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Broken Melody - Part Thirty Two
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Summary: Grammy Award winning Emma Danvers is the first to say she has a pretty good life. But what happens when it implodes around her and it looks like things will never be the same again?
Words: 8.6k+ (opps)
Warnings: Fluff, Angst, PTSD moments
Pairings: Emma Danvers x Lena Luthor, Alex Danvers x Sam Arias
This Part: Two weeks before the surgery, the Danvers sisters find out something about their Mom and the Superfriends go bowling!
Surprise! Two days later! What is going on? I had a lot of fun writing this. Sorry it got so long!
Thank you for reading and let me know if you wanna be tagged or any general feedback will be greatly appreciated. Please! I like knowing your thoughts.
Taglist: @finleyfray, @life-is-hella-unfair, @natasha-danvers, @supergirl-writingz, @camslightstories, @thinking1bee, @aznblossom
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2 Weeks Before The Surgery
Emma slowly wakes up and stretches her whole body while voicelessly yawning. Generally her sleep hasn’t been as disturbed as before, but Emma is still finding she doesn’t feel as refreshed as she should when she wakes up.
Her hand reaches out for Lena, but finds the space next to her empty and cold. She blinks her eyes open and silently sighs when there is no sign of her girlfriend.
Lena had warned that she may have to work on Saturday due to the volume of business piling up. But she'd already said she needed to recharge.
Still.
Even though Sam and Lena have been hiring more staff to work the caseloads and Lena has been supervising the team leaders in the labs. The workload just seems never ending for L-Corp at the moment.
Causing Emma to barely see her girlfriend this week leaving Lena to usually stumble tiredly into the apartment after Emma has gone to bed. She’d sleepily brush her teeth, flop into bed, sometimes fully clothed and make Emma jump awake by the bounce of the bed. If Lena was still clothed in her tight business clothes, Emma would carefully change Lena into her pyjamas so she could sleep more comfortably. Emma would then kiss her on the forehead due to the raven haired beauty already being asleep.
Then Lena would wake up before her alarm, leaving Emma to sleep in as Lena quietly sneaks out of the apartment to head to L-Corp before sunrise. There wasn’t even much time for them to have lunch together but Emma would savour the moments she could have with Lena.
However, last night when Lena stumbled through the bedroom door, Emma had still been awake and once Lena crawled into bed and into Emma’s arms, she had groaned that she would take Saturday off to recharge.
‘Guess not.’ Emma thinks sadly while rolling out of bed to use the bathroom. She wobbles slightly as the room spins but Emma was getting used to the sensation.
Afterwards she grabs her phone and sees a message from her Mom
Eliza: Morning Sweetheart! Was wondering if you and Lena wanted to grab breakfast/brunch/lunch with me? Depending on what time you wake up of course!
Emma’s heart warms at how her Mom always wants to include Lena in their outings, which evidently, has started to dwindle. Emma glances at the time on her phone and sees it’s just gone 10:30am.
Emma: Yes please! Although it will be just me cause Lena has to work. 🥺
Where would you like to go? Do you want me to pick you up?
Due to everything happening Eliza had decided to rent an apartment that was close to the DEO and in a location that was in the middle of her daughter’s apartments. Emma was still impressed that her Mom managed to achieve all this in such a short time. But once her Mom’s mind was set on something, she went for it and no one would dare tell her to go back to Midvale.
Eliza: That’s a shame. How about that beach cafe you rave about so much?
Emma snorts at her Mom’s text.
Emma: Mom, I rave about a lot of beach cafés…
Eliza: Is that sarcasm I detect?
Emma: Noooo
Eliza: Anyway, you choose sweetheart, I am ready when you are. Just let me know when you are leaving.
Emma: Great! Give me 15 mins!
Emma quickly places her phone on the bed and races to the walk-in wardrobe, having had her shower the night before she waited for Lena to come home.
Suddenly the room spins and warps around her. Emma closes her eyes, waiting for the moment to pass. Thankfully it does and she continues her task. Choosing blue skinny jeans, a white t-shirt with gold stars on and a black hoodie. She stuffs her feet into black converses and grabs her phone, texting her Mom and places it into her messenger bag.
Emma: Just leaving now.
But as Emma heads for the door she notices a piece of paper on the island. Intrigued, she zips over, banging her knee into the corner of the unit. Unknowingly cracking the hard unit slightly.
‘Mother fucker!’ Emma’s mind screams as she rubs her knee before focusing on Lena’s handwriting.
‘Good Morning my love,
I’m sorry for leaving you like this but I have to go into work. I will hopefully be able to come to the bowling alley. If not, please apologise to Nia and give her a hug from me.
All my love, Lena x’
Emma lets out a voiceless sigh, she knew Lena was not in the apartment, but seeing the proof frustrates her. Disappointment in her girlfriend starts to creep in, she hopes Lena can make it to the bowling alley, not for her, but for Nia. Who has been bouncing around like a puppy with how much she was looking forward to spending time with the Superfriends to celebrate her birthday.
Due to Lena’s connections they’ve managed to hire a VIP private room with a few lanes, meaning once they are through the doors they don't need to have any face modifiers activated.
Because of Lena’s note, Emma grabs Nia’s birthday gifts and card, just in case Emma doesn’t return to the apartment before the party.
Her phone bleeps and Emma quickly takes it out as she exits the apartment.
Eliza: Okay Sweetheart! Drive safe!
Emma rolls her eyes at her Mom’s message and resists sending a sarcastic comment back. Instead she smiles down at her phone while she enters the elevator and activates her face modifier. She chooses a face with a beauty mark like Marilyn Monroe and she can’t help but pull a sexy pout while studying the new face in the mirror of the elevator.
Soon the doors open into the garage level and Emma approaches the L-Car, while mournfully staring at her bug. She gets into the car Lena designed for her and drives to her Mom’s apartment.
Eventually she pulls up outside Eliza’s building and finds her Mom is already waiting outside, with J’onn by her side. They haven’t noticed her arrival as they continue talking. Emma watches them with interest, noticing the smiles on their faces and how close they are standing while facing each other. Her eyes lower and widen at the realisation that they are holding hands.
Emma gets out her phone and records a short video of the pair interacting, zooming in on their joined hands before turning the camera on herself and raising an eyebrow. Immediately she sends the video to her sister’s group chat and another to Lena.
Emma: Morning love! Hope work is going okay? So… Picking up Mom for brunch and I’ve come across this… I don’t know how to feel… I want to squeal in happiness and simultaneously wretch! Oh Rao… We’re gonna have to give him the shovel talk aren’t we? 😬
Suddenly there is a knock on the passenger window, making Emma jump in her seat. Looking over she realises her Mom is standing by the door, waiting to be let in and Emma unlocks the door.
“Morning Sweetheart.” Eliza says while  sliding into the car and gives her youngest daughter a tight hug.
When they part, Emma looks around for J’onn.
“Oh he’s already left, doesn't want the shovel talk just yet.” Eliza jokes as she puts on her seat belt, Emma tilts her head, wondering how he would know that. “He heard your thoughts as you were messaging your sisters and Lena.”
Emma snorts and shakes her head, of course J’onn would have heard her. She  drives the car away from the pavement and back into the traffic. The pair stay in comfortable silence as they listen to the radio with Emma tapping along to the beat. Eliza has been learning some sign language but knows Emma won’t be able to communicate while driving the car.
About half an hour later they pull into a car park by a very long beach and Emma grabs her phone to communicate with her Mom. She sees multiple messages from her sisters but decides she will look at them later. Instead opening the notes app and writing a message out for her Mom.
‘Do you mind walking 20 minutes to the café? I can see if there are more spaces near it, but they are generally full.’
Emma shows her typed out words to her Mom.
“Of course sweetheart! I know I’m old, but I’m not that old!”
Emma shakes her head in amusement. Not liking the thoughts of how her Mom is growing older, that her blonde hair is getting lighter and more lines are appearing on her face.
As Eliza goes to pull the handle on the door Emma stops her, causing Eliza to look back at her daughter.
“Sweetheart?”
Emma circles her face, indicating she needs to engage her face modifier.
“Oh! Of course!” Eliza quickly taps her temple and her face morphs into another.
Emma silently sighs as they both get out of the car, hoping the face modifiers can be made obsolete soon. When Emma closes the door she stumbles slightly as the world spins but she manages to catch herself on the car. She looks over at her Mom, but luckily it seems like she doesn’t notice.
“So! Which way do we go?” Eliza asks as she links her arm with Emma. Her daughter points down to the path leading down to the beach and the pair walk in sync along the coast.
Both breathe in the salty sea air and enjoy watching the waves as they gently crash against the shore.
“I’ll never get over how beautiful the sea is.” Eliza comments and Emma nods in agreement. The colours were especially beautiful today, more turquoise than blue.
“Do you remember the amount of times you’d drag us down to the beach? How you wanted to go, even when it was raining?” Eliza smiles brightly at her daughter and Emma nods. Remembering the amount of pictures showing Alex and Jeremiah sat together while Emma enjoyed being in the sea. “And then once you found out about surfing, that was it! Your Dad and Alex put their foot down when you wanted to go all the time.”
Unable to respond Emma just smiles at the memories and the utter thrill she felt when she managed to catch her first wave. How her parents cheered and Alex tried to look unimpressed, but her eyes gave her away that she indeed was impressed and proud of her sister.
Eliza continues reminiscing as they walk towards the beach hut café Lena and Emma had gone to a few weeks ago.
“Oh this looks wonderful!” Eliza says as she steps through the door and follows Emma to a free table by the window. Eliza sits and takes in the beach decor of the cafe. The white walls and ceiling with the wooded furniture and beach elements in the decoration.
Emma grabs her phone and types out a message for her. ‘Yea Lena and I love it here.’
“I can see why.”
Their waitress comes over and greets them, handing them menus for them to look over.
“What drinks can I get ya?” The waitress pulls a pencil from behind her ear.
“Oh a pot of tea for me and-” Eliza looks over at Emma who points at an apple juice and a bottle of water.
“Great! I’ll get those for you and leave you to decide on y’all food.”
“Thank you.” Eliza watches the waitress go before turning back to her masked daughter. Who sits looking out of the window and even though her daughter’s face is hidden, Eliza can see something isn’t right “So, how are you sweetheart?”
Emma picks up her phone and starts typing.
‘I’m okay, nervous about the surgery but also excited. I miss talking to you.’
“And I miss hearing your voice.” Eliza reaches out and takes Emma’s hand. “But whatever happens I’ll be here to take care of you. Even if we need to go home and get some of that mountain air into you.”
Emma smiles at the thought of going back to Midvale. She goes to type her reponse when a message from Alex pops up.
Alex: Emma answer me!
Alarmed Emma opens their group chat and starts from the beginning of the thread where Emma sent the video.
Kara: Wait what?!
Alex: When did this happen?!
Emma snorts as she reads through the continuous back and forth between her two sisters as they try to piece together their Mom’s relationship with J’onn and how they felt about it. Ranging from many different emotions, Kara seemingly being more accepting, while Alex pleads Emma for more information and her location.
“Kara and Alex?” Eliza chuckles as she watches Emma’s expressions as she reads. Emma nods and grins back at her in confirmation.
Emma: Sorry I’m with Mom atm and didn’t see your hundreds of messages.
Kara: Where?
Emma: In a café ☕️
Alex: Which cafe?
Emma: Not telling 😜
Emma places her phone back on the table as the waitress comes over with the drinks. The pair order their food and Eliza can’t help but notice how Emma’s phone keeps lighting up.
“What’s that about?”
Emma hesitates but clicks on the video she recorded of her Mom and J’onn.
“Emma!” Eliza’s eyes widen as she watches. “Did you send that to your sisters?”
Emma nods guilty.
“Oh well.” Eliza takes a sip of her tea. “I did think you all already knew something, Sam and Lena seemed to have cotton on.”
Emma tilts her head and tries to remember any conversations she had with Lena about this topic. But she comes up empty.
“Oh what a surprise!” Eliza places her cup down and smiles over at the door.
Emma twists in her seat to see Alex rushing through the doorway with her phone in hand and Kara standing right behind her.
“Look! All I’m saying is that tracking Emma’s phone feels like an invasion of privacy.” Kara whispers as they move further into the cafe.
“She’s with Mom, it’s fine.” Alex snaps back and notices the table with two blondes. One beaming at her and the other looking confused. The redhead quickly marches over and sits next to, who she presumes, is Emma. Kara drops into the chair next to Eliza and straightens her glasses.
“What a nice surprise! I thought you said you were busy this morning?”
“Plans change.” Alex quips back.
“They sure do, are you joining us for brunch?”
“Do you want us to?” Kara looks directly at Emma, knowing they are taking her time away with Eliza. Emma nods and shrugs, signaling she was okay with it. “Okay, I’ll get some menus and drinks.”
“Make mine a scotch.” Alex calls after her and turns back to her Mom. “So, how long has it been going on?”
“Alex.” Eliza tiredly sighs. “We are just enjoying each other's company and supporting one another through this time.”
“But why him?” Alex asks in frustration.
“Why not him? We’ve been through so much together and I know he views you as his daughters.”
“Makes sense.” Kara places two mugs of coffee on the table and the menus. “The waitress will be over in a second and will bring our food out together.”
The table falls silent as Alex and Kara look over the menu while Emma’s eyes glance between her family, surprised by Alex’s simmering hostility.
The waitress comes back over and the sisters order. The waitress turns to go but pauses and turns back around. “I don't mean to be rude but aren't you Emma Danvers’ sisters?”
“Erm-” Kara’s eyes go wide when they realise their mistake of not activating the face modifiers.
“Don’t worry, we won’t say anything! It’s a pleasure! Also, when you see Emma, please tell her we miss her and look forward to serving her again.” The waitress beams at them before heading to the kitchen to process their order.
Touched by her comment Emma’s eyes begin to fill with tears and she looks out of the window at the sea to hide them from her family. But she misses the knowing expressions on their faces.
“So.” Alex clears her throat and focuses on her Mom. “Is it serious?”
“I would like it to be.” Eliza says honestly, making Emma wipe her face and turn back to look at her.
“But what about Dad?” The redhead says quietly, almost sounding vulnerable, as she crosses her arms over her chest.
“Alex, in some ways, I will always love your father, despite everything that happened. But he’s gone and we had spoken that if anything ever happened to either one of us we would want the other to move on. For a very long time I didn’t feel at all able to, but I’ve finally got to the stage where I finally feel like I can.”
Emma sucks in her bottom lip and reaches out for her Mom’s hand. She nods and gives her Mom an encouraging smile, giving her blessing on the matter.
“Thank you sweetheart.” Eliza places her other hand over her daughter’s.
“When did it start?” Kara asks, blinking at her family as if trying to make sense of it.
“For me, I’ve always-” Eliza pauses, trying to find the right words for her daughters. She feels Emma gently squeezing her hand in reassurance. Eliza takes a deep breath and continues. “I’ve always liked him, in either form.” A small, sweet smile plays across her lips, Emma mirrors it as she watches her Mom closely.
“But when did it start?” Alex asks sternly, causing both Kara and Emma to give her a hard look.
“Girls, it's fine.” Eliza lets go of Emma’s hand and motions for Alex to give her her hand. But Alex keeps her arms crossed. Eliza sighs before continuing. “The truth is, our relationship developed while you all were still in the DEO. I mean, everyone had been so kind and welcoming, Nia especially made sure I always had a drink or she’d give me these little cakes from the bakery I like. Brainy, bless him, seemed at times unable to process what he was feeling. At one point I came into the lab and he was just so-” Eliza lifts her hands and motions them forward to emphasise the words. “Angry. I held him as he wept for the three of you. In some ways I fell into the Mom role for all of them. Sam likes to think she was the Mom too, but there were times I had to remind her to take care of herself.”
“And then there was J’onn. He saw the pain I was in and was the one who held me, told me that everything was going to be alright and we’d get through it together.” Eliza’s eyes mist over with tears. “For the first time, in a long time, I felt safe as he held me in his arms and the feelings we have for each other grew. We understood each other, our pain at our daughters' situations and the love between us grew.”
“Why didn’t you say anything?” Kara asks curiously.
“It wasn’t really the right time.” Eliza’s mind shoots back to when Kara and Alex had been imprisoned in their cells. The hatred burning in their glowing red eyes and the agony within Emma’s bloodshot ones.
“Or after that?” Alex asks, trying to process what she is feeling.
“Maybe, selfishly, I wanted to have this to myself for a while. Because I knew you’d react this way.”
Alex’s nostrils flare and she leans forward. “Well maybe if you had been honest in the first place-”
Emma’s hand on her arm cuts her off and she turns to angrily glare at her.
“No, Em! Mom should have told us.”
“You’re right.” Eliza’s words make her daughters’ heads snap to her. “I should have told you, but I didn’t. However, now you know.”
“Please Alex, Mom deserves to be happy.” Emma pleads.
“I agree.” Kara softly says and places her hand on Eliza’s shoulder.
Before Alex can say anything the waitress comes over with their food. They start eating with the tension simmering between them.
“I’m sorry.” Alex murmurs quietly, her head down as she cuts her food.
“I know.” Eliza reaches across the table and takes Alex’s hand “And I am too. I know how much you still love your Dad and that will never change.”
Emma places her hand on Alex’s arm, completely understanding what her sister was feeling but also wanting her Mom to be happy.
“Soo, talking of love.” Kara begins, trying to steer the subject away from Eliza but soon loses her nerves as three pairs of eyes focus on her. “Erm-”
“Someone caught your eye?” Emma signs and raises an eyebrow at her sister.
“Maybe.” Kara giggles shyly.
“Who?” Alex widens her eyes slightly. “That new guy working with James?”
“What new guy working with James?!” Emma signs to both of her sisters and looks at her Mom in disbelief.
“His name is Benvolio Rossi, Ben for short, he was named after his Grandpa who migrated over from Italy and Ben moved here a few months from New York. I saw him around the office but didn’t talk to him until recently. Well, Nia kind of pushed me over to him and we ended up chatting, flirting and getting coffee.” A shy, beaming smile grows on Kara’s face.
“Picture?!” Emma signs excitedly and claps her hands.
“Okay!” Kara pulls out her phone and goes onto Ben’s facebook profile. “Here he is.” She turns the phone around.
“Eh.” Alex shrugs half heartedly and shoves in a mouthful of food.
“Alex!” Kara yells at her sister.
“What I’m a lesbian! Man things don’t do it for me.”
Emma snorts and motions Kara for her phone, so she can look at the picture properly. She tilts her head as she studies his face, feeling a sense of familiarity as she looks at him.
His olive skin glowed in the sun and his face was chiseled and handsome with shiny black hair, groomed stubble and warm brown eyes.
“Em?” Kara asks, intrigued by the curious expression on her sister's face. Emma hands the phone to Eliza who also wants to look.
“Oh he’s handsome.” Eliza exclaims. “Wow!”
“Yea.” Kara says with a goofy smile. “But-” Kara turns back to Emma. “Why were you looking at the picture like that?”
“I feel like I’ve met him before. Was he press at the gigs?”
“Well he does everything but, yea, I imagine he would have been at some of your gigs.”
“Cool! What’s he like?”
The conversations soon flow onto Kara’s new crush as the Danvers eat their meal.
-- -- --
Time passes and the family realise they need to be leaving soon to get to Nia’s bowling birthday party.
“Shall we go together?” Emma signs as they exit the cafe.
“Sure.” Alex says and holds out her hand for the keys. “But I’m driving.”
Emma looks at her scandalised and backs away from her eldest sister. “Excuse me?! I’m a better driver than you!”
Alex stalks her as Kara and Eliza link arms, trailing behind them and chatting amongst themselves.
“Don’t be so ridiculous! I’ve been trained-”
“Whoop de doo!” Emma holds her hands up.
“I can’t believe you actually just signed that!”
Emma shrugs. “Are you forgetting that I had two minors on my driving test and you had fourteen?! I still wonder how you managed to convince that poor man of passing you.” Emma signs cheekily and quickly lifts her top slightly with a raised eyebrow and sticks her tongue out to the side.
“Oh now you’ve done it!” Alex yells and Emma immediately turns around and runs after seeing the spark in her sister’s eyes.
“Run Emma!” Kara yells as Alex chases after her, both laughing as Emma dodges her attempts at catching her.
“Those two.” Eliza chuckles and shakes her head as she watches her daughters jump down onto the beach, sand flying everywhere from their chase.
Eliza turns her head to look at Kara, who watches her blonde and redheaded sisters with a big grin and laughs along with them.
“So, Ben, does he know anything?”
“No.” Kara says quickly. “I mean, there was one incident.”
“Kara!”
“Okay, maybe four.” Kara admits and quickly continues talking. “But they were completely out of my control and I don’t think he knows anything.”
“Does Alex know about these ‘incidences’?”
“No…”
They both look over and watch as finally Alex manages to grab a hold of Emma while the blonde slips on a sand mound and Alex jumps on her back, wrapping her arms around Emma’s shoulders.
“Onward valet steed!” Alex yells and points at the path.
Emma blows out a breath of amusement and trots back up to Kara and her Mom, glad that she could take Alex’s weight.
“How far away is the car?” Alex asks her Mom with a grin.
“Well after you're messing about, probably ten minutes.”
“Ah kay. Peanut let me down.”
Emma answers by shaking her head as she starts walking and tightening her grip on Alex’s thighs.
“Em-ma!” Alex laughs as Emma picks up her speed and runs further down the path.
-- -- --
Soon the Danvers are pulling into the carpark outside of the massive bowling alley and Emma can’t help but feel excitement as she gets out of the L-Car.
She quickly double checks everyone has their face modifiers activated, which Emma can’t wait to deactivate when they enter their private room.
“Ready?” Eliza says, smiling at her daughters.
“Yup!” Kara bounces on her toes and grins happily.
When they approach the doors Emma winces at the overwhelming sound of the bowling balls slamming the pins.
‘Why’s it so loud?’ Emma thinks but tries to hide her discomfort from her family. The blonde zeros in on Kara who also looks slightly pained. Emma then focuses on Kara’s glasses and realises the damper isn’t turned on. Reaching over she presses the hidden button to turn them on and Kara visibly deflates in relief.
“Thanks Em.” Kara breathes out.
“You’re welcome.” Emma signs and wishes there was a similar device for humans as she can’t help but flinch when they enter the building.
“Hello ladies!” A man greets them at the desk.
“Hi! We’re here for Princess Leia’s birthday party.” Alex informs the clerk with the hidden codename, who nods and waves over one of his colleagues.
“My colleague here will escort you to your room. Have a great time!”
“Thanks!” Kara squeals happily and follows the clerk up towards some stairs that are roped off and being guarded by security personnel.
Emma raises her eyebrow slightly at Alex as they pass them. Knowing they were Lena’s doing to make sure no members of the public will intrude on the Superfriends and messing with Emma’s timeline of recovery.
The most recent post to Emma’s social media accounts were of staged physiotherapy sessions, showing Emma slowly walking between the rails. So to have any other photos of Emma moving around more freely would cause a media frenzy that no one wanted to face.
Lucy had sent strict instructions to all the Superfriends that photos can be taken but they will have to wait to be posted.
“Here we are!” The clerk leads them to the doors where another security guard is standing by. “Shoes should already be in there plus many different balls for you to choose from.”
Emma lets out two quick breaths of laughter, causing Eliza to tap her shoulder in disapproval. Which makes both Alex and Kara chuckle while they walk through the doors.
Once inside the room Emma turns around and signs with a smirk on her face. “Balls!” Making her sisters laugh louder.
“You’re here!” Nia rushes over to them and flings her arms around Kara. “Isn’t this amazing?!”
Emma looks past Nia and has to agree, the room was an upgraded version to the main area downstairs. It almost looked brand new and was filled with tables of food and drink.
“Kara, save some for later.” Eliza instructs in a motherly tone as Kara makes her way over to the feast.
“O-kay.” Kara pouts and rushes over to grab their shoes instead.
“Oh! And Emma?” Nia beams at the blonde when their eyes connect. “Please disengage your face mask immediately!”
Emma nods and taps her temple. The Superfriends cheer and immediately Emma enjoys the freeing feeling on her face when the modifier disappears.
“That’s sooo much better!” Nia opens her arms wide and Emma beams at the brunette while she gives her a hug. When they pull apart Emma notices that her family have disengaged theirs too.
But then Emma’s eyes search around the room for Lena.
‘Where is she?’ Emma worries when she can’t find her girlfriend.
“Sam said Lena was right behind her, so she should be here any minute.” J’onn answers and takes an apprehensive step towards the blonde.
‘Hi J’onn.’ Emma thinks coolly, her smile fades as she crosses her arms and sizes him up.
J’onn hesitates for a moment until Emma’s face breaks out into a grin and she holds her arms out to him.
‘Come here!’ Emma’s mind happily yells out.
J’onn laughs in relief and wraps her in a bear hug.
‘But seriously though, you hurt my Mom and I will hunt you down! Even if you go back to Mars or something!’ Emma threatens while still in his arms.
“I promise I won’t hurt her.” J’onn whispers gently in her ear.
‘Pinky.’ Emma demands, stepping back and holding out her pinky finger.
“I pinky promise.” J’onn says seriously and wraps his big pinky finger around Emma’s.
“What you pinky promising about?” Kara asks as she bounds over to them to give J’onn a hug.
“Well, that I won’t hurt your mother.”
“Yea cause if you do I will fling you into the sun!” Kara says seriously and Alex comes to stand by her side.
“Or I kill you with said pinky.” Alex threatens while drinking a beer.
“Alex!” Emma signs and rolls her eyes at the bottle.
“What?! It’s my day off and it's past lunch time!”
Emma shakes her head and goes to collect her bowling shoes. She frowns when the only pairs left are her and Lena’s.
Reaching into her bag Emma pulls her phone out and still sees no messages from her girlfriend.
“So, shall we wait a little longer or get started? We have the room for five more hours, meaning plenty of games of bowling.” Brainy asks everyone as he rubs his hands together. Allowing his feelings of glee to come through.
“Yea, why don’t we start and we can always bowl for Lena until she arrives.” Nia smiles at everyone and races over to the scoring computer to input everyone's names. Kara follows her as they debate whether to use their real names or make nicknames up for everyone.
“If she comes.” Sam mutters under her breath as she angrily pulls her phone out. Both Kara and Emma turn their heads to stare at her in confusion, not quite believing what they heard. Surely Lena wouldn’t miss this?
“Emma, have you chosen a ball yet?” Lucy asks, making Emma jump by her sudden appearance.
The blonde shakes her head and goes over to the rack where the bowling balls are kept.
Emma looks for a ten pound bowling ball, the kind she normally uses and finds a cool looking purple and black one. Emma reaches down and prepares herself to pick it up, not wanting to twinge a muscle for not lifting the heavy ball properly.
Only when Emma puts her fingers through the holes and pulls, she overcompensates, hitting herself in the chest and crashes backwards onto the floor with the ball in her lap.
“Em?!” Alex’s voice shouts as she rushes over to Emma, still sat dazed on the floor, with Sam right behind her. “Are you okay?”
Emma nods, feeling a bit shocked and embarrassed. A blush starts colouring her cheeks as the Superfriends turn to look at her in concern.
“I’m fine. Just being clumsy.” Emma signs, trying to laugh it off and goes to get up.
“Here.” Alex grabs the bowling ball and holds it while Sam helps Emma up.
“Are you sure you’re okay?” Sam asks, her eyes narrowing slightly as she studies the blonde’s face.
Emma gulps but nods that she was indeed okay. “Just embarrassed for causing a scene.”
“Alright.” Sam nods as well before smiling and wrapping an arm around her shoulders. “Ready to be beaten Danvers?”
Emma snorts and kicks her leg up behind them to hit Sam’s butt.
“Hey!” Sam yells and does it back to Emma. The blonde lets out a heavy breath of voiceless laughter.
Alex grins and shakes her head while she places Emma’s ball on the rack by the ball return and laughs at her girlfriend. “I think Em was saying no.”
“Are we bowling as teams or individuals?” James asks as he goes to pick up his bowling ball and looks up at the screen with the names on.
On team one: Nia is Dreamgirl, Brainy is Brainakins, Kara is Glasses, Emma is Stargirl, Sam is Hotmama and Lena is Irish babe.
On team two: James is He-man, Winn is Futureboy, Eliza is Aurora, J’onn is Martitan, Alex is Director of Sass and Lucy is Army Green.
“Why not both?” Eliza offers and smiles when she sees the name she has been given. “See which lane is better but also amongst ourselves in general?”
“I like that idea.” J’onn agrees.
“Of course you would.” Alex grunts before taking a swig of her beer. Only to splutter when Emma digs her elbow into her side.
“Nia? You’re first up on our team!” Kara points at the screen and everyone cheers. Emma claps her hands loudly to make enough noise. “Go Dreamgirl!”
“And remember, no powers!” Lucy orders from the stool by the computer and picks up James’ camera to take some photos.
“Yes ma’am.” Nia nods as she grabs her ball.
“You ready Dreamgirl?” James playfully taunts Nia.
“Bring it He-Man!” Nia grins back at him while lining herself up.
They both go at the same time and the game begins. Laughter, whoops and cheers fill the room as pins crash to the floor.
Kara completely misses on her first try due to the red sun dampers.
“I can put the rails up if you want?” Lucy jokes cheekily.
“No thanks, just need to get used to it.” Kara huffs out and shakes her hands. Her second attempt was much better and Emma claps loudly for her.
Next it was Emma’s turn and she makes sure not to overcompensate this time when she picks the ball up.
“Go Emma!” Lucy cheers and the blonde gets herself into position and aims.
Emma takes a few deep breaths and steps forward, releasing the ball at the lowest point. It shoots from her hand like a cannonball and knocks down all the pins.
Emma jumps up and down in excitement and the Superfriends cheer loudly behind her.
“Well done sweetheart!” Eliza pulls her into a hug. “Just how Dad taught you.”
Emma nods and goes back to sit down. Her eyes flick to the door, wishing Lena had seen her first strike. Naturally her hand reaches for her phone. She silently sighs when there are no messages or responses from her girlfriend.
Emma: Hi Lee, guess what?! I just did a strike! Your name is on the board, so you can start playing when you get here ❤️
Emma also takes a photo of Sam about to play her shot to send to Lena. Hoping this will cause some kind of response.
But her phone doesn’t bleep, causing Emma to run a hand through her hair.
“Hey, I’m sure she’s okay.” Alex notices Emma’s concern and tries to reassure her. But also looks over at Kara, silently communicating with her. Kara nods and gets up to bowl.
“Alex?” J’onn pulls the redhead’s attention away from Emma. “It’s your turn.”
“Yea! Go Director of Ass!” Sam winks at her girlfriend, causing Alex's cheeks to blush.
It soon gets to Lena’s name and everyone allows Nia to take Lena’s go and do her own.
They play seven more frames and when it gets to Lena’s name again everyone pauses.
“Kara? Do you wanna have another go instead?” Nia asks, trying not to show her disappointment.
“Er, sure! But please excuse me, I’m going to use the bathroom.” Kara squeezes out of the booth and rushes to the door leading to the restrooms.
Emma doesn't think anything of it until the door opens again and Emma turns her head to see a wind swept Lena walking in front of Kara. Emma's eyes move up and down her girlfriend’s body and takes in Lena’s fitted maroon coloured dress with black high heels.
Their eyes connect and they both feel a rush of giddiness.
“Finally!” Sam shouts as she places her hands on her hips, cutting off their moment as Lena’s eyes snap to her best friend. Causing everyone else to look over to where Sam was looking.
“Lena!” Nia squeals and rushes over to the raven haired beauty.
“Sorry Nia.” Lena apologises while they hug.
“Don’t worry about it. Contracts blurgh!” Nia gags and giggles.
“Exactly!” Lena laughs and follows Nia into the booth. She immediately sits next to Emma and kisses her lips. “Sorry I wasn't there when you woke up love.”
Emma shrugs and flattens parts of Lena’s hair that's still a bit messy from her flight over, making her girlfriend laugh.
“Thanks!” Lena chuckles and looks up at the names on the scoreboard. “I’m guessing your Stargirl?” Emma nods proudly. “Wow love. You’ve got a strike on almost every go?”
“I know?! I don’t know how.” Emma signs happily. “I even managed with a heavier ball!” Although for Emma it didn’t feel much heavier, even though it was meant to be six pounds heavier.
“Well your arms are getting more toned.” Lena nudges her shoulder into Emma’s. She had noticed Emma’s body changing and put it down to the running and weight training Emma is doing to fill her time.
A familiar twinge of regret hits Lena’s stomach at how busy she has been lately. ‘It won’t be forever.’ Lena thinks, trying to reassure herself.
Lena breaks her out of her thoughts by Emma flexing her arm and raising an eyebrow at Lena, causing a rich laugh to burst out from the raven haired beauty’s lips.
This heavenly sound makes Emma’s heart flutter and she beams sweetly at the woman she loves.
“Lena? It’s your go. Unless you want me to take it for you?” Kara asks and points at the scoreboard.
“Oh sorry!” Lena apologises and looks up at the board. “Who chose Irish Babe?” She laughs as Kara and Nia point at each other. “Right, I better get my ball and shoes.” Lena places her hand on Emma’s thigh and goes to stand up, but Emma takes her hand, stopping her from moving.
“I got them for you.” Emma pulls them up from under the bench and hands the shoes to Lena. “Also I got you a size eight ball but there is also a nine if you’d rather use that one.”
“Thanks love.” Lena places a gentle kiss on Emma’s lips. After she immediately kicks her heels off and goes to put her shoes on. Suddenly a pair of neon lime green socks appear in front of her face. “You think these socks go with this outfit?” Lena questions Emma who pouts out her lips and nods.
“I mean the shoes go exquisitely as well!” Emma signs, making Lena chuckle and puts them on anyway. Everyone wolf whistles when she gets up to bowl making Lena break out in a huge smile.
“Looking mighty fine there Luthor!” Sam hollers in a southern accent, causing everyone to burst out laughing and Lena to stare back at Sam in a mock glare.
Lena bowls and manages to get a spare. Emma claps enthusiastically when the last pin tumbles to the ground.
Lena smiles as she heads back into the booth, giving everyone high fives. Sitting down she snuggles into Emma, who wraps an arm around her waist and they watch the Superfriends bowl. Lena cheers along with everyone and takes a few deep breaths. Ridding herself of her work anxiety that had no place in the bowling alley.
They play a few more games before having a break to eat.
“Finally!” Kara yells dramatically and zooms over to the table. Emma is sure that if the sun red dampers weren’t on, Kara would have flown over.
“Kara!” Both Alex and Eliza yell in disapproval at Kara running to get the food.
“Sorry! I’m just hungry!” Kara whines while piling the food on her plate.
“Hey! Leave some for us Kara!” Winn calls across to her, making Kara squint her eyes at him.
The Superfriends get their food and sit together at a table set out for them and eat. Laughing and chatting about anything and everything. James takes a few photos before Lucy takes the camera off him to give him a chance to eat.
“Hey Lena! Em!” Lucy positions herself across from the couple and aims the camera.
The girlfriends smile widely at her and wrap an arm around each other's waist.
“Beautiful!” Lucy comments and keeps taking pictures as Lena kisses Emma’s cheek and the blonde beams at the camera. Emma turns her head and softly kisses Lena’s lips.
“Hey hey! Keep it under the R rating please!” Lucy says seriously and Emma flips her off.
A few of the Superfriends laugh and Emma smirks at Lena before pressing their foreheads together. They both close their eyes and breath deeply in.
Soon mostly everyone has finished eating and Brainy stands.
“Shall we play some more games?” Brainy asks, looking around at his friends.
“Yes please!” Nia squeals and runs back to the booth. Everyone follows other than Winn and James.
Emma and Lena sit close together and Emma goes to take a sip from her cup.
Suddenly the lights go off, causing Emma to violently jump, spilling her drink down her top.
“Happy-” Winn starts singing and everyone else joins in as he brings the cake over with lit candles. “Birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday dear Nia! Happy birthday to you!”
Emma tries to smile as everyone sings, instead she lets out a long, heavy breath. She jumps again as Lena places a comforting hand on her thigh.
“Sorry love.” Lena whispers into her ear as the lights come back on.
“Emma! What happened to you?!” James laughs as he notices Emma’s wet, brown t-shirt.
Emma shrugs and looks down embarrassed. Missing the glares some of the Superfriends send to James. Lena grabs some napkins and tries to dry the worst of it.
“Who wants some yummy cake!” Lucy claps to draw the attention away from the blonde and goes to get the knife.
“Oo me!” Kara raises a hand and bounces in her seat like a nine year old kid.
“I’m sure the question was rhetorical Kar.” Alex snorts in amusement.
“Yea, but I want cake.” Kara shrugs with a grin.
Emma tries to smile as well but she finds herself rocking slightly as she tries to calm her racing heart.
“You’re okay.” Lena's calming voice whispers into her ear. “You’re safe. You’re with me and people who love you. Nothing bad is going to happen.”
Emma nods, resting her head on Lena’s shoulder and nuzzles into her neck. Trying to seek comfort and feel safe.
If the Superfriends notice they don’t say anything about it or draw attention to Emma, leaving Lena to help Emma though her trigger as they share the cake around.
When Emma sits back up, looking less pale, Nia hands their plates with pieces of cake over.
“Thank you.” Emma signs gratefully and digs in, trying not to focus on her embarrassment at what happened.
Once the food is eaten and cleared away the bowling begins again. Although the group of friends are not as quick as before but still as competitive.
“Seriously Emma!” Lucy yells when Emma does another perfect strike. “You need to show me your technique or something.”
Emma holds her hands up in surprise and just motions her bowling.
“Nah I’m not fooling around anymore with this ‘I can’t bowl’ act!”
Emma can’t help but voicelessly laugh at Lucy’s competitive side making itself known.
“Ooo, she’s laughing at you Luc.” Alex grins at her sister.
Emma holds her hands up again in surrender at Lucy’s enraged face.
“Hey relax.” Kara tries to soothe the brunette down and rubs her back affectionately. “It’s all about the fun of playing.”
A few nod but suddenly everyone bursts out laughing and continues for a while. The Superfriends never play just for the fun of it. Mostly everyone in the group are extremely competitive.
“Good one Kara!” Winn wipes the tears from his cheeks.
-- -- --
Finally they complete their last game and Emma is the clear winner. Although she is still very confused at how she managed it but takes the praise.
The food and cake is distributed into takeaway boxes and the Superfriends say their goodbyes and birthday love to Nia. With Emma and Lena being the first to leave.
“Do you need a ride?” Emma signs to Alex.
“No, Sam is- I’m, er, going with Sam.” Alex stutters and goes a bit red as she smiles shyly. Causing Emma to smirk and shake her head.
“Yea, my director of ass.” Sam whispers into her girlfriend's ear.
This makes Emma snort and sign at her sister. “Use protection.” Emma winks.
“Protection? Protection from what?” Kara asks after watching Emma’s hands.
Emma snorts loudly again but Lena drags her away before she can hear anyone's responses.
“Modifier.” Lena yawns before they go through the door and waves farewell to everyone. Emma taps her temple, shivering slightly as the mask crawls across her face.
The couple walk down the stairs hand in hand and out into the evening air. Emma leads her girlfriend to the L-Car and opens the passenger door for her.
“Thanks love.” Somehow, despite her exhaustion, Lena still slides gracefully into the car, even with her drooping eyelids.
Emma gets into the driver's seat and leans over to plug her girlfriend in. A hum of acknowledgement leaves Lena’s lips and her eyes finally close.
Emma can’t help but smile at how cute she looks and turns the electric engine on to head for home.
-- -- --
In no time at all they are pulling into their space under the apartment building. Lena looks like she’s already in a deep sleep and Emma wonders if she can carry her up to their apartment.
Remembering how easy it was to piggyback Alex, Emma decides to go for it. She quietly unplugs Lena’s seatbelt and gets out of the driver's side. Emma quickly goes to Lena’s side and carefully opens the passenger door, hoping Lena wouldn’t fall out, but thankfully she hasn’t moved.
Leaning down Emma attentively runs her right arm under Lena’s legs and her left under her back. She manages to lift Lena and the bag of food, carrying her girlfriend bridal style out of the car. Carefully she heads for the elevator, thankfully that the L-Car locks automatically when the keyholder walks far enough away from the car.
Somehow she manages to press the button to call the elevator and again for the penthouse apartment.
‘Nice one Emma!’ She praises herself and kisses Lena’s head when the doors close.
However, once the elevator doors slide open, Emma voicelessly groans. She exits the elevator, debating what to do to unlock the door and open it.
“You know you could just put me down?” Lena says sleepily as she blinks her eyes open.
‘Of course you're awake!’ Emma rolls her eyes and gazes down at her girlfriend.
“Well?” Lena asks with a yawn, waiting to be put down.
“Get my key.” Emma mouths, causing Lena to squint up at her.
“Get your key?” Lena says back and Emma nods. “Where is it?”
“Bag.”
Lena reacts down to Emma’s messenger bag by her side.
“You know this would be a lot quicker if you just put me down.”
Emma shrugs and grins happily, liking the sensation of holding Lena close.
“Got it!” Lena pulls it out and stretches for the lock. Emma moves a bit forward to make it easier for her. “Thanks love.” Lena yawns out again and unlocks the door, partly opening it.
Emma kicks it open fully and manages to step through before it swings back.
“Impressive.” Lena chuckles while nuzzling into Emma’s chest and closing her eyes.
Emma lets out a voiceless laugh and carries Lena into the bathroom.
“No, just dump me on the bed!” Lena whines but doesn’t complain when Emma places her feet on the tiled floor and pulls her dress up and underwear down. “Ooo kinky.” Lena says seductively while cracking an eye open as Emma guides her onto the toilet.
Emma shakes her head with a smile at Lena’s comment and goes to grab Lena’s pajamas and a fresh pair of underwear.
She hears the flush and Lena whining out her name.
“Em-ma!”
‘Le-na!’ Emma yells back in her head but she quickly makes her way back to her girlfriend, who was sleepily brushing her teeth.
Emma closes the lid on the toilet and places Lena’s clothes on top, Lena watches her every move and as Emma begins to sign. “We are staying in bed tomorrow. No excuses!”
Lena clears her mouth and places her toothbrush back on the counter. “Bed all day? Lucky me.” Lena says sultry and lifts an eyebrow.
Emma rolls her eyes. “Not like that you bad girl.”
“Hmm but you’d want me to be your bad girl huh?” Lena slowly tilts her head and leans in, kissing Emma’s lips slowly and passionately. Emma could taste the fresh mint of the toothpaste on Lena’s tongue.
But Lena soon breaks the kiss, closes her bloodshot eyes and rests her weary head on Emma’s shoulder.
Emma carefully bends down and grabs the clothes so she can place Lena back on the toilet lid. She lovingly changes Lena’s clothes and kisses any exposed skin that she comes across, making Lena hum and smile.
Once Lena is changed Emma reaches down and picks her up again. Attentively carrying her over to their bed. Next she pulls the covers back and carefully places Lena on the bed and tucks her in.
Lena hums sleepily in approval but doesn’t open her eyes or makes any other movement or noise. Seemingly falling asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow.
Emma smiles down at her sadly and kisses her forehead.
“Hope, dim the lights to the lowest setting.” Emma signs to the AI before reentering the bathroom to get herself ready for bed.
After she’s brushed her teeth and hair, dressed in her tank top and shorts, Emma quietly tiptoes back into the bedroom. The corner of her lip pulls up when she can hear Lena softly snoring.
When she reaches her side of the bed Emma carefully pulls the covers back and slowly gets into bed. Trying desperately not to jostle Lena.
“Hope, lights out.” Emma signs once she’s settled.
The lights slowly fade and the window dim to blackout.
Emma swallows as she turns towards Lena, listening to her steady breaths as she sleeps. Almost becoming Emma’s lullaby when her own eyes slowly grow heavy and close.
(Part Thirty Three)
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keenregine · 4 years
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This is not a diary
First time in history that I thought of the title before the entire content. Was that supposed to be impressive? Noooo.
So there I was, doing what I do best. Lying in bed all day. It's only a cycle of watching the series Fargo (I love it, considering my too picky attitude when it comes to series), reading The Body Farm by Patricia Cornwell (borrowed this book from maaany months ago, and I think it was about time for me to return it. You know, tryin to be responsible once in a while. Although, she doesn't mind but still), eating a heavy meal once a day (for few consecutive days now, my daily diet consist of lumpias, which I bought wrapped but still uncooked from my orientation batch mate, twas nice), baking (I tried new other things, yey) and sleeping. (I have no significant story about this one, yet here's an apostrophe)
When it comes to series I don't easily get lured whether it is popularly being watched by a hefty number of people. I need that particular spark to lighten up my interest. You see, in general I easily get bored. Once I notice that the story line is moving too slow, too fast, important characters not being paid proper attention, punchlines that misses correct timing, too corny, too predictable. All of these things makes me wanna walk away instantly. I like recommendations, I really do. But not all are exactly what I'm looking for, some of them were successful, some of them also failed. To make this short, all individuals have their own preference, so don't blame me just yet. For instance, whenever someone asks me (presumably this person is a big fan) if I watch Game of Thrones, and I gave the answer 'no'. They'd be like whaaaat,. To be fair, I've seen the first season, first episode three times. Three freaking times, and I was not struck. They said it's only the beginning, but when you get to the middle part, all aspects will be interesting and it's impossible to stop. I think there's a reason why the 'pilot' episode of any series sets all bar for its quality, whether to continue or not given by critics' review, I wouldn't pursue anything that doesn't impress me first hand, but heck it, GOT became a big worldwide success. So, maybe I'm the weird one, sue me. Kdramas, 3 out of 10 person surely watch Korean dramas. Guy or girl. And I can't seem to be interested at anyone of them. I have a deep unchangeable love for kpop, but their dramas? For me, all are too predictable. It's always a tandem between poor girl , rich guy or vice versa. Us against the world kinda thing, or against the mean highly socialite mother, or head of the mafia father. Ghostly, supernatural unexplainable occurrences. Slow motion on every suppose to be meaningful moments, the very classic ugly duckling transformation of a girl into a beautiful swan and finally the guy she's been longing for, noticed her. Aww. Seriously, all of these predictable crap.
I agree, one might say it's easy for me to judge because I haven't seen it all, but I gave a tremendous number of ideas, so. Before I get too carried away , like GOT I also tried this one Korean drama for all times sake. Took me few minutes to search what drama I was pertaining to, I even forgot the title. It's Itaewon Class, there you go. From what I heard, it's incomparable to other kdramas. As claimed, it's not all about cutesy love, it tackles the issues of society we're facing today, inspirational for the youth etc. So okay, in I go. First episode. . , uhhh that's it? Unfortunatey, it failed too. Another disappointment. Although, I love the movie Parasite. That was a mind blowing one. Initially, I saw it with a friend. But I had to leave her house for some errand, she finished the movie by herself. I asked her the next day, how was it? She didn't like it, said it was boring, too much talking and dead air. I believed her and didn't see it again. Until, I spoke to a doctor who's a friend of mine, we almost had the same insights when it comes to movies. He asked me if I have seen the movie Parasite, I answered him with the story aforementioned. He gave me that useful advice of seeing it again. I went home that same day, I immediately dig in, and it was awesome. Screenplay and unique story-telling was outstanding. The director (Bong Joon-ho) was like the Korean version of David Fincher, in his own distinct way. No wonder it won best picture at Oscar's, they deserve it.
One series that I have loved since the day I started it was no question How I Met your Mother. It was recommended to me by a neighborhood friend from our place in Manila. It was the time before I sailed as an official overseas worker. He was nice enough to give me a copy of all seasons from my previous hard drive (now broken, surprisingly) along with other farewell gifts such as shirt with customized printed lyrics of my favorite song that time (don't ask, it's embarrassing), a puppy stuffed toy and a mason jar mug. He admitted he had a crush on me even before we became close (I always stay at home, never the friendly-neighborhood-lets-hang-out-by-the-sari-sari-store type) but I made it clear to him that all I can offer is friendship. Wait, this is not the important part of the story, let's go back to our main agenda. Other series that I can watch repeatedly, which I actually do, even today. The Big Bang theory, The Office and Breaking Bad. All three has different genre of its own, all day everyday I'd still laugh (or whatever the appropriate emotion requires) like it's the first time.
I halt reading Harry Potter for the mean time (Deathly Hallows is next), I was auditing the number of books I have. And I figured, one of those should be returned by now. I was not very eager to read it because it is the fifth installment of an entire series. And whenever I discover any book that has a sequel, then of course I would want to start from the beginning, wouldn't I? But since I have no other choice, and I'm not determined enough to find the early part of the series, given such limited resources of my current location. I started reading it, neutral was my comment. I'd still gave it a fair chance.
I feel more tired these days, now that I don't have enough exercise and all I do all day is cuddle with my pillows. Turning from side to side to prevent acquiring any pressure ulcer or 'injury'. Whatever Braden Scale. I'm still on my maintaining weight, I don't measure my rice intake but it's always more than usual, especially for a small girl like me. But I like eating, is that such a crime? Whenever I get extremely home sick, I try to compensate that by eating the food I miss from well, home. One of my ultimate favorite is lumpia. I saw an orientation batchmate of mine selling home made lumpias online. I could make it myself, but I rather won't. I miss those days when me and my mom made those lumpia at home, with occasion or without. She would give me the easy job of wrapping it. She knew well I only love the wrapping part, never the mixing of ingredients or try to at least learn how in case I need to, like now. Gladly there's someone out there who sells. Yey. So, I ordered 2 packs of 15s immediately. And boy, I ate that every single day for the rest of the week, until today. No kidding. And I don't dip that shit in a sweet and sour sauce (or ketchup? yuck, really?) like a regular person. I would always pair it with vinegar combined with soy sauce, oh God bless my kidneys. Good thing I love drinking water. If there's also one food I can solely eat for an entire week, it would be chicken liver adobo, but I won't cook that either. If I could be real honest, I guess one of the reasons I love baking is you won't smell like garlic or onion afterwards. The irony on that, I don't eat sweets but I can make them (and it's becoming more addictive). I don't cook main course dishes, but I like eating them (in a great deal).
From time to time I keep watching these baking tutorial videos, unintentionally. Always pops on the recommended section, what can I do? lol. There's always a satisfying part on watching these. I strive to learn more and learn better, but something is always holding me back (my laziness probably). I always send a picture of whatever I baked that day to my mom or sister. Both of them thought it would be a good idea for a small business. That, uhh no. I'm not very good with that kind of management, I might go bankrupt. I think I may be too generous that I won't care about the returned profit. As long as what I gave is of high quality. I spend moderate amount of money with my baking, it's not that costly in my opinion, unless I want to step it up and buy more equipment, not likely. (oh really? you just ordered online a bunch of baking stuff, twice! shut up self) It's the ingredients I spend money on. The chocolate mainly, hard to find cream cheese these days. I want to make red velvet cupcakes, mini blueberry cheesecakes, banoffee pie, dream chocolate cake and more possible version of cupcakes. I can't go further outside due to this restrictive curfew, that explains the online shopping. I tend to be defensive sometimes, I know. Thankfully my co-workers are not getting fed up of me feeding them consistently, it's free anyway who would resist. I would do the same, actually. Matter of fact, I can't finish a single goddamn cupcake or a brownie. Even if it's made by others. Coffee jelly, now that's my thing. I love jellies, like pure jellies. To the person who thought it was a great idea to put raisin, fruit cubes or any piece of random food item that was not supposed to be there. I prove you wrong, just let it be what it wants to be. Please? ok thanks.
I love uninterrupted sleep. That's all I got to say.
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tamiddyinyourcity · 4 years
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3:21pm, oh look.... its a countdown. :)
Thursday, Januaru 9th of 2020.
Last night was:
Nice
A trainwreck
A shitstorm
A ride to crazystorm
Apeshit, and not in the good way
Violent
Really really obnoxious
Terrible
But still nice
.....not sure I wanna talk about it.
But, in comparison to the last face to face talk, it was both better, yet worse.
Better, since it ended with some hugs and a peace out.
Worse, because just violent.
And then I went to bed.
Not sure how I feel today.
Not sure if I really wanna look back on the good, or the bad. It doesn't change either way.
It'll.... make things worse.
I forced myself to sleep.
And it worked. I slept well.
A little too well.
I had an overly realistic dream about him. Where it was like when we first got back together. Going to his house to "continue talking", just for the shoes to come off, then the jacket, and then making out.....
Till eventually once the cringey "why is he kissing me weird" scene happened in my weird, somewhat lucid, dream.... That's when I went, "Ah FUCK, its a DREAM. The REAL Patrick wouldn't do weird shit like this. The Real Patrick doesnt even wanna see me anymore!"
Aaaand then I woke up... Opened my eyes. Shitty dark-ish bedroom, messy room, whatever else.
Decided I didn't like that in comparison to the sweet dream.
Took my ass back to sleep.
And that's how I time jumped from 10:29am to 3:29pm, since I deadass decided that the idea of nothing ever going wrong between us, was much better than the reality.
.....
He clarified that he does like me.
Just not what I've done to him sometimes.
As well as other things. Like how he did "really like and value our relationship, just not to an extent." And when asked if he valued She Who Will Not Be Named, he said, "I didn't want to at that moment!"
......
I'll get sick if I keep thinking about this.
So here I am, sex drive on high, and not in the mood for anything even slightly reflective or emotionally stimulating today.
...
I don't know to what degree I feel towards him.
I just.... Hate him for giving up on things so easily all the time. Never deciding to stand up for himself, make the first, be the first to offer a suggestion or solution.....
Not to spit in the face of feminism, but I mean, its kinda annoying to have a boyfriend that can't..... well, be a "leader" or whatever. I guess I knew he wasn't one off the bat, since I liked his nerdy bashfulness, but it did just become more of a mountain instead of a molehill in our relationship....
One speed bump is fine. "He gets nervous talking to other people if he's not introduced? That's fine. I'll show him how to take more risks."
Then the speedbumps get bigger. "A man got in my face threatening to hit me, and then spit on my face... Patrick did absolutely nothing, at all."
Till they get harder to revv over. "I'm asking you to just communicate with me about this? Why are you so afraid to tell me this?"
Until they become mountains.
"So you just said 'im not doing that' to the idea of even remotely standing your ground, and doing the easiest step of, 'If you are going to start shit, then leave'....... Since you simply valued Azalea over me, and decided to just make it easy and go, 'Let's uninvite Tamia, and oh noooo she got obviously upset by that, so lets dump her as opposed to having a conversation or resolution on how to work things out?????' You didnt even FUCKING TRY, you dumped me since you didnt wanna even SUGGEST basic respect with your FUCKING BEST FRIEND, since you thought that after all these years, such a basic suggestion of 'dont show up if youll start shit at my party' would ruin your friendship???? A lifelong friendship???? Isnt that a huge red flag to you?????"
.....
It's getting harder to regret some things I have done when I think about it longer.
Or even just basic equality of "bro, nice to be with you and all, but you cant keep running away from anything slightly complex to avoid anything to make you feel even slightly anxious".
He just.... kept refusing to communicate, and thats why shit ended. I always had to make the first move.
And i hated that.
I hate that a lot.
.......
Whatever.
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clockworkfromspace · 4 years
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The Book v2 Chapter 8
-the twins head to their Ultra Being class-
Chris walks there
*jeff’s already in his desk, playing with some water floating above it*
-Jolly Johnny and a beat up girl with tears in her eyes appear in front of the class-
Chris: zoey?
-Jolly Johnny turns to their teacher- "Hello there Mr. Taio. This girl here needs a favor from you."
Mr. Taio: Huh!? Who are you!?
"Zoey....McChevy...sir"
Mr. Taio: McChevy.... Related to Chris McChevy?
She nods
Mr. Taio: If you want me to release another spirit, you'd need to give me something in return.
Jolly Johnny: Life for a life?
"N-not him someone else"
Mr. Taio: That will do.
-Jolly Johnny uses Jeff's power to teleport Neon here-
Jolly Johnny: Hi brother.
Chris looks at the girls confused
Jea: What's happening? -she falls asleep-
-Jolly Johnny stabs Neon-
"Ok then"
-he takes out the knife then slits his throat-
-students in the class look horrified-
"WHAT THE HELL"
Jolly Johnny: there ya go.
"Could i see cyberblast please?..."
Mr. Taio: The Cyberclad who recently died? Sure.
"Yes"
-Cyber blast appears as a phantom-
"C-cy?...."
Cy: Zoey? -he looks at his hands- I actually died?
She nods
Cy: Have you told Cheenato and Kelly yet?
"T-they know"
Cy: How well are they taking it?
"V-very well actully..."
Jenifer: Anyone else extremely confused?
sorta
Chris: yes
*popcorn appears in his hand*
-Neon's body vanishes along with Jolly Johnny-
-Jea wakes up-
Mr. Taio: Do the two of you mind? I wish to return to my lesson.
Cy: Where are we Exactly?
keaton city
*pops over to him* i’m jeff
you are?
Cy: You live in Keaton City and you don't know who I am?
no
Jea: That's Cyber blast. One of Skull City's most famous heroes and that girl is Foxy Clockwork. His girlfriend and one of the members of his team.
Jea: They helped fight off the cyberclads years ago.
Jea: But... Why do you look like a ghost?
-she gets a worried look-
Cy: My jobs dangerous enough on it's own. That with the fact that I'm seen as a traitor to my own planet meant I had a high chance of being killed. Guess I couldn't beat the odds.
Jea: A cyberclad did this? There's still bad one's on this planet?
Cy: There's at least one thanks to that guy in the fucking bow tie. (Jolly Johnny)
-Mr. Taio looks at Jeff and Zoey with glowing white eyes-
Mr. Taio: Both of your souls are blinking. One of you will become the Divine Guardian of teleportation at some point.
Mr. Taio: At the moment. Jeff... You are in the lead.
"WHAT"
what?
-he turns back to Zoey- "It's either because he is better or because your other powers are getting in your way"
Mr. Taio: a Divine Guardian's soul is different from most. Their soul glows brightly. Both of yours are slowly fading between a normal soul and a Guardian soul.
"Cy can you teleport as a ghost"
well how do i become one?
Mr. Taio: He cannot. He can vanish, fly quickly, and phase through solid objects but he cannot teleport.
"I protect skull city and i will coutine to do that!"
Mr. Taio: No one truly knows all the rules of becoming a Devine Guardian. I'd suggest you prove that you have better mastered your ability than Zoey has
Mr. Taio: Once you prove you're the best, I'm sure you will become a Divine Guardian. Though to be honest there's nothing that special about it.
still seems awesome
so who are the divine guardians right now?
Mr. Taio: Depending on your power, it will either become easier to control or more powerful. Divine Guardians also reincarnate after death. Their memories are blank at first but slowly come back during adolescents and adult hood.
Mr. Taio: I only know of a few current Divine Guardians.
Mr. Taio: There's me, that guy who was just here, a criminal who's currently locked away at a SCOPE facility, Blue Rebel, and Shadow Walker.
Cy: I'm going back to check on the kids.
-he flies away-
Zoey goes with him
well i guess we got out ultra beings lesson for today. *smirks* you want me to clean up this blood?
Mr. Taio: What blood? [Neon's blood vanished along with his body]
ummm... o-kay...
-the dismissal bell rings-
Chris runs home
-he twins walk to their bus-
*jeff pops into the seat behind the twins* hey
Jenifer: Hey.
that was crazy
why does johnny always put you to sleep *looks at jea*
Jea: How should I know
Jenifer: It's for the best. She's far too innocent to have seen what he did.
Jea: I've seen him do many horrible things in the book.
Jenifer: Seeing him kill some random person in your book is different from seeing him killing his own brother with a knife.
Jea: WHAT!?
Jea: Neon? Noooo he was my favorite character!
Jenifer: Probably shouldn't have said that.
-the bus get to their stop-
-the girls walk to the house but see their dad's car parked out front-
Jenifer: He's home already?
Jenifer: I just realized. Dude, Jeff, you could totally build your own house will your ability. Hell, you could be rich dude.
Jea: Think of what that would do to the economy.
Jenifer: It's just one guy doing it. The economy will be fine
sounds like fun
what should we do first?
-Jenifer pulls up google maps on her phone- We'd need to find a place to build it.
Jea: He'd have to own the land to legally build a house there and we're not old enough to buy property
Jenifer: Shit, she's right
Jenifer: you think that Jolly Johnny guy could help us?
i doubt it but he might
-Jolly Johnny appears looking like a phantom- "What's in it for me?"
i don’t know. whatcha want? he said i might be the divine guardian; is there anything i can do for you when that happens?
Jolly Johnny: Nope. Hmm.... I'll do it and we'll just say that you owe me one. Both of you
Jenifer: So long as it doesn't get me arrested, sure.
ok
already ripped a girl’s heart out so sure
Jolly Johnny: Look at you stealing young girl's hearts like a true lady killer
*busts out laughing*
-Jea walks home-
so... where do you recommend johnny
-he points out a spot near the edge of the city. Its about 40 miles from Skull City while still on one of Keaton High School's bus routes
ok
what now?
Jolly Johnny: I'll go and buy the land. I'll get back to you when I'm done.
-he vanishes-
*looks at jenifer* you gonna help me build it?
Jenifer: What do you expect me to do?
Jenifer: Mr. Godly teleportation
you could help me design the layout
Jenifer: True
Jenifer: Alright.
-Jenifer walks into her house-
Mr. Kon: Hey sweetie, who was that guy you were talking to outside?
Jenifer: a friend from school. Mind if he comes in?
-Mr. Kon looks out the window and examines him- "sure."
-Jenifer walks out onto the porch- "Come on in."
ok *follows jenifer*
Jenifer: Him and... His god father are having a new house built and he asked me to help designing it.
Mr. Kon: Oh cool. A buddy of mine is an architect. I could give him a call if you want.
thanks, but we’re doing it as kind of a family project
Mr. Kon: oh, okay.
Jenifer: Hey dad. How come you're home so early?
Mr. Kon: Day off.
Jenifer: Oh. Okay. -she turns to Jeff- ready to get started?
sure
-the next day-
-saturday-
Jolly Johnny: the land is all yours kid.
awesome!
where would you recommend for me to get the resources?
Jolly Johnny: Sheldon Forest is full of pre-chopped lumber. Some Ultra being goes there whenever he's upset and kills off trees left and right.
that’s no fun
i could just steal a house
or pieces of some and fuse them together
Jolly Johnny: You could do that too I suppose.
Jenifer: What about SCOPE? Surely they'd notice.
Jolly Johnny: SCOPE's anti-teleportation devices are handy but I doubt they'd be much use against Jeff.
Jolly Johnny: Anyways, I'll leave the building to you guys. I own this place but as far as I'm concerned, its all yours.
this is gonna be fun... thanks johnny
Jolly Johnny: No problem. -he walks off-
so... what’s first jenny?
Jenifer: Game room.
oh yeah!
you know... since ur helping, this’ll be ur place, too.
Jenifer: In that case, I'd like my room to have a view of the back yard where we could have a pool.
Jenifer: I guess I could come here during nights that my dad is out late.
if you want, you can just tell him you’re going to bed and then signal me somehow. then i could teleport ya up here
I guess that could work.
Jenifer: *
just call me whenever you have time to come up here
Jenifer: Alright.
-looking at what's already been completed- "This place'll be great for parties."
Jenifer: Best part is, no neighbors.
hell yeah!
-Jea calls Jenifer-
oh i got an idea
Jenifer: Hello? Hold that thought.
-she puts Jea on Speaker-
Jenifer: What were you saying Jeff?
Jea: You're with Jeff? Where are you guys?
i can shift this hill around a bit and make it steeper and we can get one of those infinity pools that looks like it goes forever
Jenifer: Were working on his new house.
yeah she’s with me. why, is that bad?
Jea: It's not bad. I just don't trust you.
oh... thanks. that makes me feel good. *smiles*
Jenifer: He's not gonna kill me or anything Jea. Relax.
Jea: Just keep your guard up
-Jea sends her a text reading "he likes you"-
-Jenifer returns a text saying- "he knows I'm into girls"
Jea [aloud]: does he?
do i what?
-Jea hangs up in a mini panic-
-Jenifer shows him her phone-
what, know you’re into girls? no i didn’t know that. thanks for informing me, i guess?
Jenifer: I've said it before
i don’t pay attention
anyway, about the pool idea
Jenifer: Sounds like a plan to me
nice
you might wanna stand back a bit. this is probably gonna cause a small earthquake!
-she hops up onto a branch of a nearby tree-
"Seems strong enough"
*puts his hands out and begins to concentrate. the hill begins to lose pieces, and then those pieces reform into a cliff, extending the hill about 100 feet, then dropping off*
nice. now we got more room to build.
Chris scratches on jea's door
-jea opens her door-
Jenifer: Sweet
Jea: Hey there Chris
jenny, you can get down now. we should make secret passages through the house that i can use when in snake form
-she picks him up-
Jenifer: Dude, that could lead to some great prankd
Pranks*
He licks her face
Jenifer: We could pretend to have a snake problem if we had any guests over and you could freak them out
Jea: What's with you and licking faces? -she laughs-
*there is a knock on the door*
ok so what else should we add. we got a game room, three bedrooms with bathrooms, a kitchen and a living room.
-Jea goes to answer it-
Jenifer: Mini gym?
Jenifer: I usually don't work out but we could have it just cause
A man pushes her aside and looks for Chris the man grabs him and runs out
sure
Jea: DADDY!
-Mr. Kon comes out of his room and runs after him-
Mr. Kon: HEY! THAT'S NOT YOUR DOG!
-Jea calls Jenifer-
-jenifer answers-
"hello?"
Jea: Some guy stormed into the house, pushed me, and grabbed Chris!
Jea: Dad's chasing him right now.
what’s wrong?
Jenifer: Some asshole pushed my sister and is trying to dog nap Chris
Jenifer: I need you to teleport me home.
oh shit. hold on... *grabs jenifers arm and they both teleport back to jenifers house*
-she looks around. When she spots her father she runs after him-
The man throws a knife at him
*jeff teleports in front of the attacker* boi put my friend down
He pushes him
-the knife barely scratches Mr. Kon's face-
Mr. Kon: the hell?
*teleports chris into jenifers arms and teleports the guy into the sky above jeff*
*jeff teleports up there too and they both just sit there*
excuse me sir
why did you take that dog?
Jenifer [shouting]: Thanks!
He shoots jeff and mr. kon
-she walks back home petting Chris-
Jea: DAD!
*jeff teleports the bullets away*
sir that’s not nice
-Jenifer turns her head-
Chris whimpers
-she looks back at Jea-
you see, if you hurt me, i stop keeping you here
Jenifer: Why'd you shout?
and you fall to your death
Jea: That guy shot at him.
He teleports down and shoots mr. Kon
"That dog is a person and beat up my family"
who are you
"Sam"
sam who?
chris wouldn’t hurt a fly so why would i believe you?
*teleports chris up there with them* chris who is this guy?
"You don't know his past"
Jenifer: 😐😑😐
"A friend from school"
why is he saying you hurt him?
ok well should i put him down or kill him? because he’s annoying the shit out of me
"Put him down"
*looks at sam* are you gonna try to shoot anyone else? if you do i will remove your kidneys and put them where your eyes go.
"O-o"
you can ask chris... that’s not a joke
so are you gonna refrain from shooting at people?
"Yes....."
ok... *they all appear back on the ground*
guys... this is sam
he said he won’t shoot anyone
He runs off
should i bring him back?
or kill him?
Jenifer: I say kill him
Jea: NO KILLING!
what do you say, mr. kon?
Mr.Kon: I don't support murder
ok
i guess i’m not killing him
*whispers to jenifer* yet
Mr. Kon: but you can bring him back though.
*sam appears in front of them*
sam stop running bro
eh i kinda wanna leave. *a metal cage appears in front of the house and sam gets teleported inside*
there ya go
jenifer wanna go back to working on the house?
Jenifer: Sure.
aight *grabs jenifers hand and they teleport back to the hill*
*a gym appears along with an infinity pool* what now?
Jenifer: Now, I guess we're done. Until we want to add more at least
noice, we have our own house now
Chris sleeps in jea's door way
-Mr. Kon texts Jenifer-
Jenifer: Gotta head home.
-Jea picks Chris up and brings him inside so she can close the door-
He groans
-she lays him down beside her bed before going to sleep-
ok. *teleports jenifer home and goes inside the newly constructed house*
He climbs on the end of the bed and sleeps
-the next day, Sunday-
Chris sleeps in
*jeff pops to the front door of the house and knocks on it*
-Jea opens it "Jenny, it's for you."
well, can i come in?
Jea: Oh yeah. Sorry, thought that was implied.
Jea: If I'm being honest, it's kinda strange hearing you ask permission to enter when you'd pop into my room unannounced.
i have some morals... jeez.
Chris groans
Jea: says the guy who literally stole a heart and put it in a girl's shirt.
that’s why i said some... duh... *walks inside*
He falls jea's bed
Jea: What was that thud?
Jenifer: Came from your room. Hey Jeff.
sup
-Jea goes to her room to see what she heard-
Chris groans in pain
Jea: Was that you Chris?
"Ya"
jenny, wanna head up to the store so we can pick out some shit for the game room?
Jenifer: Sure
*grabs her hand and they both vanish, appearing at a furniture store*
Jenifer: Follow me. The best games are in the back.
ok
*follows behind jenifer* we need a really big tv and some awesome chairs!
Jenifer: Indoor theatre?
i think we should go with that but also get a few flat screens
Chris calls jenny
-she answers-
Jenifer: Hello?
"Could i help design?"
Jenifer: Help design what?
Jenifer: Did you mean Jeff's house by any chance?
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