#but like damn. my brain u r a ppl killer

[oshaviolater]

i feel like i need to set boundaries. for my own sake.

#ive been dealing with some reaaallyyyy cruel thoughts towards this specific person im close to lately ;-; #i mean obviously ive tried my best not to translate those thoughts into action so its mostly fine so far #we are also miles apart rn so i cant do physical harm to our relationship by any action yet #but like damn. my brain u r a ppl killer #its just that some1 im close to is like. idk i always feel like they steal people from me. #it's extremely annoying nd kinda hurts bc like i like to keep people at bay. too close makes me itchy #but then my friend comes and completely pushes themselves into my relationship nd sort of....steals that person to themselves #and its so annoying. nd makes me have such cruel thoughts against them like um ew #nd then there are some specific people ive pushed away and those people are. so close to them rn #just bc whomever i push away they keep contact with them #and its just. sort of. really. weird. and annoying. #and the weirdest of it all probably is the fact that i kinda disclosed to my friend that im infatuated with this one person. but like #very mild infatuation and its like normal we never broached the subject again #and its just. so weird bc like #not to sound like a creep but i......went thu their convos on insta (which um. i asked for the credentials okay #i had consent whatever they dont mind if they did they wouldnt give me the credentials. i asked them in the moment ok) #but yeah anyway my friend is just. using words like. literally like. jaani. baby. heart symbols blah blah #and omg. its sort of cringe i dont rly mind bc its funny they kinda have the habit of affectionately saying that stuff so its fine but like #it's also sort of weird bc i did admit mild infatuation to my friend #also the fact that my friend mentioned how some of my friends cares for me differently (im guessing my friend meant 'care more' idk) #but like. it's sus. bc its the first time my friend ventured this time into my relationship with other people #enough to comment on the nature of depth of care? nd like. idk it makes me feel really weird #my friend is an extremely people person #i dont care abt people enough to venture words their relationship with their friends so i just chill back nd relax #but they have this. extreme need to venture into every relationship ive with people i know #and it just. gets on my nerves so bad now #ik blah blah blah that im pretty sure its all my insecurities bc this is the first time im dealing with the concept of friends #blah blah blah #but like nonetheless i dislike this feeling i wanna revert back to when i did not have people in my life #that was like. the most free moment ever. nd nowww all this shit is just ehhh ugh annoying.

[ventuss]

my thoughts, questions, and rants on kh 2.8

includes spoilers under cut. youve been warned!

•to start off, EVERYTHING IS FUCKING GORGEOUS. the scenery and backgrounds for literally every place were beautiful and i could not focus on doing anything. i just wanted to sit and stare at the beauty bc WOOOW

•aqua. AQUA. first things first: the queen looked fucking beautiful. a true goddess with killer thighs. her eyes were the light in the darkness. i might be in love

•ok to continue on Aqua: i feel like ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY NOTHING WAS ANSWERED. yes, we saw how mickey and her got split up and it explained why they couldnt save her. great. then the door to kingdom hearts was closed and sora and co saved the worlds, causing ?? the realm of darkness to disappear?? or something idek aqua fell into pure black and then was on that shoreline

•SPEAKING OF THAT SHORELINE that guy in the hoodie. i feel like its luxu or the master of masters(tbh cant rm if that dude talked or if he was confirmed someone else but ya)

•MASTER OF MASTERS. not gonna lie i love the dude. i mean hes totally evil but he made me laugh so much what the fuck nice

•kinda gross(AND FUCKING MINDBLOWING) that his eye is in that keyblade. it makes SO MUCH FUCKINF SENSE THO LIKE!! ALL OF THE XEHANORT COPIES AND HOW XEHANORT WAS ABLE TO ALIGN HIS COPIES TO MEET IN DDD LIKE FUCK IM STILL SHOOK

•i wonder if the masters of masters(mom) is actually a pirate(or i had this farfetched theory of it being braig bc he loses an eye and it would be this intense thing where he meant to get his eye hurt to have it removed and it was all staged and yah idk it was a crazy thought i had)

•luxu where r u going. what r u doing. wtf is in that case and thx for watching literally everyone die and for watching the wayfinder trio be destroyed thx thx

•i love all the foretellers so much like. they all just wanna follow their hearts and god damn i hope they get a somewhat happy ending :(

•ok so id truly like to believe aced isnt the traitor and idk i still think gula can be the traitor bc he could totally get fed up with finding the traitor that darkness taints his heart and wo plot twist its him

•ngl when i saw him with the page i went “oh hey i bet thats the lost page.” ……… “HOLY SHIT GULA NO!!”

•ava is super cute im glad shes my leader

•EPHEMERA THO ooooOooOoMG GOD. HE IS SUCH A CUTIE I CRY

•also the keyblade war was totally caused bc of the bangles. whichever chirithy gave the keyblade wielders the bangles knew they could collect and potentially use darkness and idk its like… THE BANGLES. THEY ARE THE REASON EVERYONE DIES. AAAAAAAAH(my brain is too mush rn to actually explain my thought process sry)

•ANOTHER THING THAT BLEW MY MIND!!!!: THE REASON THE DOOR GLOWED IN THE SECRET PLACE IN KH1 WAS BECAUSE OF THE DAMN DARK KEY I LITERALLY SCREAMED WHEN THAT HAPPENED. I BET U ANY MONEY THAT OLD CRUSTY DUDE IN THE BROWN ROBES WAS THE MOM OR SOMETHING

•THAT BEING SAID SQUEENIX HAS HAD THAT IDEA OF THE KEYBLADE BEING BEHIND THE DOOR SINCE THE BEGINNING. TRULY LOVE AND RESPECT THESE PPL

•riku wanting to save aqua tho haha end me

•kairi

•IM SO READY FOR KH3 LETS GO

#i would keep going but my brain died #kingdom hearts #kh 2.8 #kh 2.8 spoilers #kh spoilers #sydni speaks