#have a bunch of stuff ive never posted

[maimaifinale]

will probably put some more of my mai doodles here, mostly to keep the blog active LOL

#spark.txt #and to provide for the tag #plus i just #have a bunch of stuff ive never posted #like have i even posted my shama ita bag??? #still need to post my scans of the album booklets from my CDs #I STILL NEED TO POST THE CDS THEMSELVES LMAO #been experiencing the horrors so #eh yall know how it is

[namari-hime-moved]

me and magical girl genre deconstructions are at war

#ive never posted about it on here but magical girl anime has been a very very long running interest of mine #my credentials are having watched a bunch of classic 80s magical girl shows and Almost all of precure and a bunch of other stuff #and its just. every deconstruction ive watched so far doesnt even understand what makes the genre tick #BROTHER I CAN TELL YOU SKIPPED MAHOU SHOJOU CLASS #theyre all like 'heh wouldnt that be fucked up. nothing personell kid. childhood = soul murdered' #and im not even saying magical girl media cant be dark it very much can i enjoy when it does. what im saying is they do all edge no point #HALF OF THEM DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT THE GIRLS #OR DECONSTRUCT THE GENRE FOR THAT MATTER. THEY JUST ADD ON TOP OF EXISTING GENRE CONVENTIONS BADLY #sorry this is a topic i am just very passionate about #mel talks #this post isnt about madoka btw. i have Many thoughts on that show but they arent listed here

[sm0kebreaks]

its so odd to me that theres a whole genre of ppl who listened to tma and thought martin was this fancy tea guy and not just doing like a basic task you do in places where tea is part of the culture...

not in like a judgemental way like im american too and thats very much not a thing here but like ive seen it at least once or twice before in other stuff that thats just a task you can have an employee do like go make some tea

like its always read to me as martin trying to cover for the fact hes not as qualified as he says he is by going and making the tea for everyone its basic and boring but its something he did so everyones momentarily ddistracted by the fact he never seems to use his supposed education bc he brought them some tea.

we dont really have an american equivalent... im imagining the intern fetching everyone coffee trope but even that doesnt seem right since its not nearly as common hmm

#this is a nothing post #i just keep being so confused by all the posts i see that are like #martin is NOT serving people fancy tea he is doing a regular ass task at work #and ive just never encountered the side of the fandom having martin doing tea science in the breakroom i guess #though my only background knowledge of tea at work is through ummmm when i used to watch a bunch of videos abt just stuff in japan

[jessiesjaded]

most interesting popular accounts to me are the ones that just post stuff like gifsets or art or writing but never ever say anything, like no tag rambles, no personal posts, no opinions, no rants. im always like surely.... surely you have something to say....

#idgi #like its so boring yeah your posts are pretty or what have you but give me someone who talks and makes stuff only half as pretty #and im gonna prefer them bc i can see some personality behind it #idk maybe im just mean but its intriguing #esp since ive followed a bunch of blogs for the new thing im into and so many of them are like this #also on the rare occasions they do say stuff the posts never get notes #or replies and meanwhile they just posted a thanks for 9k followers post #i dont see the point of 9 thousand people if no one talks EVER #ALSO EVIDENTLY THEY WANT TO TALK BC MY ASS CANNOT BE STOPPED FROM REPLYING #and then they be out here following me even tho im some lil nobody so like #they must be like yay! someones talking! #again whats the point of this website if we dont reply and reblog and talk and have fun bro #see again this just makes me squint bc its like a lot of big influencer ig accs who just post perfectly edited pics and sell shit #and never say a word that could get in the way of a sponsorship #why are you acting like that on tumblr you dont even get money from being popualr here lmao

[ninjasmudge]

been drifting out of lmk a little bit but might go through my drafts and just try to finish and publish some stuff thats in there that i wouldnt have otherwise finished

#ive just kind of been losing interest but its a shame to just scrap the stuff i put hours and hours into bc theyre not fully finished #does anyone remember the honeymoon au 😭 #or entanglement #i think i have a bunch of characters and concepts from entanglement to post #and a long color comic from honeymoon that we never got to #i also think i have a couple of unfinished double trouble au comics #and one thing abt possessed swk #..... and some concepts for eldrich mei #girl help it just feels like every time i go in the tag theres someone deadass lying abt stuff that happened in jttw in a smug gotcha tone #or just saying the dumbest takes ive ever seen #ive seen multiple ppl just making up stuff that happens in jttw trying to claim its real to support or deny theories theyt have in lmk #and every time it just kinda gets me :/ and a little less engaged

[teruthecreator]

nobody asked me to do this but WIP Game

[Rules: In a new post, post the name of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it.]

i dont rlly have a wip folder BUT i have a number of little projects i have cooking in docs or in my mind. also pretending casper ( @marbleboa ) tagged me in this hiiiii casper :-) you guys should follow casper if ur not already. anyways

Untitled document 1

esper boys do weed fic

toichiro character study

Untitled document 2

tfs serizawa backstory

Untitled document 3

post-canon terumob bullshit

ritshou flying lesson THANG

i wasnt technically tagged in this so let me be the catalyst for anyone who wants to post abt their wips. go wild!

#ignorance cloud on #does tfs count as a wip if im actively posting it. this is the real question #whagever i didnt include it but if u wanna ask abt it 0__0 #this was fun to sift through my google docs! i had more little ideas than i thought #i also have a bunch of stuff ive never posted anywhere except to show yaoi hivemind #mostly bc those were pieces i made when i was rlly insecure abt my writing style #anyways yall im bored at work so feel free to ask >:-)

[jacobglaser]

I tell ya, nothing gives your self-esteem a good kicking quite like an afternoon of sorting through your wardrobe trying on clothes that haven't fit you in like 5 years

#🫠🙃🫠🙃 #like dont get me wrong im not suprised none of it fits anymore but still. FUN TIMES #on the upside ive got at least 2 bags full of stuff to donate and found a bunch of stuff that i either forgot i had or have never even worn #and a frankly inhuman number of flannel shirts #and i do love a good clear out tbh. its long overdue and im being ruthless this time round #ill post some of the finds later cos i have far too many spn shirts that i never wear but i cant get rid of for sentimental reasons

[cyberbullyinc]

😐

#ive been added to this gc for the 3rd or 4th time after i explicitly asked to NOT be added back bc im always fucking getting ignored like #last time the person who added me was like omg i hope this is ok and i was like no it’s actually not ok i dont wanna be added back please #dont add me back and she was like omg im so sorry i totally understand :( and she did it again 😑 #the reason i didnt wanna be added back was bc i considered them my best friends at some point but ever since like the p*ndemic started #everything just went downhill and on one hand i understand they have their own lives and don’t have time to answer etc but on the other hand #they never had time to reply to MYYYYYY messages specifically 🙃 and it hurt bitch to be always the one ignored #and the reason i havent left this time like i just didnt care to be added back was bc idc anymore like alsjfjfk im still in contact to #whoever i wanna be in contact with i still text someone individually like i don’t need to be in a group setting to be friends with this #person and she’s mentioned a bunch of times how dead it is lmao so i was like wtv i do send a text once in a blue moon but it’s not as #active as it was when i originally left so it’s not obvious when im ignored lol BUT!!!!!! #the person who added me back…. the person who IGNORED my boundaries and request to leave me the fuck alone has ignored every single message #ive sent since she added me back :) #like she literally just wants public for her little show and she did this even before i left and was the main person why i left lmao bc the #rest were like going through stuff and i was like u cant be here i get it but she’s always ANYWAYS SO ABOUT ME!!! #i literally sent a text i think yesterday? and she didn’t reply to it at all but she just started talking about herself like 😑 WHY DID U ADD #ME BACK!!!! u dont ‘miss US’ lmfao u miss that i kept the gc alive which gave u attention !!!! #i dont want to be ur fucking spectator go post it on fb #anyways end of rant 😌

[riverofrainbows]

Turns out it's pretty overwhelming to be an aduling adult.

#own post #ive had some pretty big emotional events lately and also some sort of drop of a big stressor period falling away #and I'm constantly crying lol #because everything is so much at once and also theres a Bunch of new stuff of having a job and shit #I've never had a job this whole thing is completely alien to me #and i want a job i want to be financially independent but i had to google a bunch of stuff just now because i Don't Know!!! #the only legal knowledge i have is from aita posts about the united states so thats majorly unhelpful here

[maverickflare]

reading some proshippers linguistics master thesis on voltr/n shipping discourse definitely affected my brain im still in shock i think. at a certain point paragraphs began to sound nearly identical it felt like i was losing my mind.

#dave rants #it was abt other stuff tangentially but it was mostly some guy whining abt how ppl were mean to proshippers. #and then admitting to have never experienced targetted harassment. and showcasing a bunch of posts tht were genuinely better worded than #the thesis itself. its embarrassing is what it is. so many grammatical errors. too much attachment to concept to be objective. #seven paragraphs abt words not existing in a vacuum then continuing on to say some of the most tone deaf shit ever. #i feel like ive been subjected to an elaborate prank. is that what this was . was this a prank .

[arolesbianism]

Thinking abt the random card au again. Why must it go so crazy hard I miss it sm

#rat rambles #random card au #no matter how far I drift from my bndori and sekai peak days the random card au keeps hitting me like a truck every now and then #it just scratches an itch that I havent been able to satisfy since my cr days years and years ago #I wouldnt say the random card au has super similar worldbuilding to my old cr stuff as that was much more large scale #but it still has a similar appeal to me I think #I think its the building entirely new worldbuilding based off of designs and general vague starting concepts and bringing them all together #that gets me invested as it feels so satisfying slotting it all together and then actually getting to play out the story in this new web #I loveeeee jumbled webs of worldbuilding and characters that all tie together in a way that makes it almost impossible to completely #seperate one cast of characters from another #I love the feeling of a world with a bunch of intertwining plots like that even if it makes it near impossible to format a normal story #like my cr stuff was just so much man I still miss it sometimes even if I hate cr itself #Ive become a much better story creator too now so I know I could make what I had so much better nowadays and I already like my old stuff #it just makes me all the more sad that I went so crazy hard on worldbuilding for a franchise that sucks ass </3 #it may have been two of the worst years of my life but Ill also never reach that worldbuilding high again I think #oh also it made me actually start the slow slow process of getting more ambitious with my art and doing more digital stuff #rly thats the biggest reason the random card au pains me so since I wanna post stuff for it but man do I not wanna draw anyone from it #first of all human characters so already eh but also Id have to adapt the cards theyre based on into a design I can actually draw #so as much as I wanna make a billion random card au animatics I cant even bring myself to draw them normally #you see olivia and jackie are easier to draw because I just made shit up for their designs and as such made their designs very simple #but I cant just make shit up for bndori and sekai characters they actually have designs and hair that Id have to adapt to my style it sucks #I just wanna draw doggy arisa is that so much to ask for (yes yes it is I dont wanna figure out her hood) #also rip mygo yall will probably never get in but who knows maybe one day Ill have my second bndori era and then y'all will get in #its rly just the fact that they likely wont have enough cards to properly add them for another few years #especially if that other band also gets in if that happens neither are getting enough cards until the servers shut down lol #like I Could just pick and choose but thats boring #kinda ruins the point of the au y'know? #like tbf Ive cheated in the past by reroling two and limiting my options with several sekai characters #but thats just because at the time most sekai characters had almost no usable cards for this au and the two I rerolled were also unusable #like Im sorry but I couldnt just add normal ass hagumi and masking it wasn't happening

[charrfie]

Ohhhhh I have got some stuff COOKING for you guys

#mostly havr only been doing dilly sketches lately nothing ive felt like posting. however #im working on a bunch of character designs for a school project rn and i am SO hyped about all of them #some old ocs i never did anything with. totally redesigned now. and i am so much happier with them #will post them as soon as im able to (i have to turn it in first!) #ahhh excited about my art and its such a nice feeling :^))) #in the meantime im hoping to get out some other art! post more silly stuff! i have some art stuff backlogged in my drafts #need to remember to post it #laika originals #*I MEANT SILLY. NOT DILLY. I CANT TYPE RN

[darkclouud9]

no red hood so I have to make changes but heehee Pearlie cosplay (kinda)

also I got a fish pen and I was like, damn that'd actually go really well with Pearl bc of the fish she refused to pick up because of her task 🥰

#i tossed between my pink and white gloves for Pearl #decided on pink but they sorta blend in with my skin #once again had to use my door as a backdrop bc the light where i first took a photo mase it so you couldn't see the gloves at all #this took so many tries so many photos #theres one i actually liked. i was smiling for once woag and it actually looked pretty good and i cant believe it. #but itll never see the light of day 🥰 #wearing my favourite shirt. for a while ive thought of using it for a Pearl cosplay bc it has a bunch of moons and stuff on it #i like it #cant forget the hood <3 #<- i did at first oops #also the necklace choker thing has stars on it. i have another one with a moon on it but i couldnt get it at an angle where it was distingui #-shable #my hair is up in a half pony but the hair that was out kept getting in the way so i had to shove my long thick ass hair down my shirt #lol #i tried to paint Pearl over my face. but proportions. *shivers.* #also like how you can see my glasses in the 'silhouette'. they stick out 😭 #thought i had something else to talk abiut but i forgot. may delete later <3 #kinda nervous abt posting bc. its me. and sure ive posted me before. but. this is different. #also idk how people will react to a not 'THATS [CHARACTER]!!!!!!' cosplay. bc. she doesnt quite look like Pearl now does she. #i used to want to work with wigs but i can barely work with my own hair and i dont think i could maintain even one wig #so nuh uh

[snep-arts]

🐉🐒

#realized i have a bunch of stuff ive never posted so uhh #original character #character design #the dragon doesnt have a name but the monkey is named fēntáo #actually i might name the dragon mizi xia and then ill make them kiss

[girl-bateman]

I used to joke around that in a spiritual sort of sense I was always supposed to grow up rich. I've got the soul of an aristocrat, the wallet of a commoner and the politics of someone who is rly pissed off in the most pretentious way. Anyways, this little jokey joke feels wrong now that I know I SHOULD have been rich all along if it wasent for granpa being a failcore boy-loser. To be fair tho, growing up with an aristocrats soul in an aristocrats home would have undoubtedly made me so much more miserable and annoying. God knew the disaster he was preventing by stripping me from that lifestyle. Im still bitter tho but it'll pass

#the aristocrats soul thing is true btw ive been told by several friends that i have something very high class about me #even tho im literally always the poor one out of the bunch lmao #i actually am not sure what theyre refering to bc they say its just a vibe #but when i myself say i was ment to grow up as a rich girl i mostly just mean i have expensive tastes and a love for 'high culture' stuff #i feel very at home in places not ment for people with my economical standing lmao #this post is refering to my dad dropping lore abt my grandpa being super rich before he divorced his wife and got together with my grandma #i forgot to add any context sorry lmao #anyway..... WE COULD HAVE HAD IT AAAAAAAALL #kidding. it was for the best bc my mom would have never got together with my dad if he was some obscenely rich asshole #and my dad might have not wanted to be a teacher if he grew up in a mansion and surrounded himself with a bunch of preppy rich kid assholes #and then my kom and dad would have never met anyway 🤷‍♀️ #so i guess... once again.. i should thank my grandad for humbly granting our family poverty 🙏! slay !!!! yasss queen !! #jesus were not even poor anymore 🙄 were like middle class these days so rly i have no right to be this annoying #i just need a minute to grieve the childhood i could have had ok ! 🥲 it wasent always the easiest being the poor kid growing up #back then i would have traded anything to be a rich asshole so idk. i kinda just feel bad for my childhood self #whatever. slay grandpa. thanks for being a dumb loser. peace be with you

[danielnelsen]

why does google drive even have a suggestion for this??

#doing some dai file stuff #this doc is 10 pages long and this is the FIRST thing that's even been underlined lmao???? #personal #da #dai #so anyway im not planning my nightmare difficulty run by looking at strategy guides. im planning by looking at the game files #gonna actually make a bunch of armor and weapon sets for different areas which is something i NEVER do #i rarely change armor sets and only in the most recent run did i carry a staff for each element (because promoted enemies could get rough) #but iirc on nightmare difficulty enemies can have elemental immunities rather than just high resistances #so im just going through every immunity/resistance/vulnerability status effect in the game and seeing which creatures have it #then i can plan per faction and more broadly per area #it sucks that you cant change equipment during combat in dai. i didnt even know that until my last run because ive never had to #and to refer back to a post i made a few days/weeks/idk ago.....yes i AM planning to at least start the nightmare run solo #obv with the aim to do the whole thing solo but i wont be upset if i cant. gonna try tho #that's why im planning armor and weapons so much now. gonna plan what masterworks to use too #walking fortress and guard-on-hit/unbowed are gonna be the most useful imo #for playing as a mage that is. i do genuinely think mage is the best for dai solo because you get the most coverage #for like. elemental damage and applying quite a few effects and being able to spec offensive or defensive #oh and i'll probably carry round a bunch of respec amulets. i usually just play spirit/lightning but fire and ice will have their uses #knight-enchanter obviously. not even for the heal (although that's useful) but it's OBVIOUSLY the best for melee #idk. i feel like this last run gave me a lot more to think about in terms of strategy than ive ever had because of all the trials #so im a bit more confidant in actually planning for tough fights. still might just get instantly overwhelmed by damage and give up lmao