#from now one i'll only express my thoughts through memes and reblogs

[importeduniverse]

2/3/24, 11:56PM

At 11:00PM I feel irrationally upset. The day has felt useless and everything I do doesn't feel exactly right, I've hopped from task to task all day. I feel frustrated enough to want to be drunk, to just make a choice. I bring a hard lemonade, a bottle of water, and a cup of orange soda mixed with vodka to my room. The plan is to drink the hard lemonade first, then the vodka mix, I'd given it ice to preserve itself.

I decide to search online for journaling sites. Not apps, a laptop is the middle ground between a physical journal (I write too slowly) and a phone (it feels too artificial). I need an out at the moment, and I have no one to talk to. I try to make a new account with an old email. I'm told to reset the password and I do. The account is very, very old. I follow three accounts, one of them someone very important to me. I unfollow two. I go through custom themes, clueless about how the site and HTML work, but I do my best. I wasn't the one who got into Tumblr when we were kids. She's still active on a new account, so just to be safe I block her on the one I was following.

I shoddily customize my theme and am finally enabled to write. I realize that I have hardly touched my first drink at all. I take a few good swigs and remember the google search result for "how long for alcohol to take affect". Half an hour, so I'll keep sipping until I can feel something and start my second drink.

My mood is spoiled in a different way now thinking about her. I feel my mind relaxing, alcohol truly cheers me up, but now she is a thought. The descriptions of both of our practically ancient accounts mention death jokingly. We were 14 and obsessed with it. Her new account has reblogged a "I didn't think I would've lived this long" meme, and I know that it's true because she used to tell me about her thoughts. We're 21 now. When I expressed guilt, my therapist told me that I saved her life. That she really wouldn't have made it this far if I hadn't done what I did. I don't feel like anyone's hero. I see the same therapist again this Wednesday at 2:00.

I finish my first drink before writing this sentence. I don't have a single person to talk to. I'll go cry over the same person I always do whenever I'm drunk, the first person I ever got drunk in front of. Who made me feel comfortable, who I can't talk to anymore. Every time, without fail, I wish I could go back in time for his company. I only ever drink alone.

[theold-ultraviolence]

bestie, first of all: I wanted to apologize for how much time it has taken me to reply to my previous messages!

as I have an internship abroad in September I have been searching place to stay and if anything, this experience had reinforced my hatred for for landlords. still, I have finished the last of my courses and although I have two more exams and a project to finish fully my master's degree (+ my thesis, but we don't talk about it).

so stress has been all over the place, sadly.

and I am also sad to hear that you are also getting quite a busy week, but I hope that you'll still get a bit of relief and thank you for blessing us with that mutual masturbation fic, I read it yesterday and I stg I had to rip myself away from it to eat my dinner.

can't wait to spam my silly tags on it tonight when I reblog it!

also I wanted to share something, again, with you because I found this workout session to fob and potd and I did it saturday and it was super-funny (plus I really like the girl organizing and leading them, as she is very chill and low key funny) -> if you ever want to jam, jump and dance while working out I am leaving this here

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kePPgzFiEk8

(now I need to know whether there's a workout to maneskin)

now onto me properly answering the previous messages: again congrats for succeeding in your Italian placement test, pls do continue to share your duolingo hotd-related adventures because so I can share the silly Italian memes I know (the best way to learn is certainly through memes).

and yeah, I do think that a proper working setup would be so much better and where I study I have the most basic chair, while at home I still get the one that turns around and with the wheelies (am I turning around and playing with it through important meetings? totally). still yeah, I think that at least till I live without sharing a room there isn't much that can be done. still, we saving the money for when we can just go and have a shopping spree in zara home (although my eyes is considering the thought of buying candles).

also maison du monde is very pretty, but sadly it ain't cheap and I think it's mostly popular in europe, but it's like zara home (the same level of bougie).

oh I haven't checked out yet the tutorials you suggested me because saturday I took advantage of my roommate not being there, to have a full on dance workout and was about to pass out by the end of it, but I'll definitely try them on pilates day!

also I am honestly so curious about the names of the s/o of aemond's and reader's children! I am always curious about names and I love them having secret meanings (like everybody is 'it ain't so deep' and I am like 'NO IT NEEDS TO BE DEEP'). still take your time and I am sure your choices will be amazing (as they always are)!

pls! aemond would be like 'how did I marie kondo myself into having a partner?' but that'd be downright cute and I feel like he is definitely bougie but also one of those people who only have... essentials, so you'd have a whole lot of space and he'd probably be willing to buy more if you need it.

also I saw your post about aemond saying that you think he is emotionally intelligent but can't express himself properly and I feel like that's very much him. I think that he is also emotionally intelligent like he can clearly understand whether somebody is upset with him or happy, but he struggles with the physical and practical side, alas he misses experience. it's my own personally silly headcanon that by not having a loving example around (as viserys and alicent are the furtherest from that and criston was celibate) he probably knows how you feel but can't express himself, indeed.

so, yeah, he is a bit awkward but he is trying his best!

ok... this was a lot and I am officially leaving you alone!

I hope you have a nice day and week!

-🌗

DON'T apologize at all, bestie!! believe me, I get you! Aaaah I know the process of going abroad is so stressful and difficult but you just know it's so worth it because of the chance of experiencing new things! I'm wishing you all the best of luck and that the process will be a little easier to deal with! And thank YOU for your good wishes as well! (and also for reading my silly little fic! I'm really glad you enjoyed it, I stg every time I post smut I'm like !!!!!!!!!! with anticipation, not knowing if it will be well received or not, but yeah your tags GIVE ME LIFE! they're always such a treat to read so thank you sooo so much!!)

AND OMG I LOVE THAT ROUTINE. I was gonna do it today but had to clean the apartment instead and ran out of time but I can't wait to do those workouts because they're soooo so perfect! gossssh if there was a Maneskin one I'd never put up an excuse to not workout ever lmao! either way, I already subscribed to that channel!

And for sure I'll keep sharing my italian journey with you! Actually I logged onto my first proper class today (they're self-directed and online so I can make progress whenever I can) and it was SO DIFFERENT than duolingo!! this was gonna be obvious, but man I can actually learn proper grammar now lol. I'm excited but definitely, a little bit intimidated now that I have all of these materials to read about grammar rules and vocabulary.

And omg I still haven't figured out the names aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. And I'm also still looking for faceclaims for Aeron's witchy wife and Elaena's sweatheart husband. And for Vaella's husband I'm still not sure if I actually want to make him a Stark (?) still haven't gotten that far but I'm very happy to know I can tell you all about it! As far as faceclaims, for Elaena's husband I'm leaning towards an actor called Cesar Domboy. And for the witchy wife, I'm thinking of May Calamawy from Moon Knight. Gonna put the rest of my reply under a 'readmore' to add the images and not make this super long:

so yeah I think they're them!!! but Idk about names yet lol!

ALSO DYING WITH THE how did I marie kondo myself into having a partner?' LMAO!!! and definitely about the 'essentials' thing. I doubt he'd be the kind of person to have this room filled with trinkets (I try very hard to have an aesthetically pleasing room with only the essentials but a girl gotta has her trinkets and her silly little posters, I'm sorry Aemond). But thinking about his space being super vacant at first and slowly getting more and more cozy, the more you integrate yourself in it, is suuuuch a soft thought.

And definitely!! I strongly believe that, because he's been on his own for so long, he knows his worth, he knows what he wants and is actually very confident in himself. After all the time he spends alone he's got to have the time to ponder about his needs and wants. But because he's alone and doesn't socialize or communicate often, that's where he fails. But it's not because he doesn't know how, he just comes out a little bit awkward. I think with a character like Aemond there's room to interpret that he's not emotionally mature but I'd say it's quite the contrary! It's precisely what you say! he struggles with the physical. But he's got everything theorized and analyzed prior. But baby boy is a hermit, so that's where he kinda misses some beats.

Thank you so much for your messages as always, my dear!! I hope you have a good start of the week, and best of luck with your studies and all the preparations for going abroad! x

#🌗

[onewomancitadel]

Jocularly self depreciating anon again, wishing you well. Earlier you asked what I was reading now, and I'm going through Golden-faced, having caught up on (and adored) most everything else Knightfall related on your AO3. Continuing off of the Emoji Ask questions, I'll toss in😈 (Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?)

Jocularly self-deprecating anon, we need to get you a better name!

Here I was just discussing Golden-faced. I hope you enjoy it! Thank you for reading my fics. If you do enjoy it and feel like leaving a comment, you are welcome to!

😈 (Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?)

This is one of the ones I mentally began answering when I reblogged the meme, because I think it's an interesting one in that it involves thinking about how people are going to react what you've written, and in gauging that, it's actually a very dangerous inclination. First of all, I've had people genuinely angry at me in my comments, so I'm actually fearful of incurring the wrath of readers, so I don't like entertaining the idea to begin with; I think if I tried to be playfully mean intentionally, I'd be really scared of someone... actually getting angry, and I don't like people being angry at me because it scares me.

From a lighter intellectual perspective, gauging how someone is going to react (or not react at all) is already interesting (and what I mean by dangerous is that it's dangerous to assume). What doesn't twig as playfully mean to me twigs as playfully mean to others, e.g. where the recent chapter of Skimming Eye left off. Well, I suppose it didn't twig as playfully mean because I assume no one cares anymore, so I'm just doing what I want.

There have definitely been times where I've been really excited about a plot point (Chapter 14, which I still think about all the time) and no one commented on it, so once again from a more maudlin direction, I try not to get my hopes up. Something I was really excited about in Chapter 6, I had someone complain to me about. So there's no point getting excited at all, I do this on my own.

...This has turned unintentionally rather sad, I think I'm actually starting to cry because I'm so fucking pathetic. Lol. Not your fault anon by the way. Not your fault. This is one of the questions I didn't figure I'd get, to be honest.

So no, I don't intentionally play with the psychology of my readers, because readers are unpredictable, I've had people be really mean to me and I've had people not comment on anything fun I thought would be interesting.

I try not to have expectations, so when I do get a comment from someone kind and respectful who likes my work, it makes me happy.

This is pretty much only an experience limited to the R/WBY fandom, because other fandoms are not like this. So, take it with a grain of salt about the fic author experience.

Most of all, what's motivating my story decisions are: is this fun? Is this thematically justified? Lol.

I suppose you might construe my characterisation of Carmine to be 'playfully mean', but to people I don't like: people who don't understand Cinder. Carmine is what people think Cinder is, in many ways: as a dark foil that's successful narratively; as a dark foil in the story itself - an inferior Summer Maiden who doesn't use the power properly and OFFENDS Cinder - it's successful; it's successful for the way R/WBY uses doubles of characters to foil one another; her name is also the fanon name of Cinder's team at Beacon; and so on. This isn't even a character I made up myself! Carmine and Jillian are both in the Vacuo books.

So, yes, at times there is playful meanness towards a greater fandom that doesn't understand the characters in a way I think is respectful of canon. That certainly crops up, but is a truthful expression of the ideas explored in the narrative, not things I go out of my way to do. For instance, the idea of 'irredeemability' is something explored with Cinder and Salem in their conversations, and it is somewhat tongue-in-cheek - but also not! These are the things they think about and talk about and believe in, and if that works on an audience-level, that's great, but it's believable to their emotional lives: Salem would not believe in redemption (to the side of Good). So sincerity matters, as always.

I hope you enjoy reading and thanks again for getting in touch. Feel free to send asks whenever you feel like it. (: I hope you have a lovely day.

#seraphina's asks #user: anonymouse #my silly little stories #the distance which fools the skimming eye

[gerbithats]

A long sims 4 rant

Starting this I can already predict it’s gonna be a big one so if you stick with me, thank you and I’ll try and add pictures to make things feel easier 😆

I was thinking about it and I mean really thinking about these community surveys we’ve been getting and how they speak volumes on the way the game is handled but also also how we position ourselves as a community. I noticed alot more game changers are starting to get pretty vocal about their thoughts since the first community survey came out and that’s refreshing to say the least, but it shows a pattern that we all present: give us what is missing no matter how. We want beaches. We want cars. We want more stairs. We want bunkbeds. Etc.

So these things are probably somehow rushed into production to please the community and then, when we finally get it, it’s like we finally realize that what this game truly lacks is gameplay and not more items.

I invite you to come and think about the packs and the stuff we got throughout these 6 years with me.

🏢 Chapter 1: The apartment issue 

Yes we got apartment buildings with city living, but sometimes it doesn’t even feel like it’s a game feature because it’s L I T E R A L L Y related to living in a city, so it’s not a real feature. We have no possible way to play with apartments and condos outside of san myshuno because for the first time ever we can’t build or own apartments. This was such a missed opportunity of giving us new lot treatments like condos and even rentable properties. I mean, just think about how those 2 features could allow so much new gameplay and stories with it (I can literally imagine being a landlord, having to go fix renters stuff in my their places and doing social events as condo meetings).

The neighbors in that type of lot could also help solve somehow what so many people mention as “boring lot gameplay”. Let’s be real. hardly something ever happens with so little npcs and only the walk by sims (You have to literally run after them to make things happen sometimes and it shouldn’t be like that). But if sims were to live in the same condo or building as yours, sharing common living spaces that’s a whole other thing. Which brings me to the fact that even in the city, where apartments exist, there’s no common area other than the halls. Imagine if we could build laundries, rooftops, basements, patios with pools and all that sort of stuff.

That sort of detaling and really getting deep into the pack’s features is even show in elevators: we can’t use them ourselves (for building) and they’re not even animated, your sim is just teleported (even the modded ones have animations and that’s just awkward).

🌊 Chapter 2: Swimming in shallow waters

“We want a beach”, we said. So they gave us a beach, and a beach only. I’ve never seen so many people call a pack “shallow” as I’ve seen it happen to Island Living and tbh I do agree with them ‘cause... there’s really not much to do in this pack. For the first time ever swimming was restricted to this pack which is already a big let down by itself, but then features like deep diving were added for no reason and of course, as a rabbit whole, not actually contributing with much to do. So how could it be better?

My answer is pretty obvious: resorts. It is a livable world, but that don’t mean your sims can’t take a vacation from work and just stay there if that’s the gameplay you want to go with and resorts match perfectly with that, not to mention it would have great integration with packs like spa day. It also means a new lot type and lot system, that wouldn’t be much new if the city living building condos and sublocating them as I mentioned would’ve already been implemented, but now with the feature of renting it yourself too. Resorts could also have their own event schedules, integrated with the seasons calendar: cava parties every wednesday, yoga lessons on thursdays, etc. And the best thing would be: if you own one, you can make your own events and traditions. imagine just how fun that would be. A feature like this would also mean it’s already done for other packs coming later on, maybe a colder destination where you can ski and build iglus or even another cultural based pack like jungle adventure.

Other obvious resolution would be better mermaids. Make it harder to become one, being only able to get the kelp from a mermaid themselves. Make it less anticlimactic, having an animation of them turning before they just walk in water with a tail all of the sudden, maybe just some scales in their legs. Give them more unique features and powers like vampires and spellcasters have, such as easily persuading people (sort of like the mind control feature aliens have) and maybe even a secret lot, like a grotto where all the mermaids are. Give them curses with the points system to go with it, some mermaids are actually sirens amirite

🥶 Chapter 3: Seasons change, gameplay stays the same

Activities truly based on the season that are specific to that moment create urgency and different moments. Something I can think of is integrating a pack we already have: spooky stuff. It does feel lackluster ‘cause it’s missing opportunities, but imagine going trick or treating but actually going, loading different houses and gathering it while a meter like the active jobs one guided you. Forming groups with friends to do it or maybe for tpeing trees and bushes if you’re on the rebel teen side and destroying their porch jack’o lanterns. It could even be randomly generated, like the game would send you to 3 different houses to do it (that would bring lots of replayability value ‘cause you could end up in houses with neighbors that love you and will give you candy no problem, but maybe also neighbors with family feuds that won’t answer their door or make it harder for you to accomplish the event objectives), maybe one of those could even be a abandoned one that’s haunted or something like that.

The implementing of a better wants and fears system is very essential for this pack. Yes your sims get overheated and a popup message tells you they need some water or lighter clothes, but it’d be so good if they’d actually want to go to the beach, swim in the ocean, take a vacation from work and go to a resort. Heatwaves that would make your sim act weird, not strangerville level of weird, but maybe not obeying your commands.

Blizzards so strong that work and school would get canceled and you actually don’t have the option to leave your home lot anymore until it passes would not only add a different element to the gameplay, but also add value to the weather controler machine.

🥺 Final chapter: The general “more stuff to do” and “more things happening” factor

The game offers all these beautiful secret worlds and yet when you finally get to them there’s not much to do other than searching for rocks and frogs and doing some fishing. I miss going to a community lot hidden somewhere and finding an eremite, goddamn bigfoot, some crazy npc or even just an actual community lot with something to do and people doing stuff in it. Unique community lots would also be a way to make towns more lively and captivating like they did so well with realm of magic and the casters alley section of the world. Maybe forgotten hollow has this abandoned haunted house where people claim they’ve seen the grim reaper walking around. Maybe sixam has a alien station where they clone human sims. Maybe sulani has this beautiful sunken ship beach where a club of people that dress up as pirated meet. Maybe Del Sol Valley has a movie theater where you can watch premieres. Maybe Oasis Springs mine hides actual gold that you can collect and get rich outta nowhere. That kind of stuff.

I can’t stress this enough, but NPCs are so important to shake things up. It was so good to have a pack like realm of magic where the we would have to go to the three sages in order to progress. Having unique sims like this or npcs that change the way your story is going like burglars, firefighters, cops, social bunny, bonehilda and even a fortune teller is so important to keep things impredictable and interesting.

Age groups really need more specific restricted gameplay for better feel of progression. Many people say sims 4 is a young adult simulator and well... there’s not much to show that differs from that. Toddlers are as interesting as hamsters, locked in an object waiting for you to feed, clean and give them attention. Teens really should feel more like a transiction period, and the wants and fears system would really help out with that. I miss being able to participate in more elements that would mark a sims life even if they’re cheesy as heck, like having a prom, graduating, having a midlife crises.

In conclusion

First of all: if you got to this point thank you and I’d really wanna know what you think about all of this.

Some people may find even ridiculous for someone to go about a rant this big on a game and to that I have to say I agree lol I can’t help it tho, honestly, the sims has always been the game I’m most passionate about and it helped me express myself and my creativity so much since I was a kid. I really do care about this game and this franchise.

The point I want to make with this is: perhaps we shouldn’t ask for more and more different stuff, but actually put some effort into showing things we already like in the game and how they can be improved to make it more interesting. At the end of the day I still want spiral staircases, ladders, paintable ceiling, werewolves and all that but does it really matter if they get added to the game following the same patterns as the things pointed in here? Also we really are getting to a point where only a few things are missing as far as cas/build/buy go and I believe it’s time for us, as a community, to give gameplay as much importance as all these things we wanted so bad that got implemented. I probaby forgot to say something here and I didn’t even mention the infamous hamster pack, but anyway, I hope the point got across.

I try really hard to believe that the gurus are here for us and that most of all we, as a community, have a very strong voice, all we need to do is make it clearer and stronger about the things we really wish for this game.

#i'm never doing rants again #honestly this is my last one #from now one i'll only express my thoughts through memes and reblogs #ressurrection spell was a missed opportunity for zombies to be back in realm of magic btw #i don't even know how to tag this #the sims #the sims 4 #ts4 #sims 4

[blushing-titan]

My thoughts on ch. 139

Some of you may be familiar with my previous writings - I usually try to stay as collected as possible, but today's post will be different. Ever since the chapter came out, I've been reblogging a lot of rants and memes about it. Those of you who follow my blog (thank you so much, really happy to have you here! ❤) know that I didn't really enjoy this ending. I want to elaborate more on that in this post - my only advice is to buckle up, because today we may get a bit heated (I apologize in advance for the sassy approach - I usually try to stray away from that, but guess today's post is more of a stream of conciousness/rant) :'D

1. Ymir

Starting up with one of the most controversial things about this chapter. Up to this point, I felt really bad for Ymir. Her life was terrible - she was a young girl, who was enslaved and abused by king Shitz Fritz. After she was forced to run away from his hounds, she acquired the power of titans and used it to help the king's cause. For that, she was awarded with the king's seed (🤢), and eventually became a mother of three girls. Through her entire life, she was treated as a slave and a lesser-being by the king - she also died while protecting him, and her daughters were forced to eat her remains after that (🤢🤢).

It felt so tragic to see her 2000 years later, still walking blindly in the paths. It wasn't enough that she was hurt so badly when she was still alive - she remained enslaved to the abusive king even after she died. I was rooting for her to finally be freed from this nightmare - hence I was so happy when ch. 122 came out and we got this scene:

I was genuinely emotional when I saw her reaction. Finally, someone expressed some authentic care for her and tried to snap her out of this blind state. She would finally think about what she wants and try to free herself from the paths because, as Eren said, she was never a slave or a goddess - just a regular person. It's just like she finally let out all the pain that she's been suppressing for all these years.

Yeah...except, as it turns out, her awakening here changes nothing. She doesn't come to any conclusions, like, perhaps, that she doesn’t want to let herself be hurt and mistreated any longer...or that she should fight for herself, try to change her fate - because, after all, her life belongs to her - not anyone else.

Nothing like this happens. Why? Because, as it turns out, she's in love with king Fritz and needs to be proven by Mikasa that she can break this bond first.

....

💀💀💀💀

Excuse me, but...what?

Okay, first and foremost...am I supposed to believe that, during these 2000 years, no one else has gone against their unhealthy affection to someone toxic and unworthy of their love? No one? 🤡 Come on, we even saw that happen in the manga. What about Historia, who thought that her own mother hitting her was a sign of love? Who wanted to believe that her father was good, despite wanting to turn her into a titan? Where was Ymir when Historia stood up for herself against her father's wishes? Or when she flew up to him and delivered the final blow against him?

On top of that...what a disappointing conclusion to Ymir's story. I hoped that she would take her fate into her own hands, and - for example - be reborn and experience life as a free person, surrounded by people who actually care about her. Free herself from paths and destroy it - not because someone shows her that she can indeed detach herself from it, but simply because she wants to.

Instead, 80% of the world population is gone, because she needed to see that Mikasa is able to "free" herself from Eren in order to do the same.

🤡🤡🤡

2. Abandoned plotlines and plot-holes

Mikasa being a Hizuru princess? Never heard of that. Hallucigenia's fate? Who cares. Eren directing Dina's titan in Carla's direction in order to save Berthold? Nah, who would want any more info on that - guess he just couldn't direct her anywhere else. The Ackerman's headaches? Pfff. The fact that Mikasa shouldn't be affected by the memory altering, but somehow still is in the ending? "I guess she just forgot that she should be immune to this". Why was Historia's pregnancy implied as relevant if it wasn't in the end? So many precious panels wasted on that, when they could be used to help solve some other "unanswered questions" instead. Ehhh...🤷

3. Blatant character assassination

There, I'm saying it once again. I have no idea what happened in this chapter but the characters are off. What about Eren - the one who has always believed that freedom was his birthright, and has been fighting and moving forward for his goals? Yeah, turns out he has no idea why he was doing all of that. 

Remember Kenny's quote - everyone is a slave to something? I thought that this implication was pretty poetic in context of Eren's character. Through all his life, he sought freedom, but ironically, he was a slave to that dream...

...turns out it may have been a bit too poetic for this story because Eren is a slave to destiny. Literally - he's going on auto-pilot in order to reach that one moment in which Mikasa beheads him, so Ymir can watch and understand that she can do the same.

Nice joke...except not. Here go our main character's motivations 🗑

He casually commits unjustifiable crimes against humanity - not because he wants to be free or because he found the world beyond the walls disappointing, (...as we were led to believe). He did that because he doesn't know why - and then, he cries that he doesn't want Mikasa to ever find another guy.

:'))

Turns out Eren was somehow always in love with her too...? Yeah, weird way of showing it. Or should I say - not showing it at all.

If you read my previous writings, you know that I'm not very fond of Eremika. The way I interpreted it while reading the story: it was unhealthy, suffocating and one-sided. I hoped for Mikasa to move on and start thinking about herself for once.

Right, what about Mikasa? Has she finally moved on? Is she content with her life? Are her dreams coming true? What's her daily life after all this? Sadly, I don't have the answers. The thing we are shown instead, is how she's sitting next to Eren's grave and, once again, thanking him for wraping the scarf around her. The only thing that implies that she may be somehow still seeing other people is one bubble of text. After all 139 chapters of hoping for her character developement, that's it.

Keep in mind that all other characters are shown together - with their spouses, families and friends - yet Mikasa is still separated and alone. That's right - after she disappears with Eren's head, she's not shown with anyone else until the end of the manga.

While we're on the topic of others, too...do I have to talk about the scenes in which everyone shows some level of gratitude to Eren...for wiping 80% humanity for them? Because I have no words for this.

One last note: I found the humor to be slightly out of place, too. Seriously, after all these terrible events, with so many unanswered questions and character developement of these two...Reiner is still weirdly simping for (now married) Historia and Jean is called a horse face :') Idk, but it feels somehow surreal after everything that's happened.

4. Conclusion

What else can I say...the final chapter disappointed me and I'm pretty sad about it. I'm happy for the people who liked it, but also can't help but feel like it was very far from perfect. I've been following SnK ever since 2013 and it's a bittersweet moment for me. The series had a lot of amazing moments that I'll definitely remember forever. Meanwhile, I would like to read some of the author's thoughts about the way he chose to end the story - perhaps it would clear some confusion (...although I can't help the fact that my first opinion is already formed).

Thank you very much for reading my thoughts - as always, it means a lot to me! ❤ The images used in this post are obviously not mine!

#snk 139 #aot 139 #snk spoilers #snk manga spoilers #snk ending #anti eremika #eren jeager #mikasa ackerman #ymir fritz #historia reiss #snk meta

[raewritesfiction]

Camera Shy [Chris Evans]

A/N: spurred from an anon ask. Let's see where this goes.

Plot: You've accidentally sent your good friend Chris (Evans) a nude… you weren't expecting the response you got.

Pairing: Reader X Chris Evans.

Warnings: Smut. Strong Language. 

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You practically bit your fist as you realised that you'd sent the wrong picture.  A light hearted jokey conversation entirely made from memes but instead you had caught and double-tapped the wrong fucking picture; you'd sent Chris a recent nude you'd taken when you were feeling yourself. You'd tried to delete it before he had opened it but the fucker had automatically opened it; or had his phone open on the conversation. 

You stopped yourself from throwing your phone across the room and instead decided to bite your pillow and scream in frustration. How the fuck were you going to play it off? 

Why was your phone buzzing like it was ringing? Tentatively looking over you yelp because Chris was now facetiming you. You just sit and watch your phone as it stops ringing only for it to immediately start again. After the fifth time around you realise this persistent shit wasn't going to stop or let this go; he wasn't going to let you crawl into a hole until he had forgotten it had ever happened and you could look him in his gorgeous eyes again.

You grumble and sit your phone face up on your knee as you answer it, no way was he gonna see you right now; a fire engine red mess in a hoodie that wasn't nearly big enough to cover your face Kenny McCormick-style. 

"Nah nah, none of that ceiling bullshit...lemme see your face!" 

"Fuck no, Christopher!" You chide him only to watch him crack up on screen and pull a face as he said sorry to someone. "Where are you?" 

"Show me ya face and I'll tell you." He licks his lips and smiles. 

You grumble but you never could say no to his smile; you pick up the phone and point the camera at your face. "Well…?"

"I am driving.." he explains.

"That still doesn't tell me where you are, Chris." Your voice flat as he chuckles at your faux-anger facial expressions.

"I'm in my car." He states and shrugs.

"No Shit!" You face-palm and sigh.

"Well, telling you would be no fun!" He smiles and winks to the camera. 

You frown and fail miserably at figuring out his game and what the hell he was up to; nothing from your view of him gave away anything of where he was - other than in his car.  There wasn't much waiting involved to find out though when he honked his horn outside your house. 

"Oh god no!" You squeak. "I'm not letting you in Evans!" You fold your arms defiantly.

"Ah, that's fine...I thought about matching your picture with one of me… but uh, I'd prefer to show you in person. So much more fun."

Your mouth opens to speak but your brain stops and fails to help you form any words; you end up mimicking a fish as you try to speak.

"Besides...I still have the emergency key to your place and I remember very well that your dead bolt isn't fixed yet." He giggles and hangs up just before you scream into the pillow again; Maybe if you piled enough furniture in front of your door?  While part of your brain is frantically trying to find a way to hide you away the other realises fully what he'd just said and you rush to change into something a little more figure hugging. You silently thank everything that could be listening that you'd showered and shaved earlier while dragging a brush through your hair and grabbing lip balm. 

Standing in your bathroom you turn to leave before stepping back in and repeating this funny little dance step half a dozen more times.  You jump and stop a yelp when Chris knocks on your bathroom door. 

"Ma'am...Imma have to ask you to come out please." He can't hide the chuckle from his voice and he definitely can't hide it when you open the door and fold your arms. 

"You a cop now?" Raising your eyebrow.

"Well...no… I guess a handyman?" He holds up a deadbolt. 

You open your mouth to speak but think better of it and head out into the living space. 

"You're overthinking this far too much." Chris smiles and follows you.

"Can we forget this happened? Please?!" You stop yourself pouting.

"Nah… besides, if you wanted to forget this happened… why did you change, do your hair and throw on some simple makeup?"

"Sonovabitch!" You whisper angrily.

"....and is that perfume I smell?" He teases lightly.

You grumble and nod "the one you got me last year for my birthday."

He smiles and offers his hand "C'mere….c'mon…" he motions for you to take his head, gripping yours lightly when you do and pulling up against himself. Chris wraps your arms around his waist and then wraps his arms around you. "First of all; it's fine… Second; dayum! Thirdly; I meant what I said in the car...unless you just wanna hang and forget all about this…"

You relax and sigh "if I wanted to just hang then I wouldn't have dolled myself up…I wanna see you naked and then I want you to bend me over the sofa and fuck me senseless…"

Chris blinks and nods "to the point...I like it… besides there's more of you I wanna see that the nude didn't show me."

You giggle "...I have some of those too…" 

"Oh, I shall need those too… Mmhmm.." he nods and kisses your head.

"So how we doing this…? We gonna play strip poker or are you just gonna strip for me?" Secretly you hoped for the latter and inwardly grinned when he suggested it.

"I have a playlist...I can go all Magic Mike for you if you like? Can't promise it won't be a bit janky…"

You laugh and nod "Deal...I wanna see you dance and strip!" Pulling away to clear a space for him. 

Chris proceeds to awkwardly dance; gyrating his hips and making sure to shake his ass for you as he loses the layers of clothing.  Both of you laugh as he kicks off his bottoms and poses for you.

"Well then…. That was quite the show." You smile and let your eyes wander "I'll still need a picture though… for… reasons...it's only fair."

"I agree...I can sort that for you." Chris walks towards you and kneels down, his hands on your knees.

"Now what's your plan…?" You smile and lick your lips, hoping you looked seductive. 

"Well…" he starts, hands gliding up your thighs to your hips and then the waistband of your bottoms. "I'm going to pull these down and off…" to iterate what he's saying, Chris pulls them down your legs "they look great on you but… they look better on the floor." Throwing them to the carpet. "Oh…no underwear?"

"Nope...no panty line if I don't wear them." You wink. 

"Very true." He nods and parts your legs, his eyes never leaving yours; they made you hot & flustered and embarrassed all at the same time.  His eyes still didn't leave your face even as he pulled you to the edge of the sofa and leant forwards running his tongue over you.   

Your hands danced in mid-air before resting on the edge of the sofa cushion you were slipping off of.  Chris hums against you and proceeds to suck over your folds; his tongue running along them and tasting you fully.  You feel yourself slipping off the cushion further but instead of holding you in place Chris goes with it and eases you to sit on his face.  

This wasn't your first rodeo but for some reason it surprised you when Chris held you to him and laid back on the floor until you were straddling his face.  He moaned quietly and looked up to watch you rocking your hips on him; his tongue probing into you then heading back to your clit. You gasp and pant lightly, moving your hips on his face and leaning back to wrap a hand around his semi-hard cock.  Chris glides his hands up your back to support you and moans louder against your core as your hand makes contact with him and moves slowly.

His hips move to your hand as he pulls away from you to pant and moan; your free hand reaches down and threads into his hair gripping and moving his face back to your pussy.  Chris growls against you and sucks your clit in pulses, rocking and thrust his hips up to your hand the best he could from the angle he was at. 

You pant and moan his name; the way his lips suck and pulse over your clit quickly pulls you over the edge without warning and you're soon rapidly calling his name as you cum over his face. He growls against and laps over you slowly, lifting you to sit on the sofa again while he grabs the condom he had hidden away in his jacket.

Chris watches you and steps back over rolling the condom down over himself as your eyes open to watch his hands. 

"You still want me to bend you over the sofa?" He smirks and leans down, kissing you deeply so you could taste yourself on him. 

"You can...do whatever you want to me.." you look up at him.

He pulls at the strap top you were still wearing and throws it to join the pile of the clothes on the floor; the bra you were wearing barely held you in and Chris smirks to himself knowing how easy it was going to be to make you literally burst out of it.

"Whatever I want?" He grins and you nod, swallowing thickly as he rests his knees on the edge of the sofa between your legs and pulling you up onto his lap, guiding his cock into you slowly until you're wrapping your legs around his hips to pull yourself onto him.

You whine and drop your head to the top of the sofa back as he immediately starts thrusting his hips into you; pushing his cock deeper than you thought you'd ever be able to take and stimulating parts of you that you didn't realise did anything.  Once you both fall into the steady rhythm groaning each others names, Chris moves your legs from their position locked just above his ass to sit up over his shoulders, his hands grip the sofa cushion either side of your head and he speeds up. His hips barely pull out of you before they're grinding deep into you again; your hands reach beside your head and intertwine with his, gripping on every thrust and jerk of his hips.  

Chris's pants become rough and turn to grunts; dropping his head he kisses your ankle and scrapes his teeth "I'm...I'm so fucking close.."  You nod quickly and whine "Same...Chris, please! Don't Stop!" You moan and rock your hips the best you could, watching his eyes close tight as his thrusts lose their rhythm and become desperate.  You want to watch his face; his blue eyes, his flushed lips and his perfectly angled slack jaw but it was all too much and you found your own eyes closing tightly as his cock relentlessly pounded into you; hitting every angle & driving you crazy until you scream out his name and tighten around his cock.  Chris calls out only a moment later and stills deep inside you, pulsing as he cums - the rhythm of your pussy tightening matching his cock. 

Slowly you both relax down onto the sofa in some semblance of a comfortable position; still intertwined with each other and kissing whatever bare skin was reachable from your positions. Chris strokes your hair back and helps you out of your now twisted and uncomfortable bra as you curl into his arms that fold around you protectively.

"Does this mean I get nudes on purpose now?" Chris smiles and speaks softly.

"...I guess so…" you nod and peck his lips "...and you still need to fix my dead-bolt…." 

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