#as always this little drabble may turn into a longer fic if ppl like it and my little brain can tell my little hands to type it out

[capricornlevi]

higuruma x reader -- gn!reader -- former academic rivals to lovers -- kinda nsfw, mdni

Law school reunion with Higuruma, whom you had written off as a hopeless idealist throughout your time studying together -- and for good reason.

He's a defender of the hopeless, for fuck's sake. A man like him could be on six figures by now if he had the slightest shred of self-preservation. He, like you, consistently performed at the highest level, scoring in the high nineties on every exam and every presentation. You figured you'd be fighting him off for internships and traineeships once graduation came.

But here he is tonight, informing everyone of his gallant pursuits -- you can't believe he hasn't caved and chosen a more lucrative path. e

But you're also unsurprised; even though he's more weary than you remember him being and the bags under his eyes have darkened, he still has that glint in his eye. That fire you remember so well.

Maybe it's not idealism that drives him after all. Maybe it's frustration, anger at the inability to use all of this knowledge for actual, meaningful, concrete good. A feeling of hopelessness, of fighting against this inevitable tide that drags you all in with it.

And you tell yourself that's why you bring him back to your hotel room at the end of the night. You just want to figure him out. You're curious about it.

It has nothing to do with you missing the feeling of his hands against the bare skin of your lower back, of course. His lips against your collarbones, nipping at the sensitive skin. The memories of meeting him in a library study room, of him guiding you against one of the desks and trailing his fingers up your thighs until you had tears gathering at your waterline, until you practically begged him to put you out of your misery and touch you where you needed to be touched.

Nothing to do with the fact that every man after him has been a relative disappointment; they've all been either sycophantic or unchallenging, both in bed and out of it. When you and Higuruma really got into it, after late nights spent arguing over group presentations or debating the merits of legal principles, when you'd unleash all of the pent-up tension and frustration in the most satisfying of ways ...

He always pushed you just enough, though. Never too far. A gentle taunt would be followed by praise, sweet words that made your face heat as he drove his hips into yours.

Maybe your venture tonight isn't solely scientific. Maybe you're tired of going unchallenged, and know that if any man can draw those sounds of out you again, if anyone can have you so coiled up with pleasure that your vision whites out, if anyone can press kisses against the curve of your spine as you lay breathless in bed afterwards ...

Maybe there's no harm in appreciating a little idealism.

#higuruma x reader #higuruma hiromi #higuruma hiromi x reader #higuruma x gn reader #dawg look at my lawyer im going to jail #jjk x reader #as always this little drabble may turn into a longer fic if ppl like it and my little brain can tell my little hands to type it out

[just-my-latest-hyperfixation]

I was tagged by @medusapelagia, thx love ❤️

January

My year truly started with a bang. I published the first chapter of Hic sunt dracones on January 16th, and was immediately blown away by the wave of positive feedback. I was still very new to the fandom, had just gotten back into writing after a 15yr break, and had never dreamed of this sort of reaction. I didn't know it then, of course, but HSD would go on to become my fic of the year and probably the one I'm best known for. 🐉❤️

February

Didn’t publish anything new, but continued working on my WIPs and signed up for the @steddiebang

March

Finished Someone who cares and got a bunch of lovely comments. I had been writing it since October 2022, publishing it since early December. The first-ever fic I finished, the first I ever shared publicly, the one that rekindled my passion for writing, and still one I'm immensely proud of. 👪❤️

Started working on my BB fic (You got me) in the palm of your hand 

April

Published See you in a crown, which got over 700 hits in the first 24 hours. Feral bathroom mirror sex with added tiara really seemed to do it for a lot of ppl. 🤣💕

May

Didn’t publish anything new, but was hella busy with my WIPs. 

June

Published Someone like you, a bonus chapter to Someone who cares. 

Also trembled my way through the BB claims weekend and ended up with not one, but two lovely artists, @xgumiho and @peachypurr. 💕

July

Finished Hic sunt dracones (on the day of the big AO3 blackout no less), cried over the lovely comments and the fucking FANART

Wrote my first microfic for the @steddiemicrofic challenge, found it sooo hard. 🤣

Started writing Just add water and Possession 

August

Published Just add water, which was such a feel-good fic for me. I loved writing it, it always put me in a good mood. 🧜‍♂️❤️

September

Published the first chapter of Possession 🦇

Also wrote three Microfics for the “charm” prompt ✨️

October:

Published (You got me) in the palm of your hand throughout the month. The feedback was lovely, and so many ppl told me how they remembered me from the claims sheets! 🔮

Finished Just add water. Was honestly sad to let it go, even though I only worked on it for a little more than 2 months.

November:

Continued working on Possession

Also wrote a lot for the @steddieholidaydrabbles and developed the first ideas for a longer fic and art project based on Blast to the past/The kings's gift together with @house-of-the-moving-image

December

Published Let me be good to you, a sequel to See you in a crown

Published the holiday drabbles, which was such fun! ❄️❤️ Ended up with exactly 50 published works for 2023, wow!!

Next year: 

I'll Finish Possession some time in March or April if everything goes according to plan 

I've got two fics for the ST Reverse Big Bang coming up in March, which are keeping me very busy rn

Turn Blast to the Past into a chaptered fic and art project, together with @house-of-the-moving-image 

I'll also probably hit 1k followers on tumblr early this year and have something special planned, so stay tuned! 🥰

No pressure tags: @penny00dreadful, @rainbow-nerdss, @sourw0lfs, @wynnyfryd, @aidaronan

#steddie #steve x eddie #steve harrington x eddie munson #steddie brainrot #steddie fanfic #fanfiction writer #fanfiction #fanfic #my writing #my year in fanfic

[littlespoonevan]

ahhh so i’ve just surpassed 4000 followers which is just the strangest thing in the world to me so i wanted to say a little thank you to some of the people who make my time on here so wonderful :’) as some of you may know, i’m very fussy about who i follow. i only follow 52 blogs overall between this blog and my other one and i counted and it turns out only about 20 of them are skam-centric blogs asdjhjhdjfh so i thought a nice thing to do might be to leave a lil comment about why i follow each of these ppl :’) some will be longer than others depending on how well i know the person or how long i’ve been following them but i appreciate you all <3

to every single one of you who has followed me, whatever your reason may be, i want to say thank you. thank you for putting up with me,  thank you for always leaving nice comments in your tags, thank you for making my day over and over again. you are so special and i’m so lucky to have you <3

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@tiptopevak - jessie, you are one of the most inherently good people i have ever had the pleasure of speaking to. just talking to you makes my day brighter and potentially the only thing sweeter than you is your writing asdjkfh you’re one of the bravest people i know and i’m honoured to call myself your friend <3 

@softnorwegians - top!!!!!! thank u for always letting me send u lyrics at literally any time of the day to scream abt how they’re related to evak in even the most obscure fashion asdkfjdalksfh thank u for all your moral support whenever i write anything and your long-ass tags detailing your thoughts are my sole basis for writing like 90% of my headcanons/fics adskjfah ily <3

@dahlstrom - jenny, i honestly think if we didn’t have each other to complain about our writing to we may both have a breakdown???? aksdjfh i love that our friendship was built on keeping each other updated if Things happened while one of us is at work bc u know that’s a strong foundation lmao. thank u for always being down to headcanon literally everything, you’re the real mvp <3

@sanas4main - shola!! highkey that night where we both were in literal tears and watching skam clips together while yelling via tumblr messenger will be a treasured memory for the rest of my fandom life asdjklhfjds you are one of the sweetest people in the world who makes the most beautiful edits and i love that we talk more now!!! <3

@evakshalla - maria!!! first of all i can never thank you enough for all the barcelona knowledge, that fic wouldn’t exist without you!!! you are so, incredibly kind and your presence on my dash always makes me smile :’) <3

@cuddlyevak - ah dora, you have made some edits in the past that have truly left me breathless, you are so, so talented!!! and have been wonderfully sweet whenever i’ve spoken to you and in your tags <33

@kardemomme-kisses - annika your tags are literally a work of art, i love reading your thoughts and every time i see you reblog one of my fics/hcs i literally look forward to seeing what you have to say. thank you so much for always sharing your insights with us <3

@nalle - holy shit okay, can we just talk for a second about you create literally  my favourite edits???? there’s something so soft and delicate about the way you gif and i love it so much?????? every single one of them is beautiful <3

@adamparishe - ahhh always a+ text posts, headcanons and fics!!!! you’re such a talented writer, you never fail to make me smile :’) <3

@emmanette - you’ve been so sweet whenever we’ve spoken, you’re always a lovely presence on my dash <33

@isakandeven - you reblog gifs from the passe på meg clip almost every day and i honestly i appreciate it sm i never want to forget even’s face in that scene thank u <3

@isaks-even - you always make lovely edits and i love hearing your thoughts and reading your posts about the show!!! <3

@isaksbestpillow - first of all shoutout to ur url askjdhf second of all you seem like such a lovely person???? and your little drabbles and fics always make me smile :’) <3

@josteninski - thank u daf for letting me yell at you about the romeo and juliet au for two straight weeks i’m honestly not sure it would exist without u <3 and your edits are always gorgeous!!!

@julieandem - your url honestly ends me sakjdfhjkdh but seriously i love reading your text posts and reactions and theories they’re always so fun ok a+ enthusiasm on your part <3

@minuttet - you make the most beautiful edits!!! they’re always so achingly lovely and definitely the thing that made me want to follow you, i love seeing you on my dash <3

@skamisako - ahh i haven’t been following you for that long but you seem so nice????? honestly such a wonderful addition to my dash <3

@skamzy - you the make prettiest edits!!! i love the way you play around with the colours <3

@toneelspeler - your edits are absolutely stunning. your “10 significant ___” ones in particular have destroyed me on more than one occasion. i don’t know how you always manage to find the perfect screencaps but they’re beautiful <3

#thank you angels <33 #follow forever #you are welcome to rec me blogs to follow bc i always want to!!!! #but as i said #i'm v fussy #kasjdfh #listen as long as u have a tagging system and don't get involved in the discourse i'm down

[fluffi]

i think it was because god's menu was released around the same bp and svt made their comebacks. same thoughts tho on gm > bd and i was also glad that bd got the wins gm didn't. and same with the streaming mvs while studying : ] ahh, the easily distracted people we are. (reading cut and litol font bc poor ppl who see this on the dash TT)

i've heard chinese ballads (usually osts of films and from a chinese friend) and their songs really tend to tug on my heartstrings. i hope sm gives shotaro more stuff to do soon :[ with some of the units being active and sungchan being an mc on a weekly show, it makes me wonder what he's doing. do you think nct will form a new subunit?

no, i'm not lactose intolerant so it really took me by surprise. it was a one-time thing. hopefully it doesn't happen again. i can't really say i'm a big fan of ice cream but it's good occasionally yk as a treat to yourself. and ahhh, i miss drinking smoothies. my favorite stall has been closed for nearly two years now, idk if they ever re-opened since our city mall burned down :[

i think it's an nct thing? it's why i never get tired of them bc they're always active in a way. you should've seen how things went down last year! march 127 album, april dream mini-album, may 127 repackage, june wayv album and the whole nct 2020 thing. it was a wild year. about the track, i listened to it once and forgot about it. might give it a few more listens but it might not grow on me at all. yes! wasn't a big fan of hot sauce at first too bc i thought the intro was weird (not jaemin's part, like the first thing that plays). and yes, that hook loops in my head 24/7. i even made it my instagram bio.

stray kids world domination indeed! and i agree that their performances were really impressive (specially the deadpool one, best one yet) but sometimes i would fancy ateez' more. i didn't watch kingdom too bc it stressed me out as a multi. always caught between being happy for one group and being sad for the others. and atz and tbz! you're still getting into nct and you're thinking of adding 19 more boys! judging from what i know your taste in music is, i think you'll like tbz's music better since there are a lot more soft songs there than in atz. but do give both discographies a listen in the future!

oh izone! i've only heard of them at music shows and dance choreo compilations bc of them being in sync. they're really satisfying to watch! i thought their title tracks were catchy as well! quite unfortunate that i never got into them really. but again, i dont think i can handle stanning temporary groups.

i'm starting to see a pattern in your biases :D i wouldn't be too surprised if you'll be drawn to jeno at some point in your dream venture. dream is soooo easy to love so if you really end up ulting them, i would understand why. and also, YES PLEASE WRITE FOR DREAM AND TAG ME IF YOU WILL. THANK YOU ><

thank you! :c don't get your hopes up tho, the masterlist must've been interesting to browse but are the fics truly worth it? XD i think not. since you already know koe, i'm reccing users @/rouiyan, @/nsheetee and @/loonacitys. i don't have that much fluff in my ficrecs blog. i think, i've heard of lvdsc before (maybe even read a fic or two) but i can't find their blog now. be careful in privating your works, you might end up losing them forever if you don't keep track of their links...(?) that's what happened to the works that i privated :/ take me with you if you move blogs ;n;

seungmin frequently left updates abt what he was doing, left good nights and good mornings, the occasional i miss you. he called fans 'baby' once. not sure if it was a mistranslation, or really just a one-time endearment. other than that, nothing beyond the usual. seung vlives always make me cry ;n; he always look so adorable and precious. also the gif, the fic was more on fake head-butting really but yes you could say it was also a fake nose boop bc it sounds cuter. i'll make sure to tag you on future seung content on the dash. (time to officially claim him as your ult, yes. dont make him secret anymore :3)

sorry it took me a while. tumblr went batshit. the ' werkl;' stopped working midway and i got busy with school yesterday. also haechan birth today and i'm so emo abt it. it's literally just a boy turning 21.

little font and cut saga lets go!!

(just kidding, i cant do little font typing for long periods of time, makes my eyes go beserk haha.)

true true, im afraid for txt on music shows now because theyre going against some big names (literally bts like whatj jsdf what was hybe thinking). yeah, streaming mvs while studying aka watching mvs on loop lmao. i still want to stream skzs final kingdom performance on instinct but i remember that theyve already won!! hehe

ah chinese ballads always make me emo, i like to scream out lyrics to the songs at the top of my lungs and sit there on the verge of tears. its a cultural thing maybe *sobs*. ooh, what show is sungchan mc-ing in? ill check it out. i thought sm would make nct japan for sungtaro (i heard sungchan speaks japanese) so it was a shocker when they made...nct hollywood lmao. given the current circumstances we're probably not going to get a new subunit anytime soon :( hopefully taro will have stuff to showcase during that period of time.

burned down?? oh my, what happened to your mall? that sounds terrifying. i remember when the front of my school caught on fire and we were all ushered out but we thought it was a drill and didnt find out till years later lmao.

oh true, since theyre such a big pack too. constant comebacks and promotions haha, nctzens never catch a break with 23 members. i listened to the new track again (ive forgotten the name already) but i cant- i cant do it. its just not my style hhh. i rewatched the mv for the godly visuals though. i dont know if youre talking about that 'bibididibibidiododo' part by that female morphed voice at the beginning of the song, because i wasnt a fan of that too. it grew on me though.

same, actually! im not an atiny and dont stan any other group in the show besides skz but i watched each groups performance and ranked them haha. at times ateez would rank over skz, it was wild. also yeah, my other multi friend was freaking out about kingdom and ended up abandoning the show because she was so scared of the fanwars and having to deal with her 'conflicting feelings'. about the stanning thing, in my defense, i have a list of groups i want to stan and ive recently added tbz and atz. the list is long, i have a long way to go! also yeah, i dont prefer ateez's songs and i have a bunch of tbz title tracks in my playlist but if i approach their discography like i did with nct then i think i would like at least five songs.

izone are my queens. theres a reason why theyre the only girl group who made it to my ult list haha! super talented and filled with variety and visuals, a perfectly concocted group (literally, sobs in pd48 scandal). ah, temporary groups. yeah i cried about their disbandment for like 3 days straight, it was bad.

a pATTERN?? INTERESTING. DO ELABORATE. jeno, oh my gosh hes like bang chan. an intimidating-looking bear whos actually filled with love and softness on the inside. im currently having a jaemin run though, his make a wish fancam is doing some wacky things. also yeah, dream is really easy to love. i fell for them so hard, theyre all talented and cute and adorable and the team ambiance is so nice. really rising up my stan list now. i mightt write for dream! ill have to see, hehe.

personally i think the fics are going to be worth it. i can feel it in my boOOnes. ooh, recommendations! fun :D ill check them (and yours) out after i finish this 30k jisung fic. ive been trying to finish it since yesterday but i keep getting sidetracked. also, i made a mistake. its luvdsc with a 'u', maybe thats why you couldnt find it? ahh. thank you for the privating tip though! will keep in mind. and of course ill take you with me if/when i move blogs. we're friends now! <3

SEUNGMIN CALLED STAYS 'BABY'???!!@)(@#*()! I SHOULDVE BEEN THERE ASKDFJDF. im exciting for the fake nose boop drabble!! i love soft couple moments hehe. also yeah maybe its time to make him my ult...hes going to have to compete against jake my beloved ope.

dont worry about being 'late' or anything! we all have our own stuff to do. also yeah tumblr is weird asf sometimes. if you havent realized i typically answer longer asks around the same time everyday, when i get to sit in front of my computer and pull out my clickity-clackity keyboard. super relaxing.

AND YES HYUCKIE DAY!!! HES SO ADORABLE HONESTLY. im in love with all seven members of dream, my fic rec blog is currently filled with fics for them haha.

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