#and im sneezing and I sound like a dying horse!!!

[skoulsons]

“You’re up early.”

She was, and the only reason for that was because Joel was way too loud making his coffee and getting out the pans to cook breakfast for her before he left for patrol.

Joel was never loud, especially never loud enough to wake her.

“I heard you,” she mumbled, trudging over to the kitchen still wrapped in a blanket. She pulled a chair from their table out, facing him at the stove. “Everything okay?”

He nodded.

Everything wasn’t. He dreamed she died. It was a montage of every time it’s ever crossed his mind. Her in that bloody grass. Her skin ravished by an infected child in an abandoned van. Her face ripped apart while trapped underneath Sam. Her body, cold and pale on an operating table. Her, her, her.

Every single one played clear as day in his dreams, tormenting him with every possibility his my mind could conjure.

“Joel-“

“Nightmares. ‘S’all it was.”

“Okay…” she started, rising from the chair. “You always have me talk about mine, so…” Ellie approached the countertop opposite of him, jumping up and sitting atop it, her dangling feet hitting the lower cupboards

He hesitated before turning to her, eyes locking with hers as he sighed.

She was right. She didn’t always go into detail, he didn’t need her to, but he wanted her to release them somehow; and at night when she clings to him immediately afterward, that’s when it’s the easiest. And when she can’t talk to him, she writes or sketches them down when words can’t- don’t suffice. Anything that keeps her from compartmentalizing how they make her feel or what they make her think.

But Joel. He’s always the one to take care of her that he’s never had an out or a way to talk or feel them in a healthy manner, not like he tries to give her. Ellie tries to get him to verbalize something, but Joel is a damn brick wall when it comes to directly talking about his feelings, so it never goes anywhere.

But when it’s 5am and there’s the tiniest glint of sunlight that starts to rise and offers a faint, glowing light to their kitchen as they’re full of sleep and still in the midst of navigating these feelings, it’s easier to talk. They’re more malleable.

“It was you…” he started, doing some lazy hand motions to try and convey the word he desperately did not want to say alongside her name. “Repeatedly. Different scenarios just…over and over again.”

Her eyes went soft, understanding in a way that only they could understand.

She had the same ones. He knew.

“Figured I’d make you breakfast now and leave it in the fridge for you to heat up later so I could get a head start on patrol and… try to forget about it all.”

Joel cleared his throat, kicking up imaginary dust off the tile floor as she watched him.

Ellie reached her hand out and made grabby motions with her fingers. Joel noticed, a light, sleepy chuckle escaping his lips as he stepped towards her, both her hands holding onto his one. He stood beside her, their hands falling against her knees.

She rubbed her thumb over his hand. “Are you okay?”

He smiled. He knew that meant a plethora of other questions that they didn’t have time to cover. “I’ll be alright, Ellie.”

She nodded her head, still rubbing her thumbs across his hand. “I know. Just… wanted to check up on you.”

“And I…” he started, leaning over to kiss the hair above her ear, “am happy you do.”

She leaned her head on his shoulder as he brought his other hand in, covering all three of theirs and squeezing tightly.

“Since you’re up, how about helping me with breakfast? Wouldn’t turn down your old man, would you?”

She smiled, tapping her feet against the cupboards. She squeezed his hands and kissed his cheek briefly before jumping off the counter. “Can’t say I didn’t think about it… but,” she said, opening the fridge door. “Not for the world.”

#this is #TERRIBLE #this started out semi good and then it got bad #cringe fluff anyway don’t look at me #but im dying a slow and painful death #*allergies* #so give me grace 😭 #I thought about something like this in the shower #and it wouldn’t leave my brain #I read z’s sad fic yesterday I needed something to cheer me up #anyway. #yeah. #gonna go take nyquil and pass out #bc my eyes look like I’ve been crying for eight hours and my nose is running and my head hurts and my ears won’t pop and im coughing #and im sneezing and I sound like a dying horse!!! #the last of us hbo #joel miller #ellie williams #L writes

[oh-theatre]

Bloopers Video!!

Very vague spoilers lol

Hi I love Patton and that’s final

Is an Oibrow raiSe

Look ma I’m on TV

ROMAN IS DEAD JEJDJEJFJ that’s the end y’all

Sixtine

REMUS AS STEWIE IM CRYING

Your pooper, your brown maker, your bhOle (gOD I LOVE HIM)

*casually dying* rOMAN!

Lil ol me? I’m alrIOT

I think Logan knows sweat words, fucking right

Shiter? I barely know her

KAY LOGAN SWEARINGJSJDJRJ

in your pathetic lives... loGAN ITS YOU LIFE

LOSE MY MARBLES

fuck them

Fuck you

SO MUCH SWEARING IM CRYING

What? I’m cool... laMEEEE

Mommy I don’t want the mashed potatoes

What the fuH

because I was one of them.. what the fUH

Tumblr called that like month ago

Two dEES AT ONCE

DUTY AND DEVOTION PATTON IM-

What the FuH

Fine craftsman ship

MneEh and mYeh

Roman singing I’m-

ROMAN IM GONNA LOOSE MY SHIT

👀

Patton the prospector

His laugh I’m gonna cry

Unmentionable

Yet taint

Yer balls

Yer dingus

I literally don’t care at all

Pyants

Lamp (JEJDJD SHIPPERS ARISE)

P an t s

Another major isushsbsjdjdjnf

For shUre

And now a bunch of sounds:

YeeEeeEe

GoOoOoh

AAAAAAAA

GeeeEeeh

NooOoOo

MoOoOoOoooo

SMELLY BUMMMSSSSS

what’re you taLKING ABOUT

cause I gotta sneeze

Olllllll beeeen kenobi

Ah shit here comes the song

I’m auditioning for the role of Thomas Sanders

This is my vogue shoot (holding a dolphin)

The sausage went ZoOoom

Casually chokes his friend

THE ENTIRE SONG BLOOPE IM CRYFIN

meow (a BAPEY)

I’m the holder of the apple

Slap slap slap slap slap bottom

AchOO

Virgil standing is the weirdest thing OHMYGOD

DOES ANYBODY HAVE A BROOM?

IEHEHD DECEITS THING

DECEIT HITTING THE WOAH

What the fuH

Unicorns arbejajjeirjdb a bapey

Sprouts babies from their horns

Catch tune, did you come up with that?

A scoodly boo

*sinks out*

Thomas where do you get off

What the fuck are you talking about

The swoRD

Only Arthur was dhurjejd

Donlololoilol

Blehlehelhe

Shut up Virgil is basically what I’m saying

Me too Thomas

Good! Thanks!

How are you a DAD IF YOU DONT HAVE ANY KIDS

shIt

Ahhhh okAy

You must be a figment of my imagination, come on all my other figments of my imagination

REMUS WITHOUT HIS MUSTACHES JDIDNDK

Got Mario and Luigi here lmaO

Aliens

The duke... is a bitch

Aaaaa bitch

Ehhhh bitCh

Acrylic nails Remus yes pls

STUPID NOODLES

That’s creativity still working

Can you believ that?

And then she fucking dies

So there wasn’t really a ghost? Y’all about booballs

StinkY?

You are not going into church looking like that mister

And hate why we are gonna get demonitIzed

PoopY shit

Nope I’m an adult that’s noT AHAHAHA

I’m gonna kick your asH it was a pun and I didn’t swear

You can’t fucking punch me I’m imaginary you dumb shit

Suck my dick stupid

I’m all out of reactions for you

HE KNOWS THE VINE

Joan I thought you were vegAn

I freaking lvoe jOan

No more blood... REMUS

prom 2019

Does anyone see the weird dad character in here? Wiat why are there four different mes in here

We press them down, we repRESS ... oH

Patton I love you

1 in 50 people suffer from intrusive thoughts ... oops

Am I beeeeee ehHhHh

No seriously.. you’re really... lame

I WAS DECEIT ALL ALONG

I’m crying

don’t do thaT

THOMAS CANT SPEAK SAME

funeRAL

HAH

MORE AN IMORE

Something something

We also call those horse girls

EW DECEIT IS THAT WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE WITH YOUR HAT OFF

You’re alive it’s a miracle.. praise Jesus

Aw my bapey I lvoe you

Duke trying to get out from the Tv

Open the gates and seize the daYYYY

Gavins a BAPEY YALL

making a musical sequence in your head is not easy work

Me maH

Boo!

All of LoGAN!

OH MY GOD ITS A TRAIELR JEJDJEJF

JSUDJDJD YALL YALL YALL A TRAILER

APRIL THEITEENTH?? OU MY HOLY HELL I CANT BREATHE

AJDJJEJDJD OH NO PATTON LOOKS STRESSED

HES WEARING A SUIT OHMY GOD

YALL

Brb gonna go freak out

#sanders sides #ts spoilers #sanders sides spoilers #sanders sides bloopers #sanders sides bloopers spoilers #thomas sanders #long post

[telrtot]

All bet

well fuck, you got me

1: name? taylor irl and lacey here cause its cuter2: gender? on the Girly side3: birthday? feburary 5th 20014: age? 165: zodiac sign? aquarius6: sexuality? bisexual with a Strong leaning towards girls7: hobbies? playing d&d and thinking too much about characters i make. i also play a lot of video games and cosplay sometimes8: aesthetic? the night sky, a swirl of purples and blues and shades of grey, bare shoulders, sunsets9: dream home? somewhere in the city, close enough to walk were i need to. rainy weather is prevalent and in a short while i can find myself in the woods.10: OTP? umm not any Main Ones right now but AraSol will always have a special place in my heart11: favorite band/music genre? indie folk and folk rock. ringlefinch is my favorite band but nobody has heard of em. gotye and hozier are also up there in my favorites.12: favorite songs? hell by ringlefinch ; beneath the brine by the family crest ; beekeeper by keaton henson ; heart's a mess by gotye ; third eye by florence and the machine (perfer the demo version tbh)13: do you have a favorite book? if so, what book? mmm, haven't read enough in the last year or so to really make a choice. i used to Love the hunger games books when i was 10 and read Catching Fire 4 times through...if that counts. gosh i need to read more.14: favorite food? chEese. especially in Queso and Fried forms15: favorite TV show? fullmetal alchemist: brotherhood16: favorite character? aradia megido will always be a love of mine. mercy from ow is also a fave of mine.17: favorite animal(s)? foxes, 'cause they remind me of me, and all avians ever, 'cause they are friends.18: favorite color? plum purple and mauve19: favorite beverage? diet dr pepper with cherry20: favorite holiday? new years because every year i watch (bad) anime over at one of my best friends house 21: relationship status? who knows tbh22: last text you've sent? "gotta say, im intrigued to see what you could come up with"23: last text you've received? "as am i"24: last person you told you loved? my mother when she came in to say good night25: last time you felt jealous, and why? probably like an hour ago cause i was looking at selfies of people with nice skin26: are you insecure about anything? my skin, my nose, and my weirdly shapen hips27: where do you want to be right now? 27: where do you want to be right now? playing d&d but alas....28: what are some habits of yours? i bite my nails hardcore, talk really fast when i get excited or nervous, forget to shut cabinets, chew straws, and bite hard candies because i have no self-control29: three turn ons? umm, hm. either sitting in someones lap or having someone sit in mine, nEcK BiTiNG, and when someone wearing plaid or a button up shirt rolls up their sleeves.....30: three turn offs? generally immaturity. if someone - even in a jokin manner - calls me a bitch (especially if its a guy sayin it) not cool not funny please stop talking to me. whEn people can't hold a conversation to save their life (like i might be bad at it but at least i am Tryin, ya feel?)31: do you have kik, skype, or any other social media? i do32: pet peeves? wHen people with a runny nose sniff really loudly and make gross sounds. also when people use their hands or just don't cover their mouths when they sneeze or cough33: what're you wearing? my pjs. why? what r u wearing bbby?34: career goals? medical examiner in the forensic field or someone that travels a lot35: are you a student? yep, in high school36: what country do you live in? america37: do you have any pets? a labradoodle named patrick and a schnauzer named max38: tattoos you have/want? oh boy, that would be its own post. i honestly want quite a few, all in black and white and generally for the Aesthetic39: piercings you have/want? i have regularly lobe piercings and a double helix in my left ear40: morning or night? night41: guilty pleasure band? ninja sex party42: guilty pleasure song? samurai abstinence part by ninja sex party...43: top 5 favorite memes? tag yourself memes ; Gun ; the firefly 'you would not believe you (blank)' one ; maybe the real friends.... ; and those strange animal pictures with Russian captions44: one band you don't get the hype for? i don't know how much hype she has now but i don't really enjoy halsey all that much45: one band you wish more people knew about? rinGLEFINCH46: do you practice any religion? not currently47: do you believe in any form of a God? i believe that there is a God, possibly many, but i cannot say that i believe any doctrine of god is correct48: what do you think happens after we die? i like the idea of reincarnation49: have you ever done alcohol or drugs? i haven't done anything but drugs i have been given by a Doctor and i drank alcohol before....with my parents permission50: what's the worst thing that's ever happened to you? not actually dying when i was born 51: what's the best thing that's ever happened to you? not dying when i was born?52: have you ever had a near death experience? my heart stopped beating when i was a baby, so yeah53: is there someone you can tell anything to? myself....?54: what's the most amount of notes you've ever gotten on a post, and what was the post? it was a fallout meme i made and it got like 200 notes i think (maybe the real shaun was the friends we made along the way)55: are you right or left handed? right handed56: Would you be in a relationship (platonic or otherwise) with the last person you texted? If it's a family member, the last person you aren't related to. we are friends, so yeah57: who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? the gaggle of gurl and ungendered pals of have are p good listeners58: would you want to change anything about yourself? make me less of an asshole and actually use my good brain to do work59: what's the first thing you notice when meeting someone? how they react to different brands of humor60: have you ever been hurt by someone you trusted? 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