#experienced / most sheltered person in the room. and some of that isn’t my fault bc it’s a product of 💖generational trauma💖 but some of it i

[pepprs]

ykw that was exactly the thing i was vaguing about earlier this morning btw (sorry). since saturday night the whole topic of [pausing here to transform into a hideous beast because of the word my phone was trying to suggest i put after ‘topic of.’ like could this get any more meta and/or disturbing] anyways the whole topic of.. me and how i am or am not situated like.. r*mantically. it’s been multiple times every day since saturday night that it’s come up in posts i see in irl convos in photo memory reminders in shows my family is watching etc. ajd im not like mad at anyone/thing for posting / talking about it it’s just i feel like exploding a little bit between me myself and i that’s all

#purrs #i know i am 23 years old and i have a lot of life left ahead of me. but i think it’s just hard because im almost always the least #experienced / most sheltered person in the room. and some of that isn’t my fault bc it’s a product of 💖generational trauma💖 but some of it i #is ithink. im skittish like a horse. i had to cut off my life here when i went abroad and then covid hit and i think i got so used to things #being fucked up and to seeing fewer people that isolation became normal for me and now trying to push myself past that is terrifying and i #get so easily overwhelmed by socializing and i hate it but also that’s everyone rn i guess bc we are living in hell. but im skittish like a #horse. i have damaged friendships with people i really cared about because they told me they liked me and i couldn’t handle that and im #haunted every single day by the thought of how i mishandled things at 17-18 and probably caused certain individuals a lot of pain that they #may still be feeling and i want to apologize but that might only make it worse so i never can. and ofc like im jealous and insecure bc ive n #never even been like.. idk. the closest i ever got to being in a relationship was w one of those ppl and i ran away at the point that we rec #reciprocated and i just feel stupid and defective and i hate that if i had to do it all over again i would probably do the same thing. #ive grown a lot emotionally in the last 5 years but im still so like… weak in some ways and there’s common sense / natural compassion things #that i can sense Wojld make sense to do but i just can’t. i am not a good friend or family member right now and so how on earth could i ever #be a good partner to someone. but also uhmmmmmmmmmmmmm life is very very hard to do alone and i would like to not do it alone. and i know #there’s hope but i also like. can’t handle it. idk. it’s a mess and im just depressed about it so hopefully talking about it candidly will b #be enough to like.. eliminate the possibility of it coming up again bc it’s hard enough when im not thinking about it it’s even harder when #there are signs and reminders everywhere that i am young and inexperienced and feeling cringefail misery and doom and jealousy about it #delete later #its also fucking insane bc you grow up and realize what you’ve been missing out on bc you were a kid and it’s like how do i even get there a #and then the older adults you live with and interact with regularly rub it in your face both intentionally and unintentionally and sometimes #without malice but it’s still like… can there please not be about 15 examples of the exact thing i want that are unavoidable and inescapable #at al times by virtue of my life situation rn. in the back of my mind there is always a thread agitated by that and it sucks

[bloojayoolie]

Being Alone, Andrew Bogut, and Cats: Athena Sweet big girl a little shy, friendly affectionate and playful. Wonderful with the smallest kids Good with other pooches. Friendly with a kitten she met. Slept in her previous owners bed. Is very housetrained. Enjoys to cuddle and gives kisses ID # 22211 4 yrs old, 62.3 lbs Waiting on Love @ Manhattan ACC **** TO BE KILLED - 3/15/2018 **** Sweet Athena was bought from a breeder when she was a puppy. Now her owner is moving and isn't allowed pets in her new apartment and Athena finds herself alone in a big shelter. She must be quite confused. She was used to she sleep on her owners bed and was with her family all her life. She was friendly with the smallest children, playful with other dogs and sweet with a kitten she was around for one day. Now she is so happy to be in the company of the volunteers, to have someone to be close and to cuddle with - wagging and smiling, making new friends. Please share lovely Athena for a wonderful new home - that hopefully can be hers forever. A volunteer writes: Love, Love, Love...but our Greek goddess plays hard to get. But soon, Athena accepted my leash and off we went for a long stroll around the nearby park. Athena is a great cruiser, very house trained and very proper with every single dog neared as well as with the naughty squirrels. She is a "bench girl" who enjoys a good cuddle, pressing her body against mine and giving kisses. Yes, the ice was broken quite quickly between us, and I heard just the same from staff and other volunteers. Although she did not grant me a "happy face" (she did a lot of wiggly body and wagging tail), I know (there is a photo to prove it) that she was all smiles and bright eyes for a favorite staff. Athena is with us through no fault of her own. Her owners moved to a place not allowing pets. Her sweetness was her hallmark, and she is described as welcoming to strangers, wonderful with kids of all ages and good with other pooches. What's not to love about Athena? A great friend she was and will be, a calm walker, a book or TV buddy and a most understanding confidant. Athena could be the one and only pet, the gem you have been looking for. Come to the Manhattan Care Center, ask to meet Athena in person and take her home. VIDEOs: From Greek Goddess to ACC Goddess <3 https://youtu.be/U8BE26yzGCE https://youtu.be/eBzslEP6YO0 Athena ID# 22211 MANHATTAN ACC Estimated to be 4 yrs old, 62.3 lbs BLACK / WHITE FEMALE OWNER SURRENDER: due to changes in owner's living situation / moving Intake Date: 03-05-2018 ** SHELTER ASSESSMENT: EXPERIENCED HOME ** PROFILE: Basic Information: Athena is a 4 year old female large mixed breed dog. She was bought from a breeder when she was a puppy. She was surrendered because her previous owner is moving and isn't allowed pets in her new apartment. Previously lived with: 2 adults How is this dog around strangers? Around strangers, Athena is friendly and outgoing and exuberant at play with adults. How is this dog around children? Athena has spent time with children from newborn to age 15. She was relaxed and affectionate and exuberant at play. How is this dog around other dogs? Athena has spent time with all types of dogs and is playful and exuberant at play. How is this dog around cats? Athena has spent time with a stray kitten for 1 day. She would lick the kitten and follow her around the house. Resource guarding: If her food bowl was touched while eating, Athena moved over and was relaxed. She was playful if a treat or toy was taken away from her Bite history: Athena has never attempted to bite a person or animal. Housetrained: Yes Energy level/descriptors: medium Other Notes: Athena barks if she hears loud noises. She isn't bothered if she is pushed off furniture, disturbed while sleeping, if her coat is brushed, or if her nails are trimmed. She is friendly if she is held or restrained, if she is given a bath, or if an unfamiliar person approached her home or previous owner. Has this dog ever had any medical issues? No Medical Notes Athena was last seen by a vet 1 year ago. She has no known injuries or medical concerns. For a New Family to Know Athena is described as friendly, affectionate, playful, shy, and excitable. Her previous owner likes that she's sweet. If her previous owner was home she would follow her around. She likes to play with squeaky and stuffed toys. She likes to play fetch and tug. She was kept indoor only and at night she slept in her previous owners bed. She ate dry Dog chow. She is house trained and never had accidents in door and is wee wee pad trained. She is well behaved when left alone indoors. She knows the cues, sit, and down, speak wait and up. She was taken on walks 2-3 times a day for brisk walks. She pulls on leash and off leash she stays by your side. BEHAVIOR: Behavior Notes: Athena had a wagging tail when approached and allowed me to pet and scan her. She licked my hand and had a relaxed body. She allowed me to collar her and take her photo. When she saw another dog in the lobby, she began to pull towards him and cry. When going in her kennel she hesitated and backed away. She stepped up into the kennel with her first two paws and after she was tapped on her back paw she went in. Date of intake: 5-Mar-2018 Spay/Neuter status: No Means of surrender (length of time in previous home): Owner Surrender (In home for 4 years) Previously lived with: Adults Behavior toward strangers: Friendly and outgoing Behavior toward children: Relaxed and affectionate Behavior toward dogs: Playful and exuberant Behavior toward cats: Good with a kitten she met Resource guarding: None reported Bite history: None reported Housetrained: Yes Energy level/descriptors: Athena is described as friendly, affectionate, playful, shy, and excitable with a medium level of activity. SAFER SCORES: Date of assessment: 7-Mar-2018 Look: 1. Dog's eyes are averted, with tail wagging and ears back. Allows head to be held loosely in Assessor's cupped hands. Sensitivity: 1. Dog leans into the Assessor, eyes soft or squinty, soft and loose body, open mouth. Tag: 1. Dog follows at the end of the leash, body soft. Paw squeeze 1: 2. Dog quickly pulls back. Paw squeeze 2: 2. Dog quickly pull back. Flank squeeze 1: Item not conducted Flank squeeze 2: Item not conducted Toy: 1. Minimal interest in toy, dog may smell or lick, then turns away. Summary: Athena approached the assessor in the assessment room with a soft body and solicited attention by jumping up. She was social throughout the assessment, allowed all handling, and displayed no concerning behaviors. Summary (1): 3/6: When introduced off leash to the male greeter dog, Athena tolerate polite greeting and some play solicitation. When play becomes persistent, Athena offers a brief growl, then moves away. Date of intake: 5-Mar-2018 Summary: Athena had a relaxed body and allowed handling. Date of initial: 5-Mar-2018 Summary: Athena allowed handling. ENERGY LEVEL: Athena's previous owner described her as having a medium level of activity. BEHAVIOR DETERMINATION: EXPERIENCE (suitable for an adopter with some previous dog experience, especially with the behaviors outlined below) Potential challenges: Kennel presence Potential challenges comments: Kennel presence: Athena appears fearful in her kennel, growling and trembling. She does not display this behavior outside of her kennel and it was not noted in her previous home. While we cannot be certain if this behavior will appear in any other contexts, in highly emotionally charged or stressful environments Athena may show behavior similar to what she is currently demonstrating in her kennel. We recommend potential adopters be comfortable managing this behavior and keeping themselves safe in any similar future situations. MEDICAL EXAM NOTES 6-Mar-2018 DVM Intake Exam Estimated age: reported to be 4 years, age consistent with exam Microchip noted on Intake? Microchip Number (If Applicable): History :owner surrender due to changes in owner's living situation Subjective:BAR Observed Behavior -approaches in friendly manner but tenses when approached with low growl; muzzled for exam as precaution, resisted restraint a little but allowed exam Evidence of Cruelty seen -n Evidence of Trauma seen -n Objective BCS 6/9 EENT: OU-mild periocular alopecia; AU-mild to moderate inflammation, lichenification, alopecia and scabbing over pinna AS Oral Exam:mm pk/pigmented, moist; limited oral exam due to muzzle, rostral teeth appear mild to moderately stained with mild tartar PLN: No enlargements noted H/L: NSR, NMA, CRT < 2, Lungs clear, eupnic ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated U/G: female intact, nipples enlarged, no palpable MGT MSI: Ambulatory x 4, callous over elbows and ischial wings bilaterally; mild to moderate dermatitis along paws, abdomen and perivulvular CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities Rectal:grossly normal Assessment 1. Dermatitis 2. Otitis externa Prognosis:good Plan: -simplicef 300 mg PO SID x 10 days -recommend claro AU when sedated for spay SURGERY: Okay for surgery 5-Mar-2018 LVT Intake BARH scan negative female intact allowed handling 4 yrs old reported mild tartar ear infection dermatitis/scabs on ears, elbows, hocks, hips clean coat BCS 6/9 NOSF PLEASE MESSAGE US FOR INQUIRIES AND FOR ASSISTANCE. PEOPLE WHO WANT TO FOSTER A DOG, PLEASE PM US SO WE CAN PRE-SCREEN YOU IF YOU QUALIFY AS A FOSTER. ADOPTERS WHO CAN GO TO THE ACC IN PERSON, CAN CONTACT THE ACC DIRECTLY., THOSE WHO NEED HELP WITH TRANSPORT, OR CANNOT GO TO THE ACC IN PERSON, PLEASE PM US FOR ASSISTANCE. KEEP IN MIND THAT NEW HOPE RESCUES WILL ADOPT DOGS ONLY TO NY, NJ, PA, CT, RI, DE, MD, MA, NH, VT, ME, AND NORTHERN VA. BEYOND THESE STATES, YOU MUST GO TO THE SHELTER IN PERSON TO ADOPT. We are not the ACC, and we did not make these rules. We only help these dogs get seen and help people to save them. If you would like to foster or adopt a NYC ACC dog, and can get to the shelter in person to complete the adoption process, you can contact the shelter directly. We have provided the Brooklyn, Staten Island and Manhattan information below. Adoption hours at these facilities is Noon – 8:00 p.m. (6:30 on weekends) If you cannot get to the shelter in person, but you live in NY, NJ, PA, CT, RI, DE, MD, MA, NH, VT, ME or Norther VA, please PM our page for assistance. You will need to fill out applications with a New Hope Rescue Partner to foster or adopt a NYC ACC dog. Shelter contact information: Phone number [phone] (automated only) Email [email protected] Addresses: Brooklyn Shelter: 2336 Linden Boulevard Brooklyn, NY 11208 Manhattan Shelter: 326 East 110 St. New York, NY 10029 Staten Island Shelter: 3139 Veterans Road West Staten Island, NY 10309

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