they were getting my allowance much, but I was willing as a fan (I still remember I must had instant noodles as meals for half month 🤣). And I kept rewatching them whever I wanted, instead of the old VCDs. And I was super happy, because my professors are fans of LOTR too. Sometimes they talked about films and books in classes, but I didn't mind. And it was surprised that a teacher in my faculty is the one who translating the main trilogy books, she was my another best friend forever's professor!

When The Hobbit was dropped, me and my younger brother went watching the film at theatre in the city, with new Dolby Atmost system and super ultra HD screen. That was good experience.

But that time, I had been in one Japanese Anime+Manga's fandom too, since I was in 11th grade. In the community's webboard, I had spent most time in Fan Fiction forum. Because I wrote many fics, I happeneing to befriend with many lovely members.

And when I moved to University and a member in my circle returned back from Canada, we held many meetings. We usually roastes on junks-so-called-novels many times, then we established a webboard for writing parodies and satires to those shits with our totally new OCs - which not related to any fandoms. And yes, in the circle, LOTR and The Hobbit Trilogy are everyone's favourite. We talked about them for hours in webboard's chatted box.

In new webboard, we took turns on theme and universes for our OCs, for writing novels and roleplaying. And we all knew that if one OC has romantic relationship with another in each universe, it have to be fixed in those universes. No crossing. But it happened. By the one who returned from Canada and I was always respecting her as close as sister. Then I felt so bad about her, but I never talk to anyone in the group, except my best bitches forever who happened to be my roomate that time.

She did that many times, people who involved with the characters were confused, but let her did them. The real things are she becoming the real bitch and arsehole. And I swear, I'm not lying. Many people in the group I've still befriended with seeing what she had done to me and others, like a jerk.

Twice (or three) meetings, I didn't be at the places on times because of traffic jams. I did say sorry to everybody, they forgave me, but that bitch acted like she was idiot. Yes. After we agreed what would we had for lunches, she hit her head to the back rest, or sometimes, making complains but not directly. And they were not end easily, she kept sabotaging me on chatted box in front of everyone. A few friends soothed me that they were alright. Until one day, when the last Hobbit's film was dropping, we discusses in chatted box, I mentioned; Which characters in Tolkienverse were alike to our OCs.

Yep. It was like volcano erupting gravely and heavily. She threw tantrum over me about how dare I calling myself as a fan, why did I state some headcanons which weren't popular (and don't suit with her preferences) and why was I being the big fucking idiot - talking shits. And she couldn't stand me anymore. So I apologise her of what had I done wrong. After that, whenever I posted things on my Facebook which did not concern about her at all, she usually roasted me or the proper word was carping.

Whilst at the world outside internet, I had been stressful for years, since my Russian grammar examination's scores were awful. I couldn't be able to enjoy many things which usually gave me joy and happiness, including Tolkienverse. I told myself that they were just stress, and they would go away. But they didn't

Every single time I picked up the book or DVD, my thought was keep getting back to that slut. Even my best friends forever couldn't help me in long term. I stopped rewatching all films and re-reading all books, and retreating myself to be alone. That's the time I have depressive disorder. The cause isn't entirely because of that wench, but she is a part in this whole rubbish things.

Can you believe? I had been abandoned Tolkineverse for 10 years. Everytime I saw anything relating, I felt so bad and going down, even lower than the ground - living in the hole might be precisely.

But, last year, I've been recovered and (kinda) back from the death. I manage, deal and break all traumas; since I've this thought - "Why am I let those shits and nonsense which consuming my happiness and stealing my joy as human away? I must fight them, confront them and destroying them, If I want to be happy again with my life and enjoying things around me, including long lost fandoms.

I've been breaking down in processes many times, but I make it out alive. Also, those things truly go away and became only past traumas which I can talk about them without being triggered.

As you've seen, I reblog many stuffs from multifandom that seem like they're new, but no, somes are my old loves. Tolkienverse is one of my old loves. I won't tolerate to live with bullshits from one whore, who doesn't have anything to do with me. No more! She had haunted me and taken all my joys as her entertainment too long, even I've stopped contacting her for years. WHO THE HELL IS SHE? HOW DARE SHE?

I'm gonna let all grudges and the ghost of that bitch's going away with this post. Times up. I'm not a puppet for anyone to manipulate me. I'm human. I don't have to be a people-pleaser to make every one loves or likes me anymore. And I'm not gonna let others taking my happiness and joy away in harsh way. I'm gonna stand strong, tall and proud. Because what I've loved and fond of are not crime. Myself must come first.

Fuck all people who messed up with me and my life. Take your ugly arses to hell or whever you prefer. I hated you all once, but now, you are nothing more than garbages I can throw away and forgetting now.

#sept.txt #phewwwwwwwwww #that's feel so good #but I won't do it again in near future #also things I love come back to me right now

[bylertruther]

Will's happiest three memories from S2 getting trashed as the time went on (the destruction of the castle byers, forgotten BD, mike's life starting the day he found el etc) is a chefs kiss narrative... and we know they are gonna use S2 elements for S5 too and S5 is Will's coming of age. I am so normal

us when we are so normal about foreshadowing and stories falling into place and the rising action just before the climax and "the story started with will and it’ll end with will" and jamie's character board with will at the center that made the duffers ask him if he'd already seen the scripts and "hawkins will burn and fall, and the rest of this senseless, broken world, and i will be there. i will be there to pick up the pieces when it does and remake it into something… beautiful." and and and—

#asks #they do so many things wrong that i do not like. but that............................. girl. GIRL... i crea—[SNIPED] #legiterally my favorite thing like....... i go insane every time. every. single. time. PHEWWWWWWWWWW

[geoledgy]

Just came back from presenting my research on Martian volcanoes, it was tiring but great! Now I can chill for the rest of my time here

#rock talks #a lot of people stopped by to ask about it phewwwwwwwwww i need to REST my mouth feels so dry from talking for 5 hrs

[securcity-archive]

#my gifs. #desires. #PHEWWWWWWWWWW. #the fact that i had to cut this gif into three because tumblr didnt like how big it was. #>(

[sparklyslug]

Phewwwwwwwwww ya girl is feeling that EXISTENTIAL tiredness tonight

#sparkly originals

[comraderoscoes]

the manifesting I’m gonna have to do to make sure these merc reliability rumours don’t touch lewis’ car phewwwwwwwwww

#offering up a humble sacrifice of 7 other cars (preferably not lance) #I will literally scream if he gets engine failure this season hasn’t he been through enough #lydia.post

[lyvli]

omg misread that tumblr live announcement for a sec and thought tumblr was shutting down PHEWWWWWWWWWW hahah

#posts #like you don't know how bad i need this site to exist sometimes #can't find obscure gifs of shows without it

[kvnghs-archive]

the lengths liam will go to in order to keep the people he cares for safe is just phewwwwwwwwww though

#the man is wild #untamed no shame #lmfao #seeing red plays in the background

[37q]

phewwwwwwwwww

[mrkis]

spoiler for mc x jaemin? none of that angst shit

His hands disappear beneath the sweatshirt you’re wearing, fingers gripping your waist and kneading the skin, pressing his thumbs to your stomach.

“I miss feeling me here” He mutters under his breath, capturing his bottom lip between his teeth as he looks up at you, looking so pretty above him. He softly calls out to you. “Baby…”

#PHEWWWWWWWWWW

[aeirithgainsborough]

the raven boys:

the raven king:

call down the hawk:

#phewwwwwwwwww #adam parrish #call down the hawk #dreamer trilogy #trc #cdth spoilers #fuck 👏 me 👏 up 👏 #lou.txt