#anyways its 2 am here you go

[bitchthefuck1]

It's kind of funny that Kendall and Shiv are both equally delusional about their ability to charm people for business and somehow think they can do it even though they choke almost every single time, whereas it's like the one thing Roman is consistently good at despite being the "least legitimate" option.

I think part of this comes down to the fact that Shiv and Kendall both have very clear ideas of the versions of themselves they're trying to be and the images they're trying to project, and they're trying so hard to be seen that way that they end up coming off as a little desperate and off-putting. Meanwhile Roman "knows" that there's something wrong with him and he's worthless, so he doesn't get sucked into the trap of trying to force people to see his idea of himself and instead molds himself into whatever he thinks the other person wants from him because that's the only way he can compensate for "being him," which works very well in the short term but also means he's the least capable of maintaining any relationship for very long because he has no sense of self.

#this was going to be a joke about kendall consistently failing to charm anyone that isn't stewy (and still for some reason thinking he's #good at it) but then i thought about it too hard and started connecting dots #but it is really interesting on a character level to analyze the different ways the siblings act when they're trying to win someone over #kendall and shiv will try to find common ground but they always end up pushing too hard and overplaying their hands because they're #focussing too much on wanting to get the person to take them seriously or see them the way they want to be seen #and roman will test the waters a bit but not say anything definitive until he get the person talking and can see what it is they want #and then just says whatever it is he thinks they want to hear #which also makes a lot of sense with the abuse dynamics since he was the one most likely to actually get hit so the goal is to just make #sure dad never gets angry at you and tell him whatever you need to to avoid that because the consequences will be worse #anyways its 2 am here you go #succession #kendall roy #shiv roy #roman roy

[spacedlexi]

so theres these 2 zombie apocalypse daughters and im a disappointed parent who plays favorites

#twdg replay got me feeling Feelings....then i remember i have Another zombie daughter i neglect these days >.> #this is not me pitting 2 bad bitches against each other im just thinking abt ellie and her poor life choices lol #clem got Everything ellie threw away : ) fool #ellie im so sorry its not your fault #sometimes i remember how important ellie and tlou were to me before ...... #anyway :) *thunder stops clouds part sun shining birds chirping* #clem is happy at her forever home with her found family and baby boy and co leader girlfriend :) peace and love on planet earth :) #clem does Not get the appreciation she deserves and i stand by that. clementine you will Always be famous. the original. the blueprint. #CLEM I LOVE U BBY GIRL i will give u ur flowers forever #all wlw who stopped playing twdg before s4 go play s4 right now i am no longer asking #the amount of people who havent played s4...wat r u doin....its the final season...pains me #anyway back to my brain hell :) guess i'll just sit here by myself #thats ok :) my house now #it speaks #twdg #tlou

[that-gay-guy-from-hell]

Oh hey look-! It's the Blue Man Group!

#Im too tired to come up with a funnier joke rn lmfao #So... Im alive! #Been busy and just... emotions #(like I was on the verge of tears today because i dropped a pen... lol) #But here's some art WIP for y’all #Heard some snippets of Rust’s album and I am so hyped #Like i am gonna go donate plasma so i have the extra cash to buy it asap when it's released #but anyways #I spent nearly 4 hours between 2 days just staring at human skeletons; spines are hard to draw #and YALL CANT EVEN SEE MOST OF IT- #Bonus points for those of you who know what 2 Necronomocons Doc’s book is a combo of #I missed drawing this handsome blue bastard (lovingly) #*pats him on the top of his head* #I love him so so much #/pos..? I guess lol #the living tombstone #tlt #tombsona #Doc #Doc tlt #tlt Doc #the living tombstone Doc #Doc the living tombstone #digital art #digitalart #WIP #art wip #fan art #(color wheel meme WIP btw-- yes i know i started this MONTHS ago *places a finger on your mouth* shhh its our secret) #also the quality drop is abhorrent wtf lmao

[devilsskettle]

i feel like i’ve been WAITING for the other shoe to drop wrt people’s opinions about watcher for this very reason. not that i think the reaction is completely not understandable but the greater the parasocial relationship, the greater the fallout as soon as public opinion shifts. you don’t have a relationship with these people they’re just content creators, chill

#ready to see all the people coming out of the woodwork to say how they’ve never liked watcher/unsolved/etc #and act like it’s ‘cringe’ now that their fanbase feels ‘betrayed’ #it’s great to have a fanbase but parasocial relationships will bite you in the ass every single time #it’s interesting too though because i’ve seen watcher have a LOT of support as they’ve tried to build something separate from buzzfeed #so this is the first time they’re getting real pushback about a decision they’ve made wrt shifting their platform/expanding their brand #so ig we’ll have to see how they react moving forward #but it’s soooo interesting to see how enthusiastically people dump on buzzfeed #AND how many people dump on youtube and how over the years so much of its functionality has been stripped away #how many ads you have to sit through. how much sponsored content there is now. etc #but when they try to do the same thing with youtube that they did with buzzfeed it’s like how dare you not lick their boots #because if you lick their boots and we lick their boots we can watch stuff for free #anyway. #even if you don’t any to say it’s a bad business decision. it’s not like there’s not precedent for it #1) the move away from buzzfeed was successful and 2) what about the dnd shows or whatever #don’t you guys watch those dnd shows that are ‘behind a paywall’ #don’t you guys have netflix hulu disney hbo amazon etc ad nauseum that are actually owned by billion dollar corporations #don’t you guys get on your high horses about supporting independent artists all the time #it’s interesting that people will profess to be such big fans!!! and feel like they’re friends!!!! #but how dare they think their work might be worth paying for #idk. idk. it’s entitlement though #sorry for the rant i’m ALSO not trying to blindly defend a bunch of people i don’t know #but you guys are being soooo fucking annoying about it lol #anyway i’m still waiting to see what their response is going to be from here before jumping to conclusions #also to be fair i am biased to be lenient about decisions made by independent filmmakers vs big studios etc #like everybody freaking out about the ai art used in late night with the devil. who cares honestly #‘they should’ve paid a real artist!!’ idk maybe their budget didn’t cover that #i don’t want it to become the industry norm but at the end of the day i would rather see indie shit getting made then only seeing #the big studios (who don’t have equitable practices anyway!!) making shit #but that’s another conversation. just to be transparent about my viewpoint on this kind of thing #maybe controversial but also can’t we have nuance. for once.

[themanwhowouldbefruit]

my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me

#“no need for follow up” #“yeah you did have several cysts we scrapped off your remaining ovary but. dw about it. idk why they were there. dw about it. oh also your #ovary on that side was freakishly huge but. dw about it. it might go away. dw about it #*doctor shrug emoji* “ #“go see a gyno next year maybe. but not me im too important for that. go find and onboard a gyno to your situation. next year maybe idk lol” #he barely even looked at my incision like #this fucking appointment could have been an email. or a phone call. or they just could have let me start driving again. also i forgot to ask #if i can stop drinking ensure now or after the 6 weeks? cause that shit cost $$$$. but he probably would have been super unhelpful if i had #fr fr this guy only wanted to give me the time of day when he thought i might have fun cancer inside and now he's like gtfo!!!! get your #fugly cancerless ass out of here!!!! recover from a major surgery on your own you swagless cancerless loser 🤣 we arent helping your #swagless ass!!! #anyway it seems weird and fucked up that im was never offered to see a physical therapist and i guess am going to have to blindly trust my #abs they sliced thru are healing or whatever and to rawdog my own physical recovery of my muscles? even just dumb shit like. my center of #gravity has drastically changed since the mass removal and my back hurts like shit all the time because all my posture muscles were built up #for when i had an extra 30 pounds of cyst hanging in the front and my posture and walking reflected that. and i lowkey don't know how #hard i am able to be with my healing incision because its really tight and makes me hunch forwards still. like i would really like to know #how much i can safely or maybe should be forcing my skin and incision to stretch. without damage? is that crazy #am i crazy??? #this shit is why i didnt see a doctor for 2 years until my problems had snowballed into a 30 pounds ovarian cyst that was crushing my other #organs and had one of my kidneys all backed up with piss. and even getting emergency treatment for it everyone was like. how did you like it #get this bad?? how could you not know you needed to seek medical treatment???? like. bro. seeking medical treatment isnt even a guarantee to #get medical treatment. #anyway he said my “remaining ovary seemed low key polycystic but dw about it. don't quote me on that im not dealing with it.” #bro i dont want to doctor google it i wanted an actual doctor to deal with it. fuck you. #like. maybe even a doctor who knows my situation so i dont have to struggle with getting someone to believe me and take me seriously. #but whatever. back to trying to figure out the daily protein and extra calories my body needs for recovery via doctor google i guess. #its fine 🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬

[arts-i-enjoy]

AHHHHHH

#this post brought to you by: me #i. applied for a preapproval letter for a mortgage yesterday. and spoke to a realtor to start finding me houses #i want to move several states away which further complicated things. but the houses there are CHEAP #like under 100k for a 2 bedroom move in ready #anyways i got approved for 80k with a 20k down payment. and im FREAKING THE FUCK OUT #and because i got that pre app letter i have a loan officer calling me today to talk #and we literally work at the same bank so i can SEE that hes active and hasnt read my message #even though its been 45 minutes. KEVIN MESSAGE ME BACK. IM NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO FOCUS UNTIL I DO THIS CALL #AHHHHHHH S C R E A M. it might happening!!!! i might be finally.mov8ng out in a few months!!! #i mgiht be a HOMEOWNER by the end of the year #i have been saving money for this since i was. 16? 17? #ive had a good well paying job since i was 18. #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #once i have a house then i start job searching in that area. and start getting really serious about LEAVING my very good job #which is soooo scary. this job was supposed to be my lifelong career. but then everyone fucking moved to other states and left me behind #so theres no point staying here. #i might never have this kind of job security again. #but also my realtor said that theres a lot of bank jobs in that area so maybe itll be easy to find something #on the fence on if i tell my parents that im Making Moves right now #on one hand its hard to not talk about it becuae im STRESSED TF OUT #but on the other hand when i tentatively mentioned the state i want to move to #richard started yelling and swearing el oh el #might be better to wait and avoid the tension as long as possible? #but also i dont know how they can stay angry when its literally my best option #the other places where my friends live either have 0 opportunity and high housing prices. or are even moe liberal than where im going #idk. why do half of my problems come down to “my parents will be mad” like im a 12 year old or something. shit fucking sucks #this is why i want to get out of here #also it feels weird and bad to talk to my friends about how stressed i am about buying a house when all of them are stressed about #not being able to make rent or something. my problems feel like a brag in a really odd and shitty way. but hey! #if this works out maybe ill start being stressed about how im going to make my mortgage payments! :') yay!

[catonatrain]

on twt rn there's people sharing some of their fav scenes from EN a3! and while i dont have context for these, i thought to share the ones that made me laugh since a3!'s my brother in arms

#muku <3 my son in law <3 #the egg one is taking me out what does he mean by this... thank you tsumugi #the only thing i know about itaru is that he's my friends “toxic gamer” and what is wrong with him this is so fucking funny #a3! #choo choo losers #anyways everytime i see a3! like in the wild im like no way.... there they are #ok time to go to bed its 2:27 am here... very late for me #anyways for anyone nosy i only know a3! through other people but i owe a3! fandom my loyalty forever so here they are #muku sakisaka #(me who doesnt know the others guys full names)

[ghost-trick-heritage-posts]

Just checked the date and we've been up for a full week! Congradulations to me! Woo.

#mod posts #This does mean heritage posts will slow down as i wanted to do one post a day through our first week #we should be heading to about. 1-2 posts a week now. maybe 3 if i feel like it #simply so i dont burn through every post that qualifies in my first month. that would be bad #'what days will you be heritaging things?' its a suprise! i want people to randomly get me in their notifications and go :O! #theres actually less older posts that qualify than you would think! makes me sad every time i see a post with 600-900 notes. you are so #close yet so far. :[ #anyways that is enough rambling from me. have a great night everybody. glad to be here. and i am glad yall have decided to join me in #my quest to catalogue old notable posts :]

[brightokyolights]

...

#i am only typing this because im tired and feeling more loosey goosey than i usually would i guess #but ive just been debating something for a while now #so basically i used to just openly talk about like. everything on this blog but then due to a multitude of reasons #i stopped posting about certain things 1. because irl people found my blog and probably still could if they Really tried #2. because i didnt want to post about certain things and have absolutely anyone know shit about me #like as much as it can feel like a cosy wee community. just me and my mutuals <3 etc. its like. actually the fucking internet djdbdjdhdhjdh #anyways whats prompting me to type all this is that i used to post kinda negative stuff on here i guess you could say. like just my feelings #and shit. but i stopped because i want this to be a positive blog and i do feel like you can manifest shit you know? if i constantly reblog #posts where im like “i feel worthless and i am a piece of shit” that isnt helping anything you know? i think what really hammered it home #for me is when i saw a mutual rb something from me like that and it made me so sad tbh. because like. no youre not. youre amazing and ily #you know? anyways. overall i think it has been a decision for the best and i enjoy that my blog has become a more positive space. but i #do sometimes just feel like im kind of going the opposite direction where i act a certain way when im really just. feeling crap. #like all the time. idk maybe tumblr isnt the place for it but it used to be my outlet you know? and i have other things like my diary and #art and even a sideblog lmao. but i guess i do just mourn my whole self not being on this blog. idk what im trying to say by all this #is it this deep? am i thinking about this way too much lmao. idk. idk. #le text post

[steelycunt]

starting 2 finish up research and move into trying to create some sort of plan and. this r is sooo. oh my. he is the loneliest girl in the world but like actually this time. he is so very. he needs a hug so terribly much he is such a sock in need of darning he needs a little kiss he needs. even just one single friend

#r in an au is often sooo crazy because it’s like imagine the guy that this friendless + melancholy boy would become if #instead of making friends 4 life at age eleven he simply continued to be friendless + melancholy for his entire adolescence #he needs. he soo desperately needs someone who is not his mother to grab him by the shoulders and go hello i like you i like spending time #with you i think the things you have to say are interesting and i would consider you my friend. or he might die......... #still need to give this thing a . fucking title huh. i have one in the works but i dont like it all that much. usually the title is the #first thing i come up with this is. crazy 4 me what even is this thing if it doesnt have a pretentious nonsense little titular phrase #anyway r he is so. he loves his home so fiercely he doesnt feel like its his he never wants to leave he thinks if he doesnt get out #he might die his home is everything 2 him he wants to turn his home into something that does not make him so unbearably sad and #lonely and like a stranger or he will not be able to stay here he. wants his dad to like him as well as loving him he wants the things he #loves to love him back he wants. a friend. well dont worry i am going to give him a pretty boy to. hold hands with justhold on babygirl... #pride au

[shameboree]

u know when you get impostor syndrome but for shit like chronic pain. thats so weak. other ppl are out there like advocating for themselves and their fellow pain havers and im doubled over in an ikea refusing to take a brk or go home like THIS IS FAKE FOR ME ACTUALLY. I WILL MAKE IT TO THE PLANTS SECTION bc i am NOT valid. weak.

#my endo is relatively well controlled w my iud and i only get migraines USUALLY 1-2x a week #lately has been 2-4x/wk which is much better than daily which i used to be #anyway my brains always like hmmm neither of those count as chronic pains bc its you #ive had meningitis and most of my migraines are on that pain lvl so like maybe my brain is Wrong here but also id literally never go up to #a chroic pain haver and be like oh yeah me too buddy!!!! #also bc i am a brain damaged glutton i refuse to let ot interfere w a single activity i want to do so does it REALLY interfere w my life?? #brough to u by a wicked endo flareup i can feel building but this is what my tens unit and 12x12" flax heat pad are for heh #kels talks

[xysidhequeen]

The insomnia is back, which means so is the weird pins and needles/numbness in my fingers, and the shaking hands. And the nausea.

No migraine yet. So thats something.

If a mutual could break into my house and knock me out with a frying pan that would be wonderful 🩷

#its been #uh #2? #years since i saw a doctor #my reg doctor wanted me to see a therapist and that was expensive so i didnt and my anxiety and shame kept me from going back #SHE WAS GOING TO ASK WHY I DIDNT GO SEE ONE AND ID HAVE TO BE LIKE 'cause i dont like new people :(' #but the real problem here #is #the lack of sleeping #im not even tired OR sleepy #which is 2 different things #tired is 'my body wants to collapse but will not sleep' #sleepy is 'i can go to sleep!' #i am neither #the hallucinations havent started yet though so thats also a plus but we got at least 12 more hours before they usually show up #i am in pain tho and id like to not be my body apparently has a different opinion #anyways if you wonder why im not updating its because december and jan has just been back to back health crisis #and i barely get a day to recover between them #also videos. reading. audio does not work to put me to sleep or absolutely anything you can buy OTC in the USA #its basically wait and hope my body gives up eventually before i need to go to the ER for them to medically put me to sleep #which itll usually do. longest its held out is like 50 hours. which was miserable. -547/10 do not recommend #tw nausea #tw doctors #tw medical #tw insomnia #hope i got all the trigger warninga

[todayisafridaynight]

love my right-hand rgg men deranged. a little blood splattered even.

#snap chats #this post is about yoshitaka mine and jo sawashiro do NOT reblg and put anyone else in the tag or im egging your house #one of you rebellious bitches are gonna do that cause i said it now... unless we keep playin uno and we go #'oh but now that you said that i wont touch this post' OK WELL GOOD IM RAMBLING IN HERE !!!!! GET OUT !!!!! #dont get out. stay if you want. its dark down here i have two (2) candles burning this time and i feel like im summoning the devil #yeah i am summoning the devil the motherfucker that lives in my mind #im never getting to the point of this post. btw. im stringing all of you along. im cold. literally and figuratively. #mine never even got to be blood splattered..... hate this franchise..... unless we talkin ishin but ishin was a blood bath it dont count #anyway sorry (<- not) someone reminded me of majima being fake crazy about kandas head in the box #call that a dick in a box GOTTEM. fuck kanda all my homies hate kanda #and yeah...... sat here and started thinking and giggling and kicking my feet 🥰 #sorry i mention the eye scene once a month but no other scene compares to it for me. it has everything i could ever want #🏳️‍🌈❓❓ behavior and raw gore and nothings more brutal then personally taking your thumb and sticking it in someones eye #always reminds me of that slipknot song.. Duality... and not the song called Eyeless.... hate this band.... #like please its my crack its my meth its my drug of choice #knife scene good too for similar reasons....... but i do like the eye scene just .2% more... sorry... i like how gorier it is... #knife scene still raw as hell tho like UGH sorry love them. i love jo and mine cause they Seem calm for like .2 seconds and then theyre ill #their demeanors are so funny to me tho like mine's like Thoroughly professional near all the time but jo is just Slightly more vulgar #like jo more typically says crass/aggressive things while mine Genuinely most of the time is just 🧍‍♂️ #very funny... love them all the same... <- said he was gonna draw but hasnt drawn shit #I SAW THE FIRST EPISODE OF KYOUEN (jdrama starring nakai) AND NOOO IT LOOKS SO SPICY I WANNA WATCH THE REST #but i made a promise..... so i'll save that binge session for the morn i suppose.... #anyway dont look at me im giggling and twirling my hair at the thought of my Real Crazy bitches #i love them <- cant say this enough my heart will literally explode if i try to #stream chat got me thinkin a jo.... oopsie..... i refuse to say anything heinous Respect Your Elders etc etc #ok bye. im normal <- is going to go watch the eye scene again

[stonerzelda]

i need a new vidyod. game <- has no life direction and is running out of time to find one

#sometimes i do wish i could just meet a game developer and theyd be like hey heres a job in story concept work for no reason #if i could see a future in art i would go back to school for ot but uhhh apparently its not possible or realistic #i am still so hung up on the fact i paid tuition to be told oh btw if you dont Already know how to do this youre fucked #and were not gonna help you lol. o7 #i dont want to go to this new school for a career i. really. like i do have a passion for caring for people #but....yknow. #not what i dreamed of. such is life #anyway back 2 the fun posts now LAWL

[starlingskulls]

they're at mad at me island i should cvt

#cvt #cvtting #I'm like ... 2 months clean question mark #i unfortunately am Very good at like .. invalidating myself abt sh and all #so I barely even count what I did as cvts lmao #I have a few scars that haven't faded yet on my thigh though so that's. something #you know how it is #and like of course do not take my words here as like . idk Truth. like #if you've got small ones that's still sh yk like. that's still ?? #i don't rlly know how to go abt talking here lol #i try not to log in too much. makes me worse I think #ur all valid is what I'm getting at #anyway . they are ignoring me on purpose bc I accidentally did something #and its making me feel like fucking shit but I don't want to tell them that bc like?? if they're reacting like this #over something I'm Also upset abt?? idk #i've been able to vent to them a Lot and have felt v safe abt it but mm. I'm unfortunately very sensitive lol #and idk if I will be able to confide in them for a fucking While again #I don't want to break my streak though. also I've always been afraid of bleeding so LMAOOOO #im not letting myself sleep tonight instead. haven't done that since hs but uhmm Oh Well it is what it is #doubt they're in these corners of Tumblr but if u know who this is Sowwy ! #🐦‍⬛posting