#but somehow i dont think thats the case

[bakarrot]

still so pissed off over how they fucked over gas. like, they set up parallels between him and goku - even outright said it in the text that elec is a lot like canon raditz in that he only wanted his younger sibling around to act as a meat shield to protect himself, and that he’d only get tossed aside once he outlived his usefulness - yet they still fucking disintegrated his ass anyway!! he’s has almost the exact same set up as tien, but instead of getting a chance to break away from someone who used him his entire life, he dies in despair after getting abandoned by the one person he trusted. ok.

#mafuba screams #hes also the only villain who absolutely does not deserve the shit he gets #frieza is literally given a chance by goku and refuses thus getting diced up #cell torments gohan tortures everyone for a laugh and gets eviscerated as a result #buu is just. there #everyone else reaped what they sowed #theres also the fact that the other 2 siblings have 0 story presence #it would be great if thats set up for them to revive gas n elec #but somehow i dont think thats the case #sighsss honestly the heeters and moro were such a breath of fresh air #since super is in recap mode atm im just revisiting old arcs lmao

[sonknuxadow]

theres multiple reasons i dont like s/urgeamy but one of the things ive seen people do with it that annoys me a bit is the idea that surge and kit are going to become good because surge is gonna fall in love with amy and thats gonna be her only motivation to change.. and im sorry but am i the only one who thinks it would suck so bad for such fun antagonists to instantly switch sides just because one of them was "fixed" by romance and no other reason

#that is not an appealing storyline to me at least not for something like sonic where i dont wanna see canon romance #i DO think it could be interesting if amy being nice to surge and kit is gonna somehow be the start of a redemption arc for them #but not in a romantic way . not in an instant ''well i guess i have to switch sides now because i have a crush on sonics friend'' way #and ive seen some people assume that surge and kit are actually being serious when they come to the restoration as if theyve changed #i definitely dont think this is the case i dont think theyre good guys now #at least not yet it is possible they could calm down one day. but i dont think thats whats going on right now #i dont get why people are so obsessed with shipping amy with everyone anyway #shes just a little guy she should be doing average middle school aged girl activities like playing neopets or whatever #not entering serious romantic relationships . come on #especially considering most of her friends are a bit older than her #also the constant ''haha surge stole sonics girlfriend'' posts are getting on my nerves too #like my reasons for not liking the ship + the fact that the joke has already been made a million times aside. #it just always annoys me seeing amy be reduced to sonics girlfriend when theyre not even dating

[snekdood]

yall are willing to die for trans women and not trans men and we should talk about it actually

#transandrophobia #you'll do anything to protect trans women but dont have that same energy for trans men. interesting. #anyways i think the reason this is is bc ppl like this think bc we're men we dont need to be helped or protected #that somehow we should have figured out how to do this on our own. that we dont need community bc we're already solid and tough enough #which is weird like. how are you trans friendly but then you dont do any other basic progressive shit like #getting rid of gender roles entirely instead of now instead applying them to trans people also? ?? #like you dont get to be all 'men should express their emotions and be vulnerable' and then reinforce the traditional gender roles on- #trans men still. like have you or havent you decondtructed that shit in your head or did you iust see someone reblog something that seema #correct w/o even doing any critical thinking or self reflecting or anything on your end at all #i didnt suddenly become made of rock and become invulnerable when i transitioned. bc that narrative for men in general is inaccurate- #and harmful. and even if i did become super buff and capable of mowing down my enemies that wouldnt mean i dont suddenly need community #that doesnt mean i become immune to bullets or that i dont need a space to express my emotions regarding being trans n shit #like yall really just want to leave us out here to die it seems like. we have nowhere to go. no real community bc yall wont give us the #time of day or compassion or anything. you think 'men bad' and thats the deepest your political analysis goes as far as im concerned. #and if thats the case how much better are you than a terf who just decided they were 'okay' with trans women? #p sure this post was inspired from a trans guy literally being a meat shield for other trans ppl and no one gave a fuck.

[mcybree]

Today i am in a wee bit of pain. If i watched skizzs 3l pov today and made weird bad takes about him on tumblr dot com would yall forgive me

#i havent watched skizzs 3l perspective because letting me blorboify skizz is a bad idea like in general #but #girls can only think about skizz telling bigb that he’ll only kill people who deserve it for so long before they need to— #bite him and tear him apart violently for information #he said thaf and then killed JIMMY. and CLEO. WHAT HAPPENED BROOOO #like thats so. teehee. toohoo #where did things go wrong for you pal #he’s a case study to me. He’s a commentary on society somehow. trust me (DONT) #this applies to ll!skizz too by the way but that’s a whole other thing i fucking love you team best #(thinks about skizz) what does community even mean to us dawg. Like as humans #bree barks so fucking loud #im nervous about my skizz muts man I love my skizz muts. Please ignore me using your blorbo for my nefarious purposes #i just have thoughts. quite a few. tired of not sharing them and pretending im normal about skizz i need to start biting

[llumimoon]

me pulling out a whiteboard: okay so here's how us sparrow apologists can still win-

#cal rambles #dndads spoilers #OK BUT SERIOUSLY THOUGH #at some point Hero's training stopped and they stopped going as hard on her right. #like she would NOT have the time to have a part time pizza job and a NASA internship and be a weeb and a gamer if that was not the case #and i genuinely believe at one point Sparrow realized this was not what she wanted and backed off #leading to the kiddads focusing more on finding a solution themselves instead of involving Hero #OKAY thats my thought process #also think Lark was the main one training her tbh #like Hero's relationship with her three parental figures are all strained #and im not saying what they did was RIGHT or that it makes up for it #but like. Somehow at some point Hero was set free of her duties and someone had to be the one to let her go #and I dont think its Lark 'gets really intense about killing the Doodler' Oak #ALSO SOMETHINGS UP WITH REBECCA

[todayisafridaynight]

any hopes for kiwami 3? like things u wanna see added or changed stuff like that

if they dont keep kiryu's goofy walk stance and the hoof-like walk sounds i dont wanna play it

#snap chats #no one understands how much i love that from y3 and y4 its genuinely one of my favorite things about the game #oh but i guess i have to give an actual answer now. HMPH. #id scream if they revived kanda calling mine limp wristed. homophobia in 4k #OK BUT TO BE SERIOUS uhhhh i dont know. im a real simple guy i think #my only like. If This Isnt There Im Leaving deal is mine's palette and im so serious #rgg's scaring me with all the black-hair/purple-suit mine stuff as of late and i cant stress how hard ill vomit if thats in the final #HYPOTHETICAL final anyways. yk3 isnt coming out for. IDK A WHILE #i wanna say i hope they highlight daigo and mine's relationship more but i dont know how theyd do that #i really like how mine's handled in y3 as is so i dont think i want scenes injected like what they did with yk1 and nishiki #someone said a Mine Saga after the game and... hm ... sounds too unrealistic for me to hope for it #like im REALLY trying to think how they could possibly reference the rggo stories in y3 since those are EXCELLENT but #i think . MAYBE. you could reference the story where richardson calls mine as he's driving to the hospital #the only thing you'd have to exclude though is mine stopping by the bar- like JUST keep the phone conversation maybe #cause in that scene that subordinate does question mine if he can really kill daigo and i think thatd be neat. in my opinion. #yeah i dont know. in regards to rggo its hard to think of what i want without intervening things i already like about y3 #its a real head scratcher ... #a really good epilogue addition would be adapting that RGGO bit where daigo ruminates on mine. that's a fair ending for him i think #it also fulfills the need to see how daigo saw mine even if its just a little #and to non-rggo readers it could start to answer 'how does daigo feel about everything that happened' #im still so curious as to if daigo was briefed on EVERYTHING that happened but .... anyways.... #sorry all my hopes for y3 are just mine/minedai centric fLVKELKA BUT LIKE. i really am content with everything else with y3 surprisingly #idk. i want kiryu fucking up that curry in high definition tho. thats important to me #THEY HAVE TO KEEP THE QTES DURING THE RICHARDSON FIGHT ILL BE PISSED #i need the fight to be AS CAMPY and unnecessary as it was in the og. INCLUDING richardson's voice acting i need it wack as hell #is it weird i actually appreciate the Diet Building Loredumping being like. in replayable-cutscene form #i thought id prefer just One Long cutscene but im glad theres the option to skip those segments #BUT being able to get a refresher in case you missed something somehow #im running out of tags jesus christ i shouldve put this in the main text but vjALjlagj those are all my thoughts for now bYE

[ajdrawshq]

sometimes i cant help but think about the enemy pokemon u find in mystery dungeons and the in-universe reasons for why theyre Like That. like. i know we have a bunch of examples in each game for pokemon that attack u for various reasons (misunderstandings, guarding something, gone berserk from outside influence, just an asshole, etc) but whats going on with the hundreds of mons that spawn INSIDE the mystery dungeons. like those things are already weird even though theyre well known by most residents and they appear pretty much anywhere but theres tons of pokemon that straight up live in those places. and while some have good reason to wander and attack intruders there, some are just. why. why are there Enemy Pokemon in a Mystery Dungeon next to a School. who are you people.

#and like . ok pmd1 mons are influenced by the natural disasters pmd2 are influenced by time pmd3 by despair and pmd4 by. despair again ? #but theyre still like. sentient. right. #also the fact that there are canonically criminals in the pmd world but wheres the line between that and residents of a mystery dungeon #closest thing i can think of that vaguely answers any of this is the spiritomb from the dark future but even thats an extreme AND rare case #it feels like a weird cross between animals just being animals in nature and then. society and everything that comes w that #why are there even cops in pmd anyway.. #more importantly why is there a mystery dungeon next to the school. was it already there when they built the school #or did they somehow generate one???????? theres no way right #why did they think that was a good idea. mystery dungeons are famously dangerous and these mons are like yknow whatd be great #what if we took a bunch of 10 year olds (maximum.) and let them explore one of the most dangerous things known to monkind #yeah thatll be a nice fun learning experience . #< psmd is so goddamn weird (i love it tho i swear) #i would love to know what mystery dungeons would be like without all the game mechanics..... #some of them wouldnt have floors necessarily like the forests n stuff but some would.. the ever-changing layout still applies tho.. #would traps be a thing. or random items just laying around #would kecleon shops even exist inside dungeons realistically. i feel like thatd be awful for business #no no going back to the fuckin school thing. theres literal groups OFFICIAL groups of pokemon made specifically to traverse the dungeons #like most pokemon dont casually wander around those things unless they live there. so why on earth is there one for the SCHOOL #pmd

[princekirijo]

Istg I actually need to sit down and write a proper bio for Riku because even I get confused af as to what his personality is sometimes.

#oc tag #“but prince he's your oc how tf did this happen” he has a mind of his own trust me #i mean this is literally one of the parts of his character he is literally so good at adapting his personality #because he felt he needed to as a kid both in school and in the business world #that barely anyone knows what he's actually like #like one minute he's a suave overconfident guy who can take on anything #but hes also the quiet dude in class who never participates is probably asleep but somehow gets everything right and is top of the grade #he loves to flirt but will absolutely blue screen if anyone flirts back because despite the fact he flaunts himself- #he doesn't think hes attractive LMAO #his biggest motivation is spite and he doesn't know when to quit #this boy has so many fucking issues istg #def one of those characters who has so many masks that he hardly knows himself #i have a fear that he's nearly too complex to the point where he's a confusing character and i personally dont think thats a good thing #so i really hope that's not the case for you guys 😬 #over my break ive really spent time trying to iron out his character and just make him into soemthing im even more proud of you know #the good thing is that at least his story now has a clear arc and theme which im really proud of #so im gonna use that to build off and iron him out even more #the way i put more work into this funky dude i came up with than like my entire uni work #i love him so much sorry to be mentally ill about a guy i made because i liked a ship too much (and crossover i was having fun with too) #one day i will have a proper post for him with references and everything for him his outfits his personas the lot #one of these days

[globodamorte]

chasing tails spoilers if anyone cares about that

can u imagine if Taeyeon was the killer and she was sooo fucking out of touch with reality and just wanted to be famous and rich so she murders her friends to try to ride on the tragedy to make money afterwards.

#like the nanny 2 where the boys friend makes a deal with the devil bc she wants to be famous so she'll just sacrifice ppl #and like she somehow blames seongbin and his whole brotherly drama with dr ju comes out so shes out of the case bc of conflict of interests #but she knows somethings up and the story kinda builds up this seongbin+dr ju are evil narrative while still having a bit of leeway #for ppl to think “hmmm i dont think thats it” so then we get the twist that seongbin was watching from the sidelines and got his memories #jumbled up while taeyeon gaslit him #and itll be even cooler if junho is a good boy in this one bc yes shell even kill junho bc can you imagine??? she lost her best friend #and she can make up that she liked him and that she wanted to ask him out after they survive #and create a whole sob story #and while sure dr ju may be guilty and still have had killed people maybe she comes to an understanding of her familys issues #and like decides not to ruin seongbins life anymore #and maybe she learns mote about her mother about how miserable she was #chasing tails #why am i wasting my braincells on this i hate this fucking webtoon #and maybe theres a whole background as to why she would do such a thing but fr whatever tragic backstory she has she shouldve just #become a communist instead #<<<<this last one is abt taeyeon not dr ju btw

[willczek-art]

~* Late Happy Holidays and early Happy New Year! :D *~

Y'know, last year when I complained about not getting to animate I really didn't think I would end up with A Full-On Animation Assignment, even two if you count my current project!

Also two more zines this year, including first merch ever! :DD I really enjoy these and hope I'll get to contribute to more next year! :P

Thank you everyone for sticking around! I wont be super active for the next 2-3 months, finishing school and all~ But when that's over we'll definitely celebrate with a round of requests or whatever fun thing I can do for y'all ;P Until then, see you in messy sketchdumps~

[I edited last year's template, which doesn't seem to be available anymore ;-;]

[2023]

[2021] [2020] [2019] [2018] [2017] [2016]

#art summary #year of art #art summary 2022 #my art #there are things in here that i havent posted on tumblr - fishcowboy comics i made for class and calamity box gift for a friend #i will dig these up and post them sometime since those are the two things im the most proud of - next to zine pieces ;P #AND MY SKETCHBOOK - i totally forgot!! This is the year when I finally realised how to run my sketchbook in a way thats fun for me!! #and got a surprisingly popular yt video out of that xD #i feel like my inability to render pieces is starting to weight me down so that's something I definitely need to practice next year #also now that i got to animate for school im slowly coming around to the realisation i dooont think it's for me after all... #or im just tired and disappointed with the Final Project so far or both~ #doesnt matter - i have to finish this one and then I'll have few months to chill before I need to get back into the machine xD #idk what fun things i can offer to y'all other than art requests but we will definitely celebrate somehow :v #unless i dont finish this school in which case we will celebrate me not having to move out for another year :v

[toyherb]

I took an assessment in march and finally, finally was able to get my results (because I missed my original appointment back then 🙃) and I have adhd, officially

it's interesting bc the psych was like yeah you dont have any learning deficits but you struggled a little with audio and reading or something like that and I was like hm. I definitely knew those things but it's different from your mouth.

during the test I was really good at the problem solving puzzles with the blocks and the proctor, who admitted to also being add/adhd said most patients never get to the end of all the puzzles, and that she herself had never solved them. autism moment????

#i wish i could have also expressed to them my time and space awareness levels though ._. #i am clumsy and also always late or procrastinating #flowerposts #it didnt really seem like the test was looking for hyperfocusing or stuff like that though #and i dont think autism is part of their uhhh thing #like they dont screen that thats not in their area of expertise etc #and its a mild case probs but i still notice things #its hard i wish i could have a little fairy follow me on my shojlder so they can SEE how i am in life and not need me to somehow explain #or show it on a test

[transgaysex]

my emotions are all over the place

#wind howls #i feel like i am in a state of a mild anxiety attack. #perhaps i am anxious. huh. #atsv left me feeling weird which isnt a bad thing and i know that Specifically will pass. it happened with totk as well #but the travel to the movie and back were not great #so now im not feeling great. my body hurts and i feel vaguely sick. #i think a big part of it is me just. ranting to my boyfriend abt those events and my sibling listening in on me and texting me abt it #i think. that really really bothered me. my own privacy is very important to me. and i hate when it feels like thats taken from me #next time ill just text from the get go i guess. but also im just upset still. #i dont know how my sibling expects me to take their side in an 'argument' when the other side is my 11 year old baby sister. #and its not even an argument. its my baby sister just being a child and my sibling taking offense to her being a kid. #and like. its not even a case of me liking one of my siblings more than another. this is a case of 'youre being needlesly cruel to a kid.' #and somehow they havent realized by now that a kids wellbeing will always be more important to me than literally anything else. #especially when the kid is my own baby sister. #i dont like getting into arguments with my sibling because theyre strong and confrontational but also theyre just 18. almost 19. #theyre an adult ! but they still have all their teenage immaturity and fragility. #which obviously they refuse to acknowledge. because of the aforementioned immaturity and fragility. #genuinely if i had to pick anyone in my family that should talk to a therapist first. it would easily be my sibling. #i hope they get better soon for their own sake because i love them but my patience is running thin.

[robocops-a-christ-allegory]

Something I wont officially decide is fucked up until season 2 drops and we see more of the guys but Ive kind of started to get actually bothered by the way James Gunn made Peacemaker and Adrian Chase, two dudes whos worldview is very much influenced by them both growing up wealthy, like ambiguously middle class at best

#Bothers me more with Adrian then with Peacemaker because I still think peacemaker's dad was a rich guy #cosplaying being poor but in Adrian's case I think hes actually not a rich boy at all anymore #which is weirder for him because he is very much a rich white republican man in the comics. #Like its not something thats really explicitly addressed but its kind of big and with everything else Gunn included #its weird that wouldnt be. Like we're remembering that Peacemaker's racist but not that Adrian Chase is a privleged rich boy whos 'tough- #-on crime'? again maybe itll be revealed he is somehow still a rich boy in season 2 though. I dont know. #still would be weird it wasnt just obvious from the start #And I still think it was a bad choice to like southern red-neck code Peacemaker's dad #even if Im right and he wasnt Actually like that and was just playing into it because hes a nazi freak

[oatbugs]

whenever i pull all nighters my makeup just remains on my already broken out face for like 2-3 days straight and it reaults in sooo many problems afterwards it's becoming my top motivation to not go through this again

#making neuroscience flashcards w my friends #also coming to the conclusion that i do have . friends . like #idk sometimes im 100% alone in the world except for my cat . which is sad #but atm thats v much not the case and it makes me rly happy dkdj #After i finished the essay tm i went home at like . 2smth pm . finished tidying cleaning getting changed etc at 5 . fell asleep around 8 #slept until 3 am and stayed awake until 6 . slept from 6-8 . long long revision seminar 10-1:30 (died) came straight to a study space and #somehow accomplished nothing for like multiple hours and now here i am #walking home to get my logic notebook + laptop . thinking of what modules to apply to . wondering if #wondering if ∀x(∃yLeftOf(x y) ∧ Red(x)) is a sentence of L2 and how it takes me and my friend like 8 hours to do an exam that takes 100% #psych students 2 hours to do . got milkshake and galaxy coke . #also wearing new jeans that has cute bears on it #my campus is having an unironic diversity picnic everyone is smiling sitting on grass moment rn #marxism festival advertised all over + financially unhealthy obsession w baccarat rouge 540 + excited abt finally #being done w my essays + nervous abt exams + dreading the summer holidays bc this whole year has overall been so fun and i dont wanna be #away from it for months #personal

[whomturgled]

SUSAN I NEVER GOT THE WORKSHOP LINK AND IT STARTED 7 MINUTES AGO PLEASE REPLY TO MY EMAILLLLLLLLLL

#HELP............. (her names not actually susan) #i only realized like 15 mins before the thing started bc i was like searching over and over thru every email to see if somehow its hiding #it is not i just never got itttttttt and its not in my spammmmmm #girl helpppppppppppppp i shouldve checked yesterday ooaagugugghghhhh ijust assumed i had it #yesterday susan was like lmk u need me to resend the email from karen ^_^ and i remembered i had an email abt it and didnt think i did #the email isnt the links its just 'fyi ur signed up for some workshops karen will send u an email with stuff to add to calendar hehe' #KAREN WHY DIDNT U SEND THEM......................... im being hate crimed on god........ #i wonder if anyone else got them??????? or if they just remembered to ask for them to be resent again earlier than i did???????????? #THE WHOLE PROGRAM THING IS LIKE U MUST SHOW UP TO EVERY SINGLE THING OR ELSE #and like i already forgot to show up to the 1/2hr checkin thing last night bc i was hyperfocused on working on stuff #so like im guessing if i miss the workshops thats it rip to me #ooooooouuuaaGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i dont have anyone else's contact info from the thing eitherrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr #i knew i shoulda reached out to the one guy i suspect to be a fellow lgbt so i had like one (1) person to rely on just in case but #here we are

[snekdood]

I feel like the idea of "forgiveness" for people who've hurt you is like... Pretty christian based? Bc ngl. Why tf am i forgiving someone who abused me a lot. If we're talking "mental peace"... Well bud i kinda just gotta not think about it or when i do to work on my emotions around it so i can cope better with my trauma. Literally why am i forgiving people who dont regret hurting me and who would never apologize and how exactly does that bring more "peace"? Bc personally id feel like im ignoring something that bothers me a lot just so i can tolerate being around it when idk. Theres people who i definitely dont need to tolerate being around lol.

#forgiveness #quote unquote #some of these people would actively continue trying to hurt me if i was still around them and literally wtf is the use #of forgiveness then??? #being unfazed by their presence seems to be the better alternative as well as ignoring them..? #or idk. literally fucking leaving the room if they arrive. #'forgiveness' is what christians do towards non christians who fail to fail to be christians. its patronizing. its assumptive. #as if those people are somehow spiritually crying out that theyre sorry. thats how christians are w forgiveness. #how tf is what id be doing if i 'forgive' my abusers any different #its 'forgiveness' with the assumption that some day the person whos hurting you or in this case simply not christian will actually #decide you were right and 'apologize' for going against them #idk about you but i dont want to live in a false reality daydream that my abuser will someday be normal and nice and empathetic #how is that a useful belief at all in the long run. im just convincing myself somethings gonna happen that wont. #i think more ppl should go about the world assuming their abuser doesnt give a fuck and never will bc quite honestly that seems more likely #ive never felt peaceful when i attmept to forgive people knowing inside im still upset with them #however i feel much more peaceful when i embrace the fact they dont care and thus i dont have to care about them either 🤷 #like accepting the current facts brings me more relief than speculating on the future. #idk but i kinda refuse to forgive people who dont regret their actions towards me and who dont give af about me #if getting caught up in resentment is the issue... then you need some therapy of sorts to work on the resentment so you can get to a point #where you dont give a fuck if they do apologize. not assume someday like a pretentious asshole that theyll apologize #literally im nowhere near that important to my abusers for them to do that