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crazyrandomfucker · 5 years

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Adrien Augreste: Akumatization

He was done. Adrienne was suffering thanks to their secret identity, but refused to reveal herself. Lordbug had told him that he was in a similar situation with his girlfriend, yet he also rejected his idea. Then he had tried to convince Ladybug to spare their siblings the suffering they were putting with, but she disagreed with him, mistaking that with a mere try to know her identity.

On top of that, most of his friends were out on vacation, his father had reprimended him when he tried to snuck out of a photo shop and tightened once more his schedule and his only friends that hadn't left, which were the designer twins, always seemed too tired and exhausted to even hang out.

On a desperate attempt to calm down and disconnect, he went to the Miraculous Cave and discussed everything with Mister Fu, discussing every possibility and reasons for everybody behaviour. Mister Fu tried his best, pointing objectively a few reasons to each point Adrien made, but that only got under his skin. Moments later, he paid and left off to run free and wild, trying to get everything out of his mind.

It was disheartenning, everything he did was wrong, everything seemed to just be crumbling down on his life and there was noone willing to help him. He really missed his mother and her soft embrace whenever he was sad. Slowly, an akuma began to aproach him, but he didn't even react, tired of every single bad thing on his life. He simply stopped seeing, missing the akuma that came closer with every flutter of it wings, not seeing or hearing Ladybug, Lordbug and Kitty Noire, who were screaming his name as they tried to prevent his akumatization without success. The akuma entered on his bell and the heroes engaged their fighting stance with horror and sadness expressed all over their face.

"Hello Chat Blanc, I'm Hawk Moth. You're tired of everything around you crumbling down, but noone cares or tries to come to your aid" said Hawk Moth.

"Get out" groaned Chat.

"I'm just like you. My brother and wife were almost killed and my sister-in-law just put all the blame in me and left. My children are constantly disappearing and destroying everything I've carefully prepared to help them" tried to empatize the villain.

"Now I'm not in the mood to hear your lame story! Get OUT!" screamed Chat.

"I can help you erase all your pain, I won't even ask for your miraculous, just Lordbug's" said Hawk Moth.

"I'm done. Akumatize me and I'll help you" said Chat with a twisted idea on his mind.

"No! Chat, you must resist!" screamed Ladybug, but he didn't heard her.

A dark purple cloud covered Chat Noir and turned him into Chat Blanc. Now, his suit was snow white instead of the usual pitch black he always had. There were gold lines on the borders of the leather. His pupils were of the most pure gold and the white of his eyes had turned into silver. His fake ears and tail had several scars, as if he had fought and lost several times.

When he opened his eyes, Ladybug was in front of him crying as she held her yoyo in her fighting stance. Behind her, Lordbug was covering Kitty Noire, who was crying desperatedly on the back of the bug. Chat gave them a twisted smile and jumped off the roof. He heard the heroes shout his old name in sheer horror, but he simply landed on his feet and ran away from them. When he was far enough so they won't catch up with him for a while, he stopped.

He knew all of his powers had been improved by the akumatization. He could do monstruously high jumps, his speed was incredible, his senses were so precise, that he could hear everybody in Paris breathing, including Hawk Moth. He could feel his kwimen itching from a power outburst, confirming the upgrade of the kwimen. He also felt the buzz of a more powerful cataclysm behind his now enormous claws.

He smiled and focused on Hawk Moth's breathing. "Wicked" chanted Chat Blanc, casting his kwimen from far.

"What was that?" asked Hawk Moth.

"That, my dear Hawkie, was me casting a bad luck charm on you. Your luck from now on will be the absolute worst. Unless I undo the charm, your luck will be so bad, that it will kill you on exactly a week from now on" said Chat calmly.

"What?!" exclaimed the villain throught the telepathic link.

"You've heard me. I have to be at least at three meters from you to lift the curse, which I won't do unless you follow my conditions of course" said Chat, as the heroes finally stepped in.

"We don't want to fight you Chat, please make this easy for everybody and let us purify the akuma" begged Ladybug with tears on her eyes.

"But of course my Lady. Just let me afew minutes to negotiate Hawk Moth's surrender" said Chat, confusing everyone.

"I don't believe you! And I will never surrender!" declared Hawk Moth.

"Welp, looks like you do want to die, it's a pity. My Lord, I advise you to purify me quickly, before Hawkie tries to control me, my sister's Cataclysm will help with the bell" said Chat as he gestured with his hands: "TIE ME QUICK"

Lordbug tied his hands and Ladybug tied his legs quickly and he showed no signs of resistance. Kitty aproached him with tears and fear on her eyes and he gently moved his head to help her get to the bell. Before Kitty activated her Cataclysm, he made a stop sign with his tail.

"Hey Hawkie, one last thing before I'm deakumatized. If you don't believe me, ask your kwami about kwimens" said Chat with a smile. "Now end with this already sister, my back is itching and I'd like to scratch it".

"Cataclysm!" yelled Kitty and she destroyed the bell.

The akuma flew out of the bell and Lordbug quickly untied his hands to catch the akuma. After purifying the akuma, Chat Noir stood up and scratch his back like crazy, but Ladybug hit him.

"You idiot! Do you know how worried I was?! I got a call from Mister Fu saying that I should try to talk with you beforesomethingbadhappensand-" said Ladybug hugging Chat as if he was going to disappear, but Chat put a finher on herlips and pulled himself out of the hug.

"I'm sorry my lady, I should have resisted more. That doesn't matters right now, Hawk Moth is going to die unless I find him" said Chat seriously.

"Don't tell me you put a bad luck charm on him. You weren't even touching him!" exclaimed Kitty, still crying a bit.

"The akuma strengthened my powers, so much that I could even know when his luck will kill him. Strangely, I was conscious the whole time and I still remember everything" said Chat weirded out.

"That's why you didn't put any resistance to us or attacked us on sight" said Lordbug. "Perhaps it's because you are a holder?"

"I'll ask Mister Fu or Miss Fu about it" declared Chat.

"Chat I'm sorry for everything I said last time, for thinking you just were trying todizcover my identity. I should hav-" said Ladybug, but Chat stopped her again as Kitty's ring beeped.

"Don't worry my Lady, it's my fault for always being so pushy. Now if you excuse me, we have to go" said Chat and turned around to flee, but Ladybug used her yoyo to stop him.

"No Chat, I won't let you go. We're going to talk now in the Miraculous Cave. This is not something I'll let go and hurt either of us ever again" said Ladybug with a determined look in her eyes.

"I agree with it" said Kitty and Lordbug at unison.

"Wheter you like it or not, you're coming with us" said Lordbug as he carried Chat on his shoulder.

The heroes set off to the coffee shop to settle things down, Chat complaining during the whole journey and trying to get away without succes as Lordbug held him with a firm tight grip that could stop trains. They finally arrived and Kitty rushed to the closets before she changed back. Lordbug tied Chat to a chair and he and Ladybug sat down to face Chat.

"Now, spill the beans. What has happened for you to get akumatized" demanded Lordbug.

"I'm afraid it's partly your fault young bug" said Xia coming upstairs witb four cups of green tea.

"What? Is this about the secret identity reveal? I told you I had it roughbut that I'd resist it" said Lordbug.

"But Kitty won't!" snapped Chat. "She's suffering so much because of this stupid identity whenever she's around her boyfriend that it'ssurprising she wasn't the one akumatized!"

"Is that true? You really were worrying about her and my brother?" asked Ladybug confused.

"For kwamis' sake! Of course! I've been seeing her suffering everyday and then I found out that Lordbug has a similar problem! I didn't even asked to know anybody's identity, just told you to reveal yourselves or in Ladybug's case, to help me convince you all" said Chat frustrated.

"I'm so sorry Chat... I should have known you better than that" said Ladybug crying.

"Oh shush and stop crying. I get it, I'm only annoying you when I flirt with you. I'm probably even lowering your chances of winning the love of your misterious loved one" said Chat bitterly, surprising the bugs. "I understand perfectly why you thought that and I can't blame you for it. I'm fine with it too, I gained that reputation myself" said Chat with a calmer tone.

"It's not fine Chat! Look where it has brought us to be like that! You were akumatized! And it's my fault for not trusting you! I'm done with this whole secret identity thing and I'll end it right now! Tikki, spots off!" said Ladybug snapping and detransforming.

Chat quickly closed his eyes. "I won't look! I don't want to know your identity like this!"

"Chat, I'm sorry fornot fully trusting you before, but I know that my ide tity will be safe with you. I know I can trust you whenever I am in or outside the mask, so please open your eyes" said Ladybug.

"You're our partner Chat, if we could trust anyone, it should be you and Kitty. Please Chat, I beg you, open your eyes" said Lordbug seriously.

"Minou, please, just open your eyes" said Ladybug crying, her tears falling on Chat's hands.

"I'll do it with a condition" said Chat finally.

"Whatever you want Chaton" said Ladybug.

"I want to know who is that guy you and Mari are in love with. I swear I won't do a thing to him, but I want to know that at least" said Chat.

"Okay, it's fair enough" said Ladybug after a bit of hesitation.

"May I ask a question before I open my eyes?" asked Chat.

"If it's something we can answer yes" said Lordbug.

"Why this sudden change? Why reveal you identity so abruptedly now?" asked Chat.

"I'll answer that one" said a high pitched voice.

"I suppose you are her kwami. It's a pleasure" said Chat with diligence.

"Likewise Chat, my name is Tikki and I'm Ladybug's kwami and also one of the reasons she hadn't revealed her identity yet" explained Tikki. "Thought, the one that has made change her mind is her civilian identity. She says she's nothing like Ladybug without the mask and was afraid to disappoint you. Recently you've praised her civilain self and proved that you won't be disappointed. Still, please, don't panic or destroy anything. I'm not sure how you'll react and I'm afraid of what you could do if you react badly".

"I can't promise anything, but I'll do my best" said Chat and he opened his eyes to see Ladybug, but saw Mari instead.

"Hi" said the girl sheepishly.

"That means... Marin, untie me right this moment, I need... I'm not sure of what I need, but I'm definetly not disappointed" said Chat.

"Okay" said Lordbug and untie him.

"Great. Now, if you don't want me to curse you, go to the closet with my sister" hurried Chat.

"I think you need to be tied again" said Lordbug.

"No idiot! Just go with her to the closet and you'll understand!" said Chat.

"I'll guarantee your sister's safety, just do as he says. He seems to have a motive to say so" said Xia.

"Fine, I'll go" said Lordbug mumbling while he went.

"I'm sorry about that M'Lady, er... Princess? Mari? I'm not sure what to call you right now. To be honest, I'm a bit pissed at you to even call you with any nicknames" declared Chat.

"Chat, I'm sorry-" began to say Mari, but Chat hugged her suddenly and she was too shocked to react.

"Don't worry, I'll forgive you always. I couldn't be mad too long at either of your identities before knowing you were the same, now I simply can't be mad at you" said Chat.

"Kitty..." said Mari with tears on her eyes.

"Plagg, claws off" said Chat and detransformed. "It's only fair if we both know eachother identity".

"Chat, I really don't-" said Marinette, but blushed furiously when she saw her partner's identity. "A-Adrien? Are y-you Chat? For real?"

"The one and only m'Lady" said Adrien with a small bow.

"Oh my kwami, I can't believe it's you. ThatmeansthatI'vekissedyouandthatI'vebeenrejectingAdrienAgrestethiswholetimeand-" said Marinete rambling.

"Mari, you're rambling again. Didn't we agree that you'd stop rumbling and stuttering whenever I'm arround?" said Adrien smiling, happy that everything was like usual. "Anyway, who's that misterious boy you like? I'm very curious now".

"I- I... It's-" began Mari but a scream from Adrienne stopped them.

"You're Marin?!" screamed Adrienne.

"Guess the cat is out of the bag" joked Adrien.

"Ugggh, you're definetly Chat" said Marinette rolling her eyes.

"That I am, but I still want to know who is that boy you love so much taht I won'teven get a chance" said Adrien.

"It's you!" said Mari blushing a lot. "Are you happy now? I feel like an idiot" said the girl hiding her face with her hands.

"Me? Like in civilian me? All this time I was the one who didn't let me win your heart?" said Adrien not believing what he had just heard.

"Yes, that's what she said" said Xia.

"I- I- What?" said in his most brilliant moment Adrien.

"I'll let you solve this for yourselves" said Xia smiling as she left.

"Marinette?" said Adrien holding her shoulders.

"Y-Yes Adri-ien?" stuttered Mari.

"Hey, what's with the stutter... Wait. Wait a minute. You've been stuttering all this time because you like me?" said Adrien, finally realizing the obvius.

"I- I-" said Mari blushing like crazy, she hide her face and nodded.

"I'm glad it was y-" tried to say Adrien, but Adrienne snatched him away and hide in the closet.

"Brother, he's Lordbug! Marin is Lordbug!" exclaimed Adrienne.

"I know, what a surprise right? I kind of flipped" said Adrien.

"That means Marinette is Ladybug! Listen, you've got to ask her out!" said Adrienne, shaking Adrien like a mad woman.

"I know sis, she told me she likes me" tried to calm her Adrien. "I was kind of trying to do so when you snatched me".

"Oh, I'm so sorry! Go with her now!" said Adrienne and pushed him outnof the closet.

Adrien stood up and turned around to go with Marinette,but when he arrived again, only Marin was there drinking his cup of tea. Mari's cup was empty and had a few coins on it, which clearly meant that the girl had probably drank her cup in seconds and fled, not forgetting to pay because even when she was hurrying she always paid attention to details.

"She just transformed and left" said Marin, taking a sip of tea.

"Why would she do that?" asked about the obvious Adrien.

"Man, she was afraid of rejection, really embarrassed and still hadn't processed the fact that you are Chat. It'd be weird if she hadn't fled" said Marin.

"I guess that's normal" agreed Adrien.

"On a side note, how's Adrienne?" said Marin taking another sip.

"She's actually more or less like Mari, butadd the bonus of you being her boyfriend" said Adrien. "How can you be so calm? I almost had a mental breakdown before I snapped out of it".

" Yeah, I'm totally not calmed right now. I'm also still processing the fact that the love of my life is my crush and also that you knew it and encouraged us. I'm honestly holding back to avoid hitting that pretty face of yours" explaind Marin, taking another sip. "Thought this tea is helping a lot to chew it down".

" I think I'll also need the tea" said Adrien and sat down withMarin to have their drinks.

#miraculous fanfic #miraculous au #miraculous ladybug #adrien augreste #twins!au #I funking did this one without any specific idea on mind #i love it

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pixelburied · 4 years

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excuse the cropped weirdly pictures; my family/pet's foster parents are great at snapping a sneaky picture of me curled into an unattractively slouched (relaxed) fetal state. which i'm self-conscious about because it's an unattractive position for pictures even tho i am quite pretty (but they are also cropped because im just also private as hell, sorry lmao).

bonus tho: said pet is laying ontop of me, face buried in my shoulder, twitching in her sleep as we speak!

--- but anyway. onto the actual submission:

so yeah. i saw your post! i'm here to address your call for dogs. but i dont have anymore pictures of my dog, Cash. however, i do have stuff about my cat, Allegra.

i dont have any of them together cuz Cash lives at my family's house and Allegra lives in my apartment. and we're p sure he'd try to eat her and she'd scratch the hell out of him, so we don't try to let them meet. but, just like how Cash continued the legacy of us adopting another big slobbery dog with possessive seperation-anxiety, Allegra does fit all the criteria of those same personality traits we are such a beacon for. so i hope youll accept it as comfort nonetheless

here's a story about my cat who acts just like a anxious, cuddly, and slobbery pupper. i even bought her a pet ID tag that's shaped like a bone to honor that joke lmao) Allegra: "the honorary and tiniest mastiff" and named after the allergy medication

i got Allegra just this last year. she was a stray. now, for context: there are lots of outdoor cats in my neighborhood and they all hate strangers (they aren't feral tho, they have collars). but they all avoided my old house though because of Cash. so Allegra, newly abandoned, took advantage of that safety(?) by constantly hiding out around my family's house whenever she felt endangered

before that point tho, where i vaguely realized she existed but had no idea of what her strategy had been: i knew the cats of the neighborhood would run 15 miles away at the sound of people. but i am a small bean of cliches, so i always say "Hi kitty" anyway. even if them running away breaks my heart. and on that day, i was on my way to work for the opening shift, not early per se but i had enough time for starbucks if i wanted (and i did want) and i saw the vague mass of a cat on the lawn. predictably, i went "Hey kitty". but i also kept walking to my car due to said expectation of cats running and not wanting my heart to have that little break

and allegra did run. she just ran at me, full speed. i almost kicked this sudden HURLING THING in my peripherals like a football out of fight/flight + anxiety, except i have the aim of Charlie Brown so i thankfully missed her terribly. she was purring up a storm and crying pathetically. tho she's a Siamese, so they talk (read: complain) a lot anyway so maybe she wasn't crying. i always call her talking "crying" anyway tho cuz of the whiny pitch of it so such is a moot point. the real point was: she was ridiculously friendly

then, one morning, she was especially incorrigible. she wouldn't let me go into the car without her jumping inside too and kept scenting me, my car door, and all my equipment for this art class i was going to use for my presentation. a presentation that was a huge chunk of my grade that i couldn't be late for and Allegra was going to make late for. i had to trick her into thinking i was going to run away from my car, to which she zoomed ahead to cut me off, except i had actually done a fake-out and had really ran into the driver's seat and was already starting to slowly reverse out of the driveway. she had the sense to not go after a moving vehicle, thank god. my family texted me she cried outside our front door for hours later though. my art class that semester met once a week, so it was a 4.5 hour class that started at 7AM. and even tho that day had been a presentation day and we had less than 15 students, we still went over 3 hours. she cried during all of it. i used the "free time" to make sure i bought a cat leash and a cardboard cat carrier. but when i came back, heard no crying

i tried to get one of my neighbors to hold onto her for the afternoon. i couldnt leave her in my old house; i had family members i lived with who were terribly allergic. but i swore, so long as someone held onto her for my shift, i could take her to a shelter after. she was just so friendly and obviously new here, i just needed someone to put her somewhere safe (we lived by the freeway, by a train, by the main alternative to the freeway, and by two dog parks). but nobody really could hold onto her, so i had to hope she'd show up again when i came back from work. she didn't. i left her food out anyway.

i took her to the Humane Society Shelter closest to us because they have a microchip scanner. and she did have a chip! that was completely empty! apparently, that's a thing!! the guy there asked if i was going to keep her then, and i hadn't really thought that far. i had made the mistake of naming her and thinking she was cute, and she had done the legwork of being a cuddly motherfucker who purred constantly whenever i was around

she'd only ever appear in the early morning, when i was on my way to my shift or a midterm. about a week or two passed like this with me having no idea where she was for the rest of the day. turns out, according to said allergic family members, Allegra actually never left the house. she would hide on our roof or on our back porch's clutter or in our droopy lawn plants (like our sweetgrass) to hide from the outdoor cats or other dangers (she's a smart cat who hates the sound of cars and would hide whenever any one was particularly loud)

i'm pretty sure she's plenty well-cared for tho. in fact, i'm almost positive she's a very spoiled cat. for example, i have backups of everything x2. i have one of everything in my living area and a copy in my bedroom, should i need to close her in there when allergic family members are over (i also carry all the big allergy medication brands as a back-up in case i get a visitor who forgot to take their medication, which includes me being stocked with allegra the medication lmao) and then i also have a back-up of all her stuff in my closet should anything break. i always make sure all my windows are open when i leave for class/shifts so she can have "Cat TV" since birds do fly around the area. she has a ton of toys (she has a toy box actually) and i bought her multiple hideaways (like her shark pictured here; she also has a cactus that's pretty cute). also, ontop of having a good breakway collar, her microchip now reads my information. but yeah, im still working on the money to get her one more of everything for the house we visit for the holidays so i don't have to carry everything. i do a lot of research still-- on both cats and Siamese-- to make sure i am doing everything to make her happy, since her world is just me and our apartment now

i called out for her-- i had long since started calling her Allegra as a joke, because its a name of a popular allergy medication and so much of my family was allergic-- and shrugged sadly when she didn't come out. i had just put my stuff down to get my key out when i heard a familar crybaby. turns out, she had been sleeping in our sweetgrass and i had woken her up. she ran over and i called my family to take my things inside while i used the rest of my day to get her to a shelter. i put on a cat harness+leash before trying to out her in the cardboard box. don't buy cardboard boxes from Pet Co. they're shit. she broke out of it Alien style before i had even fully reversed out of the driveway. i had to improvise her leash into a seatbelt instead

but yeah. i say my favorite gremlin is dog-like because:

she has an overbite, so she looks like she's got her lip jutted out in a pout all the time. what's dog-like about it is this makes her slobber whenever she's excited or content (and i've grown up with mastiffs, who slobber so much you need 2 rags per room dedicated to their slobber)

hesitatingly, i called my only family member that was semi-local to see if he would be okay with fostering her until i was going to move (which was less than 6 months away) because, otherwise, i wasn't going to be able to keep her. and she was definitely going to be adopted immediately. he and his wife said of course, without hesitation. they were both huge cat lovers and they were, emotionally, my closest family members; so i had kept them in the loop about my cat quest. and they had already discussed potentially fostering Allegra, knowing my request was a possibility (read: probability). he drove over from his workplace to pick her up, with his own carrier, and drove the roughly 2 hours from our house back to his

she meows when people are at the door and greets them by begging for pets

she loves shoes. she steals my tennis shoes because she loves the laces and she will try to swat at them when im tying them. her claw getting stuck and forcing me to not continue has worked to make me late multiple times. but she also will lay down around my friends' feet and rub her face against their shoes, flipflops, and toes. one of my friends likes to joke that allegra has a foot fetish. she also can and will put her face into my tennis shoes and try to sleep like that. that's my bastard baby

i visited their house about once a week. except during finals, where i didn't visit for two or three weeks since i didnt have any exams so much as i had projects. (allegra was PISSED at me when i came back, my cuddly kitty refused to come near me and would run away when forcibly placed on my lap. she even swiped at me. by the next visit, she was grumpy but happier. by the one after that, everything was back to normal) i really liked visiting those family members too; it made us even closer. though it still annoys the male how much research i do about cat-care (as opposed to just accepting everything everyone tells me as gospel). i researched even down to "how to best pet a cat". i did this since, due to said allergic family members, i had never owned a cat and therefore didnt osmosisly process how to best care for one. i've also never been fully fauthful of people's advice that's based on "This is how we've/the media always done it". my history with mastiffs showed that not all breeds are the same and that you do have experts to utilize within your phone, and they are experts over peers for a reason. so i looked up dumbass questions like "how to best pet a cat" since i'm not an expert and Jackson Galaxy and friends are right there in my phone

she wants to play constantly. she loves tug of war the most, but anything involving chase has her going at full-speed

ive spoken to fellow cat-owners and mastiff-owners about this, and i thought this was interesting: when she isn't playing, she's sleeping. which is what mastiffs and cats do. and when i get up, she follows me. which is what our mastiffs do. and while i do stuff, she sits and waits by the doorway or else walks around my feet until i tell her to sit out of the way. which is what our mastiffs do. and then i go to sit down again, and she lays down as close as she can and goes back to sleep, which is what our mastiffs do. apparently, none of my friends cats do this; their cats just, at best, wake up to watch them leave and then their cats go back to sleep in the same place regardless of if they come back

Allegra likes to sleep at the foot of my bed for bedtime, at least for a majority of it

but, regardless if my worries, allegra seems happy! she cuddles with her claws out all the time (not sticking into my skin, just out) which is a sign of contentment. she'll also use her claws to keep me in place, like a fucking seatbelt (example pictured in post); it's where her claws will dig into the furniture and i cannot get up because of her, the possessive piece of shit. but she also gives me tons of Slow Blinks of I Love You. and she always runs to greet me at the door. and it's really funny how, anytime there's guests over, she tries to make it obvious that she's my favorite over (usually through politely tapping my leg with her paw to ask and recieve pets, and then giving everyone a very Cat Surrounded By Knives grin cuz i havent petted any of THEEEMMM lmao) she's hilarious

she doesn't like to be carried unless it means she's going with me somewhere outside the house. then she's as well-behaved as a chihuahua in a purse

she licks my hands all the time. and she licks my face to wake me up (at 4AM, Allegra, go aWAY)

she loves smelly clothes. the shoe part should tell you that much tho. for our mastiffs, we would leave them a smelly piece of clothing between washes to comfort via smell. Allegra, in a similar vein, was not impressed when i bought a laundry basket with a lid (almost carrying her to the communal laundry room once was enough, thank you!)

in the same vein as the clothes: she also loves blankets too. the more Me Smelling the blanket, the better (aka she doesn't like brand new blankets until its been like. month two or three of use). this is largely because i love blankets. but she kneads them, purring, even if im not using them. and when i am, she takes my using them as an invitation for cuddles

she sits whenever i tell her "NO" like 'who me? i was not doing a bad. i am but small creature'

she asks for a daily walk. she doesn't like the idea of being an outdoor cat. she just wants walks. like, she has lived several months not going outside and has been super happy. she made it clear on her adoption day that she was done with outside. she was perfectly content with being an indoor cat! still is, in a way! i ruined it. for myself. me. i was worried she wasn't being stimulated enough, so i experimented taking her on a walk and now i have created a monster. now she sits by the door and cries until i get out her harness and leash. which she hates her harness in a "no ball, only throw" kinda way. but she has also proven hates going outside alone since she is now ALSO scared of everything (remember those outdoor cats Allegra The Stray would hide from? how they would run away from strangers?? yeah. now that she has a Person, Allegra's turned into one of Them now). yeah.. she runs the fuck away (or as far as she can with a leash) from people she sees on her walks now. and it is pretty obvious she hates cars and dogs too, because when i have walked her outside of our new complex she is too petrified to move. like, she freezes even when just being close to a street. she likes our complex's janky carpeted hallways between the apartments, and she likes the ability to hide behind my legs. being an outdoor cat is something Allegra has decided she is not a fan of. if i try to change things up scenery-wise, she always asks to go home as soon as possible and runs into the apartment if our walks turn too much into what her life was before being adopted (aka. streets/cars, lawns, people walking). she wants walks. she LOVES and BEGS for walks. but not be outside. walks. even though she still hates her harness lmao

and that's Allegra! she's aproximately 2 years old, i've had her for less than a year, and she's assumedly a purebred Siamese cat. and she's also my ESA, or Emotional Support Animal. if applicable, a cuddly and loving pet is helpful for keeping mental health more stable. in my experience of getting one, it was fairly easy to get it permitted; especially a cat because they're super easy to get registered as compared to a dog. i am lucky enough to have regular physician as my doctor that empathizes with mental health and knows it not to be her area of expertise so much as the patient+their therapist (but also i have a history of attempted treatment on my medical record since i was 16), so my getting registered was literally just me asking for a doctor's note and her giving it to me near immediately. i can't take Allegra with me to classes or resteraunts or anything, nor do i even want to, but it forces apartments/hotels to HAVE to let me board with my ESA and to do so without an additional fee. however, i don't know if that's how ESAs work internationally or even in all of the states of America, the country where i live. but it definitely helps to have someone who needs me to get up everyday, who can never trigger me, who makes me laugh with their hijinks, and who cuddles with me regardless of if i have had a good day or bad day. Allegra is especially good at her job by being especially attentive whenever i am anxious. even if it's just me getting a little bit anxious because i'm late in turning an assignment in but have logically decided it doesn't matter because the assignment is only 2 points anyway, just turn it in late and don't focus on it; and she starts patting my leg almost continuously asking for pets inbetween rubbing herself on my legs. it's why i let her get away with never paying rent. i'm really glad she chose me. we both got really lucky with that decision ♡

i don't want to assume your situation, so i won't recommend an ESA for you so much as just remind you that they exist. i hope this all helps you feel supported and encouraged to continue to find the small wonders ♡♡♡

#I REALLY DO LOVE THIS #AND ALLEGRA #10/10 would die for her #Thank you for taking the time to send this in!#I really really am happy #i had like a real bad mental health day/week/year idk #so this makes me so grateful!#long post #not choices #shwarmi #cats #kitty #submission

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