#darryl speaks

[werewolf4vampire]

EDIT: updated version of this post here, disabling reblogs on this one. thank you everyone <3

ugh okay i've really been putting this off but i'm finally giving in and doing a donation post

i'll try to keep it short. as some of you know, we lost a beloved pet last month during a surgery. this, combined with other vet bills for him and our other pet, medications, etc. has added up to currently $1,992. the surgery has an extended payment plan, so that's not as urgent, but about $400-500 is going to be due sooner or we'll start to be hit by interest.

i also need to make arrangements for the cremation, and i'd like to get a couple of things that i can only get beforehand (such as a clay paw print). i can wait on things like a nicer urn, but i don't know how much the cremation + other items will cost

we also have $1,456 on our credit card that needs to be paid off. and, because it's the new year, i'm starting to get hit with some very expensive copays for my doctors appointments and medications 🙃

my partner and i are both disabled and unable to work, so we've been getting by with some help from my parents, but they're also starting to have a tight budget. we're not at risk of homelessness or anything like that but this has been extremely stressful and had a very big negative impact on my health so any help would be hugely appreciated!!

here's my p*ypal and i'd be happy to send proof of these bills to anyone who asks

#sorry this isn't actually that short lmao. oh well #darryl speaks

[marinahariyama]

can you only get oranges if your island started with them or someone gives them to you??? because to this day, i have never seen them on any nook mile or tour islands :(

#darryl speaks #animal crossing new horizons #animal crossing #acnh

[werewolf4vampire]

couldn't figure out a way to embed this so uh. just posting it like this

#if anyone knows how i'd love to know. maybe you can't do it with tiktoks? idk #vid #darryl speaks

[werewolf4vampire]

ugh okay i've really been putting this off (again) but i am finally remaking my donation post!

as some of you know, we lost our baby boy last month during a necessary surgery. this, combined with other vet bills for him and our dog, medications, etc. has added up to currently $1,992 $2,023, which has gone up due to interest.

the surgery has an extended payment plan before it starts to acrue interest, so that's not as urgent, but some of our other vet bills have entered the interest phase

above is the bill for the surgery, plus a handful of other recent vet bills (they say $0 balance due bc we paid with CareCredit, so there's nothing due at the vet but we still have to pay it off the card)

i still need to make arrangements for the cremation, hoping to get an estimate this Friday. our dog needs a dental cleaning this month as well which i expect to be around $600, based off of the price last year

we also still have over $1000 on our credit card that needs to be paid off 😮‍💨

my partner and i are both disabled and unable to work, so we've been getting by with some help from my parents, but their finances have been tighter lately too. we live with them so we don't have to worry about housing or anything like that, but this has still been very stressful and had a negative impact on my health so any help would be hugely appreciated!!

p*ypal link

c*shapp link

and thank you so so much to everyone who's already donated, i cannot overstate how much i appreciate it <3

#hopefully this is a bit better now with the photos and stuff #i tried to shorten it some as well #darryl speaks #mystuff

[werewolf4vampire]

okay also since my other donation post didn't do too well, i'm gonna do something more simple too lol

i really need to buy more medical cannabis for my chronic pain and panic attacks. i have a coupon thankfully but it'll still come out to be around $50 which is kinda a lot for us right now. obviously not the most urgent thing but it would significantly improve my quality of life so, anything helps 💙

p*ypal link

c*shapp link

i can also dm my v*nmo, i just would prefer not to put it publicly on the post

thank you!

#myposts #darryl speaks

[werewolf4vampire]

it is crazy that to this day i still see posts claiming that having a bunch of adults convince youto identify as ace at like 13 years old is completely harmless. like i have LOTS to say about my experiences during this time but tldr, it caused a massive amount of harm to my perception of myself, my sexuality, sexuality in general, and sex. for YEARS. i'll put a break here cause the rest got kinda long lmao

i was 13 or 14 when i first "realized" i was asexual. and a couple years later, when i grew out of it - because yeah, turned out it was basically just because i was a kid, with a side of stress and medication - i was so entrenched in the community and the way they talked about disgusting filthy sinful "allos" that i ended up mislabeling myself as fucking hypersexual to cope with the guilt and confusion. i was 16. i was bisexual, i was just your average horny teen, and they had me literally convinced that how much i was interested in sex was pathologically abnormal. i felt like a freak, and incredibly demonized

the worst part of all though is that to this day, it's still almost impossible to talk about these things because people will just plug their ears and accuse you of being aphobic. and despite me being FAR from the only one to go through this, it's easy for them to dismiss it, because many people are afraid to bring it up, don't feel like it's worth the backlash, or don't want to bother arguing with brick walls, so i appear to be an outlier. that lends more credence to the "you're just aphobic" claim in their eyes

at the same time, i still felt the need to identify as ~demisexual~ because i still felt so ashamed of the idea of being "allo" that i couldn't fully let go of an ace label. essentially, i ended up rationalizing my sexual feelings as being something i didn't want to experience, it was just my disorder - because wanting it, enjoying it would be yucky disgusting. i think i literally had "hypersexual biromantic demisexual" in my bio for a bit lmaoo

i think my being bisexual made me especially susceptible to being afraid of being seen as promiscuous and overly sexual. the ace community was very biphobic then too - probably still are to some extent if only because everyone is biphobic, but i don't run in those circles at all anymore so who knows

(which to be honest, even if i were, it's not exactly as if the traumatic experience of sexually inappropriate interactions with manipulative adults and puritanical group shaming doesn't warrant some kind of fear looool)

"what's the worst that can happen if a kids misidentifies as asexual for a while, not having sex?" is a frankly laughable question

#sorry this is not as cohesive as it seemed in my head #mostly just turned into a rant #& it's also hard to talk about to ppl who haven't been on tumblr for a decade bc there's so many things abt the culture then to explain lmao #darryl speaks

[werewolf4vampire]

pokémon go update somehow just added a more robust body type options that 90% of real actual video games

#this is unbelievable #darryl speaks

[werewolf4vampire]

went to look at the IMDb page for creepshow and

cringe

#this is so funny to me #darryl speaks

[werewolf4vampire]

johnny cash's cover of Hurt will never be better than the original and the only reason people say it is is bc he made it more palatable + died soon after

#i hate the way he changed the guitar line to be less discordant and changed the lyrics lmao #like i like johnny cash and i don't think it's bad necessarily but the way so many people think it's better makes me crazy #darryl speaks #music

[werewolf4vampire]

does anyone have that meme with the cat that says like. "ow my balls" or maybe just "my balls!" or something?

#i can't find it 😭 #darryl speaks

[werewolf4vampire]

get a load from this guy

#found this in the drafts. this rules #why didn't i post this? #darryl speaks

[werewolf4vampire]

NEW SHIRT YEAAAAHGG

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#was SO excited to get this bc i love this movie and i've never seen merch for it #it was a tiny splurge to myself but it wasn't that expensive + i'm still slowly trying to replace my wardrobe after the weight gain #darryl speaks #myposts

[werewolf4vampire]

people who think being "allo" is an actual axis of privilege continue to be extremely normal, i see

#sorry just the sentence 'whiny lil alloromantic queers' is so fucking funny to me #yes please call us whiny and immediately follow it up with a slur. you truly are the Most progressive of them all #darryl speaks

[werewolf4vampire]

trying frantically to find sources about how being fat and eating sugar doesn't cause diabetes before i talk to my mom about my blood sugar lmao but search engines hate giving me information

#it's... high. and 3 liver enzymes are high #i'm kinda hoping it's just stress or it's at least still reversable at this point but #my mom has diabetes and i know she's buying into the weight loss thing really hard (she's on some horrific medication to lose weight rn) #she says she's lost weight but idk how. i've never lost weight through starving myself #but yeah this is awesome i definitely hope i have one more health issue that doctors are likely to abuse me abt #darryl speaks

[werewolf4vampire]

if you feel comfortable adding, I'd be curious to know what your dominant hand is! i have no idea if there's any correlation but I feel like there might be haha

#had the idea for this bc i can wink both eyes pretty well but my fiancée can only do her right eye (& she has to scrunkle her face hehe) #so i got really curious like. what's the most common side people can wink on? #polls #darryl speaks

[werewolf4vampire]

i can't read r/relationship posts bc every time i just wanna say "you should kill him"

#often times it's at least partially joking. sometimes it's not #darryl speaks