#i continue to ramble but i dont care

[vampiremansionpoolboy-moved]

going insane over the fact that happiness and care and concern and love is underneath every interaction between newt and hermann in pacific rim

#HEAR ME OUT. they’re introduced and newt and being a groupie and behind him hermann is all huffing and rolling his eyes and shaking his #head but he’s Not Angry. no. he jumps to defend newt albeit in a somewhat mocking and sarcastic way BUT THE THOUGHT IS THERE. and then when #hermann is rambling on about numbers being the handwriting of god newt is in the background smiling and laughing and making silly #hand motions and yes the hand motion was a bit mocking BUT THATS THEIR WHOLW THINF. anyways i’m not done. when newt drifts with the kaiju #and pentecost is there talking to him and hermann and newt r yelling back in forth u can hear the unease and shakiness in their voices and #especially the frustration in hermanns. he’s frustrated abt newt risking his life and is worried abt that which translates out in anger. #and yeah maybe he’s salty abt being proven wrong too lmao. BUT CONTINUING ON. stacker could have just told newt to go to hannibal chau and #he would have done it. but instead they watch the film of him on HERMANNS computer as HERMANN controls the computer to look at the film. if #thé film was shown it was for a reason. newt doesn’t seem like the type to need reassurance abt chau before he goes. he was willing to die #for his trash drift. and stacker gave him the card and info so there’s no need to do anything else. the video is most likely there for the #viewers but it needs a reason to be there in the show. hence my reasoning that HERMANN asked to see it out of concern for newt who would be #doinf this alone. hermann demanded to see some proof to reassure himself. stacker having the card on him makes sense. him having that bulky #tape doesn’t. meaning hermann pressured him into leaving getting the tape and coming back to show him. anyways one more bit. so the drift. #hermann is clearly scared out of his mind and thinking abt the impending triple event. yet he still drifts with newt he does it to protect #him to take part of the neural load. and it takes a toll on hermann it makes a big enough mess of his brain that he ends with him bleeding #and shaking and sweating and coughing and throwing up. and he knew it would take a toll. he knew it would be a lot he’s seen the jaegers. #he’s seen what happens. he knows it will be rough. he knows it’ll be much worse for him who wasn’t drifted then for newt who has. yet he #still does it to help newt and to show his care and trust and concern and love and THEYRE DRIFT COMPATIBLE U DONT UNDERSTANDABLE HOW #EMOTIONAL I AM OVER THIS FUCKING OVER THEM #anyways one last thing. the way that they full body slapping each other on the back bear hugged when the throat collapsed (they were behind #herc and tendo so it was a little hard to see. i missed it the first time) in pure adrenaline happiness before we see the quiet tender hug #when they know everything is over for good (for now at least) when it’s time to celebrate when it time to think abt their drift and their #bond and their relationship and their LOVE. i’m so ok abt them rn actually #toad.txt #i wish i wrote this in a keep reading bit and not the tags now. anyways #pacific rim #pacific rim spoilers #newton geiszler #hermann gottlieb #newmann

[hearts4juzi]

scott can say anything he wants i am not reading fazbear frights and i do not care about andrew or the possibility of him being canon

#seeing ppl on twitter talk abt it #and abt cassidy #shes still canon to me idgaf #i do not care abt fazbear frights im sorry #i might read em but. i dont care abt them as much as the games and ill continue to consider them non-canon #tzu rambles

[welcometoteyvat]

self deprecation scale: chongyun < mika < freminet

#tyhis is so unfortunate for them #pov i listened to frem's voicelines bc i unlocked most of his ascension ones and :\ hes so :( #'spending your time and energy on someone else... would be better right?' (my own tl) NOOOOOO frem.... :( i will spend it on u bc i care u #i think . that maybe i just like short cryo boys. cy and frem more than mika mostly bc i dont have him lol #anyways. i wish i could continue to cy post but alas no more posts for me to reblog #time to scrounge for content for another 5 months until lantern rite o7 see you guys then #SDJFKSDFKDSLFJDS #ramblings!

[bombshelllblonde]

just in case anyone was wondering

i am an outlaw

thank u for ur time and the end <3

#sometimes i can convince myself that im literally just a cowboy #this is such a mood #doing this cowboy photo shoot healed something inside me #i need to do more #i love u forever arthur morgan #im insane #but also who fucking cares im not going to pretend that im not obsessed with this video game #also im allowed to do what i want #in the words of post malone #im still that bitch so what #im rambling now #im so tired #i gotta take my make up off #i dont have any other social media so im just going to continue to ramble in the tags because i literally talk to no one #the end #ok bye

[erythristicbones]

that post about about being extra and self-indulgent w/ your OCs and specifically talking about/posting about them really has stuck in my brain all day bc like. i really am so fucking tempted to make a discord server where like there's a channel for each of my stories, so i can just ramble about every tiny idea or essay that comes to mind for an audience of like 6 ppl at most probably

#it would probs just be for friends/mutuals/long time followers that i know wont cause drama #bc i have a severe anxiety disorder and i do not think running a completely open server would be good for my mental health #also if im talking about my stories i probs dont want to make major spoilers available for EVERYBODY to find #but anyways yeah #idk if I'll ever actually do that #but i like being able to ramble to my hearts content in the boomer club server #and i like the idea of having ppl that are invested in my stories get to see my thought process #i wouldnt even care if they literally just lurked silently or reacted with emotes to everything i post #the idea of getting to go crazy stupid over my children with an audience that i trust just makes me v happy #things to ponder if im in the right headspace for ig #if not then i will continue to happily do that w my boomer club friends <3 #this is me specifically shouting out kui and birdy and faerai #yall three always being there to listen to me lose my mind means the world to me <3

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Boruto things that made me lose my mind (ep 25-40):

If I hear "what a drag..." one more time, so help me god, I will lose it

Pointing out clichés in your writing isn't clever, it's still bad writing

Suigetsu @ mitsuki: here's your intel, little gay boy

Boruto: kagura is a good ninja, his ancestry doesn't matter! Bad guy: kagura is a bad ninja, he freaks out and kills everyone when he weilds a sword (if kagura wasn't a ninja he would have nothing to feel bad abt, why is that not an option?)

Naruto 🤝 Boruto making all the boys obsessed with them

Sarada: were u really good friends with lord 7th as a child? Sakrua: ...we were more like family (well... im glad she didnt lie abt being his friend)

Boruto staring up at a beautiful sky: even if I tried, I don't think I could forget this (never say never, kid, ur dad once forgot he had a crow shoved down his throat)

Naruto @ orochimaru: our relationship is one of cooperation (natuto ur past self would beat the piss outta you)

The genin exam in naruto's time looks unhinged in comparison to the boruto extensive testing: if u can shadow clone yourself, u r ready to die in mortal combat (clearly kakashi made sweeping changes in his time as hokage)

Konoha: things have changed in this village, u don't have to be a ninja if u don't wanna :-D But if u do wanna, you make the decision to put ur life on the line at age fucking 12. So, progress but still on the path to dead children. That's our ninja way.

Why does iruka look 20 years older than kakashi when he's like 4 years younger 😭

Wow a sarada/boruto accidental kiss. It's just like the naruto/sasuke kiss, except with 1000% less romantic tension

Orochimaru: I must make sure my beloved synthetic son has free will. Therefore I will lie to his face, force him to confront the horror of his existence and make a high stakes choice about his allegiance, and erase his memory 6 times until I get the result I want

Why are all naruto missions involving bridges cursed?

#i dont kno where were going plot wise. and i dont kno how im supposed to feel abt any of this #im glad were out of the academy bc i find most of the friends annoying but i like team 7 and also i lov inojin lol #but like. i dont kno where were going. bc theres a lot of talk abt: u dont have to be a ninja! the world doesnt need ninja so much #but with a rising tide of enemies like: make ninjas great again #and boruto is like: idk what i wanna do with my life but also i wanna show my dad im better than him #and like i really reallu just want boruto to not be a ninja. like he should be a teacher or a nurse or something #hes extremely talented and fairly emotionally intelligent and he cares abt ppl a lot #so i want him to b like: fuck being a ninja. its ppl i care abt. i dont have to bleed for ppl to ensure they love me #and then b like dad ur life was fucked. u can rest now naruto can come to terms with how fucked #everything was and continues to be. but fucking there r dinosaurs apparently st somw point so fucking i dont kno where we r going #mitsuki is my boy tho. protect him from orochimaru. orochimaru should b in blood prison or dead lol #but whatever. its not a good show but i am enjoying it. its just kinda cursed #unrelated #naruto ramblings #im hardcover procrastinating. ugh.

[duckuwu]

has anyone talked about the whole yin/yang thing imogen and laudna have going on? imogen's physically bright and light (hair and clothes) where laudna is dark and scary. but personality wise laudna is more light and friendly to (nearly) everyone she meets, generally positive minded / looking for a bright side of things. meanwhile imogen is wary and cautious, a bit intimidating, and definitely prone to being quiet when meeting new people (assessing the situation / figuring out if the person could be trusted or not).

they don't just tether each other, they balance each other.

obviously it kept them alive when they were on their own, but I wonder if they fell into place like two puzzle pieces when they met. just like 'oh, you're meant to help me through all this'

so, like, when they were separated, they weren't out of sorts just because their tether, nor their love, was gone and they didn't know if the other was alive. they'd lost their balance, their sense of true north was suddenly gone...and it was so much worse than what it was like before they'd ever met.

#and then theres something about imogen's desperation at trying to get into contact with laudna during that separation #how she kept trying. forced herself to continue to have hope that laidna was alive. that theyd find each other again #how lucky it was that imogen was surrounded by the silly party members who were chaotic and distracting #because we know imogen pre laudna was in a very dark place mentally. laura hasnt shied away from hinting at that. #(laura really is going hard on the queer kid from a small town metaphor and its oof but fantastic) #and Laudna... is immediately confronted by a town taken over by Righteous People who Dont Care about the town they've disrupted/desecrated #the briarwoods parallel is obvious. and yet she still goes along with trying to be nice #but of course laudna's part of the separation required killing. falling back on her survival instincts. #she'd lost the one person who could balance her out. she'd be damned if she'd allow any harm come to her new family too. #goddess this is a ramble #but i wish we could see the session zero for this campaign ESPECIALLY for marisha and laura coming up with these two #I'll forever have a brainrot about if the yin and yang was on purpose #anyway still stuck here in this endless cycle of thinking about campaign three i guess lol #cr duck thoughts

[theclosetedskeleton]

the day actually gets peaceful when i dont feel like im being watched by my mom 24/7

#“im not your enemy + i care about your privacy” continues to threaten putting a surveillance camera in my room #its 1 am and im happy because im not scared my mom is gonna knock on my door #as long as i dont make too much sound i should be okay #i need to be okay for like the next month or so so i dont get my door taken #ugh was this a vent? sorry #closet rambles again on tumblr

[devotedlystrangewizard]

at first i considered engage to be one of the more strategic harder fire emblems (and compared to three houses it definitely is but thats a low bar) but no. its power fantasy. currently my main powerhouse is ivy + soren. they obliterate everything that dares to not have high resistance. wyvern rider? one shot. high def unit? one shot. everyone does decent damage at this point but for a unit i wrote off as a unit i only put on the field because i like her at first.

#'but she wont double without lyn' DOES IT MATTER WHEN SHE DOES 86 DAMAGE. DOES IT #idk how high her speed is actually my switch is empty #but rest assured putting her over a large area of flier only terrain in a map with a bunch of wyvern riders. #15 coughing babies vs 1 hydrogen bomb. god bless. #ramblings #my current favorite combos in my game are ivy+soren & timerra+ike because i dont care how many ppl tell me timerra is bad. #shes so tanky in my main save. its kinda scary #she replaced louis. and shes doing GREAT #bonus shoutout to kagetsu & veronica (i didnt know who to pair them with. last picks in dodgeball vibes) #and to alcryst & lucina where im like 90% sure lucina hasnt done shit since i put her on him. #engage starts getting REAL fun when you start dicking around with emblems i cant believe it took me this long to realize that #i had default combos only for AGES #aside from. pandreo and byleth?? for some reason?? #the virgin me from when engage released googling good conos vs the chad me now just doing what i think sounds funny #'soren would hate this so much. lets do it.' #i do think my sudden interest in the older games & thus my slightly more extensive knowledge of the emblems in their original habitats helps #soren you mean everything to me now. im scared of continuing PoR because im scared ill get his frail ass killed like i did w rhys

[c0smiccom3t]

Prince Dajo-Voo's 3rd anniversary is tomorrow! You know what to do ppl!

(ask box open btw!!)

#meaning: ask me questions about Dajo and/or D.D as a whole!! #who knows maybe dajo will post on his sinstagram again! He's been on break for a bit. #why was he on break? Sickness? No wi-fi? broken phone? Very low battery? We'll find out later. #but hey i got a new story arc for him on sinstagram in mind... if i end up developing it and not like i did in the past. #(the villain gala is canon except for the Villainous crossover part. that didnt happen. and its unsure if it'll ever happen.) #comet rambles #aahhh yes. my son. #IM GONA DO MORE CONTENT OF HIM AND MY BABIES AND MORE CASH BANOOCA FANART I PROMISE #if only my art didnt continue to flop (which i dont care about. small numbers are stilll accomplishing numbers like big numbers after all.)

[eyestrain-addict]

Controversial opinion but ppl asking why the iwtv show didn't follow the book exactly sounds like someone asking why lovecraft adaptions don't follow the og stories exactly.

#i could write an entire essay on lovecrafts fucked up brain #but in short. dude was an amazing writer and had good horror concepts. but he was suuupper bigoted and comically stupid #cool air is considered one of his best stories but at the end of the day its something he wrote cus he didnt understand AC #no work exists in a vacuum #like guys its a 50 year old book that rice didnt even plan on making a continuation for but no one would shut up about it #insane ramblings #not putting this in the iwtv tag cus i dont even care that much. be dickriders if you want its your life

[youhavethewrong]

Actually you know what! Fuck it! I'm lazy!! I don't like waking up early, I don't like hard work or work at all for that matter. I hate effort and going the extra mile. I'm at my happiest when I am doing absolutely nothing of value. I tire easily, and I take days to recover. I don't get bored doing nothing, but I get bored while working almost immediately. I'm lazy as the day is long and I don't plan nor care about changing this aspect of myself.

I'd much rather describe myself with a pejorative and label myself as a failure and leave it at that than attempt to pursue a never-ending "grind" ideal that goes nowhere and achieves nothing. If the choice is between adding another thing to my list of negative attributes and working myself exhausted every week of my life until the day I die, I'd much rather just take the L and admit I lost at the game of life. I don't want to win, I just want to be left alone.

#yui rambles #ok now that i got that out of my chest #ill still continue working. ill still continue putting in the effort #i just dont care abt being called lazy for not giving my job my 500% and making it the sole focus of my life #im not just gonna lay down and let the days pass me by #but i just wanna have free time to live my life man

[mar64ds]

I think i see less blogs actively talking about and reblogging utdr content right now :( makes sense it's been a year since chapter 2 and after so much new content with the UT anniversary it's kind of the time for a lot of people to take a break, I predict next chapters will be out at least late 2023, so I don't think it will be that long of a hiatus fortunetly

#me personally i still have fun making little drawings and rambling about the characters so i will kind of continue to do that #i dont really have any other strong fixation at the moment. perhaps samandmax once again. kuro is cool too. and mario :) #a lot of fixations at the same time lol #even when i dont make content for utdr everyday do know that its my favorite piece of media ever and #just because i dont talk about it daily doesnt mean i dont care lol #but anyway right now i'm happy with my fixations

[risingsunresistance]

ugh

#vent/rant ahead i just wanna say stuff: #forcing myself to draw for my friends and post content for my friends and keep Being Active just for other ppl is wearing me out #i WANT to continue to be a part of the community but. man this sucks fkjdhsg #it's entirely my fault. the situations i've put myself in that i dont wanna make public #(not just stuff related to art and content motivation but also Oops i Upset A Friend And Feel Horrible) #but it still sucks even if it is my fault #idk man im just running out of stuff to care about. everything is getting worse 🧍 #i'm sure i'll be here every once in a while but will i ever post a full drawing again? great question #clips? very very rarely #actual content? not likely #i have like. one thing i wanna post about at christmas (i know one of my gifts already). besides that uhhhhhhhh i've got nothing #might have one drawing/sketch for december but that's very up in the air #if you know my priv and wanna request go ahead. im always active there and that wont change unless twitter explodes #even if you've requested before and aren't in it now you can request again. i'll try to be more lenient with it (again this is my fault) #i doubt i could ever make myself straight up abandon this blog. i'll continue to answer asks and ramble when i want to #but forcing myself to be a Content Provider sucks. it's not working. i'm still sad. he's still dead. my friends are leaving. #i'm not gonna have anyone left by this time next year it'll just be me and the void lmao #too nervous to follow anyone new. too nervous to talk the friends i already have. cant hold a conversation to save my life #this is why i have like... 3 friends here (i think we're friends). sorry i never talk to you guys it's just Difficult :/ #and it's not getting any easier. not since june/july ! #all goat knows is talk about skyblock (getting harder to do). post link to song. and make 50 more non-rebloggable posts #chat #come back later #(to delete probably idk) #now the real question: is this all related to [current issues causing mood swings] or is this something that's been building since june #we'll see i guess #i could be fine a month or so from now. or tomorrow. or all the way in the summer. who knows #*attaches a picture of techno to make this seem slightly less miserable* jkfhdkg #i hate there being like 2000 people here. nearly 3000 i think. idk #i want to talk and rant without feeling like im making the world's worst apology video KJFDHKG i dont like having so many eyes on me

[spear-gsun]

ah a video of someone reacting to touhou music for the first time, let me check the comments-

this comment does seem pretty jokingly written but still :( 

#like you got the touhou characters have no lore/personality and its all made up by the fandom #very brutal bullet hell theyre not that bad and are honestly fairly accessible... like ive never played many bullet hell games before but #touhou was not that hard to get into #it took a while to get a normal 1cc but like especially with newer games that are pretty generous with continues and stuff yknow #yeah seeing this comment on a reacting to touhou music video it just got to me #i dont like when touhou is introduced like this to someone.. #its a stupid thing to care about but it makes me sad to see people completely disregarding the actual effort put into story and characters #like yeah the stories are nothing crazy or revolutionary and the characters arent the most crazy complex deep characters in video games but #im rambling on and on but yeah it just bothers me a lot #i care a bit too much about this stuff honestly

[asteraceaye]

Out to one (1) person!

#pet sitting for my dad after this short trip and their pets need shots so i was saying it can't be as bad as self injections #she asked me why i was doing injections and i tried to nonchalantly not answer but it didn't work lol #so now my dads wife knows im on T! #my dad will probably know shortly but i dont really care lmao #as long as they dont have loose lips 👁️👁️ #i dont really plan to continue coming out but if anyone asks and i cant dodge i don't mind #now with my friends and those online! they get the details ajhshsh #aster rambles