right about now, my attitude is bad.
i don't like having tense energy between ivy and i, but it's been a rough weekend.
thursday night she made it to me late and was acting weird. i didn't press it, we went to sleep
friday, i remarked how her behavior on thursday almost made it seem like she was drinking. but i remarked that i knew she wouldn't do that to me
imagine my surprise when she said she had been drinking.
after telling me, promising me, that she would never lie about that to me.
it really hurts me, and it's not easy to get over.
i trusted ivy completely, 100% and without hesitation
and she lied.
or omitted the truth to me.
and i understand why, i do.
but it still hurts because i feel a break in the trust.
i felt completely safe before. 100% safe. that ivy would never lie to me about anything.
and here we are.
and today, she's been gone in san antonio all day, which wasn't planned. but i'm not going to bring that up because i know she's been drinking and i'm not in the mood for a fight
to top everything off, lauren contacted me again. and that was also a point of tension between us.
but i was honest. i told ivy when lauren spoke to me, even when it was difficult. and ivy wasn't honest with me.
and now, knowing i've been in a mood that i can't shake, she's still been gone all day. much longer than anticipated. having a great day.
and i'm happy for her. i love that for her.
but it reminds me that maybe i'm not where i thought i was. maybe i'm not somewhere where my needs always come first. she's a human, afterall.
and maybe i need to get back into my own shit. back to my own life.
i don't like the feeling that someone makes me upset, then doesn't actually care if i'm upset or not. goes off to party and drink all day even though they told me they wouldn't. and doesn't care how i feel at all.
that seems like a crock of shit to me.
and i don't like having this energy between us - energy where i feel like you're taking things from me and i want to take them back. energy where i feel like i have to protect myself. energy where i feel like i have to fight back. but i feel it. and i'm angry. i'm resentful.
i didn't expect this. and i don't like it. i want to go full into my worst fucking self right now. i want to be immature, childish. i want you to feel pain like i feel pain. i want you to sit and wonder what i'm doing, not the opposite way around.
i don't want to sit here and wait for you to return, while you're off at the bar. why don't you sit here and wait until i get back from whatever the fuck i feel like doing?
its fucking irritating. after the shittiest fucking weekend we've had in forever, and i'm sitting here by myself.
i'm really not ready to hear all the excuses you're about to give me about how you tried blah blah blah and youre a victim of the circumstance. nah, i'm good. i thought we were together because i WASNT taking bullshit excuses any longer. and yet here we are.
whatever man.
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D'SASTER invited me for one of her rare features on D'SASTER MOMENTS which streams through Tbilisi's infamous Mutant Radio.
This is my favourite kind of radio show, (not because I am in it you sick fuck! but obviously) because of the format: Host invites guest, host and guest play records selected sometimes just by association and sometimes by grave personal or biographical importance, and then they talk about it! in fact we talked so long that i was feeling bad for Alexa D'saster whon i knew had to cut up all that flow of consciousness in order to deliver 120min of seemingly coherent exchange! All respect to her! And of course to the artists whose tracks we played!
Our exchange was of such openness that it will forever stay a favoured memory to me!
Hope you all are good and find ways to keep up your very personal way of being throughout these troubled times!!!
Much love from Berlin,
here is the show: https://on.soundcloud.com/6r5Tc
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In case this wasn’t clear—if I catch you sending my or anyone else’s fic to ANY wrestler you’re fucking blocked
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A.N.I. (autore non identificato) - Impermeabili Pirelli anni '30
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[ Cool, haven't lost any followers yet. Now let's talk about the A.I. stuff.
So, the recent event is that someone was rejected to be RP partners with. And their response was to threaten (or did they succeed?) turning their portrayal into an A.I. so they can write with the A.I. instead or potentially trying to replace them? I'm sorry, but that's sad. You chose a platform that's made to be creative and make friends, and you chose to be a loner and outing yourself as not someone to be associated with. We can talk about how uncool that is, but I'd rather point out how pathetic you are. Whoever you are. Good luck doing that to me though, I just mentioned I had a spreadsheet, no A.I. you can ever make will be able to replicate that so even if you succeed on me it won't be the same experience and thus you already failed.
But I think we should talk about the difference in definition of A.I. because there's TRUE A.I. and what we currently have: A.N.I. (Artificial Non-Intelligence, thank you Arden)
Real A.I. is like a separate entity. It's what we see in movies, and it's what scientist and programmers are trying to accomplish. It might be artificial, but it's a fully functioning brain. Jarvis, Friday, The Epsilon Unit, whatever the hell was in TRON. It's not something that stops all thought when not spoken to, it stays active and formulates/calculates it's own thoughts and opinions. That's rad as hell, and I want to see the day that we can pair A.I. with mentally unhealthy people to regulate decision making because I need 4. I am not smart, and I could DEFINITELY use that kind of help that won't bother a real person at random hours of the day.
A.N.I. is brain dead, you press a button and it turns on like a toaster. It's not where I want A.I. to stop because we all know it's a data scalper. But I do think we should talk about healthy ways to use it. DON'T BOO ME JUST YET, HEAR ME OUT.
Using ANI to come up with an idea when you’re stuck in a writers box? That’s good.
Using ANI to write your posts word for word? That’s bad.
Using ANI to generate a music playlist fitting a specific vibe? That’s good.
Using ANI to generate actual music? That’s bad.
Using ANI to generate art in a private setting to help expand on ideas or visuals like costume ideas or landscapes (because we can't art good)? That's fine.
Sharing that art and trying to sell it as your own? That's bad.
Using ANI to generate scam phone calls that call you from constantly changing numbers? I will kill you. I will actually fucking kill you. I will put myself on a fucking list to hire people to find your ass and I will go to your home and rip out your throat with my fucking teeth. I HAVE CHANGED MY WORK NUMBER 3 TIMES NOW, COMPANY POLICY REQUIRES ME ANSWER EVERY CALL BECAUSE IT MIGHT BE IMPORTANT, FUCK YOURSELF.
Writers burnout happens to all of us, but we shouldn't depend on it to be active. Use it to help you expand, or help you refresh. In a RP setting, we always want the real person. If we wanted a bot, we wouldn't bother being here. I don't want to write with a bot, I want to form a connection with someone on a creative level.
Bottom line is, everything is okay in moderation. Don't think that just because it currently exists means it's the apex of what we can do. We are smarter than that, we are better than that.
If there's something I just said that needs clarification or correction, let's discuss it in a healthy setting. I'm not calling to arms against helping tools, I'm calling to arms against laziness. ]
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Domino is a young girl who can see the veil between the corporeal and spiritual planes, and was captured by the A.N.I so the could study the makeup of her mind and soul. She's an empathetic child, and uses her trusty shade scarf for stealth an elusiveness, more often than she does combat.
Her birthday is June 16th
Her favorite food is Rice Cakes
Physical walls can't hold her forever...
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Styling looks for the music video " hagan" from @a.new.you.any (check it out its now live on youtube ) thanks to @adam_d_maor @lev.ker @alterdrums & @bazzmman for modeling my threads! ✖ The countdown to the live show is on! A.n.y will be preforming live this Saturday @wunderbar_haifa so make sure you drop by and see the show. ✖ . . . #agoraphobix #handmadeclothing #handmadedesigner #handmadefashion #undergroundfashion #stylingformen #rockgroup #altaesthetic #rockstarlook #grungefashion #grungelook #alternativeclothing #alternativefashion #altlook #altfashion #alternativestyle #darkstyle #alternativeboy #darkfashion #darklook #altmen #alternativelook https://www.instagram.com/p/CkQM67CtVyM/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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A.N.I teams up with Ausar for "Solstice"
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A.N.I teams up with Ausar for "Solstice"
SETX Native A.N.I teams up with Ausar for this new single titled "Solstice." A warm bass-heavy soulful jam that is rich with uplifting and evocative lyrics from both emcees. The track is also peppered with their unique melodic runs that add a nice soulful touch that everyone can feel
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it’s a really odd feeling that we’re fighting two nights in a row. it feels alien. strange. and also numbing.
yesterday, i felt a lot. i felt my wounds deeply, and i felt the ache of all the wounds that had been there before.
tonight, i don’t feel wounds. i hardly feel anything at all.
i hope we resolve. i hope this doesn’t drag on and it’s not a pattern. but i’m trying not to feel it too much.
if there’s something i have to feel, i’ll do so when the time comes.
but it’s weird. how after months and months and months of fairytales, suddenly there are the fights. the moments we waited for. the silly nags and disagreements.
and maybe i’m numb because of how many times i’d been here before. but maybe we both shut down in our own ways that the other has yet to fully understand.
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Nadie debería ir a dormir con el corazón roto en navidad.
A.N.I
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Bitti demiştim.
Bitti.
Herşey bu kadar ve buraya kadardı.
Oysa sevilmek istemiştim, ufacık bir saygı kıpırtısı...
Her kadın gibi bunlaraydı hasretim.
Denize düştüm yılana sarıldım dedim.
Aylarca kendimeydi hep nefretim.
Kendi kul hakkıma girdiğimi hiç göremedim.
Herkesi kendim sanarak sözünün arkasındadır anlayışımaydı sitemim.
Sevilmedim sandım terk ettim.
Sevildim sandığım yerden terk edildim.
Ve ben o gün AŞK'ta TÜKENDİM.
A.N.Y
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Des concerts à Paris et alentour
en gras : les derniers ajouts :-: in bold: the last news
Décembre
10. White Bouse + Drone à clochettes + Thomas Zielinski + Thharm + Ex_Pi – Instants chavirés (Montreuil)
11. Vierge noir e : cinéconcert sur “Film” d’Alan Schneider et “The Haunted House “ de Segundo de Chomon + David Fenech : cinéconcert sur “Entr’acte” de René Clair – La Clef
11. Boris – Le Gibus
11. Pointe du Lac + Richard Francés, Julien Lheuillier & Quentin Rollet – Quai de Bourbon
11. Kaffe Matthews + Phil Minton, Audrey Chen & Onceim – La Dynamo (Pantin)
12. Heldon + Duncan – Instants chavirés (Montreuil)
12. Maya Dunietz + Jacques Perconte & Onceim – La Dynamo (Pantin)
12. ToutEstBeau – Carbone 17 (Aubervilliers)
12. Bas Mooy + VTSS + EKLPX – Glazart
12. Kompromat (Vitalic & Rebeka Warrior) – La Cigale ||COMPLET||
12. Mono + Jo Quail – Petit Bain ||COMPLET||
13. Contrefaçon – La Gaîté lyrique
13. Regards extrêmes + Lisieux + Ascending divers – Les Voûtes
13. Paskine + Between Sleeps + CAM – DOC
13. Charlène Darling + Nina Harker + Regis Turner – La Boule noire
13. Officine + Fusiller + Theoreme + Bâton XXL – Cirque électrique
13. PAL + Zaraz Wam Zagram + Blason + Carbon Sink – Collective (Aubervilliers)
13. Ellen Allien + Hemka – Dehors brut
13. Pearl + Toscan Haas + Mind/Matter – Glazart
14. Ludwig Von 88 – Le Trianon
14. Wosto + Air LQD + Gakona + Marrakech + Pharmacie – Espace B
14. Boolvar + Dalès + Otis – Le Cirque électrique
14. Paula Temple + Tommy Four Seven + Sentimental Rave + Giant Swan – T7
14. Headless Horseman + Blind Delon – Dehors Brut
15. The Ex + 75 Dollar Bill – Instants chavirés (Montreuil) ||COMPLET||
16. Sydney Valette + Sweat + Deep Tan – Supersonic (gratuit)
17. Thomas Ankersmit + Gaël Segalen – Instants chavirés (Montreuil)
18. Amenra – Bataclan
20. Uriel Barthélémi & Martin Bakero + Laurent Stoutzer – Folies numériques|Parc de la Villette
20. Varg + Christoph de Babalon + Les morts vont bien + Powerplant + Fever 103° + Pessimist + Shayu + Vanadis + Aeon Shaker b2b Stagiairism (fest. Magnétique nord) – La Station
20. Vile Assembly – Espace B
20. Hector Oaks + Nene H + Nur Jaber + Parfait + Pawlowski – tba
21. Release party autour d’Achwgha Ney Wodei – Cirque electrique (gratuit)
21. Youth Avoiders + Chain Cult + Short Days + Bleakness – Espace B
21. A.N.I + Maraudeur + Raymonde + Ece Özel + Accou + Fantastic Twins + Les Fils de Jacob + Dame Area + Silvia Kastel + DJ F16 Falcon + Ed Isar + Mechanical Heaven (fest. Magnétique nord) – La Station
21. Anetha + Introversion + Jacidorex + Parfait + Schake – tba
28. Kaiser + Makornik + Cassie Raptor + Quelza + Léo Occhi – La Station
28. Panzer + Hyperaktivist + Sept b2b Opål – tba
31. Illnurse + Air-One + Amina + Maxime Iko + Pho.nx – tba (Paris nord)
2020
Janvier
03. Under Black Helmet + Tommy Holohan + Fuerr + 1ndica – Rex Club
03. SNTS + Keith Carnal + Eastel + EKLPX – Dehors brut
04. Rokia Traoré + Ballaké Cissoko & Vincent Segal – Salle Pierre Boulez|Philharmonie
11. Last Night + Euromilliard + Kumusta – Gibus
14. Lispector + Ventre de biche + La Punta Bianca – Point FMR
16. Black Midi – Le Carreau du Temple ||COMPLET||
17. Scratch Massive + Lokier + Cassie Raptor + Faast + Kiddo – Badaboum
17. Dafne Vicente-Sandoval + Ji Youn Kang + Thomas Lehn : « Occam VI » d’Eliane Radigue + Tiziana Bertoncini, Antonin Gerbal, David Grubbs, Ji Youn Kang, Thomas Lehn, eRikm & Dafne Vicente-Sandoval : « Et tournent les sons dans la garrigue » de Luc Ferrari – Le 104
17. Club Sieste + Louvet & Schultz + Chicaloyoh – Instants chavirés (Montreuil)
17. Edith Nylon – Petit Bain ||COMPLET||
18. Lee Ranaldo & Raül Refree – Le 104
18. Franck Vigroux : "Flesh" (Biennale Nemo) – Maison des arts et de la culture (Créteil)
22. Dick Voodoo + Bile – L’International
23. The Pharcyde – Petit Bain
24. Penguin Cafe + Lubomyr Melnyk + Peter Broderick + Anne Müller + Hatis Noit + Janus Rasmussen – La Gaîté lyrique
24. Kode9 + Teki Latex + Cem + Barker + Crystallmess + Carin Kelly b2b Bob Sleigh + Christian Coiffure (La Machine a 10 ans) – La Machine
25. DJ Marcelle + Stellar OM Source + Ploy + Clara! Y Maoupa + Black Zone Myth Chant + Theo Muller + Promesses + Gista (La Machine a 10 ans) – La Machine
25. Airod + Ki/Ki + Kobosil + Parfait + Shlømo – tba
26. The Fat (cinéconcert pour enfants) – La Gaîté lyrique
26. Beak> + Vox Low + Abschaum + Maria Violenza (La Machine a 10 ans) – La Machine
29. Rendez-Vous – La Cigale
30. Editors – Salle Pleyel
31. Tindersticks – Salle Pleyel
31. It It Anita + Mss Frnce + Flowers + Angle mort et clignotant + Casse Gueule + La Jungle – Petit Bain
Février
02. Sunn o))) – La Gaîté lyrique
06. Rouge Gorge + Arne Vinzon – Petit Bain
08. Infecticide – La Lingerie|Les Grands Voisins (gratuit)
08. Hots Pants : The Songs of Rowland S. Howard – La Maroquinerie
09. Explosions in the Sky – La Cigale
10. The Murder Capital – Café de la danse
13. Ride – Le Trianon
15. The Raincoat – Centre Pompidou
16. Orchestral Manoeuvre in the Dark – La Cigale
18. Biliana Voutchkova + Judith Hamann – Instants chavirés (Montreuil)
21. Ensemble Links joue "Drumming" de Steve Reich + Cabaret contemporain : "Détroit" + Molécule – Le 104
21. Pop 1280 – tba
22. Cent Ans de Solitude & Flint Glass : cinéconcert sur “Sprengbagger 1010” de Carl Ludwig Achaz-Duisberg – Club de l’Étoile
24. Sleater Kinney – Le Trianon
24. The Legendary Pink Dots – tba
27. Zombie Zombie + Kreidler – Petit Bain
Mars
02. DIIV – La Gaîté lyrique
03. Napalm Death + EYEHATEGOD + Misery Index + Rotten Sound – La Machine
03/04. The Mission – Petit Bain
05. Orange Blossom : “Sharing” avec les machines de François Delarozière – Élysée Montmartre
06. Frustration – Le Trianon
07. Ensemble intercontemporain joue Steve Reich : cinéconcert sur un film de Gerhard Richter – Salle Pierre Boulez|Philharmonie
07. Alcest + Birds In Row + Kælan Mikla – La Machine
10. Arnaud Rebotini : live pour “Fix Me” d’Alban Richard – Centre des Arts (Enghien-les-Bains)
11. Nada Surf – La Cigale
13. Russian Circle + Torche – Bataclan
17. Chelsea Wolf – La Gaîté lyrique
20. Ensemble Dedalus : "Occam Ocean" d'Éliane Radigue – Le Studio|Philharmonie
21. Front 242 + She Past Away – Élysée Montmartre
21/22. Laurie Anderson : "The Art of Falling" – Cité de la musique|Philharmonie
27. Lebanon Hanover – La Gaîté lyrique
27. Maggy Payne : « Crystal » (diff.) + 9T Antiope + John Wiese + Matthias Puech + Nihvak (fest. Présences électronique) – Studio 104|Maison de la Radio
28. Ensemble Links : "Drumming" de Steve Reich + Cabaret contemporain joue Kraftwerk – théâtre de la Cité internationale
28. Iannis Xenakis : « Mycenae Alpha » (diff.) + Marja Ahti + Rashad Becker + Nina Garcia + Kode9 (fest. Présences électronique) – Studio 104|Maison de la Radio
29. Ivo Malec : « Recitativio » + Eve Aboulkheir + Richard Chartier + Lee Gamble + Will Guthrie & Mark Fell (fest. Présences électronique) – Studio 104|Maison de la Radio
Avril
03. CocoRosie – Le Trianon
14>17. Metronomy – La Cigale
18. Siglo XX – La Boule noire
26. Pharmakon + Deeat Palace + Unas – Petit Bain
27. Caribou – L’Olympia
Mai
08. Max Richter : "Infra" + Jlin + Ian William Craig – Cité de la musique|Philharmonie
09. Max Richter : "Voices" – Salle Pierre Boulez|Philharmonie
09. Jonas Gruska + Leila Bordreuil + Jean-Philippe Gross + Kali Malone (fest. Focus) – Le 104
10. Iannis Xenakis : « La Légende d’Eer » + Folke Rabe : « Cyclone » et « What ??? » (fest. Focus) – Le 104
10. Max Richter : "Recomposed" & "Three Worlds" – Salle Pierre Boulez|Philharmonie
19. Swans + Norman Westberg – Le Trabendo
22. François Bayle : « Le Projet Ouïr » + Marco Parini : « De Parmegiani Sonorum » + Yan Maresz (fest. Akousma) – Studio 104|Maison de la Radio
23. Julien Négrier + Hans Tutschku : « Provenance-émergence » + Félicia Atkinson : « For Georgia O’Keefe » + Warren Burt + Michèle Bokanowski (fest. Akousma) – Studio 104|Maison de la Radio
24. Philippe Mion + Pierre-Yves Macé : « Contre-flux II » + Daniel Teruggi : « Nova Puppis » + Adam Stanovitch + Gilles Racot : « Noir lumière » (fest. Akousma) – Studio 104|Maison de la Radio
23. Damon Albarn – Salle Pierre Boulez|Philharmonie
24. Damon Albarn – Salle Pierre Boulez|Philharmonie ||COMPLET||
26. Minimal Compact – La Machine
Juin
14. Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds – Bercy Arena
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@asweetlittledove replied to your photoset: Akatsuki no Yona comparison with
I keep seeing this post everywhere! And someone reblogged one of my posts and added that it reminded them of this manga. My curiousity is piqued! I bought the first two. I'm excited!!!
My job here, is done
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If you haven't heard, They've been banned three or four times for harassing, suicide-baiting, misgendering, insulting, and bullying nonbinary people. Not even in discourse tags, just NBs minding their own business. And they keep coming back with new URLs every time. It's not worth reporting anymore so that we can just block their account without worrying about finding out and blocking each new one they make. Just block them
-- anon
h\ /a/ \s/ h\ / e/ \d this to help avoid alerting the terrorist that we’re blocking them. we used a mixture of s/ l \\a// sh // es// & s. p a c es to do so -- eve
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