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#fear ill be unattractive... its 1. not true and 2. delayed. not real
emlos
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4 months
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bro this eating disorder shit rly sucks
#screaming into the void here but
#i WISH i wasnt so obsessed with my lack of self control and my resulting weight
#but like. no joke
#HOW o i stop myself from doing what i want
#like.... i know what self control is
#i know what mindfullness is
#and i cry myself to sleep because im unable to NOT
#anwyays i ate another 8000 calories today
#i know whats healty or not and sicne i live a basically sedentary lifestyle... i couldve eaten something different
#but nooo pizza and cheesesticks and keiserschmarrn it is!!!
#i really wish i could kill myself
#but im too scared of pain to do that
#the only motivator for me is fear
#fear ill fail feat itll hurt... but it has to be immediate
#fear ill be unattractive... its 1. not true and 2. delayed. not real
#i dont know what to do
#vent
#tw ed
#tw eating disorder
#dunno which one tbh
#fucking ednos because i cant do anything typically
#some days ill eat 400kcal
#some days 10000
#i cant stop myself when i think of food it 'triggers' me and i cant stop thinking about until the dark cloud is so dark it rains
#also alcoholism but thats like... coping. with reality even though i dont have it that bad
#literally a waste of fucking space i genuinely should kill myself there are real problems out there and im what
#fucking crying cause im chubby
#fucking grow up
#finger on the eject button etc etc etc
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