grayson hawthorne childhood bsf to lovers head cannons
my first posttt!! grayson hawthorne ily
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rereading this and i realized it’s more of a story than head cannons
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you both come from very prominent families in texas, so it’s no surprise that you spent countless events and parties within each others company
you and grayson were in the same nursery
there are multitudes of pictures of you with the brothers as babies/ toddlers, some you forgot even existed
as you and the hawthorne brothers were all similar ages, you often found yourself ditching the adults and the formalities of the event and hanging out separately -usually in the treehouse-
you weren’t really chatty or outgoing per say, especially compared to xander and jameson. however, around them your shell would fade a little bit.
grayson was still quiet around you. one time when you were 12 and he was 14, you were climbing up the tree house with a broken arm (you were too stubborn, and slightly embarrassed to ask for help) he himself was walking towards the tree house from a distance. he sees you struggle, and runs to help you without any hesitation.
you offer him a smile and small “thankyou” when you are both up
he’s halfway turned already, nods without making eye contact, and walks away.
you and grayson didn’t hit the best friends level until around 14/15
you didn’t talk to him as much as you would with xander, which is what led to xander noticing how many things in common you and grayson had
he would subtly (not subtle at all) tell grayson about recent things you were doing
“yeah, she’s into photography… just like you! isn’t that crazy?“
“did you know that she plays cello? just like you!” “i don’t play cello, xander“ “violin, cello, same thing! you could take pictures of violins together! tell me how many other people on earth you could do that with.. none! because she fascinatedly enjoys the same weird things that you do, except she does it better. you could learn some things!”
grayson slowly started talking to you more and more in group settings, and you both became more comfortable in each others presence
one time, you needed help with an art project. you had to design your own fictional apartment and create paintings, posters, photos, and furniture unique to you.
you were not the most creative person at 14, but heights country day had high expectations.
after 3 days of no progress, you called grayson explaining and asking for help.
to your surprise, he agreed to do it and over the next few weeks you both worked on it.
you started to involve snacks and watching movies (ends up being background chatter whilst you talk) or just talking in the times you worked together, to make it feel less like an appointment and more like friends talking and helping each other out
one time you suggested you play music ask background noise, and to his surprise you two had extremely similar music tastes. another thing for you to talk about!
as one of the requirements for the project were your own photos, you and grayson would sneak pictures of each other without the other knowing, and one time went out together for the sole purpose of taking photos of surroundings.
jameson liked to call that “the ultimate first date for nerds”
you and grayson both repeatedly insisted it was not a date (grayson would go all out and beyond if it was)
during these few weeks you became inseparably close, half the time you hung out to work on the project, it was long forgotten within the hour.
you realized you started to develop a small crush on him
after you turned it in and got 100, you took a chance and asked him if you two could go out to celebrate. he was extremely happy for you and your mark, and agreed
you decided on going to the park and have a celebratory picnic, not so subtly accompanied by xander and jameson about 500ft away who just so happened to be coincidentally walking by!
the awkwardness once present many years ago was long gone, and you two were laughing and talking like there was no tomorrow
to anyone who didn’t know you two, they would’ve never even guessed you were as quiet as you were around other people.
around eachother, you felt like there was no pressure to perform, put on a fake face, and any over thinking.
xander and jameson were genuinely surprised, and thought you two were secretly together, and asked grayson about it a few days later
“so! me and xander were casually strolling through the park as one does, and we just so happened to see you and y/n!” graysons infamous eyebrow arch appears with a monotone “and?”
“you were more smiley than i’ve ever seen you in my whole entire life” xander deadpans.
“do you have something to tell us?” “yeah, why would you not tell me and jameson you two were secretly dating!”
“we are not secretly dating, we were celebrating her 100 on the project we worked on.”
“oh yeah, the ‘project’” xander says in air quotes, dragging the oh with an inquisitive look on his face
graysons face is expressionless as he stays silent for a second. “i’m done with this conversation” grayson says as he walks away.
“you know gray, it wouldn’t be so wrong if you liked her. you deserve someone good for you” jameson calls out. grayson pauses for a second, and continues to walk.
hes always liked you, he just didn’t want to ruin the one good thing he had going for him in his eyes. every time he lets someone in, which is rarely, they end up gone.
you were inseparable bsfs, always getting mistaken as together by older adults, or getting told that you should be together.
you and grayson swap annotated books all the time
youd make fun of him for his over analysis of the lines and characters, whilst your annotations would often be “no fucking way” “I KNEW IT” “this psycho bitch” “WHAT” “aww”
he’d make fun of yours as well, but secretly, it was his favorite part of reading the books you’d give him, never failing to make him smile.
he went with you to homecoming, his suit and tie matched your dress and he gave you a matching corsage; all a total surprise to you
literally everybody thought you were together
he held your shoes for you when your feet got tired
after the party, you went to an icecream place and talked for hours still in your outfits. people looked at you strangely but you didn’t care because you were both too infatuated with eachother to pay any mind.
on movie nights you two would have together, you two would always look at eachother at seperate times, turning your head when his eyes are about to catch yours.
when you’d fall asleep on the couch next to him, you’d somehow wake up in your bed
when you watched the notebook together you noticed him shed a single tear whilst you were crying your eyes out
your crying immediately stopped when you saw it and relentlessly teased him for it as he says “he’d never cry to a romance movie”
when nash would come home he’d always ask grayson if you two were together yet.
you had liked grayson for around 3 years now, and you thought that if he liked you he would’ve said something by now (doesn’t make sense when you’ve liked him for 3 years but said nothing, but it’s ok)
so when a cute guy in your math class asked you to prom, you agreed
he ended up being 3 hours late, and when he did show up, he was dancing with another girl the whole time.
you didn’t even like the guy, so why were you so sad? you didn’t know.
you exited through the back door and sat in the parking lot. xander noticed your absence and called grayson right away
sitting in the parking lot with your knees to your chest, mascara threatening to run down your eyes, you notice a car pull up
upon further inspection you realise it’s grayson’s car
you stand up and walk away and he jogs towards you and calls out your name
you turn around “grayson? what are you doing here” you say with a light shake of your head
“what are you doing here.”
“it’s my prom night?”
“no, i mean out here. why aren’t you inside with everyone else?”
“i was just getting a breather, drunk teenagers am i right?” followed by a slight chuckle “im going back inside now, you can go.” you start to walk away as he’s still standing there
“you always look down when you lie, you know that?”
you stop dead in your tracks and turn around, “what?”
“whenever you lie, you look to the side, look back up, look down, and then look back up again.”
“what? you’re talking crazy grayson. just go home, i’m fine”
“there you go again, side, back up, down, up again.”
“how’d you even notice that?” you say with a star struck, almost in awe expression on your face.
he walks closer to you “i notice everything about you.”
you’re at a loss for words, just silently staring at him while he keeps talking
“i notice that you always smile at people, even if you don’t talk, you smile. i notice that even when someone has wronged you numerous times, you’ll show them kindness. i notice that whenever you’re struggling, you keep it to yourself. i notice that you also insist on doing things yourself unless you absolutely need assistance, so you don’t feel like a burden, and it drives me crazy. you drive me crazy”
you’re genuinely dumbfounded, not knowing what to say, too many thoughts jumping in of your mind you settle on “i don’t do that” real smooth
“do you remember that day in the treehouse?” he pauses, “you broke your arm, yet you still tried to climb it.”
you lightly laugh “yeah i was like 12, i thought i could do anything”
“you were still you.”
your face stills, and you notice something unfamiliar in the way grayson looking at you, something you’ve never noticed in his eyes before
“gray, what are you saying, what does all this mean?”
“i would spend my entire life noticing all the things you don’t know about yourself, and remembering all the moments you forget. because that’s what my life is. it’s you.“ he’s breathing heavier now, and pauses again “and i’ll work every single day of it proving to you that you don’t have to be alone. you are the one that showed me that, and you’re the one who needs to hear that the most. i’ll work everyday so that one day so you can see yourself from a lens that isn’t tinted with doubt. i’ll work everyday proving to you that i love you.”
by the end of his confession/monologue, he’s standing right in front of you inches away from your face you’re in genuine shock for a few seconds
“say something. anything” after a beat of silence, you reply
“you know, i kept all the photos i took of you, of us, from that one art project years ago. it’s in my special box” you say with a light laugh
a smile starts to appear on his face “your what?”
“my box full of things that i love, and never want to lose” you say in a quieter voice, looking at him straight in the eyes. “i love you, grayson, and i never want to lose you.”
he reaches for your face and kisses you like you were the air he breathed, kissed you like you were the only person in the whole world, and like his life depended on it. he kissed you, and suddenly your world felt a little bit lighter.
from that point on, you were together. you never explicitly told anyone you were together, not secret, just private.
a few weeks later, you two were walking around the hawthorne house, holding hands when xander and jameson pass by
���how do say they aren’t a couple when they do things like that!” xander exclaims pointing at your interlocked hands
jameson rolls his eyes annoyedly with a smile on his face “they are practically married at this point”
grayson turns around and looks back at xander with the faintest smile on his face “oh, we are a couple” and continues walking
“WHAT??!!”
“i so called it”
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i have a part 2 started of what it’s like actually dating and it’s more head cannons than storytelling - this was def story/background heavy - lmk if anyone’s interested!!
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