#but thats because there's nothing to throw up

[redr0sewrites]

ATSV Characters with a Goth S/o

heeeeeyyyyyy guys 😇 *slowly sliding the 100+ REQUESTS in my inbox to the side to make room for a new special interest*

🥀Cw: none, mostly fluff!!!

🥀Pairing(s): Hobie x reader, Miles x reader, Miguel x reader, Spot x reader

Hobie

he would LOVE any type of alternative partner tbh- he just LOOOVESSS that ur goth and will support you 100%

people who go against societies expectations/standards and don't fit in with the norm intrigue him, and your style is probably what piqued his interest in the first place

y'all definitely wear matching fits sorry i don't make the rules- hobie just can't pass up the opportunity to match w you!!! whenever you go to meetings within the spider society he always brings you along, regardless of whether or not you're a spiderperson and hobie loves showing off you and your style

MAJOR "THATS MY PARTNER‼️" VIBES

look me in the eyes and tell me hobia would not absolutely rock some funky eyeliner LIKEEEEE- he def lets you practice on him and will do your makeup for you too!!!

hobie loves thrifting with you, there is no way he isn't a major thrifter and you both definitely DIY a lot of your clothes

HE MAKES YOU GUYS MATCHING PUNK BATTLE VESTS FOR YOUR ANNIVERSARY, AND MAKES SURE THAT IT MATCHES UR AESTHETIC AS WELL!!

hobie absolutely has BLESSED music taste, but while he usually listens to rock, punk, dad rock, or post-punk type of music, i def see him enjoying more gothic/new wave music- especially if u introduce it to him!!!

i see him enjoying bauhaus, sisters or mercy, scary bitches, etc- he'll also give YOU a lot of music recommendations and help to expand ur taste!

hobie would also accompany you to any protests or conventions that you wanted to attend, and would act as your scary dog privileges

YOU TWO DEFINITELY GO TO CONCERTS TOGETHER OMG. I TOTALLY SEE THAT AS A SPONTANEOUS DATE THAT YOU TWO ENJOY A LOT

honestly hobie is a lovely partner to have if you are goth, and he's not only supportive but VERY enthusiastic about your fashion and lifestyle!

Miles

hes such a sweetheart!!! he definitely supports you if you're goth and asks a LOOOT of questions lmao

miles draws you and your fashion a lot, and will def design makeup or eyeliner ideas for you too!!! while ik this is more associated with punk, i also see miles drawing you a few custom patches and stuff like that

your kind of like his muse in a way, and miles just really enjoys sketching you, especially since you have such a unique aesthetic and such cool outfits

HE HAS DEFINITELY GRAFFITIED U SOMEWHERE‼️

he loves watching you get ready and do your makeup. seeing you do perfect eyeliner wings and heavy makeup in general lowkey relaxes him, and he just loves admiring you

im sorry but miles knows absolutely nothing about goth music or culture, ur gonna have to introduce him to a lot of the songs/bands!!!

while i don't think he's huge on the music at first, i think it would grow on him over time. its definitely the type of thing that he loves because YOU love it, and he sees how mu much you enjoy it so he starts listening to it as well so he can talk to you about it

i think his favorite band would be the cure, and his fav songs would either be boys dont cry or the walk (both by the cure- idk why thats so specific but they just kinda fit his vibe yk?)

miles likes holding hands a lot, and he loves when you wear rings or gloves or something along those lines because it just reminds him so much of you! your hands just feel different compared to other peoples and he just loves how unique you are

if you have a lot of piercings, miles would definitely ask about them or buy you specific jewelry for piercings!!!!

overall, very very cute and supportive about your style!!! (he lowkey gives bi wife energy, and iyk what in talking ab then ily mwah)

Miguel

he's pretty indifferent to your style at first, i don't see him as the type to judge much based on appearances. its your personality that really throws him for a loop, and a part of him admires your dedication to making yourself look how you want to look and truly living to be your best self, regardless of what others think

if you think miles knows nothing about being goth then be prepared for miguel bc he knows NOTHINGGGG- no music, no history, no political views, zero, zilch, nada, goose egg

if he cares about you i do see him being intrigued about your style, and once you two are officially dating is when he'll show more interest in your personal fashion sense

he strikes me as the type to like, NEVER listen to music, so he literally only listens to the music you like!!! he does find himself occasionally humming the tune of some strawberry switchblade song or casually listening to a siouxsie and the banshees song while he works, and over time you influence him a LOT with your music taste. he definitely associates any and all goth music with YOU, and that's probably why he starts enjoying it.

he's a "hand on you at all times" type of guy, and while he is rarely touchy with others, miguel is definitely keeping you close. your fashion makes that convenient for him, and he loves pulling you into a kiss by grabbing onto your belt loop or something of the sort

miguel loves how you look with and without makeup on and isn't afraid to tell you that, however, he really likes it if you incorporate his colors or color scheme into your makeup one day. he'll never admit it, but you keep catching him admiring you with the smallest smirk on his face every few seconds

if anyone ever gave u shit for what you wear and how you dress, especially someone in the spider society, you'd practically have to restrain miguel from drop kicking them across nueva york- he doesn't want anyone to be rude to you , and while he knows you can stand up for yourself, he just gets protective at times

Spot

goth? whats that???

he's lowkey such a nerd, and spends too much time being science-y and planning on how to beat spiderman to actually get caught up on fashion

spot doesn't know how he pulled you tbh, but he appreciates you nonetheless!!! he thinks you and your aesthetic are something to be admired, and will unabashedly tell EVERYONE he knows about you

he will shoplift any clothing or jewelry that you want, and he'll even take you to other dimensions where there are better alternative clothes as well

spot doesn't really have a face to do makeup on, but he'll offer to do yours for you! surprisingly enough he's pretty good at it, though he does work pretty slowly

spot loves fiddling with your accessories, whenever he's standing near you he's always reaching out to touch you in some way shape or form. he loves playing with any chains or necklaces you wear, and will help adjust them so that they lay correctly

he helps you get ready in the morning!!!!! if ur the type of goth to wear corsets, he makes lacing them up SO easy and will gladly do it for you

i personally hc that spot HATES seeing himself in mirrors/pictures, it reminds him sm of what he used to look like, but he LOVES taking photos of you and your style!! whenever you are wearing a cute outfit or have funky makeup on, spot adores just taking photos of you

if you ever did a makeup look inspired by him and his spots he would probably CRY :(

URGRHHRHHRRR I LOVE ATSV SMMMMMMM!!!! this post will DEFINITELY have a pt2 w more characters!!!!! i swear tho atsv literally pulled me out of the most horrendous burnout ever i FELT the artblock and writing block lift off of my body as i watched it. IM SO INVESTED I MADE A SPIDERSONA...

#atsv x reader #atsv x you #atsv x y/n #atsv x male reader #atsv x fem reader #atsv x oc #hobie spiderverse #hobie brown #hobie x reader #hobie x y/n #hobie x oc #hobie x you #atsv hobie x reader #atsv hobie #hobie headcanons #atsv miles #atsv miles x reader #miles morales #miles morales x reader #miles morales x you #miles morales x y/n #miles morales headcanons #miguel o'hara #atsv miguel #miguel spiderverse #miguel x reader #miguel spiderman #miguel o'hara x reader #miguel ohara #miguel ohara x reader

[witch-sweets]

Heres a poorly drawn comic about Hat Kid questioning The Prince's personality compared to Snatchers and how they aren't technically that different from eachother when it comes to "evilness"

(Also featuring a human MJ cameo for no particular reason)

In other words:

Peckneck literally becomes innocent in front of kids and his gf only to turn around and sue someone for looking at him funny

You can be a menace to society and still be oblivious and slightly naive when it comes to toxic relationships

Rose tinted glasses and all that

You can also be a menace to society and still be polite when the situation calls for it

Being nice to kids and stuff isn't that hard

Basically I'm trying to make him a mixture of most Prince portrayals in the fandom and a slight menace to society that carries Snatchers snark and chaotic behavior-

#a hat in time #ahit #ahit the prince #ahit snatcher #ahit hat kid #Just the TINIEST bit evil #Human Maj makes a cameo because I said so #Peckneck literally masks in front of the people he likes- #And then decides to throw a moldy orange at his tutor #He can be a bit evil #As a treat #He was always just a LITTLE bit sadistic #He only really embraced it after dying tho #Hat Kid has no idea that he was a menace #Boy is she in for a rude awakening #>:3 #Also for future reference he can only really be a menace when the situation is under control #If something is happening that causes him to P A N I C or get super anxious #That confident smug chaotic persona will crumble #So like say he gets yeeted to the future and nothing is recognizable #Thats panic mode because he has no idea what could happen if he screwed up #He can only be a menace if he has control of the situation #That plus the fact that he is still decently naive make for an incredibly emotionally unstable individual if something goes wrong #Which they do #So if ever lacks the “menace” trait in future fics and stuff #Just know it's most likely because something bad is happening

[todayisafridaynight]

Arakawa family brain rot: I just had the saddest thought about Masato returning from America, but from Masumi's perspective. He's prolly excited to see his son again despite the relationship tension. He's heard Masato has been doing great. His attitude has improved with his health. Maybe things will get better if he tries hard enough.

Maybe there's a chance to fix things.

And there isn't. Masato's just as vindictive and mean and manipulative as he ever was. And Arakawa finally has to mourn the son he never had. The son he told the world had died.

Do you think he ever regretted letting Masato get away with murder? Regretted that it wasn't Ichiban he still had in his life? I have a hard time with this because he loves Masato so much. I just wish he'd had the son who loved him out in the world with him y'know.

But we all know Masato ain't built for prison.

And I can't imagine like... Seeing Jo. Being relieved to see him again but immediately losing confidence because Jo looks so much more *tired* than he did. Ever together and composed but not really His Jo anymore. Not in the same way. It is never the same after he was gone so long.

I'm sure there are moments or even days where they fall into old patterns but I can't help but feel like (if Jo did in fact go to America w Masato) that that would be a defining shift in the relationship between Jo and Masumi.

Idk what this is really about but I got in my Arakawa feelings (I think be instared too long at the picture you posted). 🫰 Thanks for listening to me ramble byyyye~

EVERY DAY of my life i think of arakawa wondering if what they did regarding masato was 'the right choice'- like OF COURSE it was masato literally wouldnt have made it yet if it was the right choice why does it feel like such the wrong choice yeah...

#snap chats #im gonna throw up saying this but like i vaaaaaggguely tickled that topic in the recent fic i posted #not too much but. definitely alluded to the fact ive thought about it.. and have thought bout arakawa thinkin about it.. #god Thrwing Up tho because the beginning f the ask is reminding me of a fic i wrote where masato and jo come back #it doesnt focus on masato for too long but it does follow the vibe of 'arakawa wants to reconnect with masato but Nothings Changed' #so funny that this Forbidden Fic also just follows arakawa reonnecting with sawashiro.. it at least had a happier endin tho oops.. #i think initially seeing sawashiro again could be good for arakawa.. things would prob be fine.. #but with masato- or aoki- back in japan and him Doing His Thing he's definitely going to call for sawashiro more #meaning sawashiro and arakawa are going to be around each other less and less #yk its what arakawa wants tho- for aoki to be given top priority cause thats his son innit #but of course that also means sawashiro doesnt have much time to hang around.. #i realy want them to have a fight about aoki Custody Battle Momence Right but i cant imagine either of them yelling at each other #i cant even really imagine arakawa raising his voice either... at most he just talks very sternly when he's mad i think #GOD it feels weird typnig all this again cause i have typed all this type of thinking in fics lately jAJLKEJVLEKJVW #POINT IS big agree. have thoought extensively regarding these situations #and that reminds me i shoudl... finish taht other fic i started... that i shared with you... #they can have a . nice moment i t hink :) //screams//

[hybbat]

You know a world where your ability to carry something is determined by quantity rather than size or weight is very easy to accept in a video game, because of mechanical convenience, but would probably be so strange in a story in any other medium, and I think a few more books and shows could stand to get a little funkier with the fundamentals of their reality like that.

#just casually make a setting that functions different on a fundamental level #this is genuinely my favourite thing about minecraft fics is the absolutely alien setting #that gets treated very casually and with a 'thats just how the world works' mentality #people can exist in multiple worlds and the code that makes them them can be accessed and casually altered #and no one has any ethical problems with admins doing so #there is a clear and defined divide between players and mobs on all levels except emotional #but also players treat their own body as a toy the change and throw around because death means nothing #minecrafts a good one for it because the game has zero story its just a playground for creativity #but i think about final fantasy where entire skillsets are contained in some item or clothing and swapped between #or gta where it costs money to come back to life #theres plenty of media that explores the idea of lives or retries as a mechanic and a story element #but what about the fact that man made objects being and inherent part of the reality to where #a fundamental function such as peoples lives can be restored by paying money #not in a theres a god of greed sense but in a thats just how reality works #a lot of these things get placed on a godlike being when they do pop up and i think thats the boring route #let your setting just function different beyond magic being present #have the characters world and thus mindset be alien

[arcadequeerz]

I just do not give a single shit about lg-bt-q disc-ourse anymore.

#Cade.Txts #sorry i jsut do not care. #i dont give a fuck about what flag someone does or doesn't use #i dont care about what people call themselves. stop trying to decide shit for othrr people #shut up and fuck off n leave people alone. u dont havr to 'understand' to be respectful #Idc if people use the blue 'gay' flag who cares. use whatever flag u want. #shut the fuck up about mspec gay people we're doing nothing wrong n if i have someone try n start #some shit w me about how i personally identify i will maul them through the god damn internet. shut up. #eat shit. i dont owe a explanation to u about why i'm abro ply gay n if u demand me to explain #im going to tell you to fuck off. #who the fuck cares what people call themselves. u might not like being called queer or whatever n thats cool #but some people do and thats nit a fucking slight aganst u. #and i say 'you' as just in general i guess. this isn't pointed at a specific person. #i dread pride month every year because people r going to throw some shitfit about something snd i jsut #i dont care. can we care about shit that fucking matters instead. #if u legimately call urself a exclusionist in 2023 your a shitstain and do nothing for the community. #grow the fuck up or get the fuck off the internet. #sorry i saw shit n i got mad lol. i'm so tired of peoples bullshit. worry about shit tht matters n not #how someone else identifies or what someone calls themselves- or what flag someone uses. #i'm just going to be unabashedly full of rage now. #i'm queer n trans n im pissed the end.

[lucalicatteart]

Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 12: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression

(✦ see past poll results + further information HERE (link) ✦)

Yesterday's poll decided that The Adventurer should rest for the night in an abandoned barn ...

~

Somewhat nervous about being out in the woods alone at night, he decides to try finding a more hidden sleeping spot, further off from the path. Though with his injuries, and his exhaustion, he knows he shouldn't walk too far. He tells himself that he'll just adventure a little, only an hour or so, and if he can't find anything better by then, he'll just give up and set a tent in some bushes somewhere......

After 30 minutes, he finally stumbles across an old barn. He can't see it very well with just a trickle of moonlight and the dull glow of his flickering lantern, but it seems to have not been used for many years. Structurally sound enough (at least he hopes), yet shrouded in moss and blankets of various overgrowth.. It takes a few moments to pluck away all of the ivy blocking his path, but he soon closes the rickety doors behind him to focus on the interior. There's no space to light a fire or set up a real tent, and he'll have to block a few holes in the walls so wild animals don't sneak in, but, there are a few surprisingly clear looking sections scattered amongst all the musty hay bales and cobwebs. He chooses a "cozy" spot in the corner, hidden behind a few dusty crates. Though he tosses about uncomfortably in his bedding for quite a while, he's eventually able to fall into a peaceful sleep.….....

.. Suddenly, he's startled awake by rustling, catching a dark blurred movement in front of him. He's smart enough to always sleep wearing his backpack over his chest so nobody could just grab it without him noticing, but it seems for the first time in all his travels... someone is actually trying to. Still half asleep, he clings to the bag and yelps, pushing and tumbling away into a moldy wooden barrel after an initial struggle. He pulls himself up to face the hooded figure now looming above him, entirely obscured aside from their vague cloak-ish shape outlined by the faint moonlight behind them.. The Adventurer calls out in a shaky attempt at an aggressive tone, "Wh-wh.. whAT are YOU DOIng? WHo-whu..UHHH??? aahhhG" "Give me the bag." The hooded figure speaks in a smooth, stern, yet calm voice, slowly taking a step forwards. The cat scrambles to The Adventurer's side, hissing and giving a low growl.. "w-WELL , uh,, sORRY , n-NO , I would rrrather not DO THAT, I h-- I uh-- I don't have even anythi- I don't even have ANYTHING, I mea- wh-wh HWaAt d-do I look RICH to you?? EUggh-" he gulps loudly, holding back nervous vomit, "B-BACK OFF!! you-.. f- uh.. THIEF!!!!!" The hooded figure pauses for a moment, as if re-strategizing how to approach the situation. "Look, kid, I don't want to hurt you. But I need you to give me that egg." "WHWh-what egg? I-I don.. DON'T have an EGG, I'm uh…aCTUALLY a-allergic to eggs, s-sso-" "The egg that's in a wooden box. In your bag. Don't waste your time bullshitting me.. Come on, let's make this quick." The hooded figure extends their arm, motioning to be handed the egg. Still desperately fighting not to throw up everywhere, The Adventurer simply sits on the floor, staring up at the hooded figure blankly as he tries to think.. Is he seriously being robbed for the first time? Is that like, a cool milestone, or a bad one? He's read about it in adventuring books before but... the reality feels so much different.. How can he get out of this? Strategies scatter through his mind, but he's too shaken to find any clear answers.. What should he do?

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Additional Information

the adventurer's current main quest: follow his map to reach the abandoned castle ruins and see the rare animal specialist about the mysterious egg he has

#paventure posting #poll #polls #choose your own adventure #for the record - if he had gone to the stranger's cottage. walked all the way to the villiage. or kept walking all night. the hooded figure #wouldnt have had a safe place to corner him and would have had to wait for another day. all the other options #(abandoned barn. sleep out in the woods. etc.) would lead to the same thing #The dice lady was letting him know someone has been following him. perhaps multiple someones #I was also going to include the options 'threaten to blow up the entire barn with magic and then nobody gets the egg' #and an option for him to just throw the egg on the ground and break it #but those seem more out of character and also breaking the egg would end his quest anyway since he would have nothing #to bring the Innkeeper's brother anymore lol #also a 'tell the cat to attack the robber' option but I was afraid too many people would choose that thinking it was #funny or a cool way out of the situation when like.. realistically the cat would get hurt actually and I don't want to endanger them #or have to write about them getting harmed lol. WHICH I know is a choice. I could be like 'wow the cat is actually a #magical cat and they explode the person and win hooray!' . but it feels too far fetched given the hooded stranger's background #they're not going to be like completely incapacitated by one small cat #things must be goofy and silly and fantasy but also.. underlying realism to an extent #I held back on not making him get more injuries after sailing down a river in a dinky little raft because I really think thats probably #quite dangerous hjknjk. I stated it was a very slow moving river specifically to make it seem a little more plausible but #I feel like in real life the current would just smash your raft into a rock in like 10 minutes lol #ANYWAY.. uh oh. boy in danger! #he can get out of it though. I believe in him #somehow an unskilled swagless penniless nervousboy can still make his way in the world #(he does have SOME skills ghhgh.. just like. not really adventuring suited ones. since he just started adventuring like #less than a week ago and has no training or practical experience aside from reading a lot of storybooks) #also I know his belt thing is on the wrong shoulder... shhhh... I still don't feel good and drew very quickly and am not #going back to make changes lol

[glsneeg-enthusiast]

forcing you to think about how sneeg genuinely thought frank was alive

#generation loss #i saw someone be like “what if sneeg and frank were actually together before frank died” and i havent known happiness since #and it made me think that sneeg thinks hes still alive because showfall doesnt even let him see the skeleton that everyone else sees #and having that idea in my head while watching spirit of the cabin makes me want to throw up and cry #like.. what if sneegs been dragging around his partners corpse because showfall thought itd be funny... #why would you do that.. #forcing you to think about sneeg seeing frank as actual human frank and not the skeleton or the corpse #what if sneeg kind of knows that franks dead but hes clearly right there so he cant be and thats why hes so adamant about frank being alive #me after having serious thoughts about a bit that adds like almost nothing to the lore #unironically shipping sneeg and frank rn #frank was alive and was sneegs lover canon

[camelspit]

#Besides filinh it is the ship i want to happen least i think #Because like. It just doesnt make sense. #I look at it and feel absolutely nothing #putting aside queer hcs and focusing purely on canon. Its just? Boring? Imo #Like there wasnt even much buildup? They became friends #And then shannon decided to start throwing in blushing one day #Like the only other main ship for biana rn is tam and at least thats a bit interesting!! #Two sides of the same coin a bit #From the start they always drowned under expectations. Biana lives up to them and tam turned away from them #Like i can get behind that #Dexiana just feels. flavorless. #Like someone went oh yeah lets just shove these last two characters together #I think i saw a post once where it was like #Dexiana shippers are more focused on dex and tiana shippers are more focused on biana #And i think i can see that to an extent! #Dex is the one mainly involved. Hes the one building up trust with biana and blushing #And biana is the one blushing around tam and supposedly liking silver bangs #Ah! I dont talk about canon much oops #This is just how i feel! If you are a dexiana shipper good for you! Id actually be interested to hear why you ship it! #Because i just. Cant get behind it. #kotlc discourse #Kotlc

[uris-stanley]

controversial maybe but i do think the stancy resurrection was fitting with their characters and the plot but i don’t think it means they’re going to get together

#the worlds crazy again and nancys scared and jonathan is being weird and isnt their but Steve Is #so she falls back into it because it was always safe and easy to be with steve #and steve literally never got closure. he was in Love and nancy lied to him and cheated on him and they never talked it out #hes still hung up on that ofc Especially because he wants to be in love again but every girl falls short #robin and eddie and everyone also arent helping cause they keep talking abt how they obviously shld be together #so they both fall back together cause its easy and safe but. its not what they really want #they need to actually finally talk. they need to end their romantic relationship once and for all and get closure #itd be great if steves the one leading this too. if he sees it going too far and just. realises that this isnt right. nancy doesnt love him #and thats what all this has been. not building them to be endgame but giving them the opportunity to revisit and finally be okay #nancy needs to validate steve and his traits and reassure him there’s nothing wrong with him cause he’s probably insecure after their breaku #only then will he stop trying to throw himself into a relationship and just. exist. happily as steve harrington #(and then nancy relays the message to mike and he breaks up w el and byler canon baby) #st #stranger things #st4 #jancy is still going to be endgame beloveds #stranger things 4

[1980ssunflower]

oh god

#vent #i feel like im going to throw up my mom is just telling me to learn how to work w ai art programs since by the time im her age #ai art is going to completely take over all art jobs #and i need to learn that since thats all art is gonna be apparently #if the world really gets to that point id fucking kill myself why would i want to live in a world like that HOW COULD I LIVE IN A WORLD #LIKE THAT I FCANT BREATHE ITS TOO MUCH I CANT TAKE IT #I DONT WANT THIS I DONT WANT THIS I NEED THIS AI SHIT TO STOP I DONT KNOW HOW ILL LIVE IF ALL MY ART ENDS UP MEANING NOTHING #IF ALL THE YEARS IVE PUT INTO ALL MY HOBBIES MEANS FUCKING NOTHING BECAUSE AI TAKES OVER IT ALL #i cant live in a world like that i genuinely cant i wouldnt want to live if i couldnt... really be an artist anymore if ai really just #takes my job as an artist ive been working towards #drawing is the only thing i have... #and i cant be a musician cause i fucking hate the music industry right now #its already so hard for me trying to live in this present day but if things got even further in this bullshit i dont know how id live #sorry for talking so much i just feel scared and panicked #why would my mom say this shit to me i recently told her how scared i was at the idea of ai taking away my dream as an artist

[savage-rhi]

I'm very much a, "fuck yeah and fuck you, I don't need validation! I'm me, cunts!" kinda fella, but sometimes I could use support.

#today i fucked up by reactivating my fb account which i haven't done in 2 yrs just to check on some folks id been sending good thought to #place is depressing everyone is miserable and everything feels fake and my mind is like #LOL this is why we left bitch byeeee #so i deactivated again went to work and idc what anyone says there are folks like me that can and do feel the energy and emotions coming of #people and it can fucking suck especially when so many are disregulated so i got a sensory overload and boss was nice enough to let me take #a bunch of breaks today and even scream in her office cause She Gets It (TM) #the weather is rainy and cold i'm getting so many fibro flares idk how i'm moving anymore #ive missed so many days of work already and it's not even fully winter yet i still have my job and im thankful i have an understanding team #but that doesnt pay the bills im still trying to find a way to pay for that doctor appointment coming up #graduate courses began for college and i think i'm gonna be okay but damn did they throw too much info all at once at me and that made #my adhd brain go WELL SHIT #ive been feeling incredibly lonely and not wanted in so many spaces that im struggling to even communicate with the few that i know do #love me for me and nothing else im trying so so so hard to keep being there for people and to keep loving #people that need it cause i don't ever want another human being to ever feel as miserable and unwanted as i have felt #but im also tired because i feel like thats all anyone ever sees me as just this being that can take their woes away and make them feel #amazing and i love that i can do that and listen to so many traumatic stories and help folks process that trauma my boss and many throughou #life have told me i have a gift for healing people and a vibe to me thats different than most and it feels good being around me but today i #just felt like people keep taking and taking and taking and i dont expect anything back thats not who i am id rather give than receive #but damn it i just wish someone could just give me the biggest hug in the world dont even have to say a thing just hold me and be present #and hold space for me to just feel weightless id cherish that more than anything in the world right now #on a positive note... #my dinosaur vo stuff got traction im getting a new cosplay put together i havent done that in 4 years i got to pet a wild deer i made #a coworker laugh so hard his juice went out his nose and my boss peed a little #im slowly taming another wild flock of turkeys and i got a bag of my favorite takis the guacamole flavor #i got a lot to be thankful for and i acknowledge it #but damn it im tired #thank you for coming to my Ted Talk rant and rave #if you made it this far: you're an incredible human being and i love you #please go treat yo self to something nice and know i love you for you

[garlic-sauc3]

"dc stands for disregard canon" "canon is whatever I want it to be" sure, but you still have to know canon before you decide to break it. you need to have read the source before deciding to throw it out the window, at least

#i love cherrypicking canon and figuring out what parts you like and what parts were bullshit writing #but also if you dont know the source material than you cant just write whatever you want for characters you dont know/understand #and say its an alternate universe or youre just throwing out canon #because thats not throwing out canon. thats writing ocs #and then we start playing a game of telephone where the fan stuff is not at all like the original #because everyones basing it off of the things based on nothing and we forget canon #god why is this so prominent in dc you can literally just pick up any comic and read it it is so easy

[thisgodwontforgiveyou]

when i think about my favorite hannibal characters its almnost impossible to see them as characters like despite being an entirely Character based series its all one big meshed together thing like youre just sitting with will holding hands scared in the dark the whole time

#like will being my favorite character feels like it means nothing because es just the vehicle by which hannibalisms are delivered #hannibalisms meaning liike. the show's showness not hannibal hiimself #if anything will is more responsible for the hannibalness of hannibal than hannibal #anyway this is all to say thats why im not like constantly throwing up freaking out losing my mind #over margot who to and outside observer would seem to literally be a character i won a contest to have put into the show for me personally

[rohirric-hunter]

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#Okay OCs can we give it a rest with the character info that's legit too fucked up for me to do anything with #Not going into details because No but really! #Fantastic insight into some thematic foils I could potentially throw up against your character Hathellang thats great #Now lets all collectively work on bleaching it out of our minds forever okay #Its nothing to do with anything thats actually canon about him but its just that he wants a fucked up dark au #Where he becomes the worst version of himself a la Léonys in the let there be fire verse #Hes decided just now #Except the worst version of Hathellang as it turns out is. Kinda fucked up. In a not very fun way. #So ive vetoed it and hes sulking #Its not my fault that you are the way that you are buddy #I mean it kind of is but we both have to deal with it #I should be grateful hes so cooperative honestly #I had another oc once who when I gave him a nominal understanding of the fact that he was fictional #In order to facilitate these little chats #Promptly decided that the most interesting thing about him was that he preferred pancakes to waffles #And then fucked off and refused to take part in the story anymore #At least Hathellang is working with me on this

[elegyofthemoon]

22, 25

22. reminds me of a character

HAHAHA honestly i was lowkey hoping someone would toss this at me so

i could explain myself but listen. these lyrics just resonated w so and so character 🤭

Setting my hair on fire Giving you warmth Hoping you'd rеalize I want you by my side

Thought I would be satisfied Seeing you content At the other side But somehow I thought These crazy thoughts That I deserve to be loved I deserve to know love We deserve to live in love

Should I be mad? Should I be glad? Am I enough? How can I be enough So I'm proud of myself? Reaching my goals Distracting my feelings changed Nothing at all I'm still my insatiable self Isn't it better to be dumb? To be ignorant? Not knowing there is liberty In this world not meant for me

25. i want to hear in a grocery store

honestly anything off my 2 pm playlist ! so here's one of them

#no i will not say which character ! you will simply have to guess who thats for :) #answered #BUT LISTEN #TO RAMBLE MORE BECAUSE I WONT SHUT UP ABOUT THIS SONG #IVE BEEN DEEEESPERATELY WANTING OT TALK ABOUT IT AND HOW IT APPLIES TO THE CHARACTER ALLLL THIS TIME SINCE I HEARD IT #(probably 3 months now idk) #BUT LIKE (SHAKES ANGRILY) #ITS THE SELF SACRIFICING THE DESPERATE NEED FOR LOVE BY DOING ALL YOU CAN SUCH AS SELF SACRIFICING #BUT IT CHANGING NOTHING AT ALL #then you wonder if its better to not put as much effort if it means more love #etc etc etc THROWS UP. #NOTHING LIKE CHARACTERS THAT THROW THEMSELVES INTO THE FACE OF DANGER FOR THE SAKE OF LOVE BC THEY DONT LOVE THEMSELVES ENOUGH!!!!! #CRIES !!!!!!!!!!!! I GUESS !!!!!!!!!!!

[ouchhq]

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#im exhausted #im so tired of everything i just cried my eyes out and i want to throw up #i am so tired of meaning nothing to no one i feel like im just here to be kind and show people theyre loved and appreciated and get #treated like thats just what i am and what i do #like . none of my friends from different friend groups apparently give a shit about me #i feel like im always putting my feelings and my whole being aside to make sure everyone feels valued and appreciated but no one does that #for me #i have been feeling like SHIT for forever and lately more than usual but i say nothing because i dont wanna burden people with the weight #of me and my issues… but i subtly let them know and i know they know #and still people come to me only for support theyre like ‘hey how areu u’ and when i //jokingly// say i feel like shit (because i dont #bother lying anymore) they just dismiss it and proceed to say how they’re having issues and whatever and being the stupid caring idiot i am #i ask them if they wanna talk about it and all of that and i try to support them but i never ever get that back and it fucking sucks !!!!!!! #IT SUCKS ASS I WANNA SCREAM #i feel so lonely #i was talking about this with some people how i always try to make everyone fee comfortable even if it means making myself feel #uncomfortable and i always put myself aside and let others shine and #stupid example but listen: i went to gardaland with my friends last night. there were 3 of us. i was always ALWAYS behind them #third wheeling #why? because theyre much more confident and generally speaking self absorbed and they feel that they have to be at the front at all times #and im not saying this because i dislike them im just saying because ive known them for years and ive studied their behavior #and i let them stay in front butbi spent the whole night walking behind them and waiting in line behind them and they just left me there #but how come im always the only one who tries to fucking care for everyone ????? is anyone ever gonna care for me?? ever???? #i feel so lonely and worthless i just want to cry